Thank you all for being so patient with this chapter! It took me ages to get into writing this chapter I don't know why. Anyway, hopefully the next chapter will be up by the end of the month, if not sooner. Fingers crossed. Enjoy this chapter, and please review! :)
It was Saturday morning and Quinn was excited. It was time to go to the carnival with Rachel.
The last week had been a little hard, but it was getting easier. Her mother would randomly ask her questions about Rachel and her sexuality, making Quinn uncomfortable, but Quinn wasn't too worried about answering them.
Quinn and Rachel had also managed to stay a secret from everyone in the school. With the exception of Santana, Brittany and Kurt. They both loved that their friends knew, but if others found out, Quinn and Rachel both didn't know what they'd do, they'd be terrified of what could happen.
So Quinn was happy to be going to the carnival with Rachel, their first real date. Quinns heart skipped a beat at the thought of it being a date.
Quinn put on a yellow sundress with flats and walked to the bathroom to put on her makeup and do her hair.
"How long until you leave, Quinny?" Judy said, popping her head into the bathroom.
"About 15 minutes, why?"
"I made you a coffee and bought you a donut."
Quinn smiled. "Thanks mom, I'll be there in a sec." Judy smiled at Quinn and left the doorway, leaving Quinn to finish getting ready.
After she was happy with her appearance she walked down the hallway and saw her mother sipping on her drink and sitting at a stool at the bench.
"How do I look?" Quinn said, sheepishly. She turned around to let her mother fully see what she looked like, a tradition they had done as long as Quinn could remember.
"Ready for a date!" Judy said with a smile before taking another sip of her drink. Quinn sat next to her mother, taking a bit of her donut. She was still a little concerned about her mother, since Quinns news she was drinking more, she even had a whiskey in her hand and it was 9am. She made a mental note to talk to her mother about it later, but she was currently too excited about her date to have a serious conversation with her mother. She chatted about the day ahead with her mother, Judy telling her that she planned to go shopping in a few hours. After Quinn finished her breakfast, she went back to her room, grabbing her bag and saying a quick goodbye to her mother before leaving and driving over to Rachels house.
When she arrived she got out and walked up the steps to her porch and knocked on the door. After a few seconds the door burst open and Quinn saw Todd, beaming, as he greeted Quinn and ushered her inside.
"Where's Rach?" Quinn asked, a little sheepish. Greg came in from the living room in pajamas and greeted Quinn.
"She's nearly ready." Todd said excitedly, smiling as though he were her father, and immensly proud. Quinn felt a little uncomfortable.
"Awesome," Quinn mumbled, pursing her lips into an awkward smile. Just then Rachel walked down the hall with one shoe in her hand, half stumbling into the kitchen, trying to put the other shoe on as she walked.
"Hey!" Rachel said, realising Quinn's arrival.
"You look.." Quinn said with a smile, looking at Rachels clothes; her lilac button-up shirt, half open with a white singlet underneath with light blue skinny jeans and deep purple flats, "amazing."
"You too," Rachel smiled as she walked over to Quinn, taking her hands and lacing them together with her own. Quinn instinctively leaned in towards Rachel before realising Rachels dads were still in the room, and she decided it was time to go.
"Well, lets get going. Its gonna take a bit to get there so.." Quinn said, trailing off.
"Of course, bye dad, by pa!" Rachel said as they walked out of the room onto the porch.
"I hate that I couldn't kiss you hello." Quinn said as they walked down the steps and towards the car, squeezing Rachels hand before letting it go in fear of someone driving past.
After they got int he car Quinn leaned over and lightly pecked Rachels lips, before smiling at her and driving out of the driveway and out to the highway.
Rachel and Quinn decided to listen to Quinns iPod, Rachel scrolling through and making fun of her music taste.
"Oh my god!" Rachel exclaimed before turning to Quinn, her eyes wider than she'd ever seen anyone's eyes.
"What?" Quinn said blankly, tryingto turn her attention back to the road in front of her.
"You have the Backstreet Boys on here?"
"They're cool okay! Give me that.." Quinn said, taking a hand off the wheel and trying to swipe the iPod from Rachels grasp.
"No no no, we're listening to the backstreet boys." Rachel said with a laugh. And with that Rachel tapped the screen, and the music started.
Everybody..
Rock your body...
Rachel began singing along to the song, making over the top hand gestures and pretending to be really into the song.
"BACKSTREETS BACK, ALRIGHT!" They both yelled in unison. And with that they were jamming out, Quinn happily stopping at a red light to wave her hands in the air and pursing her lips ad bopped along to the song with Rachel.
"Am I original?" Rachel sang low, leaning towards Quinn.
"Yeeeah," Quinn chimed back, leaning towards Rachel in response.
