I am so sorry for the delay on this update; school has been pretty intense lately, but I plan on updating once a week now. Thanks for the reviews, and the patience.

When Quinn left the apartment Rachel was left to mend with her frustrations the only way she knew how, but when sleep no longer did the trick she decided to take a shower and get dressed. She didn't care if her doctor had written her bed rest. Her father had been away all morning and afternoon, and if she stayed home alone any longer she knew she would go insane. She didn't really know what her destination would be, she just knew she had to get out, and hopefully whatever road she took would lead her straight to Sugar.

She wanted to confront her once and for all. Who did she think she was? Quinn might have fallen for her little tricks, but Rachel was none the wiser, and she knew from the very beginning that Sugar had other intentions with Quinn. It was clear from the very first moment she came across her. She saw the looks she aimed at Quinn when she thought no one was looking, but Rachel caught her, she always did.

As Rachel reached for her front door she saw the door knob slightly turn, but before she even had a chance to freak out Santana popped her head inside.

"Berry, where do you think you're going? Get your butt to bed now, afore I go all Lima Heights on you!" Santana said with a smirk across her face, but wiped it off the minute she saw Rachel frown.

"Rach, what's wrong?"

"Nothing, I just don't want to be here anymore." She said with a sigh.

"But you have to rest, those were the doctor's orders, until you were able to keep your solids down he didn't want you to do things that required a lot of energy, so get your ass to bed now!"

"No!"

"What do you mean No? Rachel if I have to carry you to bed I will, but I know you won't let it get to that point, so stop being stubborn and get to bed now!"

"No Santana! I am not a child, and I would appreciate it if you stopped treating me like one, because I really am not in the mood, and all I want to do is get some fresh air!" Rachel rambled as she stomped her foot.

"Does your behavior have anything to do with what Sugar did?" Rachel raised her hand to get Santana to stop talking.

"Don't mention that name in my house!"

"Woa Rach calm down, I know that you're upset, but this isn't good for your health so just try to relax." Santana said she placed her hands onto Rachel's shoulders.

"I can't San, I'm really angry, and although normally I don't approve of violence I really feel like punching someone, and you're not making things any easier for me. I just need to get out of this house before I go crazy. I need to get these images of Quinn, and that woman out of my head." She said was a desperate tone.

Santana nodded as she guided Rachel to the couch in her living room.

"I know Rach, I really am sorry about that. Do you want to talk about it?" Rachel nodded as she wiped away a lone tear, and Santana gave her a warming smile.

"Short stuff, don't let this get you down. You and Quinn are better than that; you can't let this get to you."

"How could I not? Do you realize what this means? It means that I was right all along, and Quinn completely disregarded everything that I ever told her, and chose to believe another woman who she hardly even knew, over her own wife! She betrayed me from that moment, and because of that I did something that I will never fully forgive myself for." Santana let her arms do the talking as she pulled Rachel into a hug; she had no idea that this would affect her so strongly. She figured that Rachel would have taken it a lot better because she always suspected something, but it wasn't like that at all.

"Rach it's okay hon shhh"

"I don't know if it is okay San, what if she chooses her over me?"

"What do you mean, what If she chooses her over you?"

"Well she has San! From the moment she came into her life that's how it's been. The night of our reunion she spent the entire night texting her, and didn't even notice how flirtatious I was being with Finn. I was only doing that to get her attention, but she still left my side to be there for her. What if she has feelings for her, but chooses to ignore them? I love Quinn, more than I ever thought possible, but I don't know if I can get past this, I don't know if we can be us again without having to worry, about that woman getting in the way. I know we had started working things out, and I was really beginning to believe that we were going to go back to normal, but now I don't know"

"What? Well what do you plan on doing Rach? Have you even spoken to Q about this? She told me she thought you took it well, but it doesn't seem that way to me."

"I know, when she left I was still kind of in shock, I mean I've always suspected something was going on, but it's whole other thing when it gets confirmed, and I don't know what I'm going to do. All I know is that I need some time away. My daddy is supposed to head back to Lima at the end of this week, but if it's possible I'm going to get us tickets back to Lima for tomorrow morning. I just need to retrace my steps, and there is nothing like going back home for that to happen." Santana didn't expect to get that sort of response from Rachel. Lima had always been a place they wanted to flee from, but now Rachel was planning on going back to get comfort. She never thought she would see the day.

