Heh, FanFiction is messing up, so i'm really hoping Chapter 3 is up D;

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Time to continue.

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'KA-THUD'

"Oww shit..." Roxas drawled as he sat up with his hands on his head, blinking away the sleep, confused only until he realized he was on the floor.

Slowly standing up the blonde's eyes scanned the bed before he gasped-Axel was still very much shirtless, and the light from the window made him look like a fucking god.

His eyes locked on the sleeping man's toned chest, his eyes traveled up to his peaceful face. The light carressed his features, bouncing off his hair as if it actually were on fire. He was sprawled out on the bed, arms and legs everywhere, no wonder Roxas had fallen off, he must have been pushed.

He looked so peaceful, so serene, so... cute.

Without really realizing it, Roxas had crawled onto the bed, and had adjusted himself above axel, his legs on either side of him, trying hard not to wake him up.

Their faces were so close now, and his lips looked so inviting...

Closer... closer... closer...

Green eyes met blue.

"G'mornin Roxy, watcha doing?" Axel's face wore a malice grin as the blonde flailed and hopped off the boy, stumbling across the room, his back hitting the door.

"U-Uhhh nothing! I was doing nothing. I thought there was something on your face that's all," Roxas stuttered, eyes avoiding the man on the bed who was now supporting himself on his elbows.

Raising a brow, Axel smirked.

"Something on my face eh? I think you were gonnaaaaa... kiss me."

Roxas's heart skipped a beat as his face flushed a deep red.

"N-No not at all I would never kiss you!" Axel mocked a hurt face, "I mean I would! I mean... agh!" Turning around Roxas opened the door, letting himself out before he went to hide on the couch.

"Wait Roxyyyy! I was just teasing you!" Axel sprung off of the bed chasing the blonde who was now pouting on the couch.

Crawling on top of Roxas, Axel lowered his face to his.

"Y'no, if you wanted to kiss me, you could have just... done it," at that, Axel pinned the blonde's hands above his head, now straddling the boy, his lips merely inches away.

Blue eyes widened as his heart felt like it was going to explode from his chest, he couldn't speak, he tried to say something but nothing would come out, he felt scared, but a little aroused at the same time, he wasn't sure what to do.

Finally, Axel closed the distance between them, their lips melting together slowly as the redhead kissed the blonde passionately.

Pulling away, Axel laughed at the look on the boy's face, his cheeks were tinged pink, eyes glazed over, lips wet.

"Okay, seriously, stop looking so sexy or else I might rape you," at this statement Roxas went into shock mode.

Struggling against Axel he pushed the man off, making a mad dash for the bathroom, slamming the door behind him, locking himself in.

Axel sat dazed on the couch before he realized what he had said.

"Roxas! I'm so sorry!" He rushed over to the bathroom door, hands gripping the frame, "what I said was stupid, I was just kidding, I didn't mean to... say it like that."

He could hear Roxas's shallow breath from the other side of the door as he stood there, his whole body tense.

"Roxas... please talk to me, or something, just say something..." Axel's brain was already working 100 miles per hour realizing why Roxas hadn't really told him about himself.

Axel sulked over to the couch, burying his head in his lap, his arms around his legs.

"I am such a fucking douche.." he mused aloud.

Roxas stood in the bathroom, his mind going crazy as he stood in front of the mirror gazing at himself.

Why did he just do that? He had liked the kiss, right?

At this thought, he reached a timid hand up and brushed his lips with his fingers.

'He said he was going to rape me...'

Shaking his head furiously he tried to snap out of it.

Axel isn't Seifer, Seifer isn't Axel, why was he acting so stupid over this?

Dragging his body over to the door, he unlocked it, opening it slowly before making his way over to a curled up Axel.

"Axel..?"

At the sound of his name, his head jolted up before he shot up, hugging the boy tightly.

"I'm really, really really realllyyyy sorry Roxas, I didn't mean to say it like that, I was jus-"

Sighing, Roxas shut him up by placing his hands on either side of the man's face.

"It's fine, really. I'm just not very intimate. I get scared easily, nervous, I cry sometimes too," his voice faded a little.

"Roxas, you can talk to me, okay? I promise that no matter what you tell me, these lips will stay sealed, i'll zip them shut," Roxas nodded at this, both of them slowly sitting together.

"It started two years ago, when Seifer decided he wanted to be the band's producer and such. Things were fine, we were best pals, all until he seemed to have some sort of sick obsession with me. Before going out on a simple gig, he wanted to dress me, he wanted to make me look 'awesome' as he put it. I thought it was a friendly gesture and always hated picking out clothing so I was fine with it. But one time, after a gig, I was alone in one of the place's bathrooms when Seifer came in. I of course smiled and greeted him, but he was different, something was wrong. He had this crazy, lustful look in his eyes, and he wouldn't stop looking me up and down," Roxas shuddered, causing Axel to hold one of the boy's fragile hands in his own.

"He moved so fast, pressing me up against the bathroom wall, pinning me, I couldn't get away no matter how hard I tried. He told me how he loved playing dress up with me, but now he wanted to play a new game, he told me he wanted to undress me. I found this highly alarming and wrong in a lot of ways, and protested, asking him what was wrong, what he was thinking. I can hardly remember most of it since he smashed my head against the wall because I tried kneeing him in the groin, everything was blurry. I remember the feeling of his hands, so rough, violating, as he ripped my clothing off one piece at a time. I tried to scream but nothing would come out. I had nothing left on me soon enough, and he was on top of me, forcefully kissing me, touching me, things I didn't want. His pants came undone, and before he could do what I feared worse, my brother Sora walked in. I heard yelling, screaming, I saw Sora push Seifer off of me before stooping down to my level and calling out my name. I felt like I was in a very deep tunnel, I could hear it, echoing, but it was so far away. Seifer had disappeared, and I was now sitting up, covered by one of Sora's jackets. My head really hurt, so I reached a hands up to feel the tender spot, only to see my own blood on my hands. Turns out, I had a minor concussion,"

Roxas rubbed the back of his head in a sort of reminding way.

"While Sora was helping me I found my voice, I made him promise and swear to god that he wouldn't tell a soul about this. He hates me for keeping it secret, but he hates Seifer more than anything in the world for what he did. We told everyone I slipped and fell, bashing my head, they all believed me, and Sora was awesome enough to grab me more clothing before we went out. And that was my first brush with intimacy, so I get scared stupid most times, mostly because I can't stand being restrained and everything. I'm sorry I reacted the way I did, just being pinned like that, hearing that word, it scared me," he admitted, bowing his head in shame.

Eyes brimming with unshed tears, Axel wrapped his arms around the broken boy.

"It's okay," muttering sweet nothings in his ear, Axel rubbed the blonde's back as he sobbed, his hands now gripping Axel's bare back.

If there was anything in this world Axel was going to do before he died-

Killing Seifer would be first.

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Yeah that was a lil rushed sorry D; I had writers block and this is what came out of it .

Hopefully my chapters are posting now . stupid site.

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