"Am I the only one?"
"Yeeeah,"
"Am I sexual?" Rachel said, making weird gestures that made Quinn raise an eyebrow.
"Yeeeah," Quinn said, holding back a laugh at the gestures Rachel was making.
Quinn laughed before continuing sing with Rachel as the light turned green, Quinn still bopping along with the song and tapping her hands on the wheel.
Now throw your hands up in the air,
Rachel threw her hands up, making jazz hands, as Quinn raised one arm as she giggled.
And wave them around like you just don't care!
At this point Rachel began throwing her arms around and practically shaking around her whole body, making Quinn laugh so hard she nearly had to pull over to calm down, and then both girls were in stitches as they drove down the highway.
The rest of the journey followed the same general theme, laughing at silly things and Rachel finding songs that made Quinn turn a bright red.
When they arrived at the festival there were floods of people walking around and Quinn felt her heart leap inside her chest, This is our first real date.
"Ready?" Quinn said, flashing a smile at Rachel as she got the keys and opened the door.
"Always." Rachel said as she got out of the car.
After Quinn paid their admission, they walked around to see which rides they wanted to go on, what they wanted to eat, what showbags they wanted, everything. Quinn grabbed Rachels hand less than a minute after they walked in, both smiling to themselves that they were in a huge group of people and they didn't have to worry about people at school.
Rachel squealed as she saw a Merry Go Round, pointing towards it. "We have to go on that, there is no question."
"Lets go then," Quinn said, before Rachel pulled her to the entry, Quinn paying the ticket man before being dragged once again before Rachel sat on one of the horses, laughing with glee as she waited for the ride to start. Quinn laughed to herself at how Rachel seemed to be like a child, so excited about the ride. Quinn took a seat on the horse to the right of Rachel and the ride began. Quinn and Rachel were both laughing as the horses rose and fell and after a few seconds Rachel jumped off of her horse and ran off down through the horses. Quinn quickl slid off her horse and followed Rachel to find find her sitting in a mini carriage, motioning for Quinn to sit with her. She quickly joined the brunetter and Rachel made a joke about being royalty, waving her hand slowly followed by a giggle. As the seconds past Quinn leaned her head on Rachels shoulder, smiling to herself as Rachel intertwined their fingers.
"I love being here with you." Quinn said, stroking a finger over Rachels hand. Quinn could feel Rachel smile as she leaned her head on Quinn.
"I love being here with you too. I can't believe we're actually on a date, it feels surreal."
"I know, its insane. But its amazing." Quinn said, Rachel responding with a hum. When the ride was over the got out of the carriage, the two girls hands never leaving each others grasp as they made their way to a rollercoaster, getting a cart together and screaming at they went up, down and around. They walked to the booth after the rollercoaster, laughing at the photo that was taken, Rachel in hysterics as she saw her expression. Quinn bought a copy of it, barely being able to calm down enough to tell the lady what number their photo was.
"Oh my gosh just- oh my gosh." Rachel breathed as they walked away, still staring at the photo. She wiped a tear from her eye from laughing so hard as they walked to get fairy floss, Rachel jumping up and down like a kid again, making Quinns insides turn to mush.
After Quinn put the photo away and took a bite of the fairy floss, she took Rachels hand in hers again, squeezing it with delight.
"This has been the best day, should we get showbags?" Quinn asked, turning to Rachel and grabbing more of their snack as they walked towards the pavilion with showbags.
"Of course, I really want that Scooby Doo one." Rachel said, nodding. As they walked into the pavilion, They turned left and Quinn saw a showbag and her eyes lit up.
"Oh my goodness, they have it! They actually have it!"
"Which one, c'mon Quinn there's like 50 be more specific."
"That one!" Quinn said, pointing to the Sailor Moon showbag hanging on display, Quinns yes lit up like fire as she saw a box with all of the Sailor Scouts, a keyring, a set of transformation wands and Sailor Moons tiara.
"You like anime?"
"Definitely! Especially Sailor Moon. I can't believe they have it I've looked everywhere for like 6 years!" Quinn exclaimed, dragging Rachel to the stall and buying one.
"This is the second last one, lucky you got here when you did," the man behind the counter said to Quinn as he handed her the bag.
"Thank you, thank you, thank you!" Quinn practically squealed as she looked inside.
"Lets keep going I want to find my one!" Rachel said, grinning at Quinns delight. They continued walking through the pavilion, Rachel sqeeing at a Wicked showbag, Quinn getting excited over a "World's Biggest" showbag, both girls laughing at a showbag of wigs and then Rachel finally finding the Scooby Doo showbag and flailing with happiness. Quinn asked the man for the showbag as Rachels excitement grew as she looked at what was inside the showbag. The man passed the showbag to Quinn, who turned to Rachel and bowed slightly.
