Someone out there, please…

Try and believe me…

These words have lost their meaning,

Or at least to me…

Then my life has lost its meaning,

Trust is dust, hope is a must.

You can have wings, but in a cage...

It wouldn't matter less.

In a hopeless place

Filled with 'the loveless'

Time is precious…

'Cause soon... here comes the earthquake!

All that you've ever built will turn to ashes...

Dirty trying to come clean

With black on white,

Pray, but make a sin along

Oh...it all lost its meaning

Oh... (in) the mirage of lust.

Chapter 12: Oh, lust is a must

The wind hides himself around the tress, moving the leaves, whispering to me, and the white clouds slowly becoming even more colorful, but sad, with a grey color, as if I didn't already know:

'The storm is coming.'

I thought it while I sigh, and I looked just in front of me, at the unchangeable view. I look at the small pavement of the park and at the green tress, not too high, nor too small, but while they are dancing a little with the kind breeze of the quiet wind while the noisy ones are the leaves.

The lake at my right, and the road in front of me, while …

I've quickly looked at my left, because of pure intuition, at a bank that it's not empty but changed, with a boy sitting on it, in a quite rude posture, as if sleeping there but not looking like a beggar either.

But even so, this time, I was the first one to speak.

"Naruto…" That's all that I could say. His name. Half of his name.

'Cause then, my mouth had no more words, no more sounds wanted came out, I even forced myself to speak at one certain moment ,but it is as if my voice has left along with the wind, quietly hiding behind the trees, under the water of the lake, above the clouds, unreachable.

Or, as if, it wasn't there to begin with.

However, its wide smile, invites me, but no matter how contagious it is, I'm too surprised that I've been able to find him here, once again.

'No, that's a lie; I'm not surprised at all… I knew he'd be here… I knew it all along… '

Somehow while staring into blue eyes; I realized that I'm waiting. I am the one that's waiting to be saved; by him. It's as if, he wasn't the one who needed to be saved from the very start.

'I was…hiding from him…running from him…I was the… the…'

The endless rows filled with infinite words, like the endless tress filled with always regenerating leaves, undying, immortal, and so are my words, my thoughts, growing, wider, greener, or…sicker.

I didn't realized that I was staring at the pavement, while thinking, but I stopped thinking, and rose my head up, my eyes wide open, but I was the last one to look up, 'cause they all stopped to stare, all the words, all the leaves, stopped when the wind stopped, even the moon asked the sun to turn off the light for one second, just to be able stare into his blue eyes, just to hear his voice, whispering to me:

"I knew that you'll come."

The eclipse was so sudden, so quick, as if a shadow of a ghost has passed before the sun, covering the whole earth for some mere seconds.

However, none of us has moved, none of us has blinked, and certainly, we both felt the same feeling, we both thought the same thought, right after the ghost has left us, to haunt someone else's world.

Clear like the day, and dense as the dark, our silence has danced, together.

I closed my eyes, several seconds have passed, until I've felt the wind blowing again, playing with my hair.

Then, very close to me, the smell, of a cigarette.

I opened my eyes, to see Naruto inhaling from a cigarette just two millimeters away from me. Now standing, in front of me.

I opened my mouth to scold him. Just to stay with my lips parted, but with no word coming out, instead, pushed back to create others, to grow them, wider, greener … or sicker.

While white smoke of cigarette was blown into my mouth, from Naruto's mouth.

I looked up from his lips, to his azure eyes. To see that they are also looking into mine, exploring, asking, and above them all, creating.

The white smoke was swallowed by the night, and by the rays of the sun, behind the moon.

And I couldn't decide, and neither could he, 'cause his lips, his eyes, again and again, eyelashes up and eyelashes down, until, I couldn't take it anymore.

Devoured by lust, I tasted rose petals.

To be continued …

Sorry for taking so long, my computer died, everything has been deleted, all the stories, poems, I feel like crying…anyway, again sorry, couldn't do much about it. This computer works horrible, that's why the chapter is so short, very short but filled with well, one event, ehh... I said it will be interesting and I wish I could give you more, but as I said, this computer blocks per minute…for real!

But I am not dead! At least now you know that…Ahem.
However, hope I'll be able to post soon, oh, and also, it's hard to correct so if you see any mistake, tell me where, if you want to, of course, it'd be a great help…thank you.

My computer will be fixed very very soon! Hope you'll tell me your idea about this, is it too soon? Too late? What do you think? Giving a whole chapter (though short) just to a kiss?

Hope everybody likes the chapter.