Sorry for such a long wait. This chapter required much thinking.
Disclaimer: I don't own anything.
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I've become so numb I can't feel you there
Become so tired so much more aware
I'm becoming this all I want to do
Is be more like me and be less like you
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Ponys POV
What a great way to start off my morning. Darry yelled at me like there was no tomorrow. What for, you may ask? Well, my grades aren't real pretty, i didn't do the dishes, and the list goes on. I still wonder why i don't run away. Darry wouldn't have to worry about another mouth to feed. Soda might go back to his old self. I wouldn't have to encounter Darrys yelling. Its a win-win situation. But i don't know why i don't run away.
Maybe its because i still love my brothers. Crazy as it sounds, but they're still my brothers and i love them. I still feel like they might still care. I don't want to ruin them anymore. We promised mom and dad we would always stick together.
Mom and dad...i miss them like crazy. If they were still here none of this would be happening. We would be a family again...
I had school today. Yippee. I wasn't in the mood. I mean i do good, but school just bores you to death.
I started walking towards school, but i stopped. Im not going, i thought. I need to visit some people i haven't visited in a long time. I know Darrys going to flip. But what can he do that i haven't experienced yet?
I started walking away from the school, and headed towards the cemetery. Its on the other side of town, but i don't care. I have to waste the whole day. After an hour walk, i finally reached the cemetery. I walked around till i found my parents grave. I sat down in front of there graves and sighed.
I couldn't find the words. I don't know what to say...
"I miss you guys a lot," I said. Gonna be a long day...
Darrys POV
My God, can't Pony do ANYTHING right? I swear, he NEVER uses his head. Even if i remind him every single day, he just goes off and does something stupid. Man, one day he's gonna get himself into something he can't get out of.
Dammit, is it really that hard to do good in school? Right now he's failing every subject. Whats going on with him? He doesn't act sick, doesn't look sick...i don't know whats wrong with the kid, but he better get his act together now, or else he's in serious shit. Which, he's pretty close to being in.
After a long day at work, i drove home. I thought about Pony. Maybe im being too hard on him...maybe i should...i stopped thinking. Im not being hard on him. Im helping him. Im trying to get him to be a better person, which he clearly cannot do. He just wants to waste his life away. Why the hell does he do that?
When i got inside, the phone started ringing. I walked to it and picked up the phone.
"Hello? I asked tiredly. Man..im worn out...
"hello, this is principal Helena from Jay high school," Oh great, what did Pony do?
"Oh uhm, hello principal Helena...is something wrong?" I asked, furious and a little bit worried too.
"Well, yes. I was calling to confirm that Ponyboy was not in school today," She said.
Oh great. Fucking great...
"He never came to school?" I asked, not trying to let my voice raise.
"Yes. No one has reported seeing him." She said.
"Oh. Thank you," I said. I felt anger rising in me.
"You're welcome. Goodbye" She said, and hung up.
Ponyboy, where ever the hell you are, your in loads of trouble.
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Ponys POV
I looked up at the sky. It was getting dark. I looked straight ahead and saw a sunset. It was so beautiful...it was very gold...It reminded me of Johnny...
'Stay Gold, Ponyboy...Stay gold' that line kept on repeating in my head. Then Johnny died. The horrible nightmare of his death was playing in my head.
I couldn't take it. I screamed and grabbed my head. I wanted this to end. I didn't want to fight no more with Darry or Soda, I wanted the old Soda, I want Johnny and Dally back, I want my mom and dad back, I wan't to wake up from this nightmare...i just want it to END.
After i pulled myself together, i hurried home. It was getting dark, and i knew Darry was at home ready to yell his head off at me. I reached the house and looked through window. I saw Darry sitting in his chair, looking furious-which is a normal look, and Soda sitting on the ground looking worried-which is a look i barely see on him anymore, and angry. Why was he even here? I thought he hated me and Darry? I sighed and stepped inside.
"Where the hell have you been!" Darry and Soda said furiously at the same time.
Great, Im in deep shit now.
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I'm becoming this all I want to do
Is be more like me and be less like you
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