"What do you mean 'what'?" Aline asked. "Isn't that why you're crying?" She asked.
"No." I said. And obviously started crying again they all gave me a minute I finally calmed down. I started taking deep breaths. "I can't believe this! Actually I can he slept with me, that's all he really wanted." I said in rage.
"No," Izzy started. "I'm promise you he changed. He loves you, I don't understand." She said.
"I don't understand either." Kealie said. Of course she didn't.
"Shut up, Kealie." Aline hissed.
"I'm going to talk to him." I said. I stood up on my limping leg and marched to his room. I banged on the door. He opened up the door shirtless.
"Hey baby-" I slapped him. "What the hell?" He asked. I walked into the room and he shut the door.
"When we're you going to tell me university decision, baby?" I asked him. "I mean it was a dumbass idea to make the decision before you slept with me, so I'm so glad you waited till afterward." He tried to speak. "I mean now you can resume your title as number one man whore."
"Clary-"
"Why didn't you tell me before?" I asked angrily the tears threatening to run down my face.
"I just recently made my decision." He said. I nodded my head in disbelief. "No! No that came out wrong." He said.
"Tell me," I started. "Did you love me or was that just a pile of crap to?" I asked.
"No, Clary, I love you." He said.
"But, not enough to go to a different college for me?" I asked a little more calmly.
"I don' understand why you're getting upset with me for my decision." He said. "We can still have a long distance relationship but you think that won't work. I don't understand this is your fault as much as it is mine . It's not always about you."
"What's this?" I asked. Gesturing between us.
"Our breakup." Jace stated. That's when the tears started rolling down my check. Break up. That was never my intention. I just wanted to know why he chose that university. I felt my hear shatter into a million pieces. "Shit Clary-"
"My mom and dad had a long distance relationship, and for three years I kept from my mom that he was cheating." I said quietly. Jace's face softened. "And now he's dead karma's a bitch. That's why I hate them. Nearly tore my family apart. And your right, it's you decision and I shouldn't be getting upset." I said.
"I'm so sorry." Jace said. "I didn't know." He continued.
"I guess I doesn't matter" I grabbed the necklace that he gave to me that I was wearing, ripped it off and dropped in on the floor. "Because we're over now, right?" I said and ran back to my room with Jace calling my name.
I slammed the door to my room and slide down the door, and burst into tears. Everyone was probably already at the dinner, because I heard Jace and Max walking down the hallway probably on their way. I fixed my hair and makeup and walked out the door. I prayed to god like Sebastian was walking by so I could walk with him, but with my luck it was Jace that was leaving at the same time.
"What friggin' god did I pray to?" I mumbled underneath my breath.
"What was that?" Jace asked.
"Nothing." I said. An awkward silence filled the air was we walked to the dinner of the last night of the cruise. We walked into the room and immediately I saw our gang all sitting down. This should be interesting. There was only two seats left…and they were next to each other. Great. Jae and I quickly sat down and the conversations started.
"So Clary, are you excited that you go back to school in what is it? Three weeks?" Robert asked. I thought about my answer for a second. There would be no more Jace, was that a good thing or a bad thing?
"Yeah, a new start is something I need right now." I said and politely smiled.
"That's good. Are you looking forward o seeing all your friends?" He asked keeping our conversation flowing.
"Yeah it's my senior year and going to make all that I can." I said.
"As you should." He replied taking a sip from his beer.
"Can I have so of that?" Jace asked obviously talking about the beer.
"Absolutely!" Robert said with the same with the same enthusiasm as he did replying to my question. "Not." He said. What kind of a father do you think I am?" He asked. I giggled a little bit at that.
I heard Jace mumble a 'thanks' with heavy sarcasm and Robert continued making conversation. I didn't really say much the entire time. I ate in silence next to Jace who slightly making conversation with Max who was on the other side of him.
Ding ding ding…
Figures I was getting by tonight without an incredibly cheesy and cliché toast by Luke himself.
