DISCLAIMER: None of these characters are mine…

AUTHORS NOTE: Chapter ten! This one is for the Jily shippers… and because the story has been mostly Snily flashbacks, so here's some Jily ones! And yes, I'm turning slowly into Lily… I can't quite decide between the two, but I prefer James a little more…

Well, sorry I haven't uploaded much recently… I started watching Doctor Who about 3 days ago, and I am COMPLETELY OBSSESSED! It's amazing! And I know I should have started watching it earlier, but I was too scared of watching it because I knew I'd get addicted… and also, to tell you the truth, I haven't been writing this one much because I really didn't know where to go with this chapter. But I finished it eventually…

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"Daddy?" Harry asked, gazing up at James with wide, green eyes. Lily's eyes, he thought sadly. When would she come home? It had been three days, and he still hadn't heard from her, was she okay?

"Where's Mommy?" Harry continued, and James sighed in defeat. He knew Harry would ask that, and he didn't know how to answer.

"I don't know, Harry," James said sadly. "I don't know where she is."

"Will she ever come back?"

"She will. Mommy just needs some time by herself, okay?"

James didn't know if he'd ever get Lily back, but he knew she wouldn't stay away forever. She would never leave Harry; she loved him too much to abandon him. But there was that small part inside of him that was scared; scared that something had happened to Lily, or that she was so hurt she'd never return. What had he done that was so wrong? Or was it just the little things adding up to make a big problem?

That was the thing with Lily; she'd suffer in silence for years before she'd admit to anyone about what she truly felt…

…..

"I love you, Lily," James said, grasping her hands with his own, looking into her emerald eyes. "Why can't you just give me a chance?"

"Stop it, Potter!" she said, squirming and ducking her head so she wouldn't have to meet his eyes. "Let me go!"

He lifted her head with one hand so that she was looking at him. "I can see you like me, Lily. Trust your feelings!" He smiled at her then, that crooked smirk that always made her want to smile back. This time she let a small smile appear on her face, just a little smug one.

"If you ever need me Lils, I'll be there," he whispered into her ear, and Lily felt her heart flutter with longing for him. Then he pulled away and turned around, walking away from her.

"James!" Lily cried out, dropping all her defences against him, and she saw the pure joy in his eyes as he turned towards her. She ran towards him, kissing him on the lips, her hands tangling in his messy hair, his arms around her holding her close.

They stood like that for a minute, oblivious to the world, the students that stopped to stare. For the first time, Lily was truly happy, she knew that right now all she wanted was to be with James. And when they finally pulled away, James hugged her tightly, never wanting to let her go in case she left him again, and for the first time, Lily whispered back to him. "I love you too."

…..

James stroked Lily's hair that spilled over his legs and the couch as she curled around him.

"What made you fall in love with me?" he asked, looking down at her.

"Your smile," she said, and grinned at him. "No matter how arrogant you were, I couldn't help but love that smile," Lily teased. "What about you? What made you fall in love with me?"

"Your temper, red hot like your hair. And how innocent you would look, sitting underneath a tree, reading. Or when the snow would fall in flakes around you, and you'd laugh with your friends." He looked at Lily, smiled at how wide her eyes were. "Want me to go on?" he teased, and she laughed, but shook her head.

"I think I get the point James."

They sat there in silence then, James' arms around Lily, their eyes closed in bliss. James knew that she was the girl for him, the one that he was destined to be with. He wanted to lie like this forever, alone with her, no worries about Voldemort, just peace at last. And he suddenly knew what he had to do, needed to do before anything else ever happened.

"Lils?" he asked gently.

"Yeah?"

"Will you…" he swallowed as a lump formed in his throat. "Will you marry me?"

Lily opened her eyes, stared in astonishment at James as he bit his lip nervously.

"Is this not a good time… did you want me to get a ring first… should I…" he choked out, silenced suddenly by Lily planting kisses on his lips and cheeks.

"Yes! I want to marry you James!" she said between kisses. "This is perfect, nothing could be better!"

He sighed in relief, then laughed as he watched Lily dance around in excitement.

She was happy, and when she was happy, he was happy. Maybe what they needed during this war was a wedding…

…..

Lily hated him. She really did. But she loved James with all her heart, hated leaving him. 'There's a thin line between love and hate.' A Muggle saying. She'd heard her parents say that before, and she'd never really understood what it meant. How could you love someone you hated? But she'd realized that was exactly how she felt about James, how she always would feel. And after three days, her hatred and bitterness had turned into regret and longing, and she knew she couldn't leave him, her love for him was too strong, it outweighed the hate. Leaving James was like tearing her heart in two, leaving Harry was worse. Her hatred was her love, and it was time for her to go back, to let her true feelings in again…