My life has just come crumbling down. Every part of me is aching. I wish I could just fly in to the sun and get away from my crap life. I went to Peter's house and instead of telling him I love him I confronted him about Dad's funeral. I don't know what happened…I just wanted an explanation I already knew I wasn't getting. He told me we couldn't be together, that it's too dangerous. That's all he said. I've already permanently lost my dad and I'm not losing Peter.

I have a feeling Dad said something on the Oscorp roof. I know Peter stayed with him while he was dying. What if Dad told Peter to stay away from him. Did Dad still have a problem with Peter even though he knew his intentions were good? How could he do that to me knowing I loved Peter, knowing that he was the one thing in my life that I desperately needed.

Or maybe it has nothing to do with my father's hatred for Peter. I was his only daughter, maybe he thought he was protecting me. The one thing Dad and Peter had in common was that they loved me and all they wanted was for me to be safe. Peter is a hero but he is bound to have enemies ,right? If his enemies found out about me ,I would be in great danger …and that's the last thing any father wants to happen to his daughter. Dad must have made Peter promise .Peter did what he did because he wanted me to be safe no matter how much his heart hurt. We love each other , love meaning we still do.

Peter is going through the same thing I am. He has to be. There is no way what he said was him talking ,it was Dad it just to had to be. Yes, I understand ,i mean how can you say no to a man when he is on his death-bed? But when your whole happiness is at stake ? The man didn't even like Peter but Peter must have felt trapped. He promised because he couldn't say no, because he is the nicest guy I have ever known and I can't just let him go without a fight.

I remember one time when Peter walked into class late. He promised our teacher he wouldn't do it again.
"Dont make promises you can't keep, Mr. Parker."
"But those are the best kind." He responded. I could tell he was smiling at me even though he was sitting in the row behind. Why didn't he think like that the night Dad died? That boy is a mystery...and I love him.

I haven't been out of my bedroom in days. I've been completely cut off from the world. Mom took my little brothers to see grandma for a couple of days in Pennsylvania so I've been alone... completely alone. I understand why Peter has done this but I want to take the chance. If being with Peter means possible danger then I don't care. The hurt being without him is far worse than the danger and any pain I might endure whilst being with him. This is officially the worst period of my life. The only time I have ever felt completely safe in my life is when I've been wrapped in Peter's arms. Being without him makes me feel like I'm in more danger than any villain could put me through. I just need to go to Peter and tell him that. To tell him that he's wrong, that he should never have promised my dad to stay away from me. He just wanted the best for me but I'm a big girl now , if I want to risk my life to be happy then I will…and dad can't stop me any more. I'm going to do it. I'm going to see Peter and tell him up straight that all he wants is for me to be safe then he will be my boyfriend again, my soul mate, because i only feel in danger when I'm not with him.