"Everyone I' so glad that I got to share this experience with you, my, friends, my beautiful wife and my new family. So to family and how important it is cherish the memories and love." He finished.
There was a bunch of choruses of 'to family' and I heard the piercing noise of all of the glasses clicking together, mine of course filled with lemonade.
The rest of the night was a blur, a haze. I had so much on my mind, I couldn't handle it. I found myself continuously staring at my empty glass. Made me think of a week ago when I was fiddling with my name bar at the wedding. When all I wanted to do is get noticed by Jace who was making out with Aline. When all Jace wanted to do is get my attention. When Jon and Izzy weren't together, and Sebastian didn't have a thing for Izzy. When I hated Aline and Kealie and for all I knew Aline was only into boys. When I could only call Izzy an friend not a sister. When I didn't love Jace, it felt like it had been a lifetime since all of that.
The next thing I knew I was being awakened by Izzy.
"Time to get our crap together. " Izzy said. "We have to be off the ship in an hour." She continued, she was fully dressed in a red spaghetti strap top ad a pair of black shorts. I got out of bed, put on a gray of the shoulder t-shirt and a pair of dark jeans shorts. I packed all my stuff, it was really awkward seeing as Izzy didn't really know the whole story.
"Okay," She started. "Can we just clear the giant elephant in room?" She asked. "You like my sister you can tell me anything." She said. "It will be a secret."
"We broke up. We're done." I said I'm sure there was a lot of pain in my voice because it hurt like hell to say that.
"I just can't believe that he chose that university, it seems weird, he really loved y-" I cut her off.
"Please don't finish that sentence." I begged. "I don't really need to hear that, okay?" I asked a little more harsh then I intended to.
"Okay." She said putting her hands up in a defensive position. "Come on everyone will be on the deck saying goodbye, did you grab everything?" She asked looking underneath the bed to make sure nothing was under there that she could have forgotten. I went and opened the doors to the patio to make sure I didn't leave anything there. I walked back in and Izzy had all her bags in her hand.
I followed her lead and grabbed my bags to. She walked out of the room I was about to when I glanced back in and smiled. All the good and bad, I will never forget this room, this cruise and these people.
Everyone was on the dock saying their goodbyes. I got pulled into many hugs …by Izzy. It was going to be sad, leaving all of these people I've learned to love, even the one who broke my heart. I turned around and said goodbye to Sebastian, I regret not spending more time with him because he is an amazing person to call a friend. I hugged both Mayrse and Robert both of them wished e good luck in the future and in school. Max didn't really want to hug me, so I caught him by surprise and planed a wet one on is cheek. That earned me a 'gross'. Alec came up and gave me a hug, told me to keep my head up I really respected Alec I think that he's been through so much ad he still puts a mile on his face. It's really inspiring. Suddenly I was pulled aside by….Jace!
"Yes?" I asked probably a little too harshly.
"I really screwed up and I know that and I'm sorry, I just couldn't leave without saying goodbye." He explained.
"I would have come said goodbye." I said honestly and I would have it was the complete truth.
"It's just so many people thought it would be okay to walk out on me with se sort of goodbye and I couldn't take it if you did that too." He said and it broke my heart to hear that because I knew exactly who he was referring to. His parents. We hadn't talk too much about them I just the left him when he was ten.
"Well, this is it." He said. I looked over where Robert and Mayrse were staring at us, obviously he was the old up. "Goodbye Jace." I said.
"Bye Clary." He said and walked over to his family. They walked of that doc and didn't look back. He was gone.
About three hours later I found myself in a loud car now that I had three new family members, in silence. Jace would be I a plane right now, on his way home. I wonder what he's thinking about. Clear you id Clary.
Because what he's thinking about doesn't matter.
It doesn't matter.
There will be one more chapter…if I get 15 reviews!
If not this is it. Guys I really didn't know how to end the cruise so, I need the reviews so I know how I did. Please review, the end of the story depends on it…literally.
~Hermosa Pesadilla