"Oh my God! Mom what are you doing here?" Nick asked worriedly.
"Can't I visit my son?" she responded.
"Is dad here?" he asked, his voice wavering, completely disregarding his
mom's question.
"No, he had to work." She smiled slightly. "Now can you explain what
happened please" She asked, raising an eyebrow.
"Erm... Well... Like..." Nick murmured.
"Nick and I are together Mrs Duvall" I replied, regretting it as soon as the words left my mouth. "I'm sorry." I added.
"It's okay Jeff, I always thought you two would be a cute couple," she
replied sweetly "How long have you been together?"
"One month tomorrow," I replied.
Nick grinned. "Oh yeah, I forgot to say, I hope you aren't doing anything
tomorrow. I've planned something special." he said excitedly, sliding closer to me.
"Ah, I am sorry, I have got a hot date tomorrow Nicky." I said with a wink.
It wasn't till I heard Mrs. Duval's laughter that I remembered she was in
the room also. "Shit, forgot you were there" I said quietly.
"So, does dad know?" Nick asked apprehensively.
"Yes, but it's fine sweetie. You know we both accept you and I'm so happy
you finally got with Jeff - you two make a perfect couple," she replied,
beaming at her son.
"Thanks, Mrs. Duval" I replied, sadness washing over me. Oh, how I wish my
parents accepted me.
"No need to thank me, honey, and call me Emma."
My mom used to call me honey. I miss the sound her voice, well, when she
actually liked my existence.
Emma decided to stay for a while so that Nick and her could catch up. I hung around for a bit but after a while I left them alone, not wanting to get upset infront of them or intrude. I walked off to Blaine's room, hoping he could take my mind off things. Although all he goes on about is Kurt and one can only hear so much about a guy before going crazy, I didn't want to talk to anyone else right now.
I knocked lightly on the door.
"Hey Blaine, you in?" I called as I walked into his dorm to be greeted with the sight of Blaine making out with someone. Someone who wasn't Kurt. "Oh my God! I'm sorry I'll just go... Seb?"
"Hey", Sebastian replied quietly, crossing his arms in front of him.
"What are you doing here? I am guessing that is your Dalton uniform sprawled out over the floor." I replied laughing.
"I-I uh, I just transferred here."
"And you're already half naked with Blaine? Wow you work fast." I raised an eyebrow, finding the situation confusing but also very amusing.
"Oh, yeah. Um, he was showing me around and then he showed me his room and
well, one thing led to another..." he laughed, biting his lip.
"Okay, well I'm just going to get going then and leave you two alone," I
said, walking away. "Oh, and welcome to Dalton, Seb.I hope we can catch up
once you've remove your tongue from Blaine's mouth," I stated with a wink
and slammed the door shut.
As that didn't work, I decided to visit Trent who's dorm was conveniently
only a few doors down.
Once again I found myself knocking on the dorm door and walking in on two
boys making out.
"Oh for fuck sake! Is everyone making out in this school now?" I shouted as I turned from the dorm where I had found Trent with his tongue stuck down Thad's throat.
Not really wanting to walk in on yet another homoerotic situation, I decided to leave the dorms and head outside for some fresh air. As I stepped into the warm, September air I saw Nick and his mom exchanging hugs and saying goodbye.
"Goodbye Emma, it was lovely to see you again," I said as I walked up to
them, smiling.
"Oh, there you are Jeff honey, we wondered where you had disappeared off
to," she replied caringly as she pulled me into an embrace.
"Sorry, went to talk to some friends," I replied, my voice wavering as I
realized how much I wanted my mom to care.
Nick and I stood, hand in hand, as we watched her drive from Dalton and into the distance, leaving us both behind in our own little world once again.
Later that evening, after a gruelling Warbler practice, Nick and I sat
cuddled up in bed. He kept staring at me, as though he wanted to say
something but every time he opened his mouth to speak, he was shut it
quickly and turn back to the television.
"Are you alright, love? Something seemed up earlier."
"I-I'm fine, it's nothing, honestly." I smiled wanly.
"Well obviously it does. You have been acting off since my mom turned up."
He asked, turning to me. "Oh, and I was thinking maybe we should tell your
parents now that mine know."
I stopped dead and moved from him. "No, no we can't, no. I don't want to.
Please can we not?" I begged, my eyes widening.
I can't tell him why and I can't tell them, I can't go back to hospital. Not again.
"Why?" He replied defensively. "Don't you want your parents to know about
us? Are you ashamed of me, Jeff?"
"No, of course not! No, I just can't. Nick please, please can we leave it?" I pleaded.
"But why, Jeff?" He asked angrily, staring right at me.
"I-I can't tell you and I can't tell them. Please, can we just leave this
now?" I replied, gulping as I watched my boyfriend grow angrier.
"No. We can't just leave it! I want to know what the fuck is going on, Jeff because if you can't even tell me something little like this, then maybe. Maybe we shouldn't be together! Why won't you just tell me? And why won't you tell your parents? You know what, you have never told me anything about your parents and yet you know everything about mine." Nick stood up, the volume of his voice increasing. I heard shuffling about outside the dorm and I realized our friends could possibly hear what was going on. "Well? Fucking answer me, Jeff."
"Because I don't want to go back into hospital, Nick!" I screeched before
letting my head drop into my hands.