"Well how long do you plan on being there? What about your play?"

"I don't know maybe a couple of weeks, I can always see a doctor there, and my understudy is great, nowhere near as great as me, but she will get the job done while I'm away. I think it's for the best." Santana chuckled at Rachel's vanity, but stopped when she thought of Quinn.

"When are you telling Q?"

"I'm not" Rachel stated as she avoided eye contact with Santana.

"Rachel, that's not fair. I know you're upset, and you have every right to be, but she still deserves to know. How would you feel if she got up and left town without letting you know?"

"I just don't want to deal with it San, if I call her to let her know my plan she's going to freak out and everything will be blown out of proportion, and I really don't want to go through that right now, please understand." Santana just shook her head.

"I understand where you're coming from, and I won't bring it up to Q, but if she asks me I am not going to keep it from her, because not only is she my best friend, but she has the right to know Rach, and nothing you say is going to change my mind."

"I suppose that is fair." Rachel said with a smirk.

"I'm glad you understand, now let's get something to eat, I had lunch with Q, but after our argument I lost my appetite so now I am starving, how about I make us some tomato soup with grilled cheese?" Rachel just nodded as Santana made her way to the kitchen.

While Santana was cooking her phone went off, and she asked Rachel to get it for her.

"Um it's Quinn; I really don't want to answer it, especially if she's calling for you."

"Fine I'll get it, but you stand here and stir the soup." Santana instructed as she took the phone from Rachel's hand.

"Q, what's up?"

"San, you will never believe who I got an email from this afternoon."

"You're right, I don't know."

"Come on San at least try to guess."

"Q you know I hate guessing games." Santana whimpered

"Santana come on guess, just once and if you don't get it I'll let you know."

"Um I don't know, Judy, Sue, Mr. Shue?" Santana asked as she placed her right hand on her hip, and gave a confused look to Rachel who was questioning her.

"No, I guess you really are a bad guesser. How about you come over that way you can see the email yourself."

"Really Fabray, you called me to make me guess and you're still going to leave me hanging!" Santana huffed as she heard Quinn chuckle. She didn't know who had emailed Quinn but if it was enough to put her in a good mood in spite of her situation with Rachel she really wanted to know.

"So are you really going to make me wait?"

"Well I suppose I can tell you, but you have to promise to come over later. Are you still with Rachel? I text her but she never replied back I figured she was taking a nap or something?"

"Yea I'm still with her, I'm actually making us something to eat Ishmael is still out so I don't want to leave her alone until he gets here, but she doesn't have her phone on her. I think she left it charging. I'll let her know you text her."

"Thanks San, I know it must be a pain in the ass to be stuck in between the both of us, but I really appreciate it, and I'm sure Rach does too. Let her know that I'm really sorry, and that I love her very much!" Quinn said she let out a long sigh.

"I will Q, and I already told you that you don't have to thank me for any of that. You guys both mean a lot to me and I'll always be here for you guys even when you make it difficult. So are you going to tell me who emailed you?"

"Right, um well you were close to guessing when you mentioned the couch, but then slipped away. Brittany emailed me. She wrote me a very sweet message letting me know that she was going to be here this weekend, and invited me to go see her dance crew perform. She asked about you, but from what she said it sounded like she never got your email." After Quinn finished speaking she waited for Santana to give her a reply, but it didn't seem like she was going to get one, so after she checked to see if the call was still going she spoke again.

"San, did you hear me? It was Britt who called. Are you there?" She barely heard a response but it was there.

"Yea, I'm here."

"Are you okay? Maybe I should have waited for you to get here to talk about it. Are you okay to drive? Do you want me to come get you?"

"No, I'm fine I just can't believe she emailed you and never got back at me."

"San it seems like she never got your email. She asked if Joe was treating you well. Are you sure you sent her the email, and that it didn't stay as a draft?"

