Chapter Five.

Rachel looked in the mirror, holding her belly. She had started to show, already. It had only been three months since Finn had been gone. She had figured out that they conceived the baby that last night they were together, because she had stopped taking her birth control the next day out of completely stress and worry.

Rachel breathed out, "This won't do." She sighed and got out a sundress. She learned this tactic from Quinn sophomore year. She spinned around and decided Kurt and Blaine wouldn't be able to notice.

Over the last month she had tried to tell them, Ryan too, but everyone seemed so happy with her and her sudden recovery and the pay checks weren't hurting at all. Not to mention the medical insurance. But, she knew she couldn't stay playing Kim. She had worked really closely with her understudy to be sure she was ready when the time came. Rachel was pleased to announce that she believed she was and she knew she needed to talk to Ryan. Not until getting a job first.

Rachel had interviewed with Finn's former employeer. Dan, his old boss, loved them both and seemed to be happy to hire her, but she hadn't heard back. Not to mention that the health insurance had always been killer. Once Finn broke his leg after fooling around with Blaine at Central Park and they didn't have to pay a dime. It was awesome. She hoped he'd call soon, because she didn't want to start showing enough for Ryan to notice. And she couldn't keep wearing sweatshirts. It was almost June.

Rachel sighed out and called Kurt on her way out the door, "You're late." He answered.

"I know, Kurt. I know." Rachel groaned, "I had to change out of my smelly rehearsal clothes. I'll be there soon."

"Well, we're going to miss our reservations." Kurt growled. "We'll just order in. Pick up a bottle of wine?"

Rachel smiled and promised she would. If she was drinking, she would have picked up two. But, seeing as that wouldn't be a possibility she only grabbed one. When she walked in Kurt was sitting on the counter looking through a couple things while Blaine put their meals onto plates.

"Hey guys. I got wine."

"Only one bottle?" Kurt frowned.

"Well, I'm not drinking. I've got practice tomorrow." Rachel told him, showing off her excellent acting skills.

"I love your dress. It's very Quinn Fabray circa 2009." Kurt told her with a chuckle. "But, it's good. Suits you."

Rachel nodded softly, "Yeah, just trying a new look." She knew she couldn't keep the act up for long. "What you got there?" She grabbed one of the pamphlet's out of Kurt's hands before he could stop her.

Her heart almost sank when she saw it, "Why do you have this?" Rachel scolded him.

Blaine turned around swiftly, "Whoa, drama queen." He laughed, "We're looking into adoption. You know, since we can't conceive naturally. Unfortunately. Our genes would go perfectly together."

Kurt grinned, "I'd rather have an Anderson baby." He smiled back.

"You're sweet, Kurty." Blaine grinned and kissed Kurt quickly.

Rachel gulped, "You want a baby?" Rachel whispered, tears forming in her eyes.

"Of course we do. We think we've waited long enough." Blaine told her, "You okay, Rach. You look a little green."

Rachel looked away to let her face clear before turning back with a beaming grin, "That will be great."

"What attributes are you looking for in your baby?" Rachel asked as they set down at the table and Blaine set plates down in from of them.

"I don't know if we get to choose." Kurt chuckled.

Blaine shook his head, "We most certainly do, to a point at least."

"Yeah, you interview the Moms and stuff." Rachel said as she picked at her food. "And you can ask any questions about the Dad too."

Kurt nodded, "Well this is exciting. It's like you can pick your kid."

"That's the idea." Blaine laughed.

"How do you think my Dads got me?" Rachel beamed for a moment before feeling that familiar loneliness in her twinged. She gluped back the feeling, "I'm really thirsty." She told them and Blaine got up and pulled a bottle of water out of the fridge.

"Thanks." Rachel smiled and gulped down the water greedily.

"You Dads picked your Mom because of her talent, right?" Kurt smiled. "We should have the Moms sing, our baby needs to have a good singing voice."

"That's a given." Blaine laughed, "I wonder if they'll let us do that."

Rachel slammed down her fork down quickly, "You guys?"

"You okay, Berry Pie?" Kurt grabbed her hand.

"I have something to tell you." Rachel gulped again, feeling awkward and looked down at her hand in Kurt's. "I'm pregnant."

Kurt's hand dropped hers as Blaine gasped, "Oh man."

"No." Kurt stood up, "No. No. No." He started to pace. "It's, what? No. Finn's? What? When?"

Blaine grabbed Kurt's arm to stop him, "Get a hold of yourself."

Rachel breathed out a shaky breath, "You guys, it's okay. I've come to terms with it." Then she thought for a moment about Blaine's comments as he slowly sat down, "And of course it's Finn's. Who else would it be?"

"First of all – How long have you known?" Kurt asked pointedly.

"About a month."

"Okay." Kurt scrunched up his face in frustration, "Secondly, we just thought you were happy for a reason, and Blaine ran into Sam last week so we kind of thought you guys were-"

"No!" Rachel yelled. "First of all, I haven't seen Sam since high school. Second of all, no. Of course I didn't just start sleeping with some other dude."

"Well, you just seemed to move on suddenly and I thought maybe..."

"No!" Rachel sighed and put her hands up, "Listen, I haven't moved on. I just have to take care of the baby. So, I've just been… doing my best."

Kurt nodded and grabbed Rachel's hand in both of his, "Rachel, I am so sorry."

"Are you going to put her up for adoption?" Blaine asked suddenly.

Rachel took a deep breath and felt the tears well up inside her, "I was thinking about it, and I want to. It just-"

"It's hard for you because of Shelby." Kurt answered, nodding.

"Listen, if you guys are already thinking about adoption…" Rachel trailed off, tears falling down her face.

Blaine scooted towards her, grabbing her other hand, "No, Rachel. No. We won't take your baby."

"Although it would be ridiculously talented." Kurt noted.

"And have magnificent bone structure." Blaine added, "However, we couldn't do that to you. Raise your kid as our right in front of you."

Rachel nodded, still sobbing, "You're right. I know you're right."

"Plus," Kurt smiled, "Isn't it what you always wanted? A mini Finn Hudson?"

Rachel shook her head, her sobs uncontrollable, "Not like this. Not like this at all." She whimpered and fell into Blaine's arms.

Blaine ran his hands through her hair and whispered, "It's okay, Rachel. We'll figure this out together."

Rachel's phone rang and Kurt picked it up, "Rachel Berry's phone."

"She's busy at the moment, can I take a message?"

"Mmhmm. Yeah, Uh-huh."

"Sure thing. Thank you so much."

Kurt beamed at Rachel, "That was Dan calling to say you got the job. What part is this, my dear?"

Rachel sat up and wiped her eyes, "It's not a part. It's a job. I'm going to be a receptionist for Finn's old boss. Insurance stuff, you know?"

"You're quitting the play?" Kurt gasped.

Rachel nodded, "I have to, Kurt. I can't be on stage with a belly."

She stood up and pushed the dress down to her belly to show her belly, "See?"

"Damn!" Kurt grinned, "That is the cutest little belly I've ever seen."

Blaine chuckled, "Oh, and your boobs look awesome."

Rachel couldn't help but let a light smile graze her lips, "You guys are too good to me."

Kurt and Blaine walked towards her and took her in their arms, "We'll do this together, Rach." Blaine whispered.

"We promise." Kurt ran his fingers through her hair.

Rachel cried in their arms, thankful and grateful for them both.

She still couldn't get away from the ache in her heart, and she knew it was for Finn. She wanted him, she knew their baby wanted him.

Finn, where the hell are you?