He Should Have Been Mine Chapter 3 of You Get Used To It

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Many glimpses into the past.

Enjoy!

Mikey shot up in bed at the sound of a little boy's shrill screams in the middle of the night. It had been four nights since they had met Don and, since it was Friday, his mother permitted him to stay the night with them. Trembling, Mikey gently scooped Devon into her arms and rocked him cooed, "What is it baby? What's wrong?"

"Monsters, mommy, there are monsters everywhere!" he shuddered. She let out a sigh of relief. Just monsters, she told herself, nothing more. Mikey continued to rock him gently and to talk to him softly to no avail. Leo entered the room and looked down at the sobbing boy.

"What is it, Mikey? Why is he so upset?" he tenderly took the boy in his arms.

"I don't know, he said he saw monsters," she shrugged.

Leo sat down with his son in his arms and began soothingly singing to him with his soft melodious voice.

"Come stop you're crying it will be alright,

Just take my hand, hold it tight,

I will protect from all around you,

I will be here don't you cry,

For one so small, you seem so strong,

My arms will hold you keep you safe and warm,

This bond between us can't be broken,

I will be here don't you cry."

As Leo slowly sang to his little boy, he drifted back to sleep in his daddy's arms. "He's out," Leo whispered to Mikey. She nodded and yawned. "Can I take him out with me to sleep tonight?" Leo loved the little boy as much as any father could ever love his son. Devon *was* Leo's son in every way that a man could have a son. I am more a damn father to him than his biological father ever wanted to be, Leo got angry just thinking about it. It made him feel sorry for Mikey, poor girl. He loved her so much and she did not deserve to be abandoned and impregnated by some fool the way she had been.

"Yes-wait. Can you just sleep in here with him tonight? Please, something feels wrong and I just don't want to be alone." Leo lowered himself onto the bed next to Mikey.

"Sure, good night," he whispered into her ear and kissed the tip of her nose.

"Sweet dreams," she murmured wishing with her whole body that she could one day be with him again. She wanted so badly to forgive him. Nevertheless, he left her alone. He left her when she needed him the most.

Leo fought back his urge to kiss her on the mouth. No, he told himself, let her be do not hurt her again. With Devon curled up on top of him, Leo let his mind race back to the past.

*-* Leo was on his way to a dark alley to take care of some "business" he had with some of Shredder's boys. A thirteen-year-old Leo was already well versed in the art of fighting. He had started the rebellion against the Foot Clan when he was only eleven. Raph, who was only twelve, was with him as well.

The boys, together, slid around the corner to their meeting place and Leo let out a gasp of shock. "Shit," he muttered.

"Who is that?" Raph leaned over and asked quietly.

"Yeah, this your bitch, huh?" Rock steady-so they called him-let out a sinister laugh.

"Oh, oh shit!" Raph recognized the young girl in the grips of his enemy.

"Look man, leave her alone. She's not involved in this," as Leo spoke; he could see the little girl fighting to keep her composure. Suddenly Rock Steady lifted his hand to her breast and gave it a squeeze and she yelped. Leo clenched his jaw in anger at this and took a step forward. "I mean it, you're asking for me to shove my steel toed boot up your ass."

"C'mon, man, don't you understand what it's like? I'm just lonely. Anyways, I think she might be fun. Give me one go around and I promise to have her back in the morning," her eyes widened in fright and she tried to wiggle free. Leo tried to go after the guy but Raph held him back. "She must be pretty good if you don't want me to have some," he was trying to push Leo to his limit, trying to make him mad. Raph realized his plan and knew that no one fights well through rage. "Well let me test her out," the man began to suck on the neck of his captive as she squirmed uncomfortably. The whole time, he kept amused eyes on Leo, seeing his anger rise with each second. Unconsciously, Leo's fists clenched.

"Damn it, dude, stop that now!" Leo lunged at them and Rock Steady jerked away.

"Hey, man, I was just having some fun. But I see that you're the jealous type, I understand," he taunted. Leo lunged in again. This time, Rock steady pushed his prisoner away, onto the ground, and lunged back at Leo, punching him in his left cheek. Bebop, another of Shredder's men, picked the girl up off the ground and punched her in the face several times before Raph could jump in. Raph easily freed the girl from Bebop's grasp and began to return the punches. Hastily, the little girl ran and sat in the shadows watching the fighting continue although Leo and Raph quickly took control of the situation. She shuddered at each punch that landed weeping silently.

