Chapter Fourteen: Man in the Box

He looked familiar. From what was left of his memories, Damien could remember the face of the shy man at the hospital that day. On his way doing nothing, the 34 year old rocker noticed Bonnie's obvious new fling standing there feet away from him at the gas station. He knew that the man felt threatened by his presence and he knew what the right thing to do was.

Spencer Reid was not facing Damien and so could not notice him strutting over to the doctor, hearing his voice run through his ears, "Can I show you a picture?"

The young doctor turned around, it was an odd way to confront someone. When he did turn around, he was shocked to see who was standing in front of him. He remembered Damien and could honestly say he never expected in a hundred years to ever see him again. All he was doing was getting gas before going to the grocery store; he hated pumping his own gas.

His heart fluttered, biting his lower lip as he looked at the older man. Standing in front of him was Bonnie's first. He was the man who had taken Bonnie's virginity in the back of a pick up truck. A pick up truck that Spencer noticed that he was still driving to this day. He knew that this man controlled body. He manipulated her and is the main reason why she would never go forward in their relationship. At one point he wanted to run and at another he wanted to hit him.

Keeping himself poise and calm, the doctor shrugged, "Um, sure."

Damien picked his wallet out of his back pocket, opening it and taking a picture. He pulled the younger man off to the side to reveal the picture to him. Reid had no idea why he was showing him the picture nor why he carried it around. But the doctor took it in his hand and examined it, letting the image sink in. HE didn't know how to feel about the picture, it wasn't anything shocking.

It was a Polaroid picture. A little crinkled by not too bad. In short it was a picture of teenaged Bonnie and Skyler kissing. It wasn't just a small peck, it looks like the picture was taken in the middle of a make out session. Bonnie's black hair was crinkled and teased out a little, still looking beautiful on her face. Skyler's hair at the time was fully orange, pulled back in a ponytail. He had to admit, his pants tightened a little.

Blinking, Spencer Reid looked up at Damien, "Why are you showing me this."

"Because, Reid," Damien started, sitting on a bench and lighting up, "I wanted you to understand Bonnie and Sky."

"Well, I do understand them."

"No, you don't. I know people called Bonnie bisexual, but you can't really even consider it that. Bonnie was never into girls before, it was when she met Skyler that she fell in love. And I mean, it was love. Those two went out for two years, never cheated on each other. They went everywhere, did everything together. They got persecuted practically at school. I mean, they were a real couple."

"So what happened?" Spencer asked, still examining the picture.

Damien laughed, taking a pull, "Unfortunately they brought the worst out of each other. When Bonnie met Skyler she only did weed and shrooms," Spencer gave him a look as he laughed, "I know, I know. But, to a full out junkies, those drugs don't seem so bad. Skyler was doing coke at the time. So, she got Bonnie into it. Of course, Sky didn't do it often and wasn't addicted. Bonnie at the time had a very addictive personality and soon she became so tolerant to the drug that she was doing it all the time. It wasn't until after Bonnie and Skyler broke up that she got into injecting heroin. Then it went all down from there. She would do it all the time. Once in the morning, once in the middle of school, once when she got home, once before a show, and once after a show. She would rush out just to inject heroin. Not to mention she was also drinking heavily at the time."

Spencer's eyes were wide, running his fingers through his hair as Damien went on, "She was a great girl and we weren't any different. We all drank so much, Lisa was a pot head, Joan did acid, Skyler was on coke, and Bonnie did heroin. I mean, I did it with her so I wasn't really helping the situation. Anyway, they broke up because Bonnie broke up with Skyler. After two years her grandma died and for a week she was straight. In that week she realized that she wasn't into girls. She had been living for two years so wildly that this was the first time she was opening her eyes. She broke it Skyler and it didn't go well for either of them. Skyler went home and tried to kill herself with a speedball. Bonnie after that went into a full fledged heroin addiction where she would just stay home for days doing it. She tried to kill herself so many times after that, overdosing, stabbing herself, you name it she tried it. Eventually her and Skyler got back on, they still had a friendship love for each other and they needed each other to try and calm the addiction. It worked for Sky, not Bonnie though."

The doctor's mouth was wide open, the story was never told in such detail to him before. He never knew the pain that Bonnie fully went through. He never knew how screwed up her life really was. He understood now why he saw such pain in her eyes. In a way though he was proud of her. He was proud that she recovered and got her life on tract. If none of this was told to him, he would have never suspected she had this past.

"But, that's not all," God, Spencer didn't know if he could handle anymore, "I know she's crazy about you. She hasn't had sex since she was 17, there's gotta be something special about you. I mean, I just used her. I saw a girl who was vulnerable and barely coherent. In a way I thought she'd be dead in a year so it wasn't hard for me to fuck her. That fucked her up, it's really the reason why she's not giving you a chance. I know that she really-"

"That's a terrible way to think," Reid stood up, he couldn't believe what he just heard, "Bonnie's a great girl. I've learned so much from her, how to really let lose. She's wonderful, I can't believe what you did to her. Because of you the woman that I….." He gulped, chocking at the words.

Damien smirked, "That you love? I know. She can do that. But, I can see she returns it. Just please, I know I messed up, look at me, I'm 34 years old, single. I have the same fucking truck that I had ten years ago when I threw her in there and fucked her. Spencer, if I can call you that, I told you all of this so you'd understand her better. I know she has a thing for you, you're so different then all of us. We've been assholes to her. Skyler proved to her that she wasn't capable of loving and I proved to her that she wasn't capable of being loved."

