12th May, 1919

We are called back. There is a new battles to face and boys are needed in the zone as girls are needed to patch them up, when there is the need to do so.

So, we are riding back to the war zone. Actually boys are kept as reservists and so we are not in the same place. Those schoolboys did good, but then still need some training. And so they'll get it somewhere. Us on the other hand pull on the white coat and try to fix the damage, made by the enemy. That's where we'll be at. That's where me, Abby, Kate and Ziva need to be.

All the schoolboys from Tartu were formed into Tartu Students Battalion. They now get money and food from the government, and they get their training to become soldiers. Jethro is really happy about it – he wants to be a soldier. The boys also get to study while the are in the barracks. There is about 1000 men now and soon they are well trained as well as loyal and they could go to war, if there is the need.

I don't know where we are, but I do know that we are still in Estonia, I think we are closer to the Russian border now. We don't have a lot of work, but there are some patients we have. Some of them just have mental problems and we are invalid to do anything about it, because we are not psychiatrists and I doubt that even if we were, we could bring back the men.

"Jenny, you have a letter," Abby said as she came to me. She handed me a letter and I recognized the handwriting – Jethro.

"Thanks, Abby," I say and take the letter.

"Tony and Tim and Ducky sent letters too, but I think this is meant for you only. We'll open the other letters at night, when we are in our room," she says to me.

"I'll be there and I can share mine too, at least some parts of it," I say and smile at my friend.

"Good," she says and then leaves me alone with my letter and some injured.

I open the letter.

Jen, my love,

I feel my heart melting.

Life is good. We are getting our education and also take part of trainings. We now have our military coats and hats and boots and things. Me and boys are wearing our hats we got from the school. Somehow that school has gotten dear to us, beside thanks to it I found some good friends. There are boys from my class here too, I found that my deskmate – Konsap is dead. He died with Mugur – another boy from my class. Käsper, Käämer, Martinson, Tääker, Kohlapu and Miljan are here with me. This is my class in the war. Tony and Tim don't have so many classmates here, but they are younger too. Ducky was here, but he was sent to another battalion soon, where the uni students were, but he is somewhere in the barracks too I think. The active shooting is too far away to follow them there at this moment. I want you to know that I am okay – I am healty and good.

I guess he know me better than I thought. He knows that I want to know that he is okay. I do feel sorry for his classmates, but I am happy that he is fine. It's good that he has some familiar faces there from school, that makes life a little more normal.

I have a lot to do, but don't worry – you are still number 1 in my thoughts. I think about you and I want you to know, that I miss you. I want to be with you, but I am needed here and you over there. Estonia needs us more now. But that doesn't mean that I love you any less. As soon as this is over I will come to you and I promise not to leave you. I don't know what is my dream in details, I don't know what you want,but I do know that I want you. I know that I'll be okay as long as you are with me. I know we don't talk about future much – we are just kids after all – but I know that you are in mine and I want to be in yours too. I love you, Jen. Hope you love me too.

Oh, that is sweet. Of course he is in my future too. Of course I want him. And of course I love him. He is silly and stupid and stubborn bastard, but somehow I am too attracted to him. As long as he feels the same, I am happy.

Say hi to Abby, Kate and Ziva. I miss them too. I miss going out with you all and just be careless. I miss the times, when our lives weren't in danger all the time and our biggest worry was if our parents are mad if we get home a little late. Now we even don't have parents. We have each other and I want you and girls to know that I got your back along with Tony, Tim and Ducky. If the war is over, you know that you'll always have us, even if your blood relatives leave you. I want you know that.

Somehow I feel like it's said more to me that to others. My father is somewhere in Narva and I don't know if he is alive. It's been almost 6 months, 5 months and 14 days to be exact. At least I know that I have him and guys. I think it makes me feel safe and I sure hope that others will have that reaction too.

Hoping to hear from you soon,

With love, your Jethro.

My Jethro... My Jethro... Reading it feels so good, saying it in my mind feels even better. Oh, I miss him. I miss him so much.

Quickly I write him a letter back. Basically saying that the war has slowed down for a moment, but it's still going. I am fine, others are fine and also that I love and want him too.

***NCIS***

As the evening comes we can call it night. In our room Abby puts 3 letters on the table. I don't put Jethro's.

"Jethro wrote that they are good. He said that they sent Ducky to another place, but he probably won't go to active duty or something. He met his classmates – 2 of them are dead already Konsap and Mugur. Other boys are still alive. Life is good, they have new uniforms and stuff, they get paid and they get food. Also they are studying at the same time," I start talking.

"He also wants you to know, that after this is over, we might now have our families anymore, but we have each other and that he'll be there for all of you. He, Tony, Tim and Ducky will get your back any time. He want you to know it," I continue, skipping part of a letter that was meant for me.

"Aww, you gotta love Jethro," Kate says.

Then she looks at me and pales.

"I mean like a friendly love, not like love love you two have. I mean you gotta love him as friend," she rambles.

"I got it Kate. I think Tony would mind," I smirk and I can see smiles over girls faces as Kate turns into red.

The mood is not as dark anymore. Somehow that little remark made the mood brighter, just like sun was shining on us, even if it is for a moment. I feel good about myself. I might have even forgotten the place we are, as Kate starts explaining and others are giggling. I feel happy. I am happy at this moment, when I am holding Jethro's letter in my pocket and I am surrounded by friends.

This is a little moment of happiness in the dark times and I feel great about myself. Even if it is just for a moment.