He is going to kill them, thought Raph when he looked over at Leo. Raph ran over and pulled Leo off his enemy. "Now get out of here or I just might let him kill you for what you did!" Raph said calmly. As Bebop and Rock Steady hurriedly started to retreat, Leo screamed his anger at them, "Fuckers! I'll remember this!" Then he turned to Raph, "Why the fuck did you stop me? Didn't you see what they did to Mikey?"

"Yeah, dude, I saw it. But killing that guy isn't going to solve it and we've already scared the existing shit out of her!" Leo looked around to find his girlfriend and spotted her sitting in the shadows.

Leo walked to her, sat down, and gently pulled the trembling eleven-year- old into his lap. She looked up at him with wide blue eyes, "I'm sorry."

Leo, taken aback, questioned, "Sorry for what?"

"I'm sorry I followed you. If I hadn't, you wouldn't have that black eye," she touched his face gently.

"Shh, that's not your fault," he picked her up in his arms.

Back at his house, he gently cleaned the dried blood tenderly off Mikey's face. Gently kissing her countenance as he cleaned, murmuring his apologies. Tears slid silently down her face.

"Hey now, stop crying," he wiped her cheeks. "Will you tell me now why were you following me?" Kneeling in front of her, he looked into her eyes.

She pulled her knees to her chest, "I wondered where you always went that you wouldn't tell me about. I thought that maybe you went to see a girl. Anyways, it made me decide that I would follow you. I was almost there when those guys grabbed me and they pulled me with them. I'm so sorry."

He kissed the tip of her nose, "You shouldn't have followed me. Please trust me. There is not anyone else I am interested in but you. Please, though, don't be sorry, I should be the one apologizing. I'm sorry they hurt you." She nodded, silently accepting his apology. "Are you hurt anywhere else?" She lifted up her torn; bloody pants as high as she could, to expose the bottom of a deep slash on her right knee.

"I think I fell on some glass," she explained. Leo walked away and came back with more disinfectant. Mikey gasped at the sting as he cleaned out her cut. He stopped, suddenly, and looked up at her as if to say 'I'm sorry.' "What?" she sniffled.

"I can't get to the rest of the cut," he blushed slightly as she slid out of her pants and he cleaned the rest of the slice on her knee.

With all of her wounds cleaned and her delicate face beginning to bruise, Leo laid Mikey down in his bed to sleep for the night. As he watched her dream, his eyes fell to the hickie (sp?) on her neck. He silently cursed Rock Steady and all of the Foot Clan and swore his revenge. He knew that he would always have to protect her; he could not see her hurt again. That night, he told himself he would never let her go.

"You know, she's part of us now, right? She's a turtle and she can't get out." Raph said leaning in the doorway.

Leo stood up; fire in his eyes and shut the door as he walked out of the room. "Shut the fuck up, fuck you man!"

"It's only the truth," he said defensively, "They want her now and they won't stop."

"NO! No, you're wrong." Leo fumed and stormed out of the room. Raph sighed to himself, Leo had to learn fast. For Mikey's sake.-*-

If only I had listened to him. If only I would have understood, I could have trained her. I could have taught her to fight for herself. Maybe then, we wouldn't all be in the situation we are now. Maybe then, she wouldn't be so sad. Maybe then, she would still be mine. Leo thought wistfully about that night. That night changed all of their lives forever.

Leo's train of thought was broken when his son began to squirm on top of him. It was only then that he realized that the sun had long ago risen. "Shh," he whispered, "Let mommy sleep." Leo carried the boy out of the room. Upon leaving the bedroom, Leo found Raph and Don sitting at the kitchen table, talking to each other. Leo put Devon down on top of the phone book at the kitchen table and gave him a bowl of apple cinnamon oatmeal with banana cut up in it.

Raph smirked at Leo. "So, I see you got some play," he joked.

Leo shot him a glare, "Devon was in there with us. You're depraved- immoral." Leo grunted his disgust at the thought.

Raph chuckled, "Well I know that if I had been in there with Mikey all night, I wouldn't have slept a wink if you smell my drift." Raph winked at him to top it off but before Leo could glare at him, he turned to Devon, "What was bothering you last night little man?" he asked.

"Monsters," the little boy trembled.

"Aw, kiddo, there's no monsters they're afraid of your daddy." The little boy looked admiringly at Leo. Raph chuckled, "At least he let Mikey know he was still breathing, huh Leo?"