Spencer bit his lower lip, "I have to go."

The young doctor left with just that that day. He did not say good bye and he did not look back. He tried to keep calm, but inside he felt angry and hurt. He felt angry that a man could do such a thing to such a great girl. She needed help and instead of getting it, she was taken advantage of. In a way he could even accuse him of rape, he could finally use his badge to his advantage.

But, he just shook it off and concentrated on his hurt. He felt hurt about Bonnie being so used. Having the knowledge he did, he could only imagine how rotted her body was from all the drugs and alcohol she consumed. She still smoked, but thinking about how she was cutting down made him smile. In a way he could think about Bonnie and Skyler having sex, both of them naked and-

Pressing down on the breaks, he fluttered his eyes to look around. He was right in front of Bonnie's place. He hadn't even been thinking of where he was driving and it was like he was a zombie. Seeing her car in the driveway, he knew she was home. Bonnie had gotten a new car with the money she was getting from the job, they were paying her very well. She really liked the job, she loved being around all the cases and she loved learning about what people so sick.

Tightening his fingers around the steering wheel, he took a deep breath. He was already there, why not just walk in? Him and Bonnie spend hours at each other's houses, watching TV, eating, talking about work, and talking about anything under the sun. What made today so different. He sighed, holding his head. He had a terrible pain, his thoughts all jumbled. God, he hoped he wasn't going crazy.

He sighed and shut his car off, walking over to the entrance of the girl's house. During the day she often left her door opened, grabbing the handle he noticed it was locked. His eyebrow raised as he rung the doorbell, waiting patiently for the object of his affection. Only moments later did Bonnie open the, in an over sized T-Shirt and shorts. She looked tired, letting the doctor in.

"I stayed up late and wanted to take advantage of my day off." She explained, fixing him up some coffee.

Spencer smiled, "You could of told me that, I'll go home."

"No, don't. I was just thinking about you," He raised his eyebrows as she handed him a movie, "The Jacket. It scarred the shit out of me."

He laughed, shaking his head, "I've seen it before, it could never happen."

"With the shit you deal with this is the one thing you say isn't possible?" She just rolled her eyes, though one could tell she was just teasing him.

After a cup of coffee and a talk about Global Warming, Spencer yawned. His heart raced and his pants tightened as the co-worker move towards him. He never felt this sexually attracted to anyone before, not even while he was going through puberty. She knew this and used it, enjoying the wilder side of Spencer that he never knew existed. She made him a different man and she didn't even know it. She would never know his true feelings in word form, he didn't want her to turn him down again.

Her manicured fingers lifted his chin, staring into his eyes, "Look at those circles, Spence, and you talk about me not getting any sleep."

He gave a soft smile, leaning back and brushing a strand of hair from her face. God her eyes and smile just lifted him so much. He forgot completely everything Damien said to him earlier and concentrated on the Bonnie now. She was kind and beautiful, "Do you want to lie in my bed?"

With a nod Spencer was up, undoing the buttons of his shirt, letting it carelessly fall to the ground. Right now he couldn't care less about keeping his intellectual attitude. He would always be smart and in a way knew he had a higher IQ then anyone who worked on the force. Right now he was tired and in the home of Bonnie Deville. He always loved her bed, she had red satin sheets on her mattress.

Standing at the food of the bed, he undid his pants as he felt a presence behind him. He felt the sensation of nails gently dragging down his bare back. His eyes closed, breathing in a deep sighed, holding the hand that snaked around his waist. He turned around and embraced her in his arms, letting their lips touch. Her nails reached up and gripped his hair, feeling his arms wrap around her slender waist.

The sex was passionate and at the same time rough. Their bodies acted as one, sweat glistening off of both their bodies. Moans ran through both of their ears. Today's sex seemed different, Reid seemed like on a mission. He was the aggressor this time where normally Bonnie took charge. IT turned her on and at the same time freaked her out a little, what gave him this new confidence?

After it was all over, Reid laid there, the sheets barely covering his waist. His brunette hair was matted down to his forehead with sweat and was situated in every which way. His chest rose up and down rapidly, feeling his heart pound out of his chest. His member throbbed as well, he didn't know what came over him, but it felt great. He knew she was shocked, but God she never looked more beautiful.

As he laid there, he heard the bathroom door opening and watched her come out, "God, Spence."

"I dunno what came over me."

"Developing a bit of a wild side?" She smirked, laughing as she got under the covers.

He rubbed her back as she laid her head on his bare chest, "How was your day?"

"Not too special, before you came I was just sleeping."

HE smiled, kissing her forehead. He knew she wouldn't admit anything, that they were just friends with the unspoken affair, "I stopped by the office to get some paperwork done and then before I came here I stopped by to get some gas."

"You make it sound like such a monumental event."

"Expanding your vocabulary, Bonnie?" He smirked, laughing as his arm was gently punched.

"Well, I ran into Damien."

Bonnie sat up at this, staring into Spencer's eyes, then staring forward. After a few seconds she just shrugged and laid back, resting on his chest, "Good night, Spence."

TC Stark: Again I'm so sorry for taking so long, I'm surprised I got this all done tonight. I've been so busy, I have all intentions of finishing this story, just please bear with me.