A/N: Ok so first off thanks for following this story and adding it your alerts that always makes me happy, so thank you for bringing me happiness! Secondly I just want to say wow! Lol The feedback that I got back was intense lol. I sense you guys aren't Sugar fans, and trust me your feelings are more than justified, I just hope that you still come along for the ride because we still have a long road ahead of us, so brace yourselves. Thanks once again and I hope that you enjoy this update.

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It was right around five when Rachel was officially released from the hospital, and Ishmael couldn't have been more pleased. When Quinn returned to the hospital Rachel was still sleeping, and remained that way for about an hour during Quinn's presence, but the moment she awoke Ishmael prayed that somehow she would fall back to sleep. To say that you could cut the tension with a knife was an understatement. Growing up Rachel was always known for her temper tantrums when things didn't go her way, and now things weren't much different. She wasn't happy with Quinn's return and made it obvious. She even gave the nice nurse a hard time when she came to check up on her. The only thing Ishmael could do was apologize on her behalf, so when the doctor finally stopped by with the good news he nearly jumped for joy.

"Honey you're ready to head out?" He asked Rachel as he handed her the bag with her clothes.

"Yes" was all she got out.

"Okay well I'm going to step out so you can get dressed." Since Quinn didn't seem to make an effort to step out Rachel just glared at her.

"Oh- do you need me to step out? I was just sticking around in case you needed my help, or something."

"Quinn, I would very much appreciate it if you would step out while I got dressed. Thank you!" At that Quinn just walked out without saying a word.

Once Rachel was dressed and the doctor had stopped by with the discharge papers Ishmael and Rachel made their way to the front of the hospital while Quinn went around to get her car. Although the hospital was only a fifteen minute drive from Rachel's apartment the trip there seemed endless. Rachel insisted on sitting in the back, and continued to ignore whatever Quinn threw her way. Ishmael tried the best he could to ease things up, but once again was grateful when Quinn finally pulled up by Rachel's place. She dropped them off, and then looked for parking. Ishmael used that as an excuse to speak to Rachel.

"Sunshine" He said as they made their way inside the building.

"Yes daddy?"

"How long are you going to keep this thing going? Quinn…" Before he could continue Rachel cut him off.

"Daddy! Please, I really don't want to talk about this right now. All I want to do is take a warm bath, and once I'm out snuggle in my bed until sleep fully consumes me. Quinn- is the last thing I want to even think about."

"Look honey, I know this is difficult for you to handle, especially because you still love her, so watching her walk in and out like that can't be easy. I just want you to be aware of the possibilities that your actions can cause. If you keep acting this way, you'll only send her off; she will no longer return" Rachel just shook her head. Her fathers were always very fond of Quinn, and she had always been thankful for that, but at that moment she really couldn't take it anymore. She wanted her dad to be understanding and just be there for her. She didn't need him to remind her about how screwed up her marriage was, much less that she could potentially lose the love of her life forever.

"My actions are completely reasonable, as are my emotions! I know I messed up. I've been aware of that for the longest, and I get that I hurt her, and I regret that more and more with each day that passes me by daddy. Trust me, but she- she walked away to be with her! I can't daddy- I just can't anymore. If she doesn't love me why does she stick around? I just want her to leave!" Ishmael took his daughter in his arms and walked her inside her apartment. Once inside he ushered her to the couch and they both sat down as he held Rachel the same way he did when she was a little girl- his little girl.

"I know honey, I know. Trust me when I say that because I know how much it hurts you to be away from her. We've already experienced that once before and it tore you a part, but you guys made it through, and you both swore that it made you stronger, so why is this any different? Why don't you fight for her Rachel! Your father and I didn't raise you to be a quitter! We taught you to fight for what was yours, and we taught you to stand up to all those nays, until they became yays." Rachel let out a slight giggle at her dad's little rhyme, but instantly took it back when she thought about Quinn no longer loving her.

"But she doesn't love me anymore! She was only at the hospital out of pity! If she truly cared she wouldn't have left."

