CHAPTER 8

The short walk was agonizing to Kagome. Even though she was furious enough to be able to confront him, now her anger was already cooling down and it was just confusion and fear.

'What if Sango had it wrong? What if I am making a mistake? But wait, what if he really insists on me telling him who hurt me? I can't just tell him it was his brother...that will NOT go over well, especially when he asks how I know his brother...oh boy, I'm rambling in my head now, I'm turning into a loon, haha...'

Sesshomaru looked over to the girl who was so determined when he first saw her falling into a state of despair.

'Whatever is going through her mind is obviously making her lose courage. I wonder what she's thinking...'

All too soon they reached the park, where only a few older people walked or sat playing chess. Everyone else was either at work or school. Looking around, Kagome found an open bench and gestured to it, where they both walked and sat down. Now that they were here, Kagome wasn't so sure this was a good idea. but Sango's words earlier nagged at the back of her mind, so she had to at least say something.

"S...Sesshomaru...I have something to ask. And I would really like it if you didn't lie to me about it."

Sesshomaru knew what it was about, and he sighed heavily, making Kagome start and look over at him questionably.

'How to say this...'

"Kagome, it's about the car, isn't it?"

Kagome looked at him, and stared intently at the ground, nodding, kicking the ground with her heel.

"Your right, it's not worth five hundred thousand dollars. It's probably only worth around twenty five thousand dollars. And the damage you caused it was only about five thousand dollars of damage."

Kagome looked up sharply.

'Such a huge change in price...what's his angle?'

"Why didn't you just tell me the truth to begin with? Why did you have to make up some large amount of money? What do you want from me?"

Sesshomaru sighed yet again. He hated explaining himself, especially when he didn't fully understand his reasons either.

"Because...I wanted to see who you were."

Kagome was dumbstruck. 'See how I am? hhhuuuuhhhhh?'

"See who I am? What the hell do you mean by that? Like trying to get to know me? Why the hell couldn't you ask me to lunch or a drink if you wanted to get to know me? Why make it seem like I owe you?"

She was furious all over again. 'So I've had to endure his condescending attitude just because he was too chicken shit to ask me out? Damn him!'

"Fine then, Kagome, would you like to go get a drink at the bar with me?" Sesshomaru forced out. He did not like being talked to like he was the bad guy. Kagome snorted.

"Sesshomaru, I am only nineteen. I can't drink yet."

He rolled his eyes at her. Women, always so uptight.

"I know a guy who owes me a favor that's working there tonight. He'll let you...if he knows what's good for him" He said the last part rather darkly, making Kagome wonder what exactly this guy did to Sesshomaru to make him feel this way. Kagome let out a breath and stood up, stretching her arms out behind her back and bowing backwards to let out the kinks.

"Oh yeah, do I still have to work for you, now that this issue is out in the air?"

Sesshomaru snorted.

"You can bet your sweet ass you will. You still have to pay off $4,500 dollars. Your one day of work only covered five hundred, and you're lucky I'm giving you that much for one day. And I expect you to wear the outfits I send to you to wear, no more disobedience."

Kagome scowled, but agreed. After all, five hundred a day isn't bad. She still had one burning question though to ask.

"Sesshomaru...when you were in a gang...why did you leave?"

Sesshomaru groaned, not wanting to bring this up. But he knew she wouldn't let it go.

"I...got tired of it all. You know what I did. I just woke up one day when...I was at a bank. It was going to be one of our biggest heists, and there was this American woman behind the counter, terrified and begging me not to kill her. She...begged me to let her go...that she had a five month old son at home. Looking into her eyes, it's like something clicked in me, screaming at me 'SESSHOMARU, WHAT THE HELL ARE YOU DOING?'. It must have been my subconscious. I just dropped the gun and walked out. My gang was too shocked at me leaving, they didn't stop me. Shortly after, the cops came and arrested them all after I called and left an anonymous call. We cut the alarm systems, which is why they didn't get there sooner."

Kagome had her hands over her mouth, eyes wide as she listened to his awful past.

"Anyways, that night I got called on by the leader, he was kind enough to make a house call."

He cringed as he remembered Naraku busting his door down, with a group of seven of his top members.

"He and his 'Band of Seven', as they like to call themselves, tried to make me pay for leaving the heist, and death is really the only option for leaving a gang like that. I...stopped four of the seven before the rest and him left."

Sesshomaru remembered how they opened fire on him as soon as they busted in, Sesshomaru running into the kitchen for cover. One sneaked around and ended up getting a bread knife through the throat, and one was stabbed in the back as Sesshomaru went around the other side of the kitchen. Seeing the dead members, the others tried following him up the stairs, where he quickly disposed of two more with close range shotgun blasts. Not much left of their heads or torso after that. Naraku, seeing how quickly Sesshomaru was taking out his top people, retreated, with the threat that if he ever saw Sesshomaru on the streets again, he'd personally kill him. Slowly.

So here I am, trying to atone for what I've done to countless people and families. I know that I probably never will, and I know that if people ever found out about my past, I would be locked up for a life sentence or two, or even three. But I have to try, or else I'm no better than those who are still doing it."

Kagome's mouth was hanging open. 'What the FUCK am I doing even sitting by a guy like this?! I should be running for the hills and never looking back, or at least turning him in to the first cop I see.'

Sesshomaru saw the look on Kagome's face, recognized it from his mother's expression when he had to confess to her about what he'd done. He wondered if it was because of him telling his mother that she drove drunk and ended up dying in the crash. 'Mother...were you that ashamed of me?'

Kagome's mind was on fire. He raped, murdered, and robbed. Even if that was in the past now, how could she even begin to have feelings for a rapist? 'Oh god...I am severely fucked up...'

She stood, not looking at Sesshomaru for quite a while, making Sesshomaru very nervous. Finally, she started as though shocked.

"Okay, Sesshomaru. I...I have no idea why I'm going to do this, but I agree to your drink offer. This Saturday work?"

Sesshomaru let out a breath he wasn't even aware he was holding.

"Yes, Saturday sounds fine. But Kagome, now it's my turn. How did you get hurt yesterday?"

Kagome froze, a look of fear flashing across her face before she managed to cover it quickly with indifference.

"I'll tell you when we have our drinks."

Sesshomaru frowned and looked to argue, but Kagome put up her hand.

"No, I need a little bit of alcohol in me before I tell you. Or else I won't have the courage to."

Sesshomaru didn't like it, especially with what he just told her, but he nodded in agreement. Kagome clapped her hands together in an effort to diffuse the tension between them.

"Okay! well, I'm going to head back to the dorms now. Sango is probably wondering what's taking me so long in getting back." 'And I have to get Sango's opinion on this...I don't know what to do...'

He stood up, fishing his keys out of his pocket.

"Here, I'll drive us. We are only a few blocks away anyways and we live in the same dorm."

Kagome agreed, and they both went to his car, both with heavy thoughts hanging over them.

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A/N

Shortened chapter, just Sesshy getting his past aired out. Kagome is really messed up, ain't she?

New chapter tomorrow! ...hopefully XD