AN: Oh my god, I'm so sorry. I know that I was gone for over a month but I promise that you'll probably get an update again within a few days. It's just that the real world had so many responsibilities that I had to break from this in order to meet all of them. But I'll be back to this and my other fics from now on. Sorry I took a break to write that one shot, but after tuesday's episode, I wanted to kill someone.

So, I'm about to gloss over all of their pre-teen years because I find them awkward to write, but I can attempt if someone would like me to.

Warnings: actual mentions of smut in this one, in the form of BJ's and such. Good old sebbie is growing up.

Chapter 4

Sebastian's eighth birthday finally came, with much merriment from Kurt, who had Carole help him make cookies, which Sebastian ate like they were a precious commodity, which, in his expert eight year old opinion, they were.

Then came many years, where Kurt wasn't the only thing that the duo competed for, and it was found that both were at the top of their class, but Sebastian's teachers dreaded his arrival while Blaine's decided the boy was an angel. Sebastian excelled at all sports, while Blaine was just a member of the team, although he did compete well.

And then came 13, 14, and 15, and the discovery that unlike some of their classmates, they liked other boys.

Blaine was the first to realize, while he was waiting for Kurt at the trading post. He had been watching Delilah walk in, knowing that all the boys talked about her, about her unending beauty. But while Blaine could certainly appreciate that she was a pretty girl, she didn't make his heart pound. He had then glanced at all the other females in the area, noting with a shock that he didn't like them at all. And then he had watched Pete and Adam come in, holding hands and snickering, and had realized that that was the vision he wanted to pursue. He looked at all the boys walking in, and noticed that he could get worked up about them. And then Kurt had walked in, with his beautiful blue eyes, shy and bashful as he scurried around the other patrons to get to Blaine, and Blaine had thought oh. That's what it's supposed to feel like when you fall.

Kurt had found out at the swim meet that Sebastian and Blaine invited him to. Watching bodies swim gracefully under the water, and watching the girls, who bounced in their swimsuits, giving him no excitement at all, and even a faint distaste at the showier ones. Then the boys had taken to the water, and the bare chests made Kurt blush all the way down to his waist. The powerful muscles in their arms, and the water running in rivulets down their backs after they pulled out of the pool. But it was the smirk filled with green eyed mirth, along with first place, that had made him realize that he was in love with Sebastian Smythe. And that he was most likely fucked.

The next couple of weeks between the trio were tense, and Sebastian couldn't figure out why. Blaine would act even more suffocating than normal around Kurt, and Kurt would look completely uncomfortable until Sebastian showed up, at which point Kurt would become as red as a tomato, Sebastian would laugh good naturedly, and Blaine would look completely upset at being shut out.

Finally, Sebastian couldn't take it anymore and he slammed his fist on the table. "Kurt! I'm your best friend! Talk to me! And Blaine! We've already had the discussion that Kurt is not a doll. He's a big boy completely capable of sitting down by himself." He turned his gaze back to Kurt. "Spill."

"Well, I just- I- damn it, Seb." Kurt muttered darkly, flushing almost purple and moving his mashed potatoes around with a fork.

"Woah, you just cursed, Kurtie. Must be serious." Sebastian needled, realizing that this was the fourteen year old's first attempt at using swear words, although he himself had begun using them about 3 years back.

Blaine just looked shocked at Kurt's outburst, and gestured to him to continue. Kurt looked slowly at both of them before sighing and looking down at his tray. "Well, I like boys. You know Pete and Adam? I'm like them. Except without a husband."

Sebastian continued to eat his shrimp chowder, figuring that this wasn't something he needed to comment on, because it wasn't a big deal and he had already kind of figured at the swim meet, because Kurt was staring at him. He figured he would comment once Kurt got to that part, and tell him that he liked him too, and then look as Anderson fled the room in sadness. All in all, it was about to be a pleasant day. He would finally get to kiss Kurt, who he had decided was gorgeous about 2 years ago. He just hadn't pushed because he knew that Kurt wasn't ready for anything like that yet, that he still wasn't aware that he was gay. So Sebastian had waited until Kurt approached him, because Kurt liked coming up with things on his own.

But then his completely perfect day was ruined in the space of twenty seconds, because unlike him, Anderson just had to speak up. Because god forbid he let Kurt have this moment to himself. "Re- Really Kurt? That's amazing! Because see, I figured that out too, just a few days ago really, and it was because I decided that I really love you, you know, in more than a platonic way, and I just think that if you would give me a chance-"

Sebastian glared as the curly haired boy suddenly looked down at his plate of food, trailing off, and he felt his blood boiling. Because he knew that now Kurt would feel obligated to go along with what Blaine had asked, and they would be so adorable and Sebastian was just angry and then-

He had a plan. He would just make Kurt see that he was better than Blaine. He would leave them alone for a little while, and give Kurt his fair amount of space to realize that he missed Sebastian and that Blaine wasn't the guy for him, and then he would come back in with flowers and a smile and carry Kurt off into the sunset. Right. Good plan B, Smythe.

But how would he let Kurt know that he had more experience than Blaine, that he could take better care? Well, he would just have to do more publically what he had been doing very discreetly for the past year. He would practice. On the cute boy who baked bread, or the stewards son, or any of the other passables that he had bid his time on. Because although he was waiting for Kurt, he wanted to have enough practice that when Kurt came along, Sebastian would know what to do to make Kurt happy. Plus, it was fun, messing around. It didn't have to mean anything to feel good, although when Thad was teaching him how to give a blow job, he also told Sebastian that it felt a hundred times better when you loved the person you were doing it with. And he knew that some people frowned on casual sex, he bet Anderson would be one of them, but he didn't see the harm in learning what to do, no strings attached. But he also knew that with Kurt he would have to go slow, and be sweet. He was looking forward to it.

Fucking Anderson and his fucking puppy dog eyes. Sebastian saw as Kurt blushed prettily before nodding his ascent. He heard Kurt's startled gasp has he walked off, straight to Thad, actually, and asked if they could do something after school, with the smirk that had become customary and the leaning on the table that stretched out the lean muscles from swimming. And then he walked out, not aware of how much he had just hurt the boy he loved.

"What?" Kurt had hissed, watching Sebastian obviously seduce a fellow boy.

"You know Sebastian has always let his actions speak louder than words. I guess he's gay too." Blaine watched the hurt fill Kurt's eyes, and he wished, just this once, that Sebastian had found a way of being less of an ass. Anything to keep the beautiful boy with the blue eyes from pain. So he hugged Kurt close, knowing deep inside that his love was experiencing heart break from someone else, and her hadn't even known, and although he felt a jealously eating him up inside, he hoped he could heal Kurt, and make him love him back. Maybe if he loved him hard enough, it would work.

He felt tears quietly soak his blazer. God, he hoped so.

AN: well, what do you guys think of my giant leap? I hope you liked it! The entire rest of the story will actually be angsty as shit sorry!