It Was Worth It In The End
By Jiberty Fan
Chapter 8
Author's Notes: If I owned "Degrassi", Holly J and Declan would be the power couple that they should and deserve to be and Sav would have more to do than just being someone's boyfriend. As a writer, I am more concerned with quality opposed to quantity. Thank you to everyone who has read and reviewed this fic or added this fic as a favorite. There is a bit of dialogue from the show "Greek" that I thought fit in well here. I own nothing. Please read and review.
Holly J sighed and Declan noticed.
"What's wrong, Holly J?"
"I just want to stay here with you in this little bubble and not leave."
"I wish I could tell you that it would that easy Holly J but it isn't. It never is. I don't have all of the answers. This is new for me too, you know."
"How Declan?"
"I never thought that I would find love where it wasn't all about the physical and my name and family's money."
"I would love you even if you were like me and had no money."
"I don't ever want to hear you say anything about money, Holly J."
"Well, we got to be honest, Declan. You're rich and can go to any university in the world with no problems. I have no idea if I'll get into Yale and if I'm lucky enough to get into Yale I still have no idea how I'll pay for it. How long is this supposed to last?"
"Forever."
"How can you say that? We're 17 Declan."
"You wanted an answer and I gave you one Holly J. I'm not afraid to tell you the truth even if you don't want to hear it."
"Why me? Why couldn't you pick another girl to put on a pedestal?"
"Because there is no other girl for me or that even comes close to you."
"Look, maybe I should go, Declan."
"Running away from me and hiding isn't going to change anything. I love you, Holly J."
Part of Holly J knew Declan had won this time and she hated it. Another part of Holly J thought that she would wake up someday and Declan would be gone much like her family's money. On the other hand, Declan was silently praying that Holly J wouldn't walk out on him. He couldn't bare to lose her again. Holly J looked at Declan and then at the door.
"Please don't go, Holly J. I know you're scared of the future and what might happen but in the mean time I think we should try to enjoy the present. That being said I think you needed to know that I want to spend the rest of my life with you. I didn't intend to frighten you."
"I don't think I am good enough for you, Declan. It's not just the money. I am afraid that I am going to lose you." Holly J's voice faded to a whisper. Holly J could barely look at Declan.
Hearing those words from Holly J hurt Declan on a deeper level than Holly J would ever realize.
Declan gently raised Holly J's face so she would have no choice but to look right at him.
"Holly Jeanette Sinclair, I need you to listen to me please. Declan somehow managed to keep his voice calm and gentle even though this conversation was plain and simple breaking his heart inside. For the first time in his life his last name and the family money weren't enough to take away the ache in his heart. "First of all, you are never going to lose me to anyone or anything else. Secondly, I'm not going anywhere without you ever. I just wish you could see how beautiful and special you are. You deserve the best that the world has to offer." Declan looked deeply into Holly J's eyes.
Declan was waiting desperately for a response but truth be told he had all the patience in the world for Holly J.
"You always know how to make me feel better, Declan. I just didn't want to be thought of as some gold digger…"
Declan heard enough and gave Holly J a gentle, welcoming kiss that quickly became passionate. Declan really wanted the kiss to defuse the tension that he could feel in the room and in Holly J's body and mind.
Holly J finally relaxed in Declan's arms and rested her head on his chest.
"I really do love resting here with you Declan but, I'm starving."
"We can order some take out, Holly J, your pick."
"Pizza, no, what about Chinese or that new Greek place?"
This was as lighthearted a conversation as they'd had all day and Declan loved watching her thoughts go from one type of cuisine to the next. Declan got out his credit card but Holly J stopped him.
"My treat, please, Declan."
"Okay, Holly J whatever you wish."
The End Of Chapter 8. To Be Continued…