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Quinn was sitting at her desk in her office when she heard a light knock at her door.
"Come in." She said as Sugar carefully made her way in with two coffees.
"I brought you some coffee, I figured it would come in handy since it is your first day back, and you insisted on getting here extra early." She said with a smile as she handed Quinn the coffee.
"Hey thanks Shug, I actually needed a pick me up. I hardly got any sleep last night, and I didn't realize how many college applications I would have to look over just today alone."
"No problem hon, so how were things with Rachel last night? I text you but you never got back at me. I just assumed you were busy."
"Oh yes I'm sorry about that. I was at Rachel's place late last night and didn't really go through my phone once I got home, but things are actually good right now. We had a much needed conversation, and although we still have a lot to work on, things are finally starting to look up." Quinn said with a big smile as she recalled the kisses she and Rachel shared the night before.
"That's- um good, but I thought you were going to take things slow?"
"Yea, that's still the plan. I mean I'm not moving in with her any time soon, we just agreed to work on our issues. We ended up where we are because of the lack of communication between us, so we're going to work on that before anything else."
"So does this mean you guys are together?" Sugar asked casually as she scrunched up her eyebrows.
"Well, I guess we never really weren't together, I mean we were separated, but neither of us dated anyone else during that time frame. So yes I guess we are. Why do you ask?"
"I was just wondering, especially because you aren't wearing your wedding ring, and well as your friend I want to make sure that you don't rush into something you're not ready for. I don't want to see you get hurt again Quinn. You deserve to be with someone who treats you well, and, makes you happy, not someone who will betray you the moment you turn around." Sugar said as she walked over to Quinn and placed her hand on Quinn's shoulder.
"I appreciate you looking out for me Shug, I really do, but as I said before I have no intention on rushing things with her. It's true that I'm not wearing my wedding band, but that's because I don't feel right wearing it knowing that things between us aren't how they're supposed to be. Once things between us actually get fixed I'll go back to wearing it." She said with a smile.
"Okay, I guess that makes sense, and I have to be honest it kind of makes me sad."
"What? Why?" Quinn asked arching up an eyebrow.
"Well, because Rachel doesn't like me, and I'm sure she's going to ask you to stop seeing me." Sugar said as she walked towards the door, but Quinn got up and reached for her hand.
"Shug, that's not true. What makes you say that?"
"Oh come on Quinn you have to be blind not to see the looks that she gives me, and I know she blames me for that night, so I really don't stand a chance."
"Sugar, don't say that. No one blames you for that night. What happened that night was due to a miscommunication between Rachel and me, and well yes Rachel does have trust issues, but so do I. That just means that she and I have to work really hard on that. You've been a great friend to me during this difficult time, and it's not going to change because Rachel and I are working things out."
"Quinn, I just don't want to cause more problems for you and Rachel. I really care about you, and I wouldn't feel right knowing that because of me you and Rachel were having more trouble."
"Well you're not! Okay so get those silly thoughts out of your head. I'm going to talk to Rachel about you, and we'll clear all of this up before you know it." Quinn said with a smile as she gave Sugar's hand a squeeze.
"I don't know Quinn…"
"Hey, don't you trust me?"
"Of course I trust you, but she doesn't trust me."
"I know, but that's only because she thinks that you're somehow interested in me." Quinn said with a laugh, but Sugar remained silent.
"Sugar, did I say something wrong?" Sugar just shook her head.
"No- I just. It doesn't matter."
"No what is it?" Quinn asked giving Sugar's hand a gentle squeeze.
"What if she's right?"
"What do you mean, what if she's right?" Quinn asked as she tensed up.
"Well Quinn, It's kind of hard not to fall for you. You're a gorgeous human being inside, and out. You put others before you, and you've been nothing but a great friend to me, and I don't know how, or when it really happened, but I've developed feelings for you."
"Shug- I…" That was all she could say before Sugar pushed her up against her desk and pulled her into a kiss.
