I'm sorry!

I know all the chapters are really short. I've been busy- like really busy.

I hope this one makes up for everything! This chapter kind of explains the relationship Lucie shares with her dad and her sister and what she thinks about everything. It may sound like she's whining. But I don't want her to be a mary-sue. Because she has multiple flaws too. As you will see. I'm sorry if it's a bit depressing but you'll see her start to turn her life around.

Once again: I'm soooo sorry!

Love, Cait.

Chapter three: What went wrong?

You know what, I wish I could go back and re-do these past 6 years of my life. I would have not let my relationship with my dad deteriorate. Or let me and my sister constantly fight. Or have mum have to pull us apart every time. I would not let Scorpious Malfoy crawl beneath my skin. But most of all I would never have turned out the way I have. Constantly plastering a fake smile on my face, taking all the shit from everyone, when really I just want to cry. I want me and my dad to have fun again, and not shoot glares at one another, I would like me and my sister to spend time together, even if we just sat in the common room playing wizards chess. I would just do everything different.

So yeah, this is what my life has come to, lying in my bed at 3.30am in the morning thinking about my mess of life. Maybe I should stop trying so hard to impress everyone, because in the end the only person you have to impress is yourself, right? Yeah, I don't think I could ever impress anyone, not even myself. You see behind the cheerful jokes, the fake smiles and laughter, is a scared little girl. I'm scared of being lonely, of not being loved back, of getting old with nothing to show for my achievements. I know what you're thinking: Will this bitch ever shut up? Well I'm sorry Brain but I won't. God I sound insane. See, I have two actual true best friends, Rose Weasley- who may as well be apart of my family- and Gwen Mills, the person I couldn't live without. I wonder what I'd be without them? Huh?

Oh God. I really need something positive to think about, but at the very moment, nothing springs to mind, except that It's the weekend tomorrow. This week has flown over- I had a few Malfoy encounters obviously. I haven't really talked to him though. Dad's words keep spinning through my head "Scorpious Malfoy is bad news", I can't see the harm in testing that theory? Can you? The worst that could happen is that I could get hurt. And it's not like I Haven't been hurt before. It'll be fine. I'm going to see dad tomorrow with Alice, it should be alright, I suppose.

I woke with a start, I quickly scrambled out of bed, to find Gwen and Rose's beds empty, they were probably at Hogsmede with Albus and Jordy. Our other dorm mates (Nicole Thomas and Mimi Johns) were still asleep. So I quickly looked at the clock, 9.10am. So I quickly scurried into the shower and threw on some dark jeans, a slogan tee than said 'Keep calm and carry on' and my white doc martens and hurriedly applied some light makeup and brushed my already curly hair. And grabbed my navy baseball jacket and my satchel and ran to dad's office. I knocked once and entered. For once dad wasn't wearing his work clothes, he looked smart, navy polo shirt, dark washed jeans and a pair of converse. He smiled at me as I sat down. Of course Alice was already there dressed in a floral dress with a nude coloured belt with matching nude pumps, and her hair was neatly placed in a bun with a little ribbon around- pompous prat.

"Hello girls." Smiled dad.

"Morning!" Alice chirped brightly.

"Hi there." I mumbled.

"I'm sure you're wondering why I called you hear. I realise that we don't spend a lot of time together. So I was thinking we should talk about everything and anything. Of course I don't want to know about your personal life or any dark secrets- no, I'm not one for gossiping. But I'd like to see the world from your view. You know I don't see you that often, so I want to in a sense get to know you better." He laughed, he actually looked handsome when he laughed and a lot younger. "You should do that more often.." I blurted out. He looked at me curiously and arched his eyebrow, "Do what?" he laughed again.

"You should laugh more often, it makes you seem younger and more handsome." I laughed, oh god, I have the same laugh as him…

"Has anyone ever said that you two are freakily alike?" Alice giggled, watching us with an amused expression.

"It might have been mentioned." I smile. Well there's a first, me smiling at my sister.

"No, I mean seriously. You have the same hair, eyes, skin, laugh, smile and you even talk the same! It's scary!" she said in mock horror. I laughed again.

"Well you look like mum!" I shot back, laughing furiously. I look at dad who is looking at us both wearing an expression that clearly says are-these-really-my-children.

"I don not! DAD! Tell Lucie to stop saying I look like mum!" Alice whines to dad. He smirks- a Malfoy trait.

"You do, except the hair, I actually don't know where you get the blonde hair from, maybe my mum. Well, the more I look at you the more you look like River. The brown eyes, the cheekbones and rather curvy figure. See, Lucie just looks like a twig. You could kick her and she would snap." I shoot a playful glare at him.

"I don't look like mum!" Alice protested, folding her arms and pretending to throw a tantrum. It was rather amusing.

"Anyways, dad. How did you and mum meet?" I ask him, focusing on my dad rather than Alice's amusing tantrum. Even looks curiously at dad.

"Erm, We both went to Hogwarts, we were both in Gryffindor- obviously. Girls, you'll have to ask me when I next see your mother, then you can hear her side of the story too." He exhaled.

"When are you next seeing mum?" Alice asks with wide eyes.

"Erm, possibly a couple of days during the Christmas holidays." He smiles, wearing a faraway expression on his face.

"Oh that's good! She really misses you, you know." Alice squealed, I shot her a glare. You can already tell he feels bad without her making him feel worse about the whole situation.

Me and Alice spent at least four hours with dad, laughing, joking, sharing stories and interests. He was quite shocked that Alice didn't mind herbology or divination when I hated them both. But as you well know we aren't alike. I was in such a good mood. So I went to the library to do my potions homework- it's disgraceful giving us homework on our first week back. Although I was good at potions- I got an O on my O.- so this should be easy. We have to say what the effects of wolfs bane potion is, which everyone knows it helps werewolves stay in there human mind when they transform. It was given out free at St. Mungos when Remus Lupin died, to show that no matter what all species and breeds are always welcome in the wizarding community. When I think about it lots has changed since the war, Kingsley Shackbolt became Minster for Magic- he's doing a great job if you ask me. Everyone says hello to everyone. Being a pureblood no longer matters anymore. Slytherin's aren't all portrayed as evil, cunning snakes, but the same as every other house. It's all changed for the better, all thanks to Harry. Breaking free from my thoughts I quickly did my homework, shoved it back into my satchel and pulled out my muggle novel, Romeo and Juliet it's a bit too lovey dovey for my liking but it's by a great writer. Mum told me about the story when I was about 9 and got me the book when I was 10 and I read it every year, because I am just that sad.

I didn't think anything or anyone would disturb me in the Library, because they would all be at Hogsmede. "Well, Well, Well. If it isn't Lucie Longbottom." I rolled my eyes, I knew that voice.

"Scorpious Malfoy is bad news.."

Oh really? " Well hello Malfoy." I say, cheery. His smirk falters, but he then fixes it back into position. I know he's confused, but what I say next will make him even more confused. "Oi, Malfoy. I need to talk to you." He gulps..

DUM DUM DUM! Haha, hope you liked it! See the chapters are getting longer! Baring in mind I finished this chapter and 2.45 am. Lol. Night.

Love caity.