A/N: If you lovely ducks haven't noticed yet, italics mean that it is a flashback~
OH and also, each chapter it switches from Lawliet to Beyond and then back to Lawliet and then back to Beyond….blah blah blah you get the point…..oh and final thought…
Yes, there are some holes in the story that you might question what they mean….those are there on purpose because I don't want to offer everything all at once….there has to be some mystery haha
okok this is Lawli~

Disbelief

"…Ummmmm it was '03 right?"

I sigh and scan through the many memories in my head.

"Yes, 2003…do you remember the actual date?"

A long pause on the other end of the line.

"I know it was during spring because there were many flowers haha…"

"March, April, or May…."

051603

"Wait, Rachel…was it May the 16th?"

"OH YES! Now I remember it…why do you ask?"

"Just reminiscing, let's talk later? I'll call you, thanks Rachel."

"No problem! See you!"

So, it really is you, my Beyond…

I sit there in the comfort of my hotel room, thinking and worrying.

Do I want him to find me?

Who has he become? Who have I become?

All of this makes sense now…the numbers…the preferences in appearances and gender…what else?

There has to be something else.

Something that will definitely prove to me that it truly is him…something very noticeable yet overlooked…

I jump off the bed and pace around the room, scanning my mind for anything odd…anything special…

I pace faster and faster until…

FWOOSH

"Ahhh"

I end up slipping on the pile of photographs on the floor.

While moving, a piece of paper catches my eye: the paper with all the names of victims and their facts.

Cathy Ellen, Lewis Garcia, Ryan Swan, Jude Clark, Zack Williams, George Bennett, Henry Utter.

Why those people? What about them make them different from others? Are they Random or is there a pattern…

Some sort of puzzle or word play?

My Beyond always loved playing around with peoples' thoughts.

Flashback

"Pssssst! Lawliet, are you awake?"

The door creaks open, dripping light into my dark room. I rub my eyes and blink towards the figure at the door. Staring at my watch, then back at the silhouette, I croak.

"It's one in the morning. What could be so important?"

The door closes behind the mysterious person and a surge of fright enters my veins when I hear it lock.

"Who is it, why did you lock the door?"

I get up abruptly from my bed, and tip toe towards the light switch.

A flash of black and red.

What a surprise…

"Hey Lawli…"

In front of me grunts my Beyond, smiling brightly.

"God Beyond…scared the shit out of me!"

I whisper with a small smile, anticipating what he might do next.

Both of our smiles fade when he slides his hand over to the light switch and starts to walk slowly towards me.

As the light turns off, all I can focus on is our breaths and finding his warmth.

I lift my hand in front of me and squint in the dark, trying to find him.

Thump Thump Thump.

I hear noises coming from behind me and I smile in that direction, changing my course.

All of a sudden, something sends me towards the floor.

I hear a chuckle.

That rude ass.

"Ouch, why did you trip me? Where are you?"

I whisper out to the source of the chuckle.

Finally I feel a hand in the dark and grab it.

Then I tackle him with all my might in the moonlight, searching for dominance.

"Ugh" I hear a grunt in the dark.

Although I can't see him, I know that look he is making right now.

That devious smile, those devilish eyes…

I push him on his back and straddle his hips, smiling at a change of plans.

Grabbing his hands, I pin them down and dip down towards the source of my ecstasy.

"Not so strong are you now Beyond?"

I whisper on his lips, sending tingles.

"Mmmm"

His moans excite me more as I dip lower onto his neck, still pinning him down.

"Oh Lawli…"

With that groan, I lift up and dive into another heated kiss with the wolf of the night, not letting him breath until it being absolutely necessary.

Lifting my hands from locking his, I run them down his torso, feeling his uneven breaths.

Suddenly, those half-lidded eyes open all the way and I hear a chuckle.

WHOOSH.

He spins us around and grabs my legs to hook on his waist.

His grinding against my warmth sends me over the edge; weak moans escape my mouth, only to be devoured repeatedly by his fiery kisses.

While chuckling softly, he dives down and I feel his breaths by my ear; sending shivers all over.