"I don't know Q, but I'm going to let you go. Once Ishmael gets here I'll head to your place."

"Okay San, but please be careful okay?"

"See you later Q."

When Santana got off the phone Rachel turned off the stove and immediately wrapped her arms around her friend.

"What's wrong San? Is Quinn alright?" Santana just nodded as a sob escaped her mouth, and that only worried Rachel more. It was rare to see Santana break down like that without having to consume any drinks, so Rachel held her tighter, and walked her into the living room where they sat down on the couch.

"What happened Santana?" Rachel asked soothingly.

"Britt, she's here, and she emailed Q- but he never messaged me." Santana said as more tears rolled down her face. Rachel was still confused, she figured Santana would be happy to know that Brittany was in town, but what did any of that have to do with Brittany emailing Quinn, and not messaging her?

"Okay, you're going to have to catch me up, because I still don't see how this is a bad thing. Shouldn't you be happy that Britt is in town? That means you can talk to her, and make things better." Rachel said as Santana shook her head, and got off of the couch.

"No Rachel, I emailed her when you were in the hospital, because her sister told me that she would be here for some type of dance gig, but she never replied back. I know I don't deserve for to give me the time of day, but it hurts that she didn't bother to tell me she was here, even though she messaged Q."

"Well are you sure she received it? Britt doesn't hold grudges, and whenever she and I happened to email each other she would always ask about you. I'm sure she would be more than happy to hear from you."

"I don't know Rach, I pushed her away. I broke her heart. I don't deserve to hear from her, but I miss her, and I will always love her."

"That's why you need to speak with her. You need to explain to her why you did what you did."

"Do you honestly think she'll believe me? Put yourself in her shoes; if Q would have done to you what I did to Britt would you forgive her?" Rachel just shook her head.

"Quinn and I are- we're a different story, and you more than anyone know how much I love her and how much I've fought for her, so if you love Britt anywhere as much as I love Quinn you will fight for her."

"Pft yea, you love Quinn so much you're planning on leaving without telling her."

"Hey! That's not fair. I need some time away, and I have every right to go back to Lima if I want to. When Quinn and I first took the break she lasted six long months without even answering my text messages, so how is this any different?"

"Rachel you're running away, how can't you see that?"

"No I am not running away! I taking a time out, I need to get away from all of this to come take care of it with clarity, and maybe that will give Quinn enough time to decide what she wants to do."

"Berry you and Quinn give me a headache, but apparently I can't really do much about that right now, because I have to deal with Britt Britt, and it terrifies me. What if when I see her I can't help but jump straight into her arms? What if I want to kiss her? What if- she moved on?" Santana let out a sigh before she continued.

"I don't know if I can handle seeing her in the arms of another person. That will completely break me Rachel, maybe it's best if I don't see her."

"No San, you need to speak to her! You owe it to her, and to yourself to see her, even if it is for closure. Just let time take care of everything else. Go with what feels right."

"Well if I do meet up with her you have to let Quinn know about your trip to Lima."

"Santana, that's not fair you can't mix my situation with yours."

"I'm not mixing them up; I just don't want you to have any unresolved issues between you guys. If you leave without telling her you can risk her getting closer to Sugar. Is that what you want, because by doing that you're leaving the door wide open for her."

"No that's not what I want! I just feel like I'm not me right now. I feel so much that I don't feel anything at all. I'm numb San, and that scares me because last time I felt like this I did something that I could never take back. I don't like feeling this. I like being in control of my emotions and actions, and right now I feel like I can't do any of that. I want to go home and find the girl who wasn't afraid to take a stand. The girl who went against all odds and stood behind what she believed even if it meant she would be tormented for that. I can't confront Sugar until I find her." Santana nodded, she understood what Rachel was talking about and she hoped with all her heart that her trip back to Lima would have good results.

"Okay Rach, just promise me that you won't push Quinn away if she tries to reach out to you. I'm sure that if you explained to her how you felt she would understand."

