Title: Clipped Wings of An Angel

Chapter Four: Where Did I Go Wrong?

A/N: Italics represent the past. This chapter was inspired by How To Save A Life by the Fray.

Step one you say we need to talk
He walks you say sit down it's just a talk
He smiles politely back at you
You stare politely right on through
Some sort of window to your right

Hana sat on the bed as Itachi sat next to her the bed denting under their combined weight. She turned to him as a small smile graced her pink lips. She withdrew one of her porcelain hands as she intertwined her hand with Itachi's. She was shocked by how cool his hand felt. The coolness that his hand was radiating was like plunging ones hand into a freezer of ice cubes.

"You wanted to talk Hana-San." Itachi stated rather than question as Hana flinched at his coldness with her. He was never like this with her. Mikoto-San was right. Itachi was growing colder with each passing day and it was hurting her knowing she was the cause of it all. She wanted to take all the things she said back. She regretted them all but she could not take them back. What was said, was said and there was no changing it.

"Yes I did Itachi-Kun." Hana whispered as she turned her head away from her loverItachi. Her emerald orbs stared out the small window located in Itachi's room as it glazed over with regret, pain, hurt of how cold his attitude is to her and most of all shame.

As he goes left and you stay right
Between the lines of fear and blame
And you begin to wonder why you came

Itachi left the room angrily as he slammed the paper door shut tightly. Tears stung at Hana's eyes as she blinked them back furiously. Regret built in her stomach as sobs erupted from her body. She stared at a picture of them together at theirmeadow as she traced Itachi's face. She picked the wooden frame up delicately treating it as if it was the most precious item in the world. She stroked the cool glass softly as her eyes lingered on their intertwined hands. Maybe it was time to move on. Maybe Itachi was right. Maybe it was time they both split and went there separate ways.

"It's all my fault. All my fault." Hana whispered as she buried her face into her smooth hands leaving the picture frame on the bed as a tear drop smeared Itachi's face.

Where did I go wrong, I lost a friend
Somewhere along in the bitterness
And I would have stayed up with you all night
Had I known how to save a life

"Please Itachi! Please! I'm sorry! Please Itachi...Please stop...please..." Hana whispered as her eyes slowly drooped closed and sleep took over her body. Her eyelids closed as her parting memory of the conscious world was staring into Itachi's crimson sharingans. She was sorry. Maybe if she knew what the outcome of her decision was. What the cost was, she would never have done it. She did not wish for this horrible fate to come upon anyone. No one and now he was gone. Her Itachi, her lover, her friend was gone from the world and swallowed up by the heavens. Only if she knew...

Let him know that you know best
Cause after all you do know best
Try to slip past his defense
Without granting innocence
Lay down a list of what is wrong
The things you've told him all along
And pray to God he hears you
And pray to God he hears you

"ITACHI-KUN! ITACHI-KUN!" Hana screamed as she ran through the streets of Konoha. Her emerald kimono flowed behind her as she hiked it up and chased after the figure. She ran as fast as she could but the dark figure shrank with each passing moment as she cried at all the mistakes she had made. She should have helped him. She should have listened to Mikoto-San. But it was too late. He was gone and far from saving.

Where did I go wrong, I lost a friend
Somewhere along in the bitterness
And I would have stayed up with you all night
Had I known how to save a life

Hana stroked Itachi's face as warm tears slipped off her face onto his cheeks. She buried her face into her hands as she shook her head and scolded herself for making him like this. It was all her fault.

"I'm sorry. I should have known. I should have seen. I'm so sorry Itachi. If only I knew." she whispered as she stared at his empty eyes hurt pulsing through her body. This was not her Itachi. The Itachi she grew to love and cherish. NO. This was a stranger...

As he begins to raise his voice You lower yours and grant him one last choice
Drive until you lose the road
Or break with the ones you've followed
He will do one of two things
He will admit to everything
Or he'll say he's just not the same
And you'll begin to wonder why you came

Hana stopped speaking as Itachi opened his mouth. Her tears stopped falling from her face as hope warmed her body. Maybe he was going to say he was sorry that he was wrong. She watched his mouth form words as pain replaced hope and it clenched at her heart. It was her fault and there was no stopping this monster from taking her Itachi over. He was gone and she regretted everything.

Where did I go wrong, I lost a friend
Somewhere along in the bitterness
And I would have stayed up with you all night
Had I known how to save a life

Hana sobbed as she huddled into a tight ball in the corner of her room. She missed him so badly. He left her when he promised! He promised that they would be together forever. That no matter what happened he would still be her knight in shining armor. Fate was cruel. Instead of having a knight in shining armor to lead her to her happy ending she had a cold hearted knight in black armor. Maybe just maybe he could sweep her off her feet.

Where did I go wrong, I lost a friend
Somewhere along in the bitterness
And I would have stayed up with you all night
Had I known how to save a life

She placed the white rose on the cool gray stone as she traced the names of her past friends in the stone. KIA. Killed in action. She missed them and she regretted ever coming to this village. While they welcomed her with warm arms she brought pain and death to them. It was her fault for the massacre and she left Sasuke alone that night unprotected...

How to save a life
How to save a life

She should have stayed with him. She should have held him when he needed her. But she was a coward. She did not want to face him and see his face. The face that would haunt her for years to come. She was wrong and she knew it but she was still young and naive like him. There was nothing she would have been able to do. It was hopeless and she knew it. But he was gone just like everyone else. She was wrong, again. Everything she did was wrong and she could not help but cry as she heard of his departure. There was no one left. All of her loved ones were gone. They all slipped away from her as she watched them slowly drift away.

Where did I go wrong, I lost a friend
Somewhere along in the bitterness
And I would have stayed up with you all night
Had I known how to save a life

She stared at the horizon as she watched the sunset. Her emerald eyes glazed over as she slipped into a dream state. Thinking about the good times. She could have saved them. Saved them from their horrible fates but she was being selfish again and she was left alone all over again.

Where did I go wrong, I lost a friend
Somewhere along in the bitterness
And I would have stayed up with you all night
Had I known how to save a life

She held onto his arm tightly as they ran through the field. She giggled as her dress floated around her. Their eyes met for a split second before they rolled onto the grass in hysterics. Smiling just because they were with each other. She closed her eyes content as he pulled her closer to his chest. She snuggled into him as he stroked her hair, watching the clouds. She was happy. But she was ignorant to the fact that it would all change soon in due time.

How to save a life

Who knew? That the man that brought you love, kindness, happiness and hope could bring you to tears make you regret your actions, hate him, weep for him and miss him? He did that to her. He made her love him, hate him and yet in the end she knew that she still loved him. She could not shield her love for him from the world. It was still there. Burning. She missed him and only if she knew. If only. She could have saved him from himself. Stop him from who he has become.

Hana laid on her bed as she curled up into a ball and stared at the torn picture of them, tears streaming down her face. She was sorry. She did not mean to bring so much pain to him. She did not mean for this to happen. He was gone and she still loved him. After all the pain he brought her she still loved him. Where did she go wrong?

"Where did I go wrong? I went wrong for everything. I messed it all up. It's all my fault..." Hana whispered as she held herself tighter. The darkness consumed her as a pair of red eyes watched her with grief, love, hate and pain molded into their eyes.