Thanks for your reviews again! And I saw you all loved the cliffhanger ;) If you didnt realise, I love ending chapters on cliffhangers. I dont know why. Okay enjoy this chapter :)
Quinn woke up the next morning with Santana and Brittany sprawled over the bed with her. When did they even get here? She thought to herself. As she got up her head felt weighed down a little, but she'd had worse.
She walked down to the kitchen and put the kettle on, coffee always woke her up. As she waited she prepared her coffee and looked up at the clock 10:30am, is that it? She thought it must've been later than that, she went to sleep at at least 2am.
She finished making her coffee and saw Santana walk absent-mindedly to the kitchen, yawning as she grabbed a mug and made herself a coffee.
"Hows your head?" She asked blatantly.
"Better than expected, actually." Quinn said before taking a sip of her coffee.
"Thats good, mine is killing me. I can't believe how much it hurts."
"Sucks for you." Quinn said with a little smile. She felt happier than expected, probably because she fell asleep thinking of all the good parts of her encounter with Rachel.
"Shut up, box fairy. Speaking of getting some, are you going to see Berry today?"
"Maybe. If you drive me home at like midday I was thinking maybe we could stop by her house."
"Sounds like a plan to me." Santana said as she grabbed some eggs out of the fridge and turned the stove on.
It was now about 11:30am and Brittany was still asleep. Quinn quietly got changed and packed her bag with all the things she'd brought.
Phone, check. Pajamas, check. Phone charger, check. School books, check. She thought to herself, making sure she got everything. She walked back down to the kitchen, with Santana waiting patiently with her keys.
"Ready to go?"
"I guess so."
"So when we get to Rachels, I'll wait in the car. But if you go inside, I ain't waiting for you." Santana said as they walked to the door.
"Yeah, okay. So I'd better take my bag to the door with me, just in case?"
"You know it."
As they got into the car, Quinn took a big breath, trying to get her thoughts together as to what to say when she got to Rachels house. I'm so sorry. It was a drunken mistake. That's a lie, I'm completely and madly in love with you. No, I cant say that. How are you feeling Rachel? Sorry I mauled your face.. So did that kiss do anything for ya, sweetcheeks? I'm an idiot Rachel. Can we forget all of this happened? As Quinns mind raced as she tried to figure out what she should say, Santana drove to Rachels house. They were there before she realised the car had even been started.
"Off you go, box fairy."
"Shut up Santana. Okay." Quinn inhaled deeply. "I can do this. I can do this, right Santana?" Quinn said, eyes bulging with fear.
"Of course you can. Now go, before I drive away."
Quinn jumped out of the car, her bag heavy on her back. She stood outside the car for a second, looking at Rachels house. She took another deep breath and walked across the lawn and up the steps to Rachels door. She knocked on the door, her heart beating faster than ever. She thought she was going to pass out. She still hadn't thought of what she was going to say to Rachel. Shit.
She door swung open and there was Rachel, beautiful as ever.
"Hi." Quinn said, she hoped Rachel heard her greeting since she practically whispered it. Rachels eyes widened so much that Quinn was surprised her eyes were still in their sockets.
"Quinn, um. I- what are you doing here?" She said almost like she was panicking.
"I just uh, I needed to talk to you about last night. Look I'm really sor-"
"I can't talk to you right now, Quinn. Okay? I just need some space to clear my head and figure out whats going on." Rachel said as she shut the door.
Quinns heart dropped.
I completely fucked it up. Good fucking job Fabray. Fuck. She thought to herself as she turned around and walked back to the car, her eyes prickling with tears and by the time she was back at the car her face was a mess of tears.
"What happened?" Santana said urgently, hugging Quinn as soon as she was in the car.
"I- I went to ap-apologize and she said she n-needed to clear her head a-and figure out wha-what's going on." Quinn said, her voice jumping as her throat clamped up. She was crying harder than she ever had before.
"Baby, don't cry. It'll be okay. She said she needs to figure out what was going on. I mean that could be a good thing right?"
"No. Its fucking n-not Santana. I ruined everythi-ing. She probably h-hates me."
"She doesn't hate you, Quinn. She's probably just as confused as you were last week. Remember the way you were acting?" Santana said, moving her head so that Quinn would look her in the eye.
"I hope you're right. God, what if I fucked it up? Fuck, I'm such an idiot."
"Hey, Q. Don't hurt yourself over this, you still don't know what she's actually thinking. Just leave the situation, and you have a class with her on Monday, right? If she doesn't talk to you by that class, talk to her there. Okay?" Santana said as she pulled back from the hug and drove away from Rachels house.