"Rachel! I can assure you that that is not the case at all!"

"What makes you say that?"

"Because I know!"

"But how do you know? Has she told you?"

"No- not necessarily I just know, that's all."

"Daddy!"

"Rachel, it's all in her eyes. The look that she gets when she's around you- it's the same look she's had from the very first time your father and I caught you both in a compromising position. You know what I'm talking about right?" Rachel did, how could she forget the first time they kissed? But she couldn't let her father know that.

"I don't know what you're talking about."

"Fine you keep being in denial, but deep down you know it's the truth. If I can see it all in her eyes, there is no way that you can't! After all she is your wife." He said as he pulled away from their embrace and got off the couch.

"Where are you going?"

"Well while you sit there and pretend like you don't know what I'm talking about, I am going to shower. I hope that my time in there gives you time to think, and to clear your head."

As he made his way into the bathroom Rachel did just as he said. She allowed herself to go back in time, back to the very first time Quinn ever looked at her with eyes of desire, eyes of need, eyes of passion, and love. She allowed herself to go back to the very moment that started everything. It's really crazy how the mind works, and how powerful it can actually be, because just after a few minutes she could almost hear that knock in the background. It was a Friday night during their junior year of high school. Rachel's fathers had both been away for the night because Michael had a luncheon at the hospital so they left Rachel some money for takeout. Just as she was about to sit down to watch Funny Girl for the second time that day she heard a knock on the door.

"Wow this Thai place sure is serious when they say speedy delivery or your money back. I'm coming just give me a minute." She said as she went to get the money from the counter and headed towards the door.

"Q- uinn, what- why are you here?" She asked barely keeping her balance.

"Rach I um- do you think I can come in? It's kind of raining out and…"

"Yes, of course I wouldn't want you catching some type of cold, your voice is much needed in glee club, and right now we can't afford to lose any of our members." Rachel rambled as Quinn made her way in.

"Thanks" Quinn said as she took off her Cheerio jacket, and Rachel just gave her a nod.

"Well Quinn, what brings you around to this side of town on a Friday night? I'd assume you'd be somewhere off with Santana, and Brittany?" Rachel asked as she stared at the barely dry blonde across from her.

"I um- I just- I was hoping we could talk?" Quinn nervously asked as she bit on her bottom lip.

"Okay? And what is on your mind Quinn?"

"Well I, I don't know- I just miss you Rachel. I know you said you needed time, and I promise that I understand why you need it, but I miss you! I miss coming over here, I miss us talking on phone for hours. I even miss your subtle attempts to get me to listen to the Funny Girl soundtrack over and over again. I just miss us okay!"

Right as Quinn finished what she was saying she dropped her head, hoping that Rachel hadn't seen the small tear that escaped her left eye. She knew Rachel had every reason to ask for space. She was actually shocked that the girl had let her in. The truth was that towards the end of junior high Quinn had developed some type of feelings for Rachel, but she didn't know what they meant, or what to do with them. She just knew that she had never felt that way about anyone before, and it kind of scared her. She tried to brush them off convincing herself that it was okay for her to feel that way because they were best friends, but deep down she somehow knew it meant more. Confused with the way things were going she casually brought it up to her older sister using the good old "I have a friend, who might have feelings for a girl, and she doesn't know what to do about it" type of thing, but immediately regretted it when her sister told her that her friend was a sinner and that if she knew any better she would make new friends.

Her sister's advice was all it took for her to keep a distance between her and Rachel. She started by avoiding Rachel at school, and ignoring her calls all summer. Before either of them knew it they were starting high school. Rachel had called her the night before, and she considered letting it go to voice mail, but the urge to hear Rachel's voice in that instant over powered her so she picked up, and agreed to meet up before their first period to exchange schedules. A part of her knew it was a bad idea, but she couldn't help herself so she arrived at school extra early, and was completely caught off guard when Rachel was already waiting for her in a super short argyle skirt with a tight white blouse on. There was no way that it was okay for her to feel that way about her best friend, she couldn't.

