As Grimmjow watched a broken Shiro he remembered when he was alone.
"It's okay to cry Shiro," said Grimmjow," no one will think less of you."
"Don't you dare fucking patronize me," growled Shiro.
See said the voice in Grimmjow's head it's begun. They're turning on you one by one.
They are not argued Grimmjow they're grieving over something painful.
I highly doubt said the voice.
Thoughts emerged in Grimmjow's head. Grimmjow tried to comfort the two.
"Leave me alone," said Shiro.
I can't do anythign right thought Grimmjow.
Sitting down away from the twins he sighed and looked out to the water scape. The past once again being revealed.
As a child he to had loved his mother. He hadn't been the spitting image but the thing they had in common was hair color. Grimmjow took more over his father. Violent behaviour. Even though he had a violent behaviour his mother loved him till the very end. She's soothe his anger by hugging him and letting him rant and scream. The only thing his mother Kasumi wished was that her son was not troubled so much. That because his hair was blue that he wasn't always in fights. The thing that made her happy though was her son's friendship with a orange haired boy Ichigo Kurosaki. The two had become friends when Ichigo and Grimmjow attended the same grade one class. Kasumi always smiled when Ichigo would arrive with his mother but when Ichigo was nine and she heard what happened to his mother Masaki it saddened her as Ichigo and his twin brother Shiro never showed up. Instead somedays she would walk by the river to see the two. She wanted to reach out but couldn't do pained her. She watched a Grimmjow became more violent again as he'd come home more bloodied and one day she's had enough. Taking him to the principle the only thing she received was scorn for how she raised such a demon and monsterful child. Kasumi wanted to homeschool Grimmjow but Grimmjow refused. Grimmjow understood his mothers motives. Though once he turned ten he began skipping more school. His mother became sick with an illness that he had not know about. She had always been thin so he thought nothing of it until his mother stopped eating so much. She'd get sick a lot. Vomiting and feeling bloated even from eating something as simple as a grape. Grimmjow at first thought he'd have his first sibling but that wasn't the case because he soon found out his mother was dying. Kasumi tried to hide it from him but he found out when he went to the library and looked up in a medical dictionary her symptoms. He had lied and said he would hang out with Ichigo knowing that would make her happy. When Grimmjow went to the hospital he hugged his mother.
"I love you," whispered Kasumi.
Grimmjow saw the pain in her eyes as tears brimmed in his eyes.
"You can't leave me momma!" exclaimed Grimmjow.
"We will be together one day," said Kasumi," I promise."
As tears streaked down Grimmjow's eyes his mother's eyes became vacant and all Grimmjow could do was scream. Scream until his throat hurt. The nurses came in trying to calm down Grimmjow. Holding Grimmjow down as he flailed around. The nurses managed to get a sedative and injected Grimmjow. When Grimmjow awoke he thought everything was a nightmare. Running to his mothers room the hospital bed was empty and all he could do was walk slowly towards the bed as he sat beside it crying.
"Mommy why?" asked Grimmjow," I thought you'd never leave me. I need you."
The pain ached and spread through his body. Grimmjow felt numb everywhere yet he could tell his thraot was constricting as he cried. A nurse had walked by and recognized him from before. The little blue haired boy who would come here everyday to see his mother. She moved forward. Walking slowly as if approaching a wild animal. However the nurse never thought of the child as a animal. Only a grieving child who loved his mother.
"Your that boys mother," said the women.
"Leave me alone," whispered Grimmjow in a coarse voice.
"Your Mom always spoke of you," said the nurse," I'm Tama."
Grimmjow looked up at her.
"Your mother left something for you," said Tama," she worked hard writing it this morning for you. I want you to have it. She loved you"
Tama pulled a letter out of her jacket.
