I took in a deep breath. This was it. My senior year was finally here, the year that was going to change everything for me. I sighed and slumped against the cold leather seat of my rusty truck. The image outside my foggy window scared the hell out of me. I spied on the kids in the parking lot with a frown. Squeals and delighted screams filled the air as girls embraced their friends and acted as if they hadn't seen each other in years rather than a couple months. The guys leaned against their cars coolly, dark sunglasses covering their eyes on the sunless day.
I looked away when a curious onlooker's eyes found mine. Oh god, I couldn't do this. I buried my face in my hands, my fingers massaging my temples. I moaned in misery, my head throbbing from the stress. I peeked out at the tacky billboard demanding my attention- "Forks High School" it read.
I forced myself to calm down. There was no way to escape this. One way or another, I would have to get out of my truck. Even though nothing could upset me more. I shrunk in the cold leather seat, my jacket hugged close to my body. I could feel the stares that attacked me from the parking lot, but I refused to meet anybody's gaze. I kept my head down, my brown hair covering my face while I awaited my fate.
I jumped and accidently banged my head against the metal of my truck's roof when the bell rang. I cursed under my breath, rubbing the throbbing spot on my skull. I hadn't even entered the school grounds and I was already in pain. What a great way to start the day.
I looked up shyly, watching as people rushed past my truck, their eyes widening slightly when they spotted me. I avoided curious gazes. There was nothing I hated more than nosy people. I waited until all the students had cleared out and there was nobody in sight.
Gently, I popped open my truck's door and stepped on the wet, icky road. Water splashed up when my feet slapped the ground and I grimaced. The parking lot was deserted but I still suspiciously glanced around, making sure nobody was there. 'Finally,' I sighed. I jumped again when the tardy bell rang, but hell if I cared. With my backpack hanging off one shoulder I headed in the direction of the sign that read Main Office.
As I walked, I carefully examined my fellow classmates' cars. I breathed a sigh of relief. Apparently hand me down cars were popular here. The only car that really stood out was the bright, shiny Volvo. I shook my head. It was such a soccer mom car. The walk to the office wasn't long. I breathed deeply before I put my hand on the knob.
Hot air embraced me when I opened the door and dull, gray eyes snapped up to meet me. A woman the age of my grandma started at me, a frown on her face. She furrowed her eyebrows and looked at me like I was an alien. "Can I help you?"
"Um… hi, I'm Isabella Swan" I said in a timid voice and suddenly the confused expression on her face was gone.
"Oh yes! I was wondering why I didn't recognize you!" Of course everybody knew each other in this little town. I resisted a sigh and swallowed slightly.
"We've been expecting you, Isabella It's great to finally meet the chief's daughter." She said with a kind smile. I bit my cheek and forced a smile on my face but, I was sure that it looked more like a grimace.
"How are you liking Forks? A little different than Arizona huh?" She asked me, attempting to draw me into small talk. Small talk was one thing that I absolutely tried my best to avoid. I shifted from one foot to another awkwardly, shying away from her eyes.
"Uhh Yeah. It's different" I said lamely, wanting desperately to get out of her sight. The woman nodded as if she understood and typed something into her old computer. I think she got the hint. I listened closely as her fingers tapped the keys on the computer and held my breath until she spoke again.
"I'll just print out your name right here and then you can be on your way to class" Mrs. Cope, as her nametag read, said. She hummed as she printed out and handed me some papers. I looked at each of them- my schedule, a map and my locker combination. I sighed again as I realized that I would actually have to go to class.
"Well, you're all set now. You head straight to class, alright dear?" She asked as if I actually had a choice. As if I had personally chosen to fly to forks and enroll myself in this school.
"Sure." I mumbled as she gave me a stellar smile. I turned on my heel, wanting to get away from all of this.
The bitter slap of the cold made me shiver as I walked to my truck to collect my jacket. I climbed into the passenger seat after I opened the door, blasting the heater. I decided that since I was already late, I would just miss first period. I did not want to make a grand entrance. I would rather just blend in with the crowd.
I sighed as I warmed my fingers. The rain was thundering down mercilessly. I missed the heat. I missed the sun and the cloudless sky. Everything here was just too…cold. Everywhere I looked I was attacked by either clouds or rain. The thought of the unreachable heat led me back to Arizona. And with Arizona came my horrifying nightmare. My eyes widened as I realized what was happening.
I squeezed my eyes shut as the flashbacks attacked me one by one. I stood perfectly still with my back arched as those memories filled my brain. My heart stopped and my knees buckled as those terrorizing pale blue eyes clouded my battered mind. I would have fallen if I hadn't already sitting down. I could feel my body letting go, abandoning me to live in this nightmare again. I gasped loudly and forced my eyes open.
"NO!" I screamed for myself to stop. I couldn't let him do this to me. I had to stop. He couldn't reach me here. I had fled and he couldn't find me here. I was safe. I was safe from those horrifying eyes.
"You're safe," I kept repeating to myself over and over again. "He can't find you here. It's okay. You're fine. You're safe. He's not here. He doesn't know where you are." His cruel eyes haunted me whereverI went…no matter how hard I tried, I couldn't forget those twisted eyes. I shook my head forcefully, urging myself to forget.
I leaned against my seat, my heart thumping in my chest. My knees were shaking forcefully and I knew that I would topple over if I didn't have any support. My hands trembled as I brushed my hair back, softly touching my forehead. I was sweating even though it was freezing. I was shivering and gasping for air while my heart tried its best to continue pumping the blood through my veins. I felt numb as I stared straight ahead, through the car and into the mountains surrounding the city. I closed my eyes and curled my knees to my chest, wrapping my arms around them, and pressing my forehead against them.
That's when the tears began leaking from my eyes. They painfully dropped from my eyelids and trailed down my cheeks. I felt myself give in and before I knew it I was crying silently. I had learned early on in life to be silent and to suffer in your own pain. I let the misery have me as silent sobs rocked my body back and forth.
I don't know for how long I stayed that way, curled into myself, with a lump the size of a golf ball in my throat. I had wanted a new beginning, a fresh start. I had wanted to replace my old, frightening memories with happy times, but I knew that it was impossible. I had thought that this would change who I was, that this would fix me. This would make me forget about the life I once had. I had been wrong. I had been naïve and stupid to think that moving from Arizona to Washington would make me a whole new person. I hadn't realized that once you're broken, you can never be fixed.
I stayed there in my car with a burning heart. My eyes were too dry to produce more tears. I felt hollow, like there was nothing inside me. I let myself drift away from Arizona and away from Forks.
My eyes flew open and I jerked upright when I heard a gentle tap on my glass window. I timidly turned my head, preparing myself for what was to come. My eyes widened as I met a pair of too green eyes that sparked like emeralds.
Author's note- Well. Yeah. Dunno what to say. New story. A lot diffrent than what I've written in the past. It's rated M people, so if you're one of those prudes then stop reading. This story is going to be a wild ride so I recommend you be ready for whatever that I throw at you. Darkness is definately involved. I hope you guys stick around. If not, well too bad.
Special thanks to my incredible beta- nobodylikeme for making this possible :)