"I'm sure she would, but to be honest I'm very upset with her for allowing us to get to this point. I love her more than anything, but I'm hurt that she chose to believe a stranger over me. I'm her wife San, not a fling, not a girlfriend, but her wife! The person she chose to spend the rest of her life with. You would think that that would mean something to her, but she disregarded it, and look at us now. I just need some time. That's all I ask for."

Rachel said as she made her way back to the kitchen. She was done discussing her plan. She loved Quinn with every part of her being, and during their time apart she missed her terribly, but like Quinn had said once before sometimes love isn't enough. She wasn't ready to throw in the white towel, but she knew that in order to look past the whole situation she had to go find herself before she lost herself completely.

It was around nine pm when Santana made her way to Quinn's studio. Quinn had been working on college applications to keep her distracted so it took her some time to realize someone was at her door.

"Oh hey San you got here just in time I just ordered a pizza. I was waiting for Britt to reply to my email in case she wanted to get dinner together, but she never got back at me." She said as Santana walked towards the couch and sat down.

"Thank I am actually not hungry Berry and I ate together while I was over there, but about- Britt, what did the email actually say?" Santana said as she moved the stack of applications out of the way to make room for Quinn.

"Well pretty much what I told you, but you can see it for yourself." Quinn said she went for her laptop. Once she was logged in to her account she place the laptop in front of Santana and waited for her to read through it. Once she has read it Santana let out a long sigh.

"This doesn't make any sense."

"What doesn't make sense?" Quinn asked completely confused.

"Well I checked my outbox on my phone and it went through, so she should have gotten it. I just don't get it." Santana said she ran a hand through her hair in frustration.

"Well maybe she accidently deleted it before she opened it, or maybe it went to her junkmail, regardless of that she still asked about you. That's a good sign San, and she asked me to take care of you. You should definitely meet up with her." Quinn said as she placed a comforting hand on Santana's shoulder. Santana leaned into Quinn's hand and broke into a little smile because Brittany referred to her as San, and asked Quinn to take care of her. That gave her hope; it wasn't a lot but enough to leave her content.

"I just hope she hasn't moved on with anyone, and I hope she can forgive me, and work on us even if we just start off as friends. I just miss her so much Q!" Santana said as a tear streamed down her face, and she thought about Rachel's plan. She couldn't allow her friends to make the same mistake, she had to tell Quinn.

"What's wrong San?" Quinn asked when she saw Santana tense up.

"I- have to tell you something about Rachel. She asked me not to tell you, but you have to know."

"What is it San, is she okay?" Quinn started to panic as she thought of Rachel in her hospital bed.

"She's fine Q, relax."

"Well then what is it San, don't scare me like that again."

"Okay I'm sorry, but I do have something to tell you so sit down." Once Quinn made her way back to the couch Santana began speaking.

"San spill it!"

"Well apparently Berry didn't take the whole Sugar kiss as well as you thought she did,"

"What do you mean?"

"Well she's very upset, and she wants to go away for a bit."

"Go away for a bit? Where to, and why hasn't she told me any of this?" Quinn asked as she arched her eyebrow.

"I don't Q, she just said that she feels lost, and wants to back to Lima to find the Rachel she used to be. You have to understand where she's coming from Q, she just found out that she had a reason to be suspicious, and it has triggered all of those initial emotions." Quinn placed her head into her hands and she allowed the entire new information sink in. She knew Rachel was upset, but she didn't think it would make her want to runaway, and it upset her that she planned to do it behind her back.

"This isn't fair!" Quinn shouted as she got up and grabbed her car keys.

"Quinn, where are you going?"

"Where do you think?" Quinn asked with a chuckle.

"Quinn you need to cool down, I'm not going to let you go to Rachel's house like this. Do you want your father in law to see you all fired up? If I told you about it wasn't so you could barge into her apartment and go all HBIC on her. I wanted to let you know what her plan was so you could reason with her."

"Reason with her? Come on San she's planning on leaving me, and doesn't even want to tell me. That's not something to reason about. I need her to tell me herself. I need to hear it out of her mouth! When is she planning on leaving?" Santana felt like she had opened a can of worms and she didn't know how to contain them. Quinn deserved to know what was going, she didn't need to act like a barbarian.