Dear Grimmjow,
I know you'll be sad and cry when you read this but don't. I love you but I'm dying. I don't have much time to live but remember I'll always love you. If I knew I was this sick I would have went to a doctor. But I was concerned more about you and thought that something like this wouldn't actually kill me. Don't hate or resent me. Love me. Isshin Kurosaki will be your care taker until you're old enough. He was so worried about you so he decided to be your care taker for now. Ichigo and Shiro will be there for you. When you were at school Isshin told me how they worried. I wish I could see you develop into the handsome young man that I know you'll become. I have a present for you that I was going to give you when you were older. It was the only thing that was special to me besides you. It was a precious gift from your father. I gave it to Tama the nurse to give to you. I want you to be happy.
Love, Your mother.
Grimmjow noticed the tear stains marking where his mother had written. Looking up Tama with tears in his eyes Tama moved closer.
"Do you have that gift my mother talked about?" asked Grimmjow.
The nurse nodded her head and handed it to him. One thing was his birth certificate with his mother and fathers name on it. As well as a necklace with the number six on it. There was also a small box that was wrapped around in a cloth. Opening it he saw a dagger with a note on the bottom of it.
This is pantera. It was your fathers dagger. I know you'll use it wisely.
Grimmjow stared at the dagger feeling its power.
A few years later
Grimmjow had been working a paper root since he had moved in with Isshin. Refusing any sort of gift and giving it to Ichigo and Shiro however they refused to take it and gave it back to Grimmjow so Grimmjow would give it to charity. He'd see Tama every now and then but he wouldn't ever look at her. He'd let her hug him but not once could he look in her eyes. Once Grimmjow hit the proper age he got a real job as a cashier once he was fifteen and moved out of the house. However it wasn't enough to survive. He stayed in school working part time but he was always so hunger. He'd though about stealing but never did so. Ever since he was twelve he'd look around for his father never being able to find him until he was walking the streets and was in the alleyway he saw a man who looked just like him however he had black hair. Grimmjow was currently off duty at the time. He'd been whoring himself to earn cash. He's fuck the old, the young, middle age, men, women. He'd always made sure protection was used but sometimes he never got paid. He'd earned a lot of money from it but he was unsatisfied for why he earned it. Grimmjow would always wear a disguise though. A black haired wig but it didn't matter since down stairs he was blue haired. No one in particular noticed though. Chasing the man as he called out his fathers name he continued to ignore Grimmjow until Grimmjow caught him and pinned him to a wall.
"Zoki Jaegerjaques," said Grimmjow.
"Let me go," replied the man," don't hurt me. I'm just a simple man."
"Did you know a Kasumi?" asked Grimmjow.
Zoki froze at the name he had heard. One he hadn't heard in a long time. He stopped and froze.
"I knew you'd come one day," said Zoki," what does she need money or something?"
"She's dead," replied Grimmjow.
"What?" said Zoki.
"Why didn't you claim me?" asked Grimmjow.
"Fuck off," snarled Zoki," you were nothing but trouble. You ruined everything. You killed her."
Grimmjow couldn't help but want to strangle the man instead he settled for a punch hard and square in the face.
"Fuck you you bastard!" yelled Grimmjow," she fucking died of pancreatic cancer and your the fuckwad who didn't even have the decency to go to her funeral or visit her."
Grimmjow never once saw his father again but vowed to do better for his mother. He stopped his current occupation and asked for more shifts and less breaks. Even taking a second job. He'd be dead beat tired every time he went to school. Half the time he fell asleep but he managed to keep good needed them for a good job but he didn't know how long he could last. He'd become frail. Walking like a zombie. Shiro and Ichigo tried to help but Grimmjow continuely denied them. To make his mother proud he'd have to make it on his own. Make her proud of what he would become and not sad at what he had done.
Grimmjow was broken out of thought when Rukia had bonked him on the head.
"You idiot," said Rukia," stop being so emo. For God's sake you need to be less serious. So he was hurt but you saved him .He'll always be happy for that."
Grimmjow looked at Rukia as he toyed with his number 6 necklace. Right now Grimmjow was so angry if he could he'd go swim down and punch a fish.
"Fucking fish why they gotta be so fucking fast," Grimmjow muttered to himself.
