Chapter 2 Something to Believe In
I sat in bed, unable to sleep. I was worrying about Jacob.
I spent most of my time in La Push. I knew I didn't want to lead Victoria anywhere else. I just wish Jake was with me more often. I knew he and his brothers were protecting everyone from blood thirsty vampires, but that just made me need him more. I needed to know he was safe.
But I knew there was nothing wrong. Nothing could go wrong. He had to be safe and sound. A small part of me hoped the pack wouldn't run into Victoria, even though that meant I would still be in danger.
Why did he leave? I should be in his arms, protected from the world and able to get a decent night sleep. At least my nightmares haven't been bothering me as much. I haven't woke up screaming in so long, which is relieving and scary at the same time. I don't want to feel that pain, but without the constant discomfort I was moving on. I still wasn't ready to let him go. I had to jump soon, just to hold on a little longer.
I heard a knock at my window. My heart started racing… Victoria. I jumped up, looking for a weapon. She wouldn't knock, I realized. I wouldn't see it coming if it was her. With all the imaginary creatures walking in and out of my life I need to have a weapon if this kind of situation did become a reality. I started taking deep breaths. Get a grip.
I ran to the window, maybe it was a certain other vampire. I threw back the curtains and saw shirtless Jacob waiting to be let in. I opened the window, slightly disappointed. "Hey, Jake. Why are you here at," I looked back at the clock, surprised at how late it was, "one in the morning?"
"Why are you awake? Isn't it past your bedtime?"
I grinned. "So you came here planning to wake me up? It better be important." My thoughts took a turned for the worse. "Did something happen? Did someone get hurt?" I couldn't live with myself if…
"Stop your worrying." He said as he put his hand on my shoulder. "After we did our regular patrol I came to watch over the woods around your house, and then I saw your light on."
I wonder how many how many times he came over to check on me at night. I felt a little safer knowing he was watching over me. "When do you ever sleep? You're doing so much keeping her away from the city, I don't want to be another burden. Please go get some rest." Despite what I forced myself to say, I silently begged him to continue being my own protector and to keep away the wicked.
"Don't you get it? We're after Victoria to keep her away from you. It's all about protecting you, Bells. Knowing your alive and well is worth losing a little sleep."
I smiled. He's being so selfless, it almost made me feel guilty for being the exact opposite. But as soon as my conscience attempted to make me feel any shame, I remembered how much I needed him for my sanity to stay intact.
"Thank you so much, but I need you to get a decent night sleep. It must take a lot out of you to be doing all of this. Please go home and sleep for the rest of the night. For me."
"Sure, sure."
"Seriously, Jacob. I worry about you."
"I'll head straight home, ok?"
"Thank you." I said, hugging him. "I can't tell you how grateful I am for all of this."
He wrapped his arms around me. "I won't stop, Bella. Not until your safe."
I started to thank him again, but before I knew it, he was out the window.
I turned off the lights. I smiled as I laid myself in bed. I fell asleep almost as soon as my head hit the pillow, thinking how I've never felt safer.