"Sugar!" Quinn shouted as she pulled away.
"I'm sorry Quinn, please I'm sorry I didn't mean to I just got caught up in the moment. I'm so sorry!" Quinn just shook her head, as she threw her hands in the air.
"I um- I think it's best if you step out. I have a lot of work to do before I can go see my wife." She said as she walked towards the door and held it open for Sugar.
"Quinn, please don't hate me! I know I shouldn't have done that, but I've been wanting to do that for such a long time, and my feelings got the best of me. I'm sorry!"
"I don't hate you shug, trust me, I just think it's best that we keep a distance between us for a couple of days, just so we can both clear our heads." Sugar just kept her head down, as she walked out.
"I'm really sorry Quinn you have to believe me!" She pleaded once more.
"I do shug, I know you mean well- we just need some time apart. I promise it won't be that long, thanks for the coffee." Quinn said as she leaned in to place a kiss on the top of Sugar's head and closed the door behind her.
After filing a couple applications and making some phone calls Quinn clocked out. She knew that it wasn't a good idea to leave work before noon, especially since it was her first day back, but after Sugar did what she did it was hard for Quinn to focus. She needed to get some air and clear her head. She gave Santana a call and they agreed to meet up for lunch at deli right across from the law firm Santana worked at.
"So how's your first day on the job going?" Santana asked as the two made their way to their seats.
"Good." Quinn said followed by a long sigh.
"Really? because that doesn't sound too good to me."
"It's just a bit overwhelming, I have to review a stack of applications before their dead lines and they're all very near."
"Yea, but something tells me that that's not all that is bugging you."
"I hate you!" Quinn shouted as she made a pout.
"Yea well I love you too, now are you ready to tell me what's on your mind, or are we going to keep playing this guessing game." Quinn let out a sigh before she continued.
"I just- it's all so weird, and- confusing. I don't even know how to process it in my head, much less say it aloud."
"Q, you're kind of freaking me out right now, you're not regretting what happened between you and Rach are you?"
"No, not at all I couldn't be happier about that decision." She said with a smile, which only confused Santana more than she already was.
"Well then what is it?"
"It's um I don't know how to say it, but Sugar admitted something to me and I can't make any sense of it."
"Okay well what did she admit to you? You're not asking me to be her attorney are you; because whatever she did I'm sure Berry will have my ass for helping her out."
"You're not kidding." Quinn said under her breath as she took a sip from her tea.
"Well?" Santana asked crossing her arms.
"She might have admitted to having feelings for me, and then- she kissed me." Once again she said the last part under her breath, but Santana still caught it.
"Wait, hold up! What was that?"
"I said-"
"I know what you said, I'm just trying to let it sink in. Oh my God Rachel was right all along, and we both insisted that she wasn't but obviously she saw through her bullshit, something that you and I both couldn't do. Please tell me you put her in her place and sent her on her way."
"San it's not like that."
"What do you mean it's not like that? The bitch made a move on you how is it not like what it seems?" Santana asked getting frustrated with the lack of reaction she received from Quinn.
"Would you not call her that! She didn't do it intentionally okay? She admitted to how she felt about me, and it all got to her, before she knew it she kissed me, but I pushed her right off and she apologized." Santana mockingly gave Quinn a smirk right as she finished talking.
"Oh please Quinn, tell me you didn't believe her!"
"What is there not to believe? You didn't see the look on her face she looked really torn about it, and she apologized to me a series of times!" Quinn shouted feeling defensive.
"Yea, torn up because you didn't reciprocate the kiss! What do you plan on telling Rachel?"
"I'm not!" Was all Quinn said.
"What do you mean you're not?" Santana asked getting angrier by the moment.
"Nothing happened; therefore there is no need to upset her about it. I told Sugar that it would be best if we didn't see each other for awhile, and she respected my decision so there is no point in bringing it up to Rachel when all it will do is upset her. I'm tired of arguing with her, I just want to fix us okay?"