He pushes his against mine over and over, and then whispers in the tense darkness.

"If you want me to continue, you have to help me with something."

"Hmmm…" I grind up against him, wanting more…why did he stop?

I open my eyes to see him completely stopped, just staring at me with something in his eyes.

"What."

"Answer me and then we'll play some more…" he growls while slowly rubbing his fingers on the waistband of my boxers.

"I think there is something wrong with me" my Beyond says.

I tilt my head in confusion.

We both sit up in the darkness, the silence consuming.

"I've been having strange symptoms" he says softly.

His warm hand in mine squeezes and I squeeze back.

"What symptoms?" I ask.

Is that my voice? Why do I sound so….weak.

"I haven't slept properly, my heart has been feeling weird, and sometimes I just forget what I had to do or say."

Panic washes over me and I raise my hand to caress his face.

He kisses my hand and I feel him looking straight at me.

"When did this start?"

"It started just when something significant happened in my life."

I take my hand out of his and put it on my lap while scanning my head for a possible explanation.

"Stress? Can you describe this event that caused it?"

I try to imagine what his face might look like…

My Beyond clears his throat, "It was a person who caused it…and I can't stop thinking about it"

I scratch the top of my head and wonder why I can't think of a logical answer.

Stress related? Post-traumatic stress disorder? Depression?

"I am not too sure what it can be…but I'll do research on it to find out."

All of a sudden I hear a chuckle.

He grabs my leg and pulls me towards him; I'm too lost in my confusion to fight back.

"Wai- what?"

He pushes me down playfully.

"Why are you laughing?"

I prop up on my elbows, trying to see him in the dark.

A warm whisper invades my ear.

"It's you."

I shiver when he grabs me and pulls me off the ground.

Squeezing the cold hand in the dark, I let him lead me.

"You've never been in my room, have you…?"

Even though I can't see him, I imagine the sexy face of immodesty he is wearing now.

Oh god, Beyonds' room…I feel like crying in anticipation.

"N-no…"

I feel him turn around and lean against the wall. His hand tickles mine and then suddenly, pulls me towards him so I fall against him.

"Ah-"

Not giving me time to breathe, he invades me mouth and I feel his hands glide down to my hips. As he pushes me repeatedly and fiercely against his own body, I feel our kisses get more frantic and almost animalistic.

The heat.

The passion in his actions.

He tickles the top of my lips as he breaks the kiss.

Making me moan out some more from the friction building up, he leans in close to my ear and bites playfully before saying.

"Wanna sleep over…?"

He slowly glides his hands to my lower back and starts to caress.

"Hmm yes"

I try to say between heated kisses with my Beyond.
I tilt my head when he sinks down to suck on my neck.

"You're mine." He whispers into my ear.

I want to cry out in happiness.

"Do you know where my room is?" he mumbles while licking my lips.

God I want to see his face right now.

"y-yea…ow! Stop biting me!" I whisper and push away a little, feeling my cheeks get hot.

"I can't make promises, my Lawli…"He grabs my shirt and pulls me into another kiss and then takes my hand.

I hear him open my bedroom door and I squeeze his hand,

What if we get caught..?

I receive a squeeze back, somehow making me feel better.

All I hear is our breaths as we travel through the dark hallway; trying not to wake anyone up.

Finally we reach a door and it creaks when my Beyond opens it.

Suddenly, I'm pulled into the room and pushed against the door as it closes.

"Mmm" He comes closer.

The scent of Beyond fills me up and he makes me shiver at the places he touches.

I feel a hand slowly riding my shirt up as his tongue glazes my neck.

He then grabs my hair and yanks my head up, resulting in a grunt from me.

I try to see his face in the darkness, only to fail.

But I do feel his lips slowly getting closer and closer to mine.

Feeling his breath on my lips, I anticipate a deep and passionate kiss.

But instead, he lets go and walks away.

I stand against the door in confusion, wondering what he is doing or thinking.

"Beyond?" I whisper in the dark, putting my hands up in front of me…to feel his warmth.

