On Wings of an Angel Chapter 3, a csi: new york fanfic

On Wings of an Angel

Rated: T

Disclaimer: See chapter 1

Authors Note: Hey guys I'm back, how was everyone's Holidays. I had an Awesome time. (Sigh) but now back to work and school, right. That's always the worst part. Guess I'm kinda lucky though my next semesters classes don't start until January 8th. Well I wanted to thank Chili-peppers, Serenity2bliss, xbexyboox, prplerayne, and DarkAngelJT. For taking the time to let met know what they though thank you so much guys

Chapter 3

Lindsay's POV

Have you ever been so asleep, and so comfortable that when you wake up you have no idea where you are? Well that's just about how I feel right now. I'm awake but I don't dare open my eyes. I couldn't tell you where I am or what time it is but I can definitely tell is that there is a pair of comforting strong arms keeping me there. I'm almost afraid to know who it is, because I'm not sure how I got where I am now.

I know I have to so I take a deep breath and open my eyes. I'm not quit sure it its possible, but I think my heart just leapt. Here in my bed with is arm pulling me tightly to him is the one and only Danny Messer. I'm relieved to find that we are both fully clothed, though I don't remember putting my pajamas on. I try to think back to the last thing I remember, which was sitting back in my living room, drinking. Had I called him? I remember him leaving a messages but I don't remember calling him back.

In the middle of my thought Danny Stirs and opens his eyes. He smiles that lopsided grin of his, and I return it with one of my own.

"Hey, sleeping beauty. How ya feeling, Better?"

My face burns red at his comment. I'd have to say there are worse ways to wake up. "Yeah, I guess...How did I get here?"

He let out a small chuckle. " You were late for work this morning and..."

"I WAS WHAT!!?? OH MY GOD, MAC IS GONNA KILL ME" I cut him off.

He laughs again. "Would you let me finish Montana. You were late and I got worried. After yesterdays you looked like something was really bugging you. So when you were late I was concerned and Flack and I came over to check on you. We found you passed out in the bathtub. I took ya out and put you in bed. Then I called Mac said you were really sick and he gave us both the day off."

I'm quite for a moment as I try to think back to last nights events. I do remember making it to the bathtub, but that was it and I remember being in my work cloths. "How did I get into my pajamas?"

His cheeks burn red this time as he answers. " While I was putting you in bed. I asked you if you wanted to get changed and you said yes, but you passed out again. So I uhh..changed you."

OK so Danny Messer changed my clothes. That breaks so many of my rules to living self-sufficiency in New York. I'm not upset though, which surprises me. The man just told me that he undressed me in my sleep, and I'm not mad. I guess because I know that he only did it cause he was trying to take care of me.

I guess I've ben quite for a while because he loosens his grip around me and asks me if I wanted him to get up, thinking I was mad at him.

"No. Don't. I want you to stay."

"Really?" He asks as he looks into my eyes.

I nod. "Ok so we've gotten to how I got into my bed into my pajamas, but how did YOU end up in my bed?" I ask with a laugh.

"You asked me to lay with you." he says with a nervous smile.

"Really"

"Yeah"

"Well I'm kinda glad I did. Thank you so much for helping me Danny." I say as I snuggle into him a little more.

"It was my pleasure Ms. Monroe. Now how about we get up and I make you breakfast..or seeing as it is now 2, lunch."

"Danny, you've already done too much for me. You probably think I'm a horrible person. I don't show up for work, then you find me passed out drunk in the bath tub. In all honesty, I have no idea what your still doing here. I don't deserve you taking care of me"

He sighs, and is quite for a while. I look into his eyes to try and figure out what he's thinking. He lightly grabs my chin with his thumb and pointer finger, and looks me directly in the eyes. "Lindsay, I don't want to hear you ever..EVER say something like that again. You are the most amazing person that I've ever meet. Your caring, Intelligent, and.."

"And Apparently a drunk." I cut him off

"Hey." He says brushing his thumb across my lips to stop me from continuing. "You've done something that the majority of the people I know thought was impossible...You've changed me. You have taken this smart ass Staten island player, and created the man holding you now."

"And how the hell did I supposedly do this?"

"By just being you, and putting up with my crap. I can honestly say that I've never done this for any girl. I was up all night last night because you hadn't called me, and I was so worried. I came into work early to talk to you and when you didn't show up I started freaking out"

I'm starting to cry now and he rubs the tears from my face. "I'm sorry. I wish...I just..Why me?"

He opens his mouth to say something, but then closes it and shakes his head. "Do you know what I did last week?"

I shake my head no and he continues. "I bought a Country CD, cause it reminded me of you. You have shaken my world up Lindsay, and I like it. I'm pretty damn sure that I ..uh.. I love you too. I have fallen so far in love with you that I can't get out, and wouldn't even if I could."