"Are you serious right now? That is exactly why you have to tell her! You guys are just starting to work things out. You can't try and fix things while you're keeping something like this from her. She has every right to know!" Quinn just stood quiet as she processed everything that Santana had just said. She definitely had a point, but she knew that if she mentioned it to Rachel they would get into a big argument, and she didn't want to do that anymore. She figured that since she stopped Sugar from doing anything it would be okay to keep it to herself, but now she didn't know, and it worried her because just when she thought that things were getting better, things got worse.
"Quinn what are you afraid of?" Santana asked when it was evident that Quinn wasn't going to speak.
"Everything, I just don't want to fight anymore San. I'm tired, I want to go to the way things were, and after last night I was beginning to think that it was very possible, and now- now I'm not so sure." Santana got out of her seat and pulled Quinn into a comforting hug.
"Hey, everything is going to be alright, just don't overwhelm yourself. I assure you that everything is going to be alright, it's just important that you're honest with her. I mean how would you feel if someone tried kissing her, but she kept it from you?"
"Pissed! I would want to know who the person was so that I could do to them what I did to Finn!" Quinn shouted as the idea brushed her head.
"You see that's why you have to tell Rach."
"Ugh San, that's just it, I know how she's going to react, and I don't want her to take it out on Sugar. She didn't mean anything by it, and I really don't want either of them to be confrontational with each other. I don't want Rach to feel like she has to keep her guard up, and I don't want Sugar to feel that she's to blame for any more of mine and Rachel's problems. She doesn't deserve that. It was just a mistake."
"Why do you insist on defending her?" Santana asked as she made her way back to her seat.
"I'm not defending her; I'm just stating the facts. She made a mistake and regretted it right of the bat, so I don't want to make this into a big deal."
"Wait; please don't tell me you plan on keeping a friendship with her?" Quinn just remained quiet as Santana stared at her waiting for an answer.
"Q!"
"What, Santana! She's my friend, and I can't turn my back on her just because she admitted to having feelings for me. It's not like anything is going to happen between us."
"What the hell have you been smoking Q? You aren't making any sense!"
"You know what Santana, I asked you to meet me for lunch because I thought you would be understanding and help me clear my head, but all you've done is criticize me and I'm tired of it! I haven't done anything wrong, and you can't make me feel like I did, just because I value my friendship with Sugar." Quinn said as she took some money from her purse and got out of her seat.
"Where are you going?" Santana asked
"What do you care?" She replied back as she walked away.
"Q! Get your ass back here!" Santana shouted, but it was too late. Quinn was already out the door.
When Quinn got into her car she turned on the radio, and just drove. She didn't know where she was going, but she wanted to clear her head, because after speaking to Santana she felt more confused, and troubled than before she had even met up with her. She drove around for couple of hours, ignoring every vibration that came from her phone; she figured it was Santana trying to talk to her so she completely blew them off, until she had cooled down and pulled over to the curb. She was right most of her text messages were from Santana, a couple were from work, but one of them, the only one that mattered was from Rachel, and she couldn't help the smile that grew on her face the moment that she opened it.
*Hey baby, I just wanted to wish a great first day back to work! I hope all goes well, and I can't wait for you to come by and keep me company. Daddy keeps insisting that I stay in bed while he runs my errands for me, so I'm really bored! Please hurry and get here! Xoxo YOUR WIFE*
Quinn thought about responding back, but instead she decided to head right over to Rachel's place and surprise her with an early arrival.
"Daddy you don't have to knock every time you come into my room." Rachel said as she heard a faint knock on her bedroom door, but was ecstatic when she saw that it was Quinn.
"Quinn!" She practically jumped out of bed, but Quinn beat her to it.
"Hey there missy, I'm only allowed to visit you if I promise to make sure that you stay in bed, dad made me promise." Quinn said as she leaned in to place a kiss on Rachel's forehead, causing the brunette to pout.
