Authors note:
sorry 4 the late chapter
i was really busy
ill put up the next 1 later 2day
I couldn't believe that I was actually going hunting for animal blood. I did not know how it tasted like and if I was going to fulfill my thirst. I saw Rosalie starting to go toward a deer. I hesitated to decide whether I should watch or not. I was a sweet deer. I couldn't watch it get killed. Alice looked at me like she knew I was not feeling well. She motioned me to follow her. As I walked it felt lightheaded. I was terribly thirsty. I wrapped my arms around myself trying to not faint. Alice finally stopped and there in the clearing up ahead was a bear. She looked at me as if telling me to go for it. I nodded and crept toward the bear. Once I was close enough I pounced onto the bear and bit into it. The blood flowed down my throat. It was thirst quenching but it tasted odd. Defiantly not as sweet as human blood. But I guess it would have to do. I looked at the bright side of this. Now I wouldn't have to kill any humans. I thought about this as I drank it dry. I was still thirsty. I saw a deer and decided it was now or never. It would probably make me feel sad but at least I wouldn't be as hungry. I slowly walk toward the deer swallowing the lump in my throat. This was going to be a hard day. When I bit into the deer I realized that its blood wasn't as tasty as the bears. I sighed. This was harder than I thought. After I finished I wiped my mouth and started walking toward Alice. It was time to go back. I was full not so I didn't need to stay. When I got to her, Rosalie was already there. We all slowly walked home.
"How was your first hunt?" Alice asked cheerfully.
"Okay, I guess. Not the same as human blood." I sighed.
"Well you get used to it. It might take a while, but it happens. Just remember, if you start drinking human blood again, you may never be able to get used to animal." Rosalie said.
I nodded. "Well we better get back and check out what the boys have built me."
"Cool. I'm sure it will be awesome." Alice piped up.
"I still can't believe that you guys are going through all this trouble just for me." I said, "I'm not worth it. And just hours ago Carlisle was chasing me to finish me off."
"It is kind of funny, isn't it? It doesn't matter anyway because the boys will use anything as an excuse to build. I can't wait till you see it. Esme's design is really cool." Alice said.
I looked at her questionably. How did she know what the room looked like? Alice laughed, "I have the ability to see the future. You will love it. Hold on I'm seeing something." Suddenly she had a blank look on her face. When she was back she looked at me sadly. "I have some bad news. Diego is going away."
"What, why?" I asked.
"Can't cope with the lifestyle. Happens all the time. So sad to see him go. Don't worry, he'll come visit. Well I guess that means you have the room all to yourself. Let's go shopping later." Alice said quickly in her high, soprano voice.
"Okay…" I said. "As long as I still get to see him, I'm okay."
Then I sighed. My life is full of ups and downs. First Diego comes and then he goes. Why can't god just choose what life he wants for me. Then I thought for a second. What if I can't cope with this life style? Will I have to leave too? Will I go crazy? Questions filled my head. If I left, than the Cullen's would have gone through all this trouble all for nothing. I sighed again. I have the craziest roller coaster life that any could have. Well at least I have a place to live. If I don't go mad that is.