I'm not a bad person, not really. I mean, sure, I've stood by and watched as Gina beat on someone or worse if Monica so much as flicked her wrist, and I helped. I'm not stupid, I knew what Monica was like, but what people don't get is that it was either a choice of buddying up with her or having her as an enemy-seen too much of what happens to people when you get on her bad side. She takes things to a whole new level and it'd be suicide-just ask Collins. Thing is, She has too much on me, stupid stuff, stuff I wish had never happened, not like I can fix any of it or ignore it. Like she'd let me; she likes to remind me just how much she has on me if I so much as open my mouth. See-there was this time before I hung out with Monica, when I was a nobody, I tried hard-too hard to be accepted with people who I thought were cool. Boy was I a dumbass. I made a mistake, there was this boy and I liked him, he was a year or something older than me and he seemed to like me back. Things got out of hand and-well I ended up in the boy's bathroom and I'm going to leave it there because I don't want to talk about it. Monica found out and that was it, it hung around me like a ball and chain that she liked to pull around my neck if I tried to leave.
Monica scares me, she can turn on you in a second if you so much as look at her the wrong way. I saw what happened with Collins, if Monica doesn't get what she wants nobody's happy. I heard she'd made a pass at him and he'd knocked her back, a few people said he punched her, he didn't look the type. She was mad as hell when I saw her going on about how her protector had connections and that he was going to get it for what he did.
I'd never thought it would go that far, I swear if I'd known that any of it was going to happen I would have tried. The whole house was up, I couldn't look away. I could hear yelling, screaming as I caught the flames dance by the side of the house. I turned to see Collins struggling as Monica's brother pressing him down to the ground or he'd have flew at Monica. There was this agonising cry and I turned around to see Mr Collins gripping Mrs Collins as she screamed, I couldn't move, I just stood there and watched.
I'm sorry, I'm so, so sorry. I just need somebody to know that.