Leo snorted, "Oh he was breathing alright."

Mikey suddenly bolted out of the bedroom. "Whoa there, what's up?" Don laughed at her haste.

"I thought someone kidnapped my son, thanks for teasing me." She kissed the top of her son's head, "Morning, big guy, oatmeal? I think your daddy has a soft spot for you, he spoils you rotten." Everyone in the room chuckled.

"I don't think you've ever said anything more true," Raph conceded.

"Shut up, wait till you have kids," Leo replied ominously. Raph shook his head.

"No kids for me, thanks. I'm happy living the swinging single life." In all reality, Raph did not lead the swinging single life. He was completely devoted to the downfall of the Foot Clan. So much, in fact, that he had no time for much relationship with anybody. Raph had his friends Leo, Mikey, and now Don and that was enough for him. He felt no need for more friends than that. 'Why have too many friends? You can only trust so many people anyways' he emphasized. Leo knew Raph had little capacity for any emotion. He hardly ever expressed much of any sentiment. Leo knew that one day, though; he would find one girl that made his emotions run wild. In most ways, Leo was the same way. They both just expected people to know how they felt about them. There was no need to speak what people already know. It was a waste of breath. The only difference, Leo had already met that special girl and she already set his emotions on fire.

"Whatever, Romeo I-"Mikey was interrupted when the phone rang. She pulled the receiver off the wall and put it to her ear, "Hello?"

"How about you let me talk to your boyfriend, bitch," said the vicious voice on the other end. She closed her eyes and the memory of that horrifying voice whispering in her ear. *-*"That's right, scream for me nice and loud, little girl."-*- Her eyes snapped open.

"You know, I have little patience for your games. What do you want?" she replied as coldly as she could manage. Through her callous façade, she could feel herself trembling in terror.

"Put him on the phone before I fuck you up worse than I did the last time," he hissed.

Leo saw Mikey's eyes grow wide in fear, "What the hell? Give me the phone." He took the phone from Mikey's hand. "Who is this and what the hell are you calling for?" Leo demanded harshly. Mikey picked Devon up and put him in her lap to finish eating.

Raph and Don questioned who was on the phone but she only stared blankly so they turned their attention back to Leo on the phone listening to his end of the conversation. *-*Mikey came conscious again and let out a low moan of pain as her attacker moved in and out of her with growing ferocity before she slipped back into oblivion again.-*- she shook her mind free of the horrific memories that haunted her.

"Chill out man, I just want to see my son. I'm sure you understand," the voice said smoothly. He relished at the fact that he knew exactly how to get at his enemy where it really tore at him. "I'd sure like to be between those thighs again sometime, hear her moan my name some more." With every malicious word spoken, Leo's anger rose.

"You jackass, do not *ever* call my house again. Do you understand?" He hung up the phone.

"What the hell, man, what's going on?" Raph jumped up.

Leo pointed a finger at Mikey and Devon, "Do not let either of them out of your sight, do you understand me?" Leo was in the midst of walking away when Raph spun him around.

"What the fuck just happened?" Raph demanded.

Leo eyed Don quickly and turned his attention back to Raph. "It was Devon's dad. He demanded to see his son," he clenched his jaw. "I swear, I could rip his fucking balls off!"

"What the hell do you think you're going to do? Do you think you are going to go take him out? It is not going to happen now so stop being a fool!" Raph screamed.

Leo's body shook behind the delicate dam holding back his rage. Slowly, Leo got control of his emotions again, letting his breath even out. "Of course man, you're right," he said at last. Mikey put Devon back onto the phone book and walked to Leo.

"I'm sorry. About everything, I'm just sorry," she whispered.

He stroked her cheek tenderly, "He should have been mine." Deep pain was in Leo's voice and he had to break away from the gaze of the girl in front of him. Painstakingly, he turned and walked away and out the door with his car keys in his hand.

A/N: Ah! I like this chapter! (Actually, I've liked all three chapters so far. I'm not sure which one I liked best though. Either two or three.. One wasn't all that thrilling.) I have to apologize, for some reason all I write is dark stuff. I am really going to pull away from that somehow. hopefully. eventually. Next chapter up soon. We will see how that goes because I never really know what I'm going to do next. I just have the end and the theme in mind and I let it all flow.

Walking Contradiction: I love you so much! Okay well.. Thank you so much for all of your praise. You yourself have kept me going with this.

Kelly: Heart You!

Love, Krissy