"What did you say?" asked Orihime.
"Nothing," replied Grimmjow," should we take Ichigo to the doctor?"
"yeah," said Shiro and held Ichigo.
"How do you feel?" Shrio asked Ichigo.
"Dizzy," whispered Ichigo.
"Well you could have a concussion," replied Grimmjow," why not go to the hospital."
Shiro nodded his head. The last time the twins had been in the hospital was when Shiro had gone a little crazy after their mother died. He and Ichigo would walk around where their mother had died but one night he had scratched the hell out of his arms. There had been so much blood and Ichigo hadn't noticed until he woke up. He was beside a crying Shiro who was bloodied. Ichigo had called their father and they placed him in a room under full surveillance. Shiro had his arms bandaged up and Ichigo stayed with him the entire time until they released him and sent him to a therapist for his problems.
"It'll be okay," Ichigo whispered to Shiro," I won't let anything happen to you."
"Take up back to the campsite," said Shiro.
Ulquiorra nodded his head and began to move back. The inner tube was in the boat and they moved quickly. Renji offered to drive them tohospital knowing Shiro couldn't do it. Rukia joined them as well as Grimmjow. Orihime wanted to but there was no room and Ulquiorra said they'd be fine. Ggio was angered that he didn't get to go. That rivalled with the fact of him not being able to go tubing.
As Renji got closer to the hospital Shiro got more impatient and when the nurse saw Ichigo she told them to go right in but just fill in a form and see the doctor. In the white room it was silent. Grimmjow, Renji and Rukia were in the waiting room while Shiro and Ichigo sat on the bed. After about ten minutes a blonde haired man came in.
"I'm Dr. Hirako,' said the man," can I presume that soaking wet man is Ichigo."
Shiro nodded his head," I think he has a concussion."
"Well what happened?" asked Dr. Hirako.
"Well we were tubing and King went to get a drink and we went over a wave and Grimmjow bumped him," began Shiro," then he hit an innertube. He last for a little while but then went under and was unconscious. Our friends Grimmjow did CPR and here we are."
"Well lets do some x-rays on Ichigo's head to see if he's fine," said Hirako.
Finding a wheelchair the doctor brought it for Ichigo and Shiro pushed him to the room. They placed Ichigo on the table and placed a shield apron over him. Ichigo closed his eyes as the constant throbbing in his head wouldn't stop. His head hurt and he was experiencing the worst headache in his life. If felt like his brain had wheels and was going over 100km/h and was trying to bash its way out of his head. After a few minutes Ichigo was placed back in the chair and was placed back in the room.
I wonder if thats the same Grimmjow though Dr. Hirako thinking of a blue haired man.
Doctor Shinji Hirako moved to the waiting room where he saw a blue haired man, a spiky red head and a black haired woman who was yelling at the blue haired man telling him to cheer up and stop acting so weak. Doctor Hirako cleared his voice.
"Are you Grimmjow?" Shinji asked the blue haired man.
"Yeah what's it to you?"asked Grimmjow.
"Can i speak to you alone?" asked Shinji.
Grimmjow got up and followed Shinji to a unoccupied room.
"What do you want?" asked Grimmjow and crossed his arms.
"I thought I recognized you," said Shinji," you're the bartender at Club Nnoi correct."
"Yeah and what's it to you?" asked Grimmjow rudely.
"You work for a close friend of mine," said Shinji," Nnoitiora. The bar manager. He has a kid near your age. Clings to Nnoi as if he were five still. Every since his mother died he's been so dependant on his father."
"Is all you wanted to do is talk?" snapped Grimmjow.
"No," replied Shinji," I just thought you'd wanted to know how your lover boy is. He's fine. I'll be giving him pain medication. Keep a close eye on him and have him rest for a couple of weeks. if his symptoms worsen take him here immediately so we can put him under surveillance."
"Shouldn't you tell Shiro that first?" asked Grimmjow.
"What he won't know won't kill him," said Shinji.