All of a sudden, moonlight seeps into the room through the newly open curtains.

I see my Beyond standing next to the window with a smile on his face.

Finally, I see him…his eyes…they pierce deep into my soul.

"I want to see." The moonlight dances off of his skin as he walks toward me without braking eye contact. He puts his palm against the door beside me and leans in.

"I want to see the goose bumps on your skin…" He takes my hand and brings it up to his lips.

"…those dark, seductive eyes…" Pulling me, he leads me towards the bed; his bed.

"…the expressions you'll make…"He smiles as he notices my cheeks getting hot from the embarrassing comment he made.

I lie down, staring deep into those eyes, unable to pull away, to collect my thoughts.

He looks down at me; those red eyes consumed with lust, wisps of black hair falling elegantly against his face, those lips…inviting.

"It's you who made me this way." He looks away and then back.

"What, Beyond?"

"Because of you, I can't sleep, think clearly or even breathe right…I can't stop thinking about you."

My heart skips a beat; it feels as though everything just started to make sense.

He leans down; I feel his lips so close…an inch away…

"I love you Lawliet."

With that, he crashes our lips together; my eyes widen….to soon close from being swept away by his passionate kisses.

Loves me?

"Mmm" he doesn't let me breathe; our kisses get deeper…our actions, desperate.

We change to the best positions in order to take off each other's clothing leaving only our boxers on; all without breaking our kisses.

"Ahh" He finally releases me so I can gasp for air.

"Let's finish what you started." He bites down on my neck and smiles down on me.

"What are you talking about?" I stare up at my Beyond.

He gets off of me and lies down on his back next to me.

Before I know it, he grabs me and makes me straddle his hips, and then puts his arms behind his head, waiting.

I feel my cheeks get hot.

"Close the curtains…" I hear myself whisper weakly. I can't do this when I can see him looking…

"Why?" he chuckles out and puts his hands on my hips.

"…all you have to do is move this…" He whispers and moves my hips, causing friction between our boxers.

"Ah…" I can feel his erection against me.

"…and kiss me…"He moves one hand up and caresses my cheek.

"…unless you feel that you can't do it…" he brings his hands down and watches me with a smile.

"YES I CAN." I whisper, feeling my cheeks get even hotter.

It can't be that hard right? I've seen Beyond do it a lot…I can do it.

I lift my hands and place them on his chest and then lean down to kiss his pale skin.

He sighs contently as I kiss his neck and dive lower and lower to his nipples.

Gaining confidence, I start to move gently against his raging erection; resulting in gasps from both of us.

"Wow." He gasps with half lidded eyes; I feel my erection budding by looking at my Beyond.

I move more frantically, craving his touch.

"Beyond…" I whimper as our movements get wilder.

He moves his hands and pulls me into a frantic kiss.

I break from the kiss and look down at his boxers.

He smiles as I creep down and slowly start to pull them off.

I stare at the blissful expression he makes when I take his length into my mouth.

A low groan from my lover encourages me even more. I feel a hand entangle in my hair as I continue.

"I can't take it anymore." My beyond pants out. He pulls me up and spins us around so he is on top.

"But, I thou-" He cuts me off with another passionate kiss.

I feel those warm hands of his caress every inch of my skin, slowly sliding down to stop at my boxers.

He throws them across the room with a smile; his room.

"Ah!" He thrusts in deep and I grab the sheets below me.

He consumes my gasps with his warm lips as he repeatedly presses against me.

I weakly hook my legs around his warm body and get closer.

He smiles as I reach my hands up and draw him near, wanting to feel him even more.

I inhale that scent my beyond carries; that scent that leaves me dizzy but wanting more.

"Lawliet…"

End flashback

"Lawliet….lawliet…LAWLIET! THAT'S IT!"

I let out a large sigh and slump on the floor.

Am I scared or excited?

A/N: VERY VERY SORRY THAT I HAVENT BEEN UPDATING.
I actually have written but was too lazy to upload to fanfiction lol…but I've slowed things down because I had college applications and school shit to get done 3
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