"What's wrong Rach?"
"You kissed my forehead!" Was all she said as she crossed her arms and scrunched in her eyebrows.
"Yes, I didn't know that I wasn't allowed to."
"Well, you're certainly allowed to, I would just prefer if you kissed me somewhere else."
"Is that so, and where might that be?" Quinn said and started giggling the moment that Rachel pointed to her lips, Rachel always knew what to do to make her smile, and it felt great. She gently crawled her way to Rachel's side of the bed. She brushed a few strands of hair from Rachel's face and stared right into her dark brown sparkling eyes. It finally felt like she could breathe. It was refreshing and exciting all at once, but at the same time it scared her, because she learned early on that loving someone the way she loved Rachel could be a very dangerous thing. She ignored the fear, and with an intake of air guided Rachel's lips to hers. She didn't want to appear eager, and certainly didn't want to rush things between them, but she couldn't help the intensity that drew from them being so close to each other, in a bed that was once theirs. When she noticed that Rachel was kissing her back with just as much desire, and need she let her tongue do the talking, until they both broke apart to get air.
"Now that's more like it!" Rachel said with a smirk across her face.
"It should be illegal for you to greet me any other way." Once again Quinn couldn't help, but giggle.
"God, how I love your laugh" Rachel said and Quinn couldn't help but smile.
"Are you trying to get me to kiss you again?"
"I wouldn't negate that proposal, but in all honesty I really do love your laugh, it makes me feel warm inside, and everything seems better."
"Rachel if you keep speaking like that I can't be held responsible for my actions."
"And what might those actions be?" Rachel gave Quinn a wink after she asked the question.
"Oh no! We're not going there."
"What, why not?" Rachel asked as she stuck out her bottom lip.
"For various reasons, but reason number one, is that your doctor said you needed to rest, so that is all you will be doing, until it's okay for you to go back to work."
"Quinn!" Rachel whined.
"That's not going to work this time Rach I'm sorry."
"But baby I've missed you soooooooo much, and I just want you near me all the time."
"I missed you too baby, trust me when I say that, but it's too soon to be considering that. We have to take things slow, and you really do need to rest." Quinn said with a smile and then pecked Rachel on the lips. It may not have been as heated as the kiss they had engaged in a few minutes ago, but it still provided Rachel with the same feelings and emotions. She was just happy to have her wife beside her, and in all honesty couldn't wait for them to keep moving forward, so that they could do more than just rest.
"You're right, I apologize about my eagerness, it's just that I can't help myself when I'm near you, especially when everything is going great with us. I couldn't be happier!"
"Trust me; you don't have to explain because I know exactly what you mean." Quinn said with a wink, and they both broke into a soothing laughter.
"Baby?" Rachel asked. She loved when Quinn called her that, but she also enjoyed calling Quinn that, because it made her feel like she was really belonged to her, and there was no greater feeling than that.
"mhhm" Quinn smiled.
"Not that I'm not in a complete state of bliss because of your visit, but why are you here so early? I thought that you would be getting here later in the afternoon, again not that I'm complaining. I just figured that since it was your first day back you might get here a little later?"
Quinn was caught off guard by Rachel's question, her drive didn't really help clear her mind it just calmed her down, but she still didn't know if she wanted to let Rachel know about what had happened with Sugar.
"Oh well- um I got done a lot quicker than expected, and I wanted to see you so I had all my calls and emails forwarded to my phone so that it wasn't an issue." She felt a bit guilty for completely disregarding the issue with Sugar, but she still felt like it wasn't the time to discuss it. Rachel gave Quinn a smile but something about the way Quinn was fidgeting with a throw pillow as she spoke told her that something wasn't right.
"What's wrong honey?" Quinn asked when she noticed Rachel's demeanor change.
"Nothing, things are going very well right now and I don't want to say anything that could change that."