"Quinn!" Rachel waved at her full of excitement.

"How many cups of coffee did you have before you got here?" Rachel gave her a small frown.

"I resent that, but if you must know I had one, and a Frappuccino." She made sure to whisper the last part out, but Quinn caught it and caused her to giggle.

"Rach that stuff is bad for you, you're too small to be consuming so much caffeine."

"No I checked there is no height limit for coffee consumption."

"Rachel Barbra Berry, you're a dork you know that?" Quinn threw out jokingly, but couldn't help but feel bad the moment Rachel's dark brown eyes looked at her with plead.

"Is that why you've been avoiding me all summer?"

"What? No Rach I just- I've been busy with Cheerio stuff. There was some training we had to do before today's official tryouts."

"You promise?" Rachel asked with a pout.

"Of course what other reason would I have?" Rachel just gave her a smile.

"None I assume, because we are best friends right?"

"Of course!"

"So does this mean you're coming over after school?"

"Ugh no Rach sorry I have tryouts, and I honestly don't know how long it's going to run, but my sister said that the couch was no joke so that I better be prepared for whatever she threw my way." Rachel nodded but the frown she sported let Quinn know she was disappointed.

"Hey Rach don't give me that look, I promise we'll hang out later this week. I just need to land a spot on the squad, and once everything is set we can go back to our normal hang outs." Quinn said with a promising smile.

"Promise?"

"I promise." Quinn said, but that promise was quickly broken, because her feelings for Rachel grew stronger, and she knew that the more she was around her the worst they would get, so she decided to completely cut Rachel off. Although emotionally it was one of the hardest things she ever had to do, socially it was very easy. Rachel wasn't necessarily popular, and her wardrobe didn't help her cause, so Quinn used that as an excuse to stay away. Shortly after Quinn started dating Finn who was the quarter back at their school. She really prayed that he would be enough to forget about Rachel, but he wasn't. Whenever he kissed her all she could think of was Rachel's lips, and how great it would be to actually place her lips on top of hers. She imagined that they would be gentle and soft, not rough and chapped like Finn's. Just the thought of that was enough to turn her on, so she would quickly pull away from Finn and encouraged him to pray to get those thoughts out of their heads. Sometimes she felt bad for him, and considered calling things off because she didn't love him, but she knew that with him by her side no one would ever find out about her feelings for Rachel.

One night after Cheerio's practice she caught Finn and Rachel talking outside of the choir room. She saw Rachel grab Finn's hand and pull him down to give him a kiss on the cheek. That was all it took for her to get into HBIC mode, seeing Rachel display that type of affection towards Finn drove her insane with jealousy. Why couldn't Rachel hold her hand? Why couldn't Rachel look at her with that type of desire? She needed to get away and soon. There was no way she could approach them. She was sure that if she did she would slap Finn across the face and demand that he stayed away from Rachel before she pulled her into a kiss, and walked away holding her hand, so instead she just left the school. As she was reaching her car Puck caught up with her and invited her to his house. Letting the anger and jealousy consume her she agreed knowing very well that any girl that left with Puck would end up sleeping with him.

After a couple of wine coolers he got her to loosen up, and before she knew it her clothes started coming off. Part of her wanted to say no, and get out of there, but another part of her hoped that sleeping with Puck would finally make her forget about Rachel so she did just that. She gave herself to him in hopes that Rachel would officially be out of her mind and heart, but she wasn't. It was all done a lot faster than it began. She got dressed as fast as she could and Ran out of Puck's house. She felt dirty, and scared. More than anything she needed her best friend- she needed Rachel. Rachel always made her feel better when everything else was going wrong, but she knew she couldn't approach her, because Rachel was the one that led her to losing her virginity to someone that she wasn't even dating, and someone who she didn't love. She got into her car, and drove to Rachel's but after several hours of just sitting in her car crying she decided to drive home and sleep, hoping that the next day it would all go away.

