So far updating one per day and on a roll. Thanks for reviews again! Hoping this chapter is decent.

Previously...

"Did you get her name?" Castle asked, still looking rather confused.

"Jessica." Kate paused not wanting to continue on. She kept repeating the name in her head and without realizing it she spoke the words out loud. "Jessica Beckett."

"What?" Castle looked even more confused. His writer's imagination was getting the better of him. Beckett needed to explain. "Do you have any relatives that gave up a daughter?"

"Kind of." She didn't want to tell him. Not knowing how her new boyfriend would react to this knowledge. She didn't want to keep secrets but this was something so deep she hadn't been ready to share yet.

"Kate. You're not alone. Please explain. I am here to listen." He was trying to be calm and caring at the same time but her keeping every thought inside was killing him. Rick knew he shouldn't push but this felt different.

"Castle," she paused taking a deep breath to continue, "I will tell you. But I need you to promise me to keep your mouth shut until I am done speaking."

He nodded in understanding.

"16 years ago I was 19. My mother had just been murdered and I was very lost. You know that much." Kate looked down and sighed. "I began drinking underage even more than most young adults do and doing drugs. I started hanging around bad people and kept getting myself in a bigger hole. I met this guy named David who was best friends with the supplier where everyone got any kind of drug imaginable. We ended up sleeping together a few times while under the influence and needless to say weren't exactly safe. I ended up pregnant." She stopped here to make sure Castle hadn't fainted or stopped listening but he was still staring intently and had a caring concern in his eyes.

"I was so scared. I knew I had I gotten myself in a bad situation. I wasn't taking care of myself so how could I take care of a child. I had lost sight of my goals for myself and I didn't even know who I was anymore. Within a couple weeks of finding out, David had overdosed and died. I couldn't let my child grow up in an unstable home with one parent. So I decided to give her up. I stayed gone and only contacted my dad by phone throughout the pregnancy and then once she was born I straightened my life up. I set goals for myself and helped my father stop drinking. I thought a loving family would adopt her but I guess I was wrong. Before I handed her over to social services I had given her the name Jessica. I would have called her Jessie for short. Was always a name I had dreamed of my little girl having. Oh gosh Castle this is my entire fault." Kate put her head in her hands and started sobbing.

"Shhh… It's ok. Kate you were just trying to do the right thing. And it was right at the time. And how were you to know a beautiful newborn baby wouldn't be adopted quickly. It's unusual she wasn't." Rick kept rubbing Kate's back. It's all he knew how to do to comfort her. His girlfriend had a daughter. It did make him smile but also made him feel the pain she must have went through. And now after all this time to have something so horrible happen to her.

Castle didn't know what else to say to her. He was a speechless writer. Kate silently sobbed but began to get ahold of herself. She wasn't one to just break down and especially in public.

Kate glanced up at the nurse's station. She had seen the nurse emerge from the back and answer the ringing phone. The nurse nodded and hung up. Quickly she got up and came walking out towards Castle and her.

"Detective Beckett, the young girl is out of surgery. Doctor Feller would like you to come back to speak with him before you question her. She has to go to recovery anyway and we still need any information you have on the young girl."

"One of my detectives should be faxing her information over any moment. Her name is Jessica." Kate was trying to be as professional as possible but you could tell she was hurting. And her eyes were swollen and red.

Castle and Kate followed the nurse behind a double set of doors to the right of the nurse's station. After going down the small hall for a bit there was an open door at the end of it. The doctor was sitting behind what must be his office desk. He looked up from behind his computer and stood up holding out his hand.