We were sitting in the sweat lodge mostly because we didn't wanna anyone to see us making out.
"Sooo" I say to Jake trying to catch my breath
"Sooo what?" he said with a huge smile on his face. Wow he must have wanted this as much as I did.
"So when are we gonna tell Clare about you know" I said gesturing to both of us "Us"
"Umm well" he said avoiding eye contact, his hand rubbing the back of his neck " I was kind of hoping that umm. We could not tell her about us"
"Umm I think she will notice when she sees you with your tongue in my mouth." I said shivering wanting him to kiss me again. He looked up at me with those big green eyes, god those eyes!
"I was thinking it could be our dirty little secret" he said smirking leaning in to kiss me again. It took all my will power to push him away.
"What are you embarrassed to be with me?" I said starting to get mad.
"No no!" he says quickly trying to take back what he said "it's just ... I mean I get enough crap for dating my step sister I don't think I need some for being gay and being with the school emo is embarrassing enough" his eyes widen when he realized what he said "Eli that's not what I meant to say." It was too late I was already on my way out, he grabbed my arm trying to stop me I shook him off. I turned around to him with piercing eyes
"Figure out what you want because I'm sure as hell not gonna sneak around with someone who doesn't even want to be seen with me." I run out because I know that his was to fast not to catch me. I can hear him running after me, I just run faster with tears blinding my vision.