Needless to say it didn't go away, and within a couple of weeks she started experiencing symptoms that let her know it would never go away. She insisted that it was something that she ate, but deep down she knew that that wasn't the case. She knew Puck didn't use protection, and she had never even seen any type of contraceptive pills in her life so that was out of the question. When she was officially late she considered letting Puck know, but there was no way that he could be the father of her baby. Puck didn't take anything or anyone seriously, sure he had his charmful ways, but that wasn't what she needed so she decided to let Finn know instead. She hadn't slept with him, but Finn always came when they made out with a little touching so she hoped that was all she needed to convince him it was his.

As the days went by word got out that Quinn was pregnant. No one could believe it, especially not Rachel she and Quinn always talked about saving themselves for marriage. When the rumors spread around Rachel confronted her, and Quinn denied it, but as the months went on she started to show. She wanted to be there for her former best friend, but she was afraid to even show that she cared, because it only caused her trouble. To make matters worse she heard that the baby she was caring wasn't even Finn's, and that enraged her. It was one thing for Quinn to be pregnant with her boyfriend's baby, because at least it happened with someone she loved and cared about, but for her to give herself up to Puck was completely out of the question. Rachel couldn't help but feel hurt, betrayed, and even a bit of jealousy, but she tried to cover it all up by saying that she only felt that way out of sympathy for Finn because he was a nice guy, but was that even possible? Do people feel jealousy out of sympathy? She didn't know. All she knew was that she had to tell Finn. He had every right to know, so she approached him and told him the truth.

The only problem with that was that she felt terrible the instant that she actually told him, especially when she saw the broken look across Quinn's face. She hated herself for causing her so much pain so she ran after her to apologize, and even offered to let Quinn hit her as long as she avoided her nose, but to her surprise Quinn wasn't angry. She said she understood what Rachel had done, but that she needed her space. After that Quinn sort of drifted out in the background until she had Beth and gave her up for adoption. That was officially the hardest thing she had to do, so Rachel tried her best to be there for her even if things were awkward between them, because shortly after Finn broke up with Quinn he and Rachel started dating.

Once Quinn had Beth she spent all her time working out rain, or shine. She was always at the school's gym or running in the park. She needed to get back in shape, and she needed for it to happen fast so that she could take back what was hers. She knew that Santana wouldn't be willing to give her the top spot with her arms crossed so she had to go the extra mile. More than anything she needed to be at the top again. Being at the top meant that no one could touch her, and that meant that if Rachel felt the same way about her, her social status would be enough to protect her. It worked for Santana and Brittany, and that was enough to give her hope. Granted that Santana and Brittany weren't officially out at their school, but anyone with eyes knew that they were a couple, and were okay with it, so she only hoped that Rachel would love her back. Seeing Rachel with Finn destroyed her inside, and she knew that she had to do whatever she could to break them up. She loved Rachel, and although it took her getting pregnant to accept it she was now ready to embrace it, and if there was even a slight possibility that Rachel shared those feelings for her she was going to take them and run. She wasn't going to make the same mistake ever again she needed her back, back where she belonged.

When she convinced the couch to let her be the head cheerleader again it didn't go well with Santana, and they even got into a fight in the middle of the hall way which caused a riot in the hall until Mr. Shue broke them up. Once they both cooled down, Quinn explained to Santana why she needed to be at the top, and although she claimed not to be fond of Rachel she agreed to help Quinn get her girl, because she couldn't picture what it would be like to see Brittany with anyone else, so slowly but surely they both made effort to get Rachel's trust, and with the help of Brittany they were all on speaking terms. The only thing Rachel asked for was time, because it was all too much for her to handle. Sure she and Quinn had been best friends before they entered high school, but the moment they entered high school Quinn became someone completely different, and it scared her. It scared her because someone who she loved and trusted more than anything in the world hurt her really bad, and she didn't know how to go back to that without running the risk of getting hurt once more.