At his confession I release myself from his grip and leave the bed. "You don't want me." I mumble. I turn away from him, because I can't stand to see the hurt on his face. I stand with my arms crossed in front of me, while I look out the bedroom window. I hear his foots steps leave the room, and I'm sure he's left. They tears fall freely down my face.

I jump as a pair of arms wrap themselves around my waist, and his head rests itself on my shoulder. God does he know what he does to me when he touches me. "Dance with me." he says into my neck. His hot breath causes chills to run down my body.

"What?" I ask surprised

"Dance with me." He repeats

"Danny there isn't even any music."

He reaches behind us and grabs the remote to my CD Player, and presses play. He spins me around in his arms and pulls me close, and the music begins to play. My arms wrap instinctively around his neck. He quietly sings along with the song in my ear as we sway.

"So here you are now, nowhere to turn
It's just the same old yesterday
And you made a promise to yourself
That you were never gonna be this way
And the only thing that you've ever known is to run
So you keep on driving faster into the sun

Cause everybody needs somebody sometimes
Yeah, everybody needs somebody sometimes

Don't have to find your own way out
You gotta voice, let it be heard
Just when it feels you're on a dead end roadThere's always somewhere left to turn

So don't give up now
You're so close to a brand new day
Yes, you are and if you just can bear to be alone
I'll stay

Cause everybody needs somebody sometimes
Yeah, everybody needs somebody sometimes

Well, maybe I been too caught up to see
What you've been going through and all that I can say is I'm here now.

Oooo, yeah

And everybody needs somebody sometimes
Yeah, everybody needs somebody sometimes
Everybody needs somebody sometimes
A little left to save
Everybody needs somebody sometimes
Gotta have someone beside you
Gotta have someone beside you
Yes, ya do, yes, ya do
Everybody, everybody needs somebody sometimes"

As the songs ends all I can do is look at him. "How'd ya know about that song?" I ask

"Well that's the CD I bought."

"I love Keith Urban." I say with a smile, though the tears still fall from my face.

"I know that's why I bought it, I told you it reminded me of you."

My smile turns to a frown and I pull away. "It wouldn't work Danny."

"And Why wouldn't it?"

"Because you deserve so much better then me. You can have any woman you wanted. You should be happy"

"I want you Lindsay, and no one else. You're the one that makes me happy."

"Danny, you just don't get it. I'm...well..I'm broken. I can't give everything that you deserve."

He takes his hand and places it on the side of my face and brushes away a few stray tears. "I know there are some things that you don't want to talk about right now, and that's fine. Though I don't think you should keep them to yourself, and I eventually want you to talk to me about them. I don't want everything, I just want you. I'm here now and there is only one way that I'm leaving. All you have to do is look me in the eyes right now and tell me that you don't feel anything between us, that you don't feel the same way I do, and that you don't want me here."

I know I should let him go, for his sake, but I just can't do it. I Love him too, I'm just not ready to let him know that yet. I look into his eyes and try to think of something to say, but can't. I throw my arms around his neck, hugging him closely, as I continue to cry.

He starts to sing and I realize that the CD player is still on, only this time half way though I start singing with him. It's my new favorite song.

"Winter's weighing on your shoulders
It's hanging around a little too long
And I can see it in your eyes
You've taken on a load that's just too strong
Oh, but let me get down to the heart of the matter
Baby, if you want I can make it better now

When the sun is hard to find
When it's raining in your eyes
When the shadows block those pretty little blue skies living inside you
When the falling of your tears, makes a candle disappear
When you just can't see the light
Baby, I'll find a way to shine
I'll find a way to shine

Everybody's got a cross to carry
Everybody's got a story they can tell
Ya know you're not the only one counting on a quarter and wishing well
Woah don't you sit there with your heart under lock and key
Gimmie one chance baby, I can set you free

Sometimes in this life good luck don't shine like it suppose to do
When there's no one you can trust and they just keep on giving up on you
Baby, don't ya know that I won't ever let ya down
Come on now, wooo

Oh, don't sit there with your heart under lock and key
Just gimmie one chance and baby, I can set you free

When the sun is hard to find
When it's raining in your eyes
And the shadows block those pretty little blue skies living inside you
When the falling of your tears, makes a candle disappear
And you just can't see the light
Baby, I'll find a way to shine
I'll find a way to shine
Find a way to shine
Find a way to shine
You know I'll find a way

Find a way, find a way

Find a way to shine"

"Did you really buy this CD?" I ask as the song ends.

"Yeah I did. What can I say if its something you like, how can I hate it. I actually listened to it last night, when I was thinking of you"

I smile. "Danny why are you so good to me."

"Because you deserve it. Now how about we go out for lunch?"

"Sounds good to me, but first let me get changed." I say as I finally let go of him. I know things are going to change now, but I'm not as afraid anymore. It's time for me to move on.