"When is she leaving Santana?" She asked when Santana remain quiet.

"You can't tell me that she's planning to leave, and not tell me when she's planning to do it!"

"I know Q, but I didn't expect for you to react this way."

"Well how else am I supposed to react? I thought we were working things out, but clearly I was wrong, and it wasn't even like I cheated! She was the one that fucked Finn!"

"Quinn!" Santana shouted she understood Quinn was mad, but she wasn't going to sit there and let Quinn refer to Rachel so negatively.

"Oh that's right I forget you're team Berry!"

"Quinn get your head out of your ass before I force you to! What's this crap about me being team Berry? I'm not on any team! I look out for the both of you whether you realize that or not. You need to calm down. I know you're upset, but if I told you it was because I thought you deserved to know, and now you're making me second guess myself! Rachel is scared okay? She may have slept with Finn, but she didn't do it with a clear frame of thought. That is why she wants to find herself. If you haven't been able to fully forgive her for that, imagine how she's struggling with that herself." Quinn realized she had blown things out of proportion, but Rachel's decision had really caught her off guard.

"I don't want to lose her!" Quinn said as she slid to the ground, and Santana approached her.

"You're not going to lose her hon, go talk to her, but do it calmly. That's the only way you'll get her to listen you. You need to keep in mind that she's just as scared as you are, and if you really don't want to lose her you have to hear her out and listen." Santana said as she helped Quinn up and walked out with her. Once outside Santana walked Quinn to her car and told her to call her if she needed anything at all.

Although Santana's pep talk had calmed Quinn down before she drove to Rachel's place, the drive there didn't do her so well. Thoughts of Rachel leaving her without telling her brushed through her mind and it pissed her off. They were still married, how could she even consider doing that right when they were in the middle of fixing themselves.

When she got to Rachel's front door she didn't even bother knocking she used the spare key that Rachel had left underneath the carpet, and didn't take the time acknowledge Ishmael while he was reading on the couch. She went directly towards the bedroom that she and Rachel once shared, and shut the door behind her catching Rachel off guard as she packed.

"Don't forget to pack your medicine." Quinn stated bitterly

"Quinn- what are you doing here?" Rachel asked as she turned from her suitcase to face Quinn.

"Well I came to say good bye, because apparently you don't think it's necessary to do so, even though I am still your wife!" Quinn shouted as she approached Rachel, causing Rachel to break into a sarcastic laugh.

"Oh how convenient of you to remember that I am your wife! Why didn't that cross your mind when that bitch got in the way?" Rachel shouted right back, setting Quinn off even more.

"Yea you didn't seem to think of that when you fucked Finn either!" Quinn spat out, and was stunned when she felt Rachel's cold slap right across her face.

"Fuck you! Fuck you Quinn! What gives you the right to tell me that when you didn't even care that I was flirting with him right in front of you! You were too busy texting that whore while I was fighting for your attention! So fuck you!" Once Rachel was done speaking Quinn grabbed on to Rachel's wrists as tightly as she could with a cast on.

"Fuck me then Rachel! It's my fault then fuck me!" She spat out as she pushed Rachel against her bed until the back of her knees made contact with it. Rachel immediately switched gears on Quinn, pulling her down with her the moment she hit the bed. Quinn was directly on top of her, but there was no question about who was in control. Without much warning Rachel slid her thigh in between Quinn's, and gripped on to Quinn's hips forcing friction between her thigh and Quinn's center. The moment Rachel's thigh made contact with Quinn's a loud moan escaped her mouth.

"Fu- ck Rachel! Don't fucking stop!" Was all she was able to get out before Rachel captured Quinn's bottom lip into her mouth, and immediately slid her tongue inside. It drove Quinn insane and she couldn't help but grind harder down onto Rachel's thigh. She felt herself coming undone quickly. She couldn't remember the last time she had been in a similar situation and it was becoming too much for her to handle, but she wanted more. She wanted Rachel all over her. Rachel felt Quinn grind harder every time she brought her thigh up. She knew what Quinn was doing, but there was no way she was going to let her off that easy. If Quinn was going to come it was going to be under her terms. Who did Quinn think she was being all demanding out of nowhere? Rachel knew that they were in for a long night of passion, but not the way she had expected it. Instead of them making love they were fucking, and with each kiss the anger surfaced, so when she discovered what Quinn was doing she slipped her thigh out from between them and sat up causing Quinn to whimper at the loss of touch.