"Your showbag, madam." Quinn said with a fake british accent, and Rachel giggle as she took the bag from Quinns grasp.
"You have to stop being so cute you're going to make me kiss you." Rachel said, eyeing Quinn before looking through the contents of the showbag.
"Well, saying that isn't going to make me stop being cute because I love your kisses." Quinn said, grabbing Rachels waist, the man at the register walking down to serve another person.
"Hmm, well then.." Rachel said as she leaned in to Quinn, her eyes fluttering shut just before their lips met. Quinn loved everything about Rachels kisses, how soft her lips were, how just before she pulled away she'd smile into the kiss, how Quinn could smell the scent of coconut coming off of Rachel. Quinn grasped Rachels waist tighter, bringing their bodies closer together as the kiss deepened, Quinn moving her tongue to lightly trail across Rachels lower lip and-
"OH MY GOD," a familiar voice yelled through the pavilion, Quinn and Rachel separating immediately to see if their thoughts were what was really happening.
There stood Puck, Finn, Mike, and three other McKinley jocks, mouths gaping and staring at the blonde and the brunette.
"Fuck!" Rachel yelled before turning and running through the flood of people, Quinn looking quickly at the boys who hadn't moved an inch and then running after Rachel, yelling her name and telling her to stop.
"Rach! Rach please stop!" Quinn yelled as they ran out of the gates and to Quinns car.
"Don't tell me to stop! Do you realise what just fucking happened?" Rachel bellowed.
"Of course I do but.. I don't get why its a big deal! So what everyone will know now and who c-"
"So what? So what?" Rachel roared as she stormed towards Quinn, "I didn't want people to find out yet, and now the whole school is going to know by tonight! I wanted to come out to everyone when I was comfortable, not forced out of the closet by six fuckheads who will blab to anyone they see!"
"Look, Rach I know its hard and school is going to be bad for a whi-"
"Bad? No, Quinn. School has always been bad for me. Being picked on all the time, pushed into lockers, slushied. Quinn that was bad. This is going to need a whole new word! You've been going through high school fine and dandy, everything has been handed to you because you're so fucking perfect so yeah, this will be bad for you. But for me its going to be hell. Worse than hell."
"Why are you yelling at me?" Quinn said, her eyes flaring with anger and sadness.
"Because Quinn, you're acting like this is no big deal!"
"Who cares what people think!"
"Me! I do, right here!" Rachel said, pointing to herself, "You might not because you're little miss perfect but I'm not, I've struggled through school and now its going to be so much worse."
"It'll be oka-"
"No. No it won't." Rachel said, falling to her knees and her head falling to her hands. After a few seconds of silence Quinn heard a sob escape the girls body, Quinn immediately falling beside Rachel and trying to hug her, "Get off me." Rachel said, looking up at Quinn through her tears, her eyes full of anger.
"But Rach I- I didn't mean for this to happen I just wanted us to be able to.." Quinn trailed off, she had no idea what to say to Rachel, she rarely had to comfort people, and she'd never had to comfort someone in that situation.
"Just take me home." Rachel said, wiping her cheeks and getting up and walking to the car.
"Rach can we just tal-"
"No Quinn, we can't. My life is officially over for the rest of the time I live in Lima, so just take me home." Rachel stated in a monotone. Quinn felt a huge lump in her throat, feeling like her world had just disintegrated in a span of three seconds. She held back tears as she unlocked her car and both girls got in. They threw their showbags in the back seat and sat in silence the entire car ride home, Rachel sniffling as her head leaned against the window as Quinn drove down the highway, her stomach churning and guilt sweeping through her, she didn't want to see Rachel cry or be upset in any way, but Quinn was afraid that she would lose Rachel, and she would do anything to keep Rachel as her own. The entire drive home Quinn fought back tears, trying to focus on driving but her mind was having none of it, always going back to the brunette sitting next to her.
As they arrived back in Lima, Rachel grabbed her showbags from the backseat when they were a few blocks away from Rachels house. When they got to Rachels house Quinn parked in the driveway and turned to Rachel.
"I'm so sorry, I don't even know what to say I just want everythi-" Quinn stopped mid-sentence as her heart ripped out of her chest. Rachel didn't even look at her as she opened the door of the car and got out. As she walked around the car, Quinn got out and began talking as Rachel got to the steps, making her stop walking, "Rach please, don't do this."
Rachel turned around and looked tired and sick of the world, "Quinn just- just don't talk to me anymore."
Quinns heart shattered as Rachel proceeded to turn around walk inside. A tear fell down her cheek before she could stop it as she stood in the middle of Rachels lawn, its over.