Quinn took a deep breath, watching Rachels house as they drove away. I hope everything will be okay.
It was Saturday night and Quinn had been home alone since about 3pm. Her mother was going out with a few of her friends but Quinn couldn't decide whether she was pleased or annoyed that she was going to be alone with her thoughts.
The house was irritatingly quiet, so Quinn brought her laptop into the living room and turned on the television. She settled on watching re-runs of Will and Grace, and after watching an episode she realised it must've been a marathon of episodes. As much as she loved Will and Grace she couldn't keep her mind off of Rachel, just wondering what was going to happen on Monday. It was then that she decided to log onto facebook and check what was going on with everyone. As she scrolled through the recent updates she began getting bored, seeing typical things.
Finn Hudson: Mom and Burt brought home Taco Bell, awesome! -6 minutes ago
Santana Lopez: Cooking Britts and I dinner, stir fry! -13 minutes ago
Brittany Pierce: I'm scared to eat the baby corn... I don't want to upset the momma corn.. -15 minutes ago
As Quinn kept scrolling through she quickly became bored of everyone's dinner updates, and began feeling hungry. She was about to close her laptop and get something to eat when a status got her attention.
Rachel Berry: I'm not sure what to do, I don't think I've ever been this confused.. -22 minutes ago
Quinn felt a swarm of butterflies swarm in her stomach when she saw Rachels name, and her mind went crazy with thoughts after reading her status. She doesn't know what to do? Is this a good thing? Is she considering us as a couple? Or is she confused about how to tell me its never going to happen without hurting my feelings? Is that status even about me?
Quinn saw that there were comments on the status and couldn't help but see what had been said.
Kurt Hummel: Babe, what's going on? Ring me xx
Finn Hudson: What's confusing Rachel? You can talk to me about it. I can help you figure it all out.
Brittany Pierce: Its okay, I never know what to do. I still don't know how to get to homeroom class..
Rachel Berry: Thank you for your responses. Kurt I'll ring you now.
Quinn desperately wanted to know what Kurt and Rachel were going to talk about. She needed to know if it was about her. She wanted so desperately to message Rachel and ask her what was going on because regardless of her feelings, they were friends and had gotten close over the past week and she did care about her. And she didn't want to be the person to make her feel like crap or be confused. She wanted to comfort her. She wanted to hold her and tell her it'd be okay. That it is okay. That she shouldn't feel pressure or stress about the situation, if thats what the problem was.
She decided it was best that she turn off her laptop and just go eat dinner and finish watching re-runs of Will and Grace, so she got up off the couch and made her way to the kitchen.
Rachel was going crazy, thats as simple as she could put it. It was the longest Saturday of her life and although her fathers had arrived home she still felt so alone. Even the fact that one of her fathers knew what she was going through, she still couldn't help but be so confused. She knew she had feelings for Quinn, she really did. But what she didn't know what whether to act on them in case her feelings changed.
Rachel ran down to the kitchen and grabbed the phone, having a small chat with her dads about dinner before going back to her room to call Kurt. She typed in his number and waited for someone to pick up.
"Hello?" a small, feminine voice answered.
Oh, hello Carole. Is Kurt there?"
"He sure is, he's trying to grab the phone off of me as we speak."
Rachel smiled. "My call must be expected! May I speak to him please?"
"Of course darling. Come over for dinner this week, we miss you!" Carole said before hearing some kind of movement on the other end.
"Hey Rach, okay what's going on?" Kurt asked with a hint of panic in his voice.
"Okay," Rachel said as she took a deep breath, figuring out how she was going to say what she was about to say, "You're the best person to talk to about this I guess.."
"About what? Rachel you're scaring me a little whats going on?"
"Its Quinn."
"What did she do? Do I have to get Mercedes and sort her out?"
Rachel laughed a little, "No, no Kurt its nothing like that. I.. I think I like her."
"What?" Kurt sounded like he nearly choked on something. She knew that kind of reaction would be expected, but she still felt a little annoyed by his shock.
"I know it sounds odd okay. But this week has been amazing and I thought she was just being really nice but then last night.. I- she.." Rachel trailed off, trying to gather her thoughts.
"She what, Rachel? I mean I know you'd think I'd see this coming, with the whole theory on gaydar, but wow."
