She reached out and held his arms for at least some type of comfort, she couldn't just stand there and watch him break down in front of her. She's never in the four years they've known each other, ever seen him like this. This wasn't the carefree, childish Richard Castle she's grown to know, no, this was a man being crushed by the woman he loved so very much.

He tried to shake out from her hold but grew weak from being drunk and crying. She wasn't letting him get out of her hold even if he did have the strength.

"Shh Rick..shhhh" She tried to sooth him, now her arms around him, her fingers running through his hair to calm him down.

Rick's face dug into the dip of her neck. Her hair soaking up all of his tears.

"I never wanted to hurt you." Her voice shaky, but could still hear the sincerity in it.

Castle lifted his head from where it laid and looked at her.

"Then why didn't you just tell me?" His eye's holding so much pain. His tears finally subsided, leaving him with red irritated eyes.

Beckett hated to have to admit that she was scared of anything, but right now it wasn't about her; no, it was about the man that she loved and adored so much. The man that was now in her arms a mess because of a lie that was so important to both of them.

"Because… because I was scared…" She paused swallowing to get rid of her tears

"…I was scared to face the truth, at the time." She studied his eyes. He did the same mirroring her.

Rick cleared his throat

"And what was the truth Kate?" His eyes burning into her soul at that moment.

She cursed to herself 'why did we have to get drunk tonight?' so angry that she was all emotional and vulnerable, but it was too late to step back now.

"That I could be… loved by someone that means the world to me.." She said wanting to fiddle with her fingers, but couldn't because they were currently preoccupied with his hair and upper arm.

"Rick it was all just too much at the time, I had to deal with the fact that I had just been shot. I didn't want to bring you into my problems, I didn't want you to see…." she stopped not wanting to carry on, her eyes beginning to water again, she bit her lip stopping it from trembling.

Castle egged her on though.

"You didn't want me to see what, Kate?"

his voice was soothing, a little more raspy then normal because of all the crying, but non the less soothing.

Kate looked in the distance but brought her eyes back to meet his, tears gently falling down her rosy cheeks.

"I didn't want you to see me" She closed her eyes giving herself a second to recoup causing more tears to crash down her face.

"Weak…" She finally got out and looked down, not wanting to see what he must think of her.

To her surprise, she felt his hand touch the bottom of her chin, lifting her face to look up at him.

"Kate you're not, nor ever have been weak" He said, while brushing his thumbs across each side of her cheeks to whip away the hot tears.

Beckett leant into his touch, closing her eyes. She needed this comfort, as much as she hated to admit it, she knew this is what she's wanted for the past four years. To just be held by him, let him comfort her in the way no other man has.

"You're anything but weak Kate… you're the most strong, extraordinary, beautiful women I have ever met in my entire life."

Kate's eyes fluttered open to that, she couldn't help but smile. How could this man, this loving, caring, man child, stand here and compliment her after all she had just put him through?

"Aren't you mad at me?" Kate was so confused.

"Furious" He smiled at her and without any warning, pulled her lips to his.

The kiss was gentle, but held so much passion that it didn't need to be pushed. They broke their lips apart, looking into each others eyes.

"We should get drunk more often" Rick joked. Both smiled until he brought his lips to hers again.

Okay I think that's how I'm going to end it. Tell me if I should continue or not! Idea's would be helpful if I should continue. Thanks again for everyone that IS reading lol!