"Tch whatever," said Grimmjow," can we see Ichi yet?"
"Yeah,"replied Shinji.
Grimmjow left and went to tell Renji and Rukia they could see Ichigo. They ran while Grimmjow walked with his head down. Rukia turned around to see him and frowned and then was angered. Running over to Grimmjow she grabbed his wrist and began dragging him.
"Let me go Chappy fanatic," said Grimmjow.
Rukia stomped on his foot making Grimmjow curse loudly.
"Bitch," muttered Grimmjow.
"Hurry your ass up so we can see Ichigo," said Rukia," or else I'll continue the acts of pain."
Grumbling to himself he stopped fighting Rukia but was still infuriated by the petite woman who was dragging him around. They entered the room to see Ichigo.
"He has a fractured wrist,"replied Shinji from behind making everyone jump," he'll go in for an operation and you can leave after four hours. It'll probably take that long for the drugs to wear off."
Everyone nodded their head and moved to the bed where Ichigo laid. He was on his side his hands clutching his head.
"How long till I can go in?" asked Ichigo in a whispered tone.
"Not too long," replied Shinji.
"Not too loud," Ichigo said softly," my head hurts."
"That's normal for one who has a concussion," replied Shinji quietly," hows your arm."
"The pain in my head distracts me from the pain in my arm," answered Ichigo," Grimmjow can I speak with you alone?"
Grimmjow looked at Ichigo with wide eyes but nodded his head. Everyone evacuated the room and Renji wanted to stay behind the door but Rukia dragged him by the ear into the waiting room. Shinji went to check on another patient. Moving closer to the bed Grimmjow sat down and heard the crinkle of the paper as he sat down. Grimmjow wanted to touch Ichigo but knew it's only cause him pain. Sitting up Ichigo kissed Grimmjow's cheek startling Grimmjow.
"Thanks for saving me," said Ichigo," I don't think Shiro would last long if I died. I'm the closest person to him besides our mother and I don't want to leave him."
"I did it because I love you," replied Grimmjow," and I couldn't loose you either."
"I think I love you too," replied Ichigo,"don't leave me Reaper."
"I won't whispered Grimmjow," I'll be at your side. Or close by. If you ever need me say the word and I'll show up."
Grimmjow tenderly kissed Ichigo's lips watching as his face lessened with pain. Pulling back Grimmjow carefully picked him up and placed him in the wheelchair. Pushing Ichigo he noticed Dr. Hirako standing at the door with a wide smile and a slight blush on his face.
"A young love," said Shinji," oh how I wish me and Nnoi could still act like that.'
A puzzled look appeared on Grimmjow's face as his eyebrows knitted together. The doctor was gay.
"yeah well don't be looking up Strawberry," said Grimmjow.
"Oh I'm only faithful to Nnoi," said Shinji," I wouldn't dare look at a man that way.'
Somehow Grimmjow didn't believe the doctor. Grimmjow went back to the waiting room. He would have to wait forever. At first he was going to sleep but then he saw a little girl with greenhair that reminded him of himself. Grimmjow moved forward and sat beside the girl who was coloring.
"Hey," said Grimmjow.
"Hey," said the girl," I'm Nel."
"I'm Grimmjow," said Grimmjow.
"Gwimjaw," said the girl.
Grimmjow grinned and laughed.
"So whatcha doing?" asked Grimmjow.
"Cowlering," replied Nel," wanna cowler?"
"Sure," said Grimmjow and smiled," so why are you hear?"
"My momma and daddy are sick right now,"replied Nel," my older brothers are away from home so I'm waiting for my mommy and daddy."
Grimmjow felt sad for Nel. Hoping her parents would live. He tried to look happy.
"Then lets color," said Grimmjow.
I was so sad writing Grimmjows' moms death. I was sad. Btw Pesche and Dondachaka are Nel's brothers :D kinda like in the anime. Poor Ichi and Grim. Next chapter will be happier. Also to the fans who read this you are awesome. i noticed a lot have either favorites or put it as a story alert :D