I. Am So. Sorry. I have veen gooooone vor dayzz, yah? Sorry. I've been gone for a couple of months. Yeah. January was a long time ago...Where have I been, you ask? Hiding from the parents. Yes. They nearly found out about my strange addiction to boys cuddling up to one another, and all the fanfics that I had planned allll had to be flushed from my account online. Yes. Am I better? Yeahhh! Am I doing fine? Noooooo...

So there's my frickin life story. You're welcome, losers. JK, you're not losers! NONE OF YOU!

You welcome.

And by the way, my parents have me under constant watch now. I apologize...

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Ayase POV

The first thing he remembered was Kanou-san's face smiling at him as they put the mask on. Why did he have a mask on? Ayase tried to reach up to his face, but his hands were leaden. He panicked.

Kanou! Kanou!

"I'm here, Ayase."

Kanou heard me think?

"You aren't thinking, Aya-chan. I'm right here. You're better now, okay? We're moving, going somewhere else..."

Why? I liked the condo...My back hurts...My stomach hurts...The baby...I think it's moving...

There was movement, a gasp. "It's kicking...Our child...it's kicking! It's...It's alive..."

Why wouldn't it be alive? Are you alright Kanou-san?

Someone was talking. "Might be stress factor...Overworked heart...Ayase..."

Someone talk to me!

And then he remembered.

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Kanou POV

Ayase was sobbing, trying to move, but he was tied down to the hospital bed. His mouth opened, then closed, then opened again, and he strained against the restraints. His eyes darted back and forth.

"Kanou-san, Kanou-san, what-the baby-Kanou, I can't do this anymore, I can't, I just..." Ayase dissolved into tears. Kanou knelt down next to him. Ayase's face was pink, his eye still swollen from his beatings. Kanou felt his heart thud and his chest tighten as he reached for Ayase's hand.

"It'll be alright, Aya-chan. I'm right here." He stroked Ayase's hand slowly and softly when he heard quietly, so quiet that no one else even noticed, he almost thought he'd imagined it.

"Let go of me."

Kanou's head snapped up, and he stared in Ayase's eyes. The mask hid half of the boy's face, but the hatred in his eyes was plainly obvious. Kanou pulled his hand back, slowly, his own hands trembling. Ayase's face shifted, and he stared blankly at a spot on the wall. Kanou slowly stood.

"Ayase..." He tried, but his voice seemed to fail him. Ayase's gaze didn't waver from the wall. Kanou felt his eyes well up, and only when the anesthetic kicked in, and Ayase's eyes dropped closed, did he dare leave the room to weep in solace.

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"Kanou-samaaaa!" Someya crowed, waving a stack of papers in one hand. "The deed is all yours." Kanou grabbed it, and glanced through.

"Fine." He said, resigned, and headed for the door. Someya glanced at Kuba, and stepped toward him.

"Kanou-san, we all love Ayase. Really, we-we'll all protect him. We know you love him and we-"

"I DON'T LOVE HIM!" Kanou roared. Someya stepped back with his head down. Kanou stared out the door. "He's innocent in all of this. He's carrying my child with this damned disease. I just want him to be safe." Someya nodded softly, and turned toward the desk. Kanou twitched, and stared at the ground. "This will be the last time I'm in this office. Ever." He strode out of the door and Someya clapped his hand over his mouth to quiet his own sobs. Kuba pretended not to her.

"God help us all."

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Ayase POV

Everything hurts me.

"Everyone wants to hurt me."

"Ayase, we need you to stop talking."

I hate Kanou-san. I hate this disease. Why is all this happening to me?

"I hate you all. I've never-cough-hated anyone as much as I hate you RIGHT NOW."

"Do not yell, Ayase."

I want to die. I want to die. He raped me when I arrived at the house, and everyday after. I want to die.

"I want to die."

"Ayase, you-you won't die. I'm a nurse, and so is she, and you've only just woken up. Your stitches will help now."

"Kill me."

What? What did I just-I...I just want to die.

"Ayase, we won't kill you, trust me. We're not trying to kill you."

"Please kill me. I'm not pure. Even if I escape this man, my family won't take me back."

"Wait-Isn't he your lover?"

"Kill me."

"Ayase, what do you mean by escape?"

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Kanou POV

Kanou pushed his way through the hospital door again. There was now a Yakuza nurse working the desk. Kanou briskly made his way down the hall, and pushed the door open. He gasped, and felt his face turn stony. One of the nurses had Ayase's shoes for him, and the other was helping his dress.

"What are you doing? I said I would dress him. Me. Only." He said through gritted teeth. The nurses looked at each other frantically. The blonde one, who was paler than the other, stepped forward with a nod.

"Ayase told us everything. We've already alerted the nurses down on staff. They're heading up." Kanou stepped toward her threateningly, and she backed down. "You can't keep him like this! He's miserable! He told me!"

"You. Know. Nothing." Kanou hissed, and his hand shot out and hit her against the wall. She cried out, and crumpled on the ground. The brunette nurse busily shoved Ayase into the closet. Kanou nearly scratched her face off. She held her hands up, and hurried toward the window. Kanou grabbed at the back of her uniform, pulling her toward him.

"Give the damn key, you bitch." He seethed in her ear. She shook, and looked down slowly. He followed her eyes to the crease in between her breasts. Kanou rolled his eyes.

"Are you fucking KIDDING me?" He shouted at her, and shoved his hand in dangerous territory.

"Freeze!"

"Shibuya! What has he done?"

"Drop her!"

"Where's the patient?"

Kanou felt his knees buckling, and the last thing he remembered was the nurse opening the door, and Ayase's eyes widening at the sight of him.

"Kanou-sa..." Ayase's voice was gone, everything was silent, in slow motion.

"Ayase...I love you." And it was all black.

Oh gosh. I hated this chapter and the last one. Ugh. Stupid cliffys. Yay...I'm back...Anyway, please review, I promise you, I will update sooner. And did anyone notice any references? Anyone?...At all? Kay...

Review Replies, or whatever I called them the 1st time.

Onige-a: I'm glad to hear of your captivation. And somehow, it soothes me that you are always the first to review, because I know I can always count on it. Makes me feel good.

superfan8: Le story shall be continued. Thank you for your support.

Mini Blue Skirt: I KNOOOW RIGHT. I couldn't even go to into the stories myself, I had to leave the computer 'cause I was crying so much. Then my sister wandered over...And I destroyed her.

lenkagamine133: All shall be revealed. And trust me, those guys are gonna get what's coming. (Selfless foreshadowing)

Blaculicious: What the hell is up with your username and is that really you?

InuAngelBaby: I came back...I'm sorry...l feel so sad...

LesleyOboe: Your username makes me laugh...but I'll update again...Like...tomorrow...or now, I feel happy.

So, thanks again guys, you all make my day a bit better, it wasn't going too well, but I'll update before Sunday, and if I don't you can all flood my inbox with threatening messages. Yep. I will allow you. Stella out.

Oh, I'm thinking out changing my username. Lemme know if that'll be a problem.