Chapter 5 Don't Let Me Fall

I couldn't sleep that night. I kept the light on, a hint for Jacob to come visit me. For all the times his presence let me get decent sleep, it was strange that he was the reason I stayed awake. Maybe I was staying up just so I could see him again.

Jacob came sooner than I thought. It was barely 10:30. He probably wanted to see me as much as I did him.

I opened the window seconds after he knocked. He jumped in like it took no effort at all. It made me feel beyond awkward that the men in my life were so beautifully graceful. Did I just call Jacob a man? Well, he certainly looked like one, and kissed like one.

Immediately after he landed he picked me up and crushed me to his body. I squeaked in surprise, preparing myself to be smothered. But I could still breathe. Well at least my lungs could work. My breathing wasn't completely even, especially since I could feel his breath on my neck. This hug was more gentle, less desperate as his others like he knew I wasn't going anywhere and he didn't have to force me to stay in his arms. And yet it still had the same intensity, the same unrelenting warmth and safety that I always felt in his embrace.

"Hi." I whispered in his ear.

He kissed my neck. "Hello." I shuddered and my heart started beating slightly faster. His warm lips made their way to mine, capturing them in a mind blowing kiss for the second time today. Our lips moved together perfectly. There was no caution to the way he was with me. I could get lost in this moment and not worry about being eaten.

I smiled and tried to restrain my laughs, but I failed and he pulled back breaking the kiss and set me on my feet. I was kissing a wolf and had not worried about becoming a meal?

Oh the irony.

"Something funny?" He glared at me with his lips turned up in a tiny grin.

I tried to hide my uneven breathing. "You're… you are sort of a wolf… Right?"

I could tell he was confused. "You could say that."

"Well then I've just kissed a wolf. Isn't that… Is that considered bestiality?" I joked, but I was still curious as to what the rules were when it came to this.

He started laughing so hard I was afraid it would wake up Charlie. I reached up and put my finger over his mouth. "Shh!"

He calmed down just enough to say against my hand, "It's much better than being a necrophiliac!"

I instantly pulled my hand away from his mouth, surprised by his comment. He laughed for a second until he let what he said sink in. Sometimes he needs to think before he speaks. His face went serious to see how I would react to that.

I was silent, waiting for the pain to come in my stomach. I was still waiting as he hugged me. Even as he whispered an apology in my ear, I waited. And nothing. I didn't feel anything but pleasantly warm and slightly amused by his blunt comment.

I began to laugh hysterically. I laughed so hard I started to snort. I couldn't stop. I was so happy that I could hear that comment and not hurt. I knew if Jake's didn't, my laugh would soon wake Charlie up.

He locked his warm hand around my mouth and looked at me with wide eyes and a lopsided grin on his face. I calmed down after about a minute and Jacob wiped the tears that had run down my face.

"That was the last reaction I expected from you."

"Well you're sort of right." I agreed with him and plopped myself down on the edge of my bed. "I sure know how to pick them, huh?" First someone without a heartbeat, and now an animal. At least it was a step up in some ways.

Jacob sat down next to me and put his arm around my shoulders. "You picked the right guy this time. That's what matters."

"I'm not so sure." I teased and poked him in the chest. "You're not human half of the time. That's not normal."

"What's so good about being normal?"

I grinned up at him. "Actually, absolutely nothing."

"Even if that mattered, you're stuck with me."

I leaned into him and rested my head on his chest. I liked the sound of that, but that didn't stop my curiosity. "How so?"

"Well I think after today I might be your boyfriend."

Yeah, I guess he was. And I was happy about that. If he asked me this morning, I probably would have laughed in his face. One breakdown and a few kisses later, that was all that I wanted. I needed him to help me move on. A lot had changed in a day.

It wasn't the most romantic gesture, so I had to give him a hard time, but it's just like Jacob to do that. "I don't remember being asked about this."

He gently lifted my chin so I was looking him straight in his dark eyes. "Ok, Bells, how would you like to be my girlfriend?"

I kissed him on the cheek. "I'll think about it."

"But this is also about protecting your honor. Remember how I thought Quil liked you?" I nodded, not sure where he was going with this. "He's hoping you go around doing that to all the wolves you meet."

I sighed. Couldn't today be between only me and Jacob? I hate the lack of privacy that was cursed upon them. Everything we do will be known by his whole pack that same day, but it might be a good thing if Quil didn't hit on me. "Well, Jacob, then I have to accept."

He pulled me on his lap and wrapped me in his arms. "I knew you would. It was only a matter of time before you fell for my charm."

I groaned. "No more falling off anything or for anyone, please."

He laid back on the bed, taking me with him, and pulled me in for another kiss. "Oh, you will fall for me. But I'll catch you."