"Nothing is going to change us baby; you have nothing to worry about." Quinn tried to reassure her with a smile.
"You promise?"
"Of course I promise sweet heart, so tell me what is on your mind."
"Would it be okay for me to say that I don't really believe that you left early from work because you had completed everything ahead of time? I mean you hadn't attended work in about a month so it's hard to believe that you managed so well on your first day back." Rachel said as she turned to completely face Quinn.
"Well I – um I let them know about you, and they agreed it was okay for me to come home as long as I worked from home. So it's really not a big deal Rach."
"Okay" Rachel said as she leaned into Quinn, and Quinn wrapped her arms around her.
"We're going to be okay Rach, you have nothing to worry about other than getting better. Have you had lunch yet?"
"No I had a late breakfast so I'm really not that hungry."
"Are you sure because I brought some vegetable soup, it's warming up in the kitchen. Don't worry I bought it!" She said making Rachel laugh.
"Well, since you went out of your way to please my upset stomach I suppose I can have a bowl"
"Great! I'll be right back." Quinn said with a smile as she got off the bed, and walked out the door. Just then Rachel's phone went off. It was Santana.
"Hay San, what's up?"
"Hi Rach, how are ya feeling?"
"Well I can't complain since I'm being catered to, although I wouldn't mind getting out of this bed. What about you? Are you still stopping by after work?"
"Yea that's the plan, listen I was wondering if you've heard from Q? I met up with her for lunch and we kind of got into an argument, so she left and I haven't been able to get a hold of her. I just want to make sure she's okay."
"You guys got into an argument? What happened?" Rachel asked concerned.
"Just some work related stuff that we didn't really agree on. Nothing to worry about, have you heard from her?"
"Yes, actually she's in the kitchen warming me up some soup, but that explains why she seemed so hesitant when I asked her about work. Did Andrew give her a hard time for taking so many days off?
"No, no it wasn't anything like that we just didn't agree on something, but I'll talk to her later to make sure we clear things up. Don't worry about it Rach everything is fine okay? I love ya, and I'll see you as soon as I'm off work."Rachel let out a long sigh. She didn't believe Santana when she said she had nothing to worry about. Didn't people understand that telling someone not to worry when they don't know what's going on makes them worry even more?"
"Rach are you there?"
"Yes, I'm here, and okay that's fine San I'll see you when you get here, and I love you too." With that they ended their call and it was perfect timing because Quinn was just making her way back into the room.
"Here we are." Quinn said as she handed Rachel the bowl of soup.
"Be careful it's really hot."
"Thanks, hey um- why didn't you tell me that you had lunch with Santana?"
"How did you know I had lunch with San?"
"She called asking if I had heard from you, but Quinn that's beside the point, why didn't you tell me? She said you guys got into an argument and she hadn't been able to get a hold of you. Quinn what happened, and please be honest with me." Rachel pleaded.
"Rachel it's nothing, I didn't tell you because I forgot."
"You're lying." Rachel said bitterly as she looked towards Quinn who avoided eye contact.
"Quinn, I thought we were working on our relationship? If things are going to work out between us we have to be completely honest with one another. So please tell me what happened at work, which caused you and Santana to argue." Rachel demanded.
"It's nothing to worry about Rachel."
"Well good, if indeed there is nothing for me to worry about then you should have no issue telling me." She said as she placed her soup on the night stand and crossed her arms.
"Rachel" Quinn pleaded; she didn't want to talk about Sugar.
"Quinn, I'm serious!"
"Sugar kissed me" Was all she said, and she couldn't believe it the moment the words left her mouth.
That was update number 10, hope you guys enjoyed it! BTW what about that Faberry filled episode on Glee last Tuesday? I swear I couldn't contain my emotions, because Quinn said "You can't!" It made me happy, because it was similar to what I had written in "When You're Ready Faberry" If you haven't read it and are interested please do. Thanks once again – A girl I once knew