JJ forced herself to take a deep breath as she struggled to come up with some sort of plan. Her thoughts began to consume her. No, she told herself. I will not be distracted. She was almost there, only a few steps remained at the end of the staircase. Her body shook with silent sobs as she willed herself to keep going. Don't think about this now. The words the psychiatrist said echoed inside her head. How dare he? She silently seethed. Thinking he knew her. As if. Bringing up Will and Henry like that. Will and Henry. That wound she'd worked so long to close was now opening again because of this damn situation and that damn psychiatrist. He knew nothing about her. Nothing!

Biting down on her lip, she willed the tears that threatened to flow to go away. She didn't want to be reminded of it. Of that day, the day that changed everything. The day that turned her entire world upside down.

It had been just like any other day. She'd kissed her precious baby goodbye. Though he was no longer a baby, he was talking, walking and even getting into trouble. He was still her baby. Her Henry. She'd promised she'd return soon. She'd even given Will a hug, like every other day, despite the fact they'd had a terrible fight the night before. This was something she was grateful she'd done, despite her anger. She'd even given him a quick kiss, promising they'd talk when she returned home. There was a hint of a smile on his lips though it never quite reached his eyes.

Her day at work had been relatively calm, relatively normal. Reid had practiced his 'physics' resulting in a scolding look from Hotch and amused laughs from Emily and Morgan, Emily had complained about men, Garcia had convinced her and Emily to go shopping the following week. It was all so normal, even down to Rossi and Hotch arguing about their coming soccer game for their team. Even down to Morgan teasing Reid about his new haircut. It was all so normal. There wasn't a warning about what was coming. No sign that told her that her family's lives were mere hours away from ending.

JJ somehow managed to force herself to take calming breaths; it lasted a few short moments before it all hit her again.

The day had continued on, they'd consulted with a few police stations on the phone about current cases. JJ continued to work at strengthening her profiler skills. Reid was slowly forgiving her for her deception. They even arranged to go out for coffee. The day had been a bit longer than usual as her thoughts had been absorbed with the fight that had happened. They were engaged and Will was growing impatient with her putting off the wedding. It was then she decided the wedding was going to happen. She'd decided. Three months from now, in July, they'd have their wedding.

With thoughts of making it up to Will, she'd consulted with Emily and told Garcia. Garcia was so excited, making plans left, right and center. JJ had gone home with lifted spirits. The smile on her face had even managed to put one on Will's. They'd decided to go for a drive, that simple drive... to celebrate. With Henry in tow in the back seat, she'd told Will her plans and the date. The smile on his face brought tears of joy to hers.

"One condition," she had said with a small laugh.

"Anything for you," Will said as he faked worry at this 'condition' of hers.

"A beach wedding. I want a beach wedding," JJ smiled as she leaned back in the seat.

"A beach wedding," Will stated. It wasn't a question but a confirmation and he leaned over to kiss his bride to be as they went through the green light. The terror in JJ's eyes alerted him and he'd turned, too little too late, to see the bright, flashing white light coming at him from his side. A drunk driver had run a red light. He looked back over at JJ, fearful for her and his son and that's when everything had gone black.

Sharp breaths now caused JJ to come close to hyperventilation as she lived through the worst day of her life. The so seemingly normal day. The guilt. If only she hadn't put off the wedding so much, they wouldn't have gone out to celebrate that night. She leaned against the rail of the stair to steady herself.

Her blue eyes had opened, the pain in her head causing her eyes to flutter as she forced them to remain open.

"Oh, thank god, JJ," Emily's voice rang out in her ear. JJ barely noticed as Emily ran to the door of the room and told the team. Within seconds, she was crowded by her concerned team; Garcia's sobs the only sound in the painful silence.

"Will? Henry?" JJ asked while the memories hit her. The accident. They'd been in an accident.

She felt the warm hands of Emily's touching her cold ones and she knew. It was written in their eyes, but she needed to hear it.

Emily shook her head as she squeezed JJ's hands. "Oh sweetie, I'm sorry."

JJ blinked again, while the tears fell down her face. She saw the pain on Hotch's face and knew that while the others sympathized with her, he was empathizing with her. This didn't help her. Somehow, she managed to swallow.

"JJ?" Reid's concerned voice asked her.

None of their words reached her, it was all a blur. A dream, it couldn't be real. They couldn't be...

"No!" JJ screamed, the hysterics hitting, the tears falling quickly and her body beginning to shake. She closed her eyes and opened them to see the doctor coming in, her team gone. They weren't gone. They couldn't be.

"No!" JJ screamed out loud as she forced herself up on the railing, trying to make the last steps down. Instantly, she knew that was a mistake and she forced herself to quiet her breaths to hear if any footsteps approached, having heard her outburst. Blinded by her tears, she continued the descent. She had to find Brandon. He was the only one able to numb this pain.