"I know what you're trying to do, and it isn't going to work Quinn! How could you do this! How could you let someone break us! You promised we would be okay! You promised!" Rachel shouted as tears made an appearance on her face. Quinn wanted to say something, but before she could speak, Rachel was already straddling her hips and rocking hard against her. Another loud moan escaped her throat. It really had been too long.

"God Rachel!" left her mouth before Rachel leaned down and began attacking Quinn's pulse point. At first she just sucked on it, but the moment she felt Quinn grip onto her thighs for more she bit down hard, and Quinn groaned both in pain and pleasure. Rachel was claiming what was hers, even if she was going to be away Sugar needed to know that Quinn was hers, and that she was off limits.

Once Rachel was done attacking Quinn's neck she decided she needed more, she wanted all of Quinn, but the blouse she was wearing was getting in the way. She tried to unbutton it but quickly lost her patience so she tugged on it as hard as she could until it came apart and the buttons scattered all over the place. Once the blouse was no longer an issue she allowed herself some time to indulge in the image beneath her. She wanted to make love to Quinn, she looked gorgeous and was completely under her control, but she was angry, and she didn't feel like being gentle so she roughly tugged on her bra until two erect pink nipples made an appearance causing her to whimper in need. She needed to taste them she needed to suck on them. So she did just that, and she felt herself soak through her own underwear, and sweats as she latched her mouth around the nipple and flicked her tongue at it, definitely causing Quinn to moan in return.

"Fuck Rachel! Please I need…" Rachel couldn't help the smirk that appeared on her face when she heard the tone of desperation in the way her wife pleaded for more.

"What do you need Quinn?" She teased as she husked her voice and bit down on one of Quinn's already sensitive nipples.

"I need you- I need you inside of please."

"Are you sure that's what you want?" Rachel asked, but she didn't even wait for a response. She quickly unzipped Quinn's pants and pulled them down along with her underwear. She brushed her whole hand across her Quinn's opening making Quinn shiver and whimper at the touch. Normally she would have taken her time, but she wasn't about to do that. This wasn't about taking her time; this was about making a point to Quinn. Quinn belonged to her, and no one else. As she thought that she envisioned Sugar kissing Quinn and the anger within her surfaced once more, so without warning Quinn she slid three fingers deep within her as she began to thrust inside Quinn. Almost instantly Quinn began to clench shut around Rachel's fingers. With every thrust Quinn whimpered and moaned Rachel's name for more. She needed more, but she knew Rachel wasn't going to let her have it that easy.

"I'm so close Rach!" She shouted, and it was a mistake, because the moment she said that Rachel pulled out.

"No you're not Quinn! You'll be close when I say so!" With that she began to rub circles against Quinn clit, building up her tension even more.

"Rach- please I just…"

"You just what Quinn? Are you going to continue allowing other women to kiss you even though you're my wife, even though you're mine, and only mine!" Rachel shouted right before she entered Quinn once more, only this time instead of three fingers she used four, and Quinn didn't stand a chance. After three thrusts she was gone. Rachel had taken every piece of her the only way Rachel knew how. Once Rachel helped Quinn ride out her orgasm she collapsed directly on top of her, and felt Quinn wrap her arms around her as she tried to catch her breath.

"Rachel- I…" Quinn tried to speak, but stopped when she felt Rachel's hand on her lips.

"Please don't say anything Quinn, just hold me. I need you to hold me until I fall asleep." Rachel said as a muffled cry threatened to escape her mouth, but Quinn kissed it away, until she felt sleep take Rachel away from her, shortly after sleep consumed her as well.

Once again I am so very sorry for how long it took me to update! I hope this update made up for it, and I hope you all can forgive me and let me know what you think? It will be greatly appreciated. I also promise not to make a habit out of this. It was only a onetime thing ; )