Sorry it took so long to update I have had the worst case of writers block ever. But I'm back and I want to thank all of you who follow my story it means a lot. I will try to be more consistent. I love your reviews and there's nothing wrong with a little criticism. This is Chapter three and I hope you like it.

Me, Tori and Andre all sat and stared at each other for a minute then Andre spoke again, this time his voice relaxed. "I don't think Beck needs to be alone right now." He stood clenching the paper Dr. Stevens had given him with Becks room number on it. The hospital is large but we found the room rather quickly.

I stood in front of the door facing the tan wood the only boundary between me and Beck. But I was in no hurry to see him I was the one who left him in the car by himself. I once again thought about opening the door but what waited on the other side terrified me. What would I say, what would he say. With that I couldn't take the anticipation anymore. It seemed neither could Tori and Andre because as soon as I twisted the door knob they forced their way through. As I closed the door behind me the white room infested me. The bright lights sceemed to see right through me and I wounded why it way so quiet. I looked over at the bed my back still pressed against the door.

And I saw him, his hair matted down with sweat. His eyes closed with a look of piece in his face. The oxygen tubes were connected to his nose and the IV ran down his right bicep. He slept so piece fully even with the light beep of the machine the traced his heart beat. His left leg bulged from under the blanket. Tori approached him first sitting on the edge of the bed and laying her hand on his cheek the in the softest voice she said "Hi beck you're going to be ok". When I heard those words I was almost upset. Why couldn't I say that, why couldn't I help him in his worst hour?

Tori continued to stroke his cheek and Andre sat on the other side. He was telling me how it was good to talk to someone who'd just gone though a traumatic experience, to let them know they were ok. It made since but I couldn't bring myself any closer to him so I stood at the door. After they finished and said there goodbyes Tori looked back at me.

"Do you have anything to say Cat?"

She didn't sound like she was trying to be rude but it seemed all the emotion I thought I left out in the waiting room started to well up again.

"He's sleeping." I said as the first tear rolled down my face.

"Sweetie none of this is your fault you know that right."

"You weren't there."

"But I know Beck he won't blame you."

"You don't know anything."

"But he can still hear….."

"JUST DROP IT TORI!"

But after I said it I so desperately wanted to take it back not because of the shock in her eyes or the sudden tenacity in Andre's face. But because I heard his voice for the first time in what seemed like forever and it shook my soul. At first I thought my mind was playing tricks on me. Then I heard the voice again this time a little stronger yet it had the same effect on me.

"Cat…Cat" Becks voice was faint and his eyes were still closed.

At first I was still as were Tori and Andre who had only moved enough to face back to Beck. Slowly I walked closer and put my hands on the end of his bed.

Cat…..Cat" he repeated.

Without thinking I jumped on the bed avoiding his leg with extreme precaution and wrapped my arms around him.

"I'm right here Beck!" I just wanted to lay there and hold him maybe he wasn't mad at me after all. Everything was going to be ok now. Beck will come home and I'll get to take care of him. We can play games and watch movies I'll even make him my special red velvet cupcakes.

"Oh Beck I was so afraid you wouldn't talk to me. After all that happed I didn't think we would ever see each other again. I'm sorry I let this happen but I promise I'll make it up to you. I can cook and clean or whatever you want. I'll do everything until you get back on your feet."

I knew I was rambling but I couldn't seem to stop.

"Tori and Andre are here and were going to take good care of you. I'm sure the others will to, even Jade. I know you guys broke up but she cares about you just as much as the rest of us do."

"Cat….Cat" he said again.

"Beck please let me finish I know I left you in the car and I'm the reason you got shoot in the first place. But is there anything I can do for you to make it up to you. You're like one of the best friends I ever had and the first boy I ever like. I can't image going through life without you!"

Two hands raped around my waist. I thought they were Becks. But as I was lifted of the bed I realized it was Andre. He put a finger to my face and hushed me. I hadn't realized I was yelling I'd also forgotten my friends were in the room as I confessed my childhood love to Beck. I was about to explain myself when Dr. Stevens forced in to the already over capacitated room.

"May I remind you that this is a hospital and your friend is not the only person on this floor?" He said in a stern voice.

"Were very sorry sir" Tori responded "Cat just got a little emotional."

His eyes softened and he spoke in a gentler tone. "I understand I'm glade you're here with him I just found out Becks parents are out of town and I was unable to reach them."

"Cat…..Cat" Beck spoke again.

"I'm right here Beck" I said as I squeezed his hand.

"Have he been doing this a lot" asked the doctor.

"Cat….Cat"

"I'm not leaving you this time Beck."

"Cat…..Cat"

"Beck I'm here I right beside you how can I help, I want to help you." I whispered as I tightened my grip.

His eyes still tightly shut and he whimpered every time he said my name. why wasn't he responding?

"Cat …..Cat ….stay in the car it's not safe out there …..ummmmmmhhhhhh!"

We all stared wide eyed as he yelled out in pain. He tightened his grip and squeezed until my finger bones popped. Didn't he know he was in the hospital?

"Young lady I'm sorry to tell you this…." said doctor Stevens. "He's not calling for help at all he's trying to protect you. He's reliving the experience."

At that second I dropped to my knee's he wanted to protect me and I ran away. Everything I told him He heard none of it. It was like talking to a body without a soul.