My Lovers Dead
By: HK LOVES DENY
Warnings: Same
Disclaimer: Same
Chapter Summary: Yuki's side of the story now!!! 333
My Ramblings: Okay I really needed to update so most of my updates will probably be small 0o; But Do not worry My faithful fans! (If there are any left 0o; ) I have not and will not discontinue any of my stories! Although I am thinking about deleting some of my stories since they like died 0o; Anyway On with the story!
The funeral was held only a few days after Shuichi died. Hiro blamed Yuki for his death, Ryuichi blamed him, Mika wouldn't look at him in the eyes anymore, his father thought it was a blessing that he died. But Yuki didn't care. He cared about nothing anymore, his lover died because of him. Him. Eiri Yuki the greatest romance novelest in all of Japan!
The press heard nothing about the note or that it was suicide. They were simply told he died from some illness.
The blonde kneeled in front of his dead lovers grave placing flowers over the tombstone. He decided he was going to go into seclusion and not worry about anyone anymore. He knew he couldn't love, or even be stable, if he got another lover. Of course his fans had sent him sympathy cards and letters. He simply disposed of them, Knowing, without even glaceing in them, what they said.
He blinked blankly at the inscrptions written on the tombstone.
'You will always be with us in our hearts, We love you Shuichi'
Those words were very true, Yuki make a weak smile remembering the look on Shuichi's face when Yuki had bought him a locket with their pictures in it. His face lit up with joy, it was as though he had never recived anything in his life and had for the first time. He looked utterly beautiful.
A small tear flowed down his cheek, he missed the brat more than anyone would ever know. He now thinks that it is all a dream, and he will wake up and Shuichi will be asleep on the couch sprawled out like normal. But reality was never so nice. Morning would come and he'd be alone in his apartment.
"Why did you leave?" More tearns rolled down his cheeks. His face held no sign of emotion but his eyes told all. "Shuichi, if I could I'd be different, I'd treat you like a human being and given you the love you deserved to have from a lover." A couple of his tears dropped onto the flowers he set down. "I'm sorry."
Reaching into his coat pocket he brought out the knife Shuichi had used. It still had the boys blood stain on it, as did the carpet. He looked at his wrists which now held marks of many attempts to take his own life. He couldn't understand why he could not die. He thought God was just trying to make him suffer more.
A crackeling nosie thundered throughout the sky as Yuki stayed kneeling on Shuichis grave, giving no mind the the now pouring rain.
Bringing that same blade to his wrist he slit it deeper than he had the other times, and watched as the blood dripped onto his grave, creating a small pudddle mixing with the rain. Quickly he slit his other wrist and laid down on the grave, waiting for death to finally take him.
His breathing began to slow down some then speed up and the blood flowed out of his body. The rain poured down more as Eiri closed his eyes when a slightly numbing feeling overtook his mind.
Was this finally it? Was he finally going to die?
The world went black as he laid there motionless.
"Yuki..." He cracked his eyes slightly seeing a figure standing over him. "Yuki... I love you..." He concentrated on the figure more and saw it was Shuichi!
"Shu...ichi... What..." A fingure was placed over his lips.
"Shh just relax and sleep. When I get back from work I'll call the doctor if your still not feeling good okay." He felt a small kiss over his forehead and a door shut.
With a gasp he woke up staring at the nights sky. He cursed again finally realizing it was a dream yet again. The cuts sealed shut and no more blood flowed from them.
Shakely he got up and walked to his car he parked on the other side of the Cemetary. He got in and drove off to a cabin he knew no one would bother him with their pity, and sorrys. A place where he may finally see Shuichi again... In Death.
Phew -.-; I wrote this while half asleep (School is tomorrow x.x ) It;s now 12:01 p.m. and I'm going to sleep now. If I get enought ime throughout the weekend I'll write more for this and my other stories So don't lose hope!
HK