Here's chapter three. It's very short and for that I apologize =(
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"What the hell happen between ya and the girl" Daryl asked Carol as soon as he saw Lucy heading back where the others were.
"Nothing, we were talking about our plans for the day." Carol lied.
"Your plans? Stop this bullshit right now, woman, you are NOT fucking leaving this group, I thought I already made my point clear." Daryl sits beside her and takes Carol's chin forcing her to look at him.
"Daryl, it's not your choice, it's mine." Carol moves her head trying to get free, but Daryl wasn't planning on letting her go, no fucking way.
"You're making no fucking sense, woman, ya know that, ya don't have to leave, people here needs you." Daryl was more than uncomfortable whit all this talking, but if the woman needed this shit he would give that to her, he can do it, for her.
"And what about you? Do you need me Daryl?" Carol knows she was acting like a stupid woman, there was no way on earth Daryl would care for her the way she cares for him, but Lucy was right. Romance wasn't easy in the old world and it was more than impossible in the new one but she wasn't looking for an epic love, she just wants to make sure Daryl knows how she feels, before she goes away.
Daryl doesn't know how to answer that question, does he need her? NO, he was an adult, a very capable man, he was a tough guy and he had never needed someone. However if he has to be honest not just with her but with himself, he needed her in some way he doesn't even understand, YES, Daryl Dixon needs Carol, but truth to be told, he didn't had the guts to tell her that, not yet.
"Daryl, answer me, please! Do you need me?" Her voice sounded so desperate and pleading it almost makes him to turn around and run, but at the same time he would love to kiss her, show her instead of telling her that he needs her, that he wants her.
"Ya ain't thinking clearly; your head is so fucking foggy ya can't think clearly, woman" He was a fucking coward, he knew that, but he wasn't used to all this crap, not, it wasn't crap, he has feeling for the woman, yeah of that he was sure, but for the first time he was so fucking scared that he has no idea how to act, how to react.
"My name is Carol, Daryl, you know that, right? Would you mind to call me for my name instead of just call me woman?" Carol wasn't mad at him, she couldn't, but she felt hurt, of course she wasn't telling him how she feels, she was a coward and besides she wasn't the kind of woman who take the first step, she wasn't used to do that and was almost sure she couldn't do that. Truth to be told she should be glad he calls her woman and not bitch like he used to call Lori or even Andrea.
"What's the fucking difference? You're a woman, ain't you?" Carol makes a pout and Daryl almost smiled.
"Yeah, but I have a name, Daryl, I'm pretty sure you wouldn't like if I call you man all the time. Imagine: How are you man? Let's talk man! Not nice at all, man." She told this emphasizing the word man in every sentence and you had to admit you had never realized before how sweet and lovely your name sounded in her voice, you pictured her under you whispering your name while you… What the fuck! Where the hell does that damn imagine come from? Focus, Dixon!
"No fucking difference, if ya ask me, man, Daryl, fucking Dixon, it's the shame shit." Daryl hopes he wasn't looking like a fool, he can feel his cheeks burning; seriously from where that thought came from? He was talking with the woman about names and then he started thinking about that?
"Ok then, that's not the point anyway, you haven't answer my question Daryl, do you need me?" Tell him Carol; tell the man you care for him! Her mind was screaming at this point, she can't be a coward, not now, not anymore. Lucy's words echoed in her head 'life now is shorter and more uncertain than before, you could regret it later and then you wouldn't have a change to come back and tell him. I lost my sister before I could tell her how much I loved her; don't make the same mistakes I did' She was right, it was now or never.
"What's the difference? If I tell ya I need ya, would ya stay?" Good job Dixon! Ask her a question she can't answer, put the ball in her side. But to be honest, would she stay if you tell her you need her? Are you that important to her?
Carol was afraid, he didn't want to tell her if he needs her, maybe he couldn't, maybe he didn't want to break her heart, but she can't be afraid now, she realized just then how important this man was to her and if she needed to be the one who take the first step, she'll do it, for him, for her.
"Yes, I would stay if you need me." Okay, the words burned your tongue; you can't believe you had told him that, he was smart enough to realize what those words mean; Carol Carteret had told Daryl Dixon how deeply she cares for him.
"That doesn't make sense, woman, stop this bullshit right now." Nothing could ever prepare you for those words, was she telling you she cares enough for you to stay by your side? Lucy has much to offer to her, you knew that much and you were sure as hell she knew that too. Why was she doing this?
Carol was surprised; he hadn't understood how much she cares for him. She was desperate, what to do now? She couldn't run, no, she had to stand her ground and tell him the truth it will break her but it doesn't really matter anymore, she had lost everything with Sophia's death but she needed to know if there was hope, she would leave with Lucy if he doesn't want her, but she would stay if he needs her, for what? It doesn't really matter, if he needed her she will stay.
"Daryl it's not bullshit, I…" Daryl interrupted her before she could finish her sentence.
"Ya told me yesterday I was a damn henchman, why would ya stay for someone like me? I ain't worthy, stop feeling pity for me, I ain't need this bullshit." Daryl didn't know what he was doing, she can't be serious, she couldn't care for him in that way, Daryl Dixon was a good for nothing, an ex-con, there was no way on earth that someone would care, really care for him.
Carol was surprised, she had called him that 'cause she was afraid, but her words weren't true, he wasn't a henchman, he was a man of honor, of that she was sure, but if Daryl remembered her words, he has to remember she had called herself a burden, and she was certain she was that, she wasn't worthy, not like him.
"And I'm a burden, Daryl, remember? But that doesn't really matter, you're not a henchman, you're a man of honor, you have to know that, you have to believe you are as good as everyone here, even better than most, you're not a henchman and you're worthy, for me you're the most important person in the world and I'll stay if you need me." Tears were in Carol's eyes by now, but it wasn't time for tears, not just yet.
"You ain't a burden." Daryl has no idea about what else to say, he wasn't worthy, no one before had told him that, not even his mother, Carol was hurt and scared, and he was the only capable to take care of her, that could be the only reason she could care for him, right?
"Yes I am, but I'm sick of being a burden, I want to be worthy like you, of you." Carol wanted to touch Daryl, his eyes were now cast down and she couldn't see what was going on in his mind, maybe he didn't want her, perhaps she was too late, she after all wasn't important.
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Okay, I can't continue this chapter; my mind is so foggy right now I can't even write one more word.
I ask for forgiveness I know the chapter isn't good and it doesn't matter how hard I try I just can't write anything better, sorry guys!
Anyway I will ask you to R&R, I'll try harder so I could give you a better chapter next week, the story is not going to be long, if I could write something decent this week I assume you will read three or four chapters more.
Please forgive me for this crappy chap., I'll do my best to write something worthy, I promise!