Quinn knew that she had to give Rachel time, and she was willing to do that as long as it meant that in the end she could have her back. She had every intention of giving her the space that she needed, but as the days went by it only got harder to see her with Finn. She couldn't control what her heart felt, if she could she would have stopped herself from going through so much pain the years before but she couldn't all she could do was watch the girl she loved be with someone else. It tore her up inside, and she knew she had to get Rachel to trust her again, so one Friday night after a late Cheerio's practice she asked Santana to drop her off at Rachel's house. Santana was a little hesitant at first because Rachel had been very clear about needing time, but after a few kisses from Brittany she agreed to it, as long as Quinn promised to give her a call if things went wrong. Once she did Quinn found herself at Rachel's door step getting drenched as she waited for the girl to open the door, and when she finally did she was left speechless. Luckily Rachel allowed her in. The only thing left to do was to get Rachel to hear her out, so that she could trust her again. She prayed that Rachel could see the sincerity in every word that she spoke so that she could remember her for the Cherry Jolly Rancher lover girl that she was in 6th grade.

When she had finally told Rachel how much she missed her it became too much for her to handle so she hoped that the tear that escaped her eye didn't make her appear as weak. It was now up to Rachel to speak, and she hoped that she spoke soon because she was just seconds away from running out the door, but as she was thinking that Rachel's hand brought her out of her thoughts.

"Quinn- I can't deny that I miss you- us that I miss us, because I do! Trust me more than anything, but you also have to understand that for me our freshman year, as well as our sophomore year was quite miserable, and you were the source of that misery." Quinn couldn't help but wince at what Rachel said, because it was the truth. She had hurt the girl she loved and she couldn't forgive herself so she pulled away.

"Quinn, please hear me out. I'm simply saying that it frightens me how much power you have over my emotions okay? So it's a bit difficult to let you back in without letting some time pass us by. I'm just- scared Quinn." She said as she shed some tears, and it broke Quinn's heart.

"Rach, I'm sorry please don't cry! I know I've been an idiot, but I promise that it won't happen again, nothing and I mean nothing is worth not having you around. I'm sorry it has taken me this long to figure it out, but you have to know that I mean it! It was so hard not to have you around these past years. I really missed you, more than you'll ever know, and I know it was my own fault, but I want to make things right. Can you please give me the chance to make things right? I promise you that I will never let anyone ever hurt you again. They will have to go through me first if they even consider touching even one strand of your hair. You believe me Rach, don't ya? I'm still the girl that you gave Cherry Jolly Ranchers to just so she could teach you some cheer leading moves. It's still me. I was just a little lost, but now I found my way back, and I need you to help me stay grounded. Can you trust that I'm being honest, and that I mean every word I've said? Please Rach all I ask is that you give me the chance to make it right. You're my best friend and I need you back. Please believe me!"

Once she was done speaking the tears started rolling down one after the other. Even though she hadn't told Rachel the truth as to why she had pushed her away, letting her know how much she missed her and needed her felt like a weight was lifted off her shoulders. All she needed was for Rachel to say she believed her so that everything could be okay. Rachel wanted to say no, she wanted to keep a wall between her and Quinn, because she didn't want Quinn to have the power to hurt her ever again, but for some reason she couldn't, because the look in Quinn's eyes when she spoke said it all. Quinn had never looked at her like that before, and it sent a shiver down her spine, because even if Quinn hadn't said a word the look in her eyes would've said it all. Her eyes were remorseful, they were eyes that showed fear, fear of rejection, but at the same time they were eyes that showed hope, and love all at the same time. It was safe to say that no one had ever looked at her the way Quinn did in that moment, and that was enough for Rachel to believe her and trust her, enough to keep the wall down. She just hoped she wouldn't have to bring the wall back up ever again.

"I- do, I believe you…" It was all she had the chance to say before Quinn had taken her into her arms, and before she knew it Quinn's lips were taking hers hostage. She wanted to pull away because everything about the situation set off alarms, but at the same time it felt so right. Quinn's kiss was unlike any other she'd ever had. It was gentle and soft, but with so much passion and desire. Sure the only other person she had ever kissed was Finn, but still she was sure that Quinn was the best kisser in the world. She actually felt fireworks.