"What?" Nick's expression softened and he looked at me in confusion and
concern rather than anger.
I sighed and ran my hands through my blonde hair, looking back up at him.
"When I came out to them a few years back, my dad didn't take the news too
well. He kept coming home drunk and if I did something slightly wrong he
would attack me and tell me it was because I had chose to live as a
homosexual to spite him. It ended up going on for a few months until one day I had enough and I tried to stand up to him. And, well, he attacked me and pushed me down the stairs. I-I ended up in hospital for a few weeks. I can't tell them. I don't want to get hurt by him anymore. I can't Nick. I'm sorry. I wish I could tell them I really do Nick but I can't deal with the pain. W-when I saw you and your mom today, it made me realize what I no longer have." I was facing him now, tears streaming down my cheeks. He stared at me from a few moments before moving closer and pulling me into a tight embrace, kissing the top of my head. "I am sorry, Nick. I am sorry."
"No, don't be. I am sorry I wasn't more understanding."
I moved back from him and smiled slightly. "Thank you."
He returned the smile and planted a chaste kiss on my lips. "Come on, let's go to bed. We are both tired and emotional and we have a long day tomorrow." I nodded and sauntered over to the bed, sliding in and snuggling up to Nick as he moved in next to me.
"Night, baby."
"Night, Nick."
"Morning, Jeff" Nick said as he kissed the top of my head. "Happy one
month."
"Happy one month," I replied leaning up to kiss him on the lips.
"Okay, so I planned the day so get ready in comfortable clothes and we shall leave." he said cheerily, moving back from the bed
"I'm guessing you won't tell me where we are going?"
He shook his head, grinning and bounded away, telling me he would be in his
car when I was ready.
I showered and dressed quickly and ran downstairs, jumping into his car
excitedly. Most of the time I hate surprises, but when it comes to Nick, I
don't mind them too much.
The drive from Dalton didn't take too long and we ended up arriving at the
park he had took me to on our first date. The sun shone brightly, despite it being September and we sat on a mat in the park, watching the world go by.
We ended up falling asleep after having an ice cream and so when we woke up later on, dusk had fallen over the now empty park.
"Come on, we're going to dinner." Nick smiled as he pulled me up from the
mat and kissed my lightly on the lips.
We got back into his car and after 10 minutes arrived at a posh Italian
restaurant. I smiled as we sat down in our own private booth. Italian was my favourite and Nick knew that very well.
We finally returned back to Dalton later on that evening after a lovely meal where Nick paid - much to my annoyance - and then a leisurely walk around Westerville. We came straight back to our dorm and agreed on a Harry Potter marathon to end a wonderful day.
"You are so perfect," I breathed, sitting up and straddling him.
"You're the perfect one," he replied, kissing down my face from my forehead until he reached my lips, grazing his against mine lightly. I grabbed the back of his neck and pulled him closer to deepen the already very hot kiss.. He ran his tongue along my bottom lip, asking for entrance and I opened my mouth, letting our tongues entwine.
He reluctantly pulled away when air became a must and kissed my lips lightly again before turning back to the TV. "We're missing the film," he breathed."I don't care," I replied as I pulled his face back down for another kiss.
We carried on watching the films till the early hours of the morning when we fell asleep. I smiled as I fell into a deep slumber. I had the most perfect boyfriend.
The next few weeks went by in a beautiful blur filled with Nick, his lips,
work and singing.
"But why don't you want them to know? Nick asked one evening, sounding
slightly annoyed as I told him that I wasn't ready to tell the Warblers
about our relationship.
"It's not that I don't want them to know. I-I just don't know how to do it."
I sighed. "And what if they tell their parents who tell my parents?"
"Oh for fuck sake, Jeff why does it always have to be about your fucking
parents?" Nick shouted. "It's not like they even give a fuck!"
I winced. It felt like a punch to the stomach.
"W-what? What the fuck, Nick!" I cried incredulously. I felt tears begin to prick at my eyes and I turned from my supposed boyfriend.
He paused. "Jeff, I-I didn't mean it like that." I turned to him and scoffed not caring for the tears lining my cheeks. "I-I, I was angry, I don't mean!"
"Oh fuck off, Nick. If you said it, you obviously meant it." I spat. "You
know what, fuck it. I am going for a walk."
"No, Jeff, wait!"
I closed my eyes as I shut the door behind me, sliding down to the floor and sighing. What had just happened?
"Jeff?"
I looked up to find Sebastian and Blaine standing over me, concerned
expressions on both of their faces.
"Oh, hey guys." I smiled wanly, standing and wiping my eyes with the back of my hand. "You alright?"
"Fine," Sebastian nodded. "Are you okay?"
"Yeah, fine. Sorry. Um, I was just about to go for a walk but I was wondering if I could stay in your dorm tonight? Even if it's on the floor, I am not bothered."
Blaine and Sebastian looked at each other, confused.
"Uh, yeah sure." Blaine said slowly. "Why?"
"Long story," I sighed. "Just don't tell Nick where I am, okay?"
They both nodded and turned and walked back the way they came.
"Hey, guys?"
They turned back around.
"You make a lovely couple," I smiled.
Blaine returned the smile. "Thank you, Jeff. Just remember, you'll find
someone too."
I nodded and watched as they turned the corridor. If only they knew.