"Yeah I know. Okay she.. she kissed me last night. I mean she was drunk so maybe she just did it because of that but I just don't know. And she came over here this morning and I may have slammed the door in her face. But I panicked I mean I barely slept last night Kurt, I mean if it was just a drunken thing then she's messing with my feelings far too much, I mean sure girls have always been attractive to me but I never acted upon it, I just thought hey that chick is pretty, and then thought nothing else of it, oh Kurt how could I not see this coming? Should I talk to her about it or should I ju-"
"Rachel you're rambling, stop it!" Kurt yelled at the other end.
"Sorry. I just don't know what to do. Kurt, what do I do?" Rachel pleaded.
"I know you want me to literally tell you what to do, but I can't. When I was dealing with my feelings it was hard, so I know what you're going through. And I know its stupid and cliche but you have to do what your heart tells you, what you really want to do. Otherwise you're just going to be unhappy."
Rachel sighed. In a way she wish Kurt would just tell her what to do, but she knew that Kurt was right. "Thanks Kurt. You always know what to say. Why are you so wise?" Rachel said with a smirk on her face, she knew Kurt couldn't see it but she knew he would know.
"What can I say, I'm amazing." Kurt said with a laugh. Rachel laughed with him, she loved talking to Kurt, he always knew what to say.
There was a knock on Rachels bedroom door and then the door opened slightly to see her Papa peering at her. "Sweetie, dinner is ready." he said with a little smile.
"Okay I'll be there in a sec, Papa!" Rachel said as he closed the door. "I gotta go Kurt, dinner is ready. I'll talk to you later or tomorrow?"
"Sounds good to me, Rach. Bye bye!"
"Bye Kurty!" Rachel said as she hung up the phone.
Rachel got up and went to eat dinner, her mind wandering on what she was going to do when she saw Quinn on Monday.
It was Sunday morning and Quinn was still so tired. She had barely slept all night. She dragged herself out of bed, not even trying to sleep longer, she knew it wouldn't happen. As she walked down the hallway she heard her mothers tv quietly playing, she said a quick good morning to her mother and continued walking to the kitchen. She turned on the kettle and leaned against the bench. She was so exhausted, she didn't even know how she was going to function all day. Then she remembered a place her mother used to take her just outside of Lima. A lake that they used to go to with her sister when they were little, but she hadn't been there in years.
She turned off the kettle and grabbed her keys. She needed to clear her mind and it seemed like the perfect place. She said a quick goodbye to her mother after going to her room and quickly changing. When she was on the way there she realised she was going to drive past the Lima Bean, and decided to stop and get a coffee since she hadn't had one yet.
The carpark was almost empty when she pulled in, and when she got inside she saw how empty it really was. She had never seen it so quiet. She walked up to the counter and ordered her coffee and looked around the restaurant as she waited. She saw a man with glasses who she could've dworn she'd seen before but couldn't quite place who he was. She shrugged off any thought of it and turned around to see the girl behind the counter nearly finished with her coffee. As the girl walked towards her with her coffee she saw someone walk out of the toilets.
Short, brown hair. Fuck!
Quinn grabbed her coffee, quickly passing the money to the girl behind the counter and telling her to keep the change. She kept her head down as she walked past Rachel, who was staring at her, expressionless. She felt like she almost ran to her car, her heart beating fast out of pure shock.
What the hell was she doing here? Fuck. So much for clearing my head. Shit. Quinn thought to herself as she started her car and drove out of the carpark as quick as she could.
When she finally made it to the lake her heartbeat had slowed down and she was a lot more calm than she was at the beginning of the drive. She hopped out of her car and found a park bench that was close to the water. She sat down and began sipping her coffee, admiring how beautiful it still was. She breathed in the fresh air and closed her eyes for a second, relaxing further. There was no one else at the lake that early in the morning and she loved it. I should just come here every Sunday, take my mind off of everything and just take in my surroundings, how beautiful everything is. I should bring Rachel here.. Quinn put a hand over her forehead, trying to expel Rachel from her mind. Just for five minutes can she not be on my mind?
Quinn sat on the bench until she'd finished her coffee, then walked around the path circling the lake, stopping to see ducks and other wildlife that lived there, her mind was finally cleared of Rachel for a while, she got her thoughts together and she got the alone time she needed. As she finished walking around the lake and back to the car her mind wandered back to Rachel, but she didn't try to stop it this time. She smiled to herself, even though there was still the possibility Rachel and her friendship could be over, she was in such a good mood that she only thought about the positives that could happen. What if we do get together? I've been so focussed on the bad outcomes I never even thought of the possibility that she feels the same way. What if it's all going to be okay? Better than okay?
She didn't know what would happen tomorrow, but she was ready to face Rachel.