What now? What do they do now, just starring into each others eyes, not knowing whether to pursue something tonight, or just break away.

Rick let's one more second pass and blinks the gaze away from her, trying to constrain himself, at least a little. Kate couldn't help the puzzled look that crossed her face once she saw Rick look away again.

'What the hell is he doing, isn't this what he wanted?' Kate began to grow scared, what if he doesn't want her anymore, what if he's finally figured out he can do better.

Cursing to herself in her head for getting this drunk, this emotional, whether he could tell or not, she wanted to cry right there, didn't care if he could see.. Okay, of course she cared if he saw her cry, she was suppose to be a strong, kick ass detective, she was suppose to be able to

'hold the weight of the world on her shoulders'.

So she held in any over dramatic tears that were itching at her eyes.

"Kate…" Rick started speaking, pulling Beckett completely out of thought.

"I think I should head home." He tried saying with a sincere smile.

Rick wanted to bang his head into a wall, 'Hell come on man, get your self together! You WANT to leave…..right?'

Trying to convince himself that staying there would be a bad idea, but when he saw her eye's darken with hurt at his words, his heart couldn't help but plummet straight down to his stomach.

He needed to fix the look in her forest colored eyes, he needed to say something! Anything!

"I mean….. it's almost 1:30, you do have work tomorrow, don't want you to be exhausted." His eyes widened as he said it, trying to be convincing, pleading for her not to be hurt.

Kate shaking her head, trying to push away to emptiness she felt at that moment.

"No, yeah! Yeah… You're right, it is late." She tried to make her words lose from all the pain she felt.

But if she knew Castle, and she did, she knew that he could see straight threw her.

"Can I use your bathroom before I go?" He asked already getting off the couch, all but too eager.

Kate blinked trying to fight the lump in her throat.

"Ye-yeah" She shuttered out.

Trying to calm down all the nerves inside her stomach and head at that moment. Castle weakly smiled at her and stumbled a little towards the bath room. Once he'd finally got inside the private area, he physically slapped him self trying to whack away all his nerves running threw his alcohol infested veins. He looked at himself in the mirror, his vision terrible from being wasted. He turned on the faucet to her cream marble sink, cupping his hands under the water until they filled with the cooling H2o he needed, he bent down and splashed the water on his face.

When he toweled down his face he looked at himself again in the mirror.

"Come on Richard, make this right." he whispered to himself, making sure she couldn't hear.

He took a moment before he exited the bathroom, finally making his way back into her living room, she stood by the couch looking nervous. There was something else across her face but he couldn't make it out from where he was. Inching his way towards her he decided it was time to man up, even if he was drunk and would probably make a fool of himself, or regret it later, he didn't care anymore.

"Kate, what's wrong?" He needed to start asking to hard questions, the one he knew he would probably never ask sober.

Beckett straightened up trying to mask her feelings.

"What do you mean 'what's wrong?" She asked trying to seem oblivious.

Rick wasn't letting her get away with it though.

"I mean…" Taking a step forward "What's wrong." He looked at her stern.

She was flustered, what was she suppose to say?

'Everything's wrong because you don't want me anymore.' No, that wasn't an option in their situation. It didn't help that she was under the influence though, she was a bit more up front when she was. Not able to hold back her word vomit.

"I have no Idea what…" But he cut her off before she could finish her terribly acted out lie.

"Oh don't give me that! You know exactly what I'm talking about." He softened his voice once he began to speak again.

" Kate… I'm not leaving because I want to." His voice had so much meaning in it.

Kate felt daring and was honestly curious to why he really was leaving, so said what would make him continue.

"Then why are you, Rick." She sounded so desperate.

Castle was surprised she actually wanted him to continue, normally at this point she would have bottled up completely.

"This…this situation, it's…" he sighed on the words leaving his mouth. "complicated."

"What situation?" She tried schooling her features to be calm, because inside she was terrified to what he was about to say. 'thank goodness I have some liquid courage' She thought to herself.

Rick was appalled that she would act like she has NO idea what he was talking about, how could she do that. Didn't she know, that this was as terrifying for him as it was for her?

'I know she can be cruel but, damn.'

"I should just go." He said, so hurt and furious by her, he couldn't push away his feelings when he was under the influence.

So! Okay I'm really confused on what I'm going to make happen. I don't want to make it a fight fight BUT, It seems like the only way! Lol. Well maybe, idk, gosh I'm confuzzled. Anyway! Please keep reading! Well unless you haven't taken a liking to this, in that case I apologize. XD Review and all that other good stuff if you DO enjoy this story!