She had always heard that a good kiss felt like fireworks were setting off, and she secretly hoped that her kiss with Finn would provide that for her, but it didn't so she assumed it was all a lie, and she couldn't have been more wrong. Kissing Quinn Fabray felt like the fourth of July. Just when she thought that the kiss couldn't get any better she felt Quinn's soft tongue slightly brush against her lips, and almost instantly she granted it access. The second Quinn's tongue entered her mouth she was a goner. There was no way it was acceptable to feel that good. Quinn's kiss made her feel like she was floating on a cloud and she never wanted to get off of it. She had made out with Finn countless of times, but none of them ever made her feel tension at the pit of her stomach, tension that she desperately needed to release so without even knowing what she was doing, she began to buck her hips forward until they made contact with Quinn's and she lost it. If she thought she was gone before, now she didn't even exist. She was no longer a being on this earth, because Quinn had taken her away to far away land, and she never wanted to return. Apparently Quinn felt the same way because once they were both rocking their hips back and forth Quinn started to move her hands frantically throughout Rachel's body until they reached their desired destination, which was Rachel's firm ass. Once they were there they squeezed which caused them both to whimper, and moan with desire.

Rachel was so busy in her thoughts that she didn't even notice that Quinn had made it back to the apartment, until she was waving her hand in front of her.

"Rachel, are you okay? You look a little flushed." She asked as she placed a hand to her forehead and moved it down her cheeks to feel her temperature.

"You're a little warm, do you feel okay? The doctor said that there was a possibility for you to run a fever due to your dehydration, but the medicine he prescribed was supposed to keep it controlled. Should I call him?" Quinn was rambling which was a trait she had picked up from Rachel many years ago the only difference was that she only did it when she was worried or nervous and Rachel, well Rachel did it all the time.

"Quinn, I'm fine it's just a little warm in here, that's all." Rachel said with a smile as she took Quinn's hands into her own.

"Are you sure, because he insisted that I call him if something didn't seem right?"

"Yes Quinn I promise I'm okay there is no need for you to worry."

"Okay well if you insist then I won't call. Where is your dad?"

"Daddy is in the shower, he said he needed to freshen up, and you know that if he heard you referring to him as my dad it would offend him." Rachel stated with a smile.

"I know, it's just sometimes I forget that it's still okay." She said with a sigh.

"Quinn it will always be okay, and you know that! Both daddy and dad love you. You never have to question that." Quinn just nodded.

"So how far did you park? You were gone for quite some time."

"Oh yea sorry, I was going to go park, but then I remembered that the doctor made a list of foods you had to stay away from and a list of foods you could eat so I went to the market, and picked up some stuff to make your fave vegetable and noodle soup. That was the only thing I could make without setting our kitchen on fire, and it always helped with your upset stomach so I thought I would make you some." She said with a smile.

"Quinn, really you didn't have to."

"Rachel would you please stop saying that, you make it seem like I'm forced to do it, when I do it because I want to. So would you please let me do this for you?" Rachel just nodded and smiled, not because Quinn was pleading for her to let her take care of her, but because she saw that look. The look that Ishmael was talking about, and the look that had just invaded her memory, and she knew that her Quinn was still there, that she still loved her, and that was all she needed to know that things were going to be okay.

Okay here is update number eight. I know that there wasn't a lot of dialogue but I wrote it that way because of the memories, if it's something that you guys don't like please let me know so I avoid doing it in the future. Also I just wanted to say that I planned on posting this update up a couple of days ago, but after the Yes/No episode I couldn't contain my Faberry feelings so I had to put them into my writing. If you're interested in reading what my feelings produced feel free to check it out. It's called "When You're Ready Faberry" but I must warn you it's just a one shot. I hope you guys enjoy this update and share your thoughts, as they're always appreciated.

Thank you,

-A girl I once knew