A winter's day
In a deep and dark December;
I am alone,
Gazing from my window to the streets below
On a freshly fallen silent shroud of snow.
I am a rock,
I am an island.

I've built walls,
A fortress deep and mighty,
That none may penetrate.
I have no need of friendship; friendship causes pain.
It's laughter and it's loving I disdain.
I am a rock,
I am an island.

Don't talk of love,
But I've heard the words before;
It's sleeping in my memory.
I won't disturb the slumber of feelings that have died.
If I never loved I never would have cried.
I am a rock,
I am an island.

I have my books
And my poetry to protect me;
I am shielded in my armor,
Hiding in my room, safe within my womb.
I touch no one and no one touches me.
I am a rock,
I am an island.

And a rock feels no pain;
And an island never cries.
- I am a Rock by Simon and Garfunkel

Of course I was nervous to meet Edward's family. I had barely heard of the 5 of them except in passing during our conversations. I could name all of them from the descriptions he's given me so I had no fear of messing that up. But the thought of them not liking me has me frozen. We pull up Edward's long winding driveway which led to his house. I wouldn't have been able to find his house if I had been driving on my own, it was so deep and secluded in the forest.

It was a beautiful Victorian that no doubt could hold the 6 people that lived in there, and comfortably house a few guests. We stepped out of our cars and I admired all the windows, the thought of how they were all cleaned briefly passed my mind but my attention was turned to Edward when he softly grabbed my hand. "ready?" he asked with a dashing smile. I swallowed deeply and gave a short nod.

We walk up the driveway, gravel crunching under our feet and step up the wooden stairs and to the door. Edward, grips the knob and slowly opens the door, sound suddenly bursting through. "sound proof" he muttered, I didn't quite understand why they needed to go to such measures when they were so far into the woods. But I didn't comment. I shot Edward a nervous smile and turned back to the doorway to find 3 grinning faces staring back. The triplets. You could easily tell they were triplets from their blond hair to their striking blue eyes.

There were two girls and one boy. The girls, from what Edward had told me, were identical and had formed in the same womb. Their features were the same for the most part, hair a matching platinum blond, and ice blue eye's that held a certain mischievousness. One of the girls, who's hair rolled down her back in subtle waves stuck out her hand. "Rosalie but you can just call me Rose" her smirk made me smile. I shook her hand "Isabella but you can just call me Bella" her smirk grew, "oh I know. Dear brother here isn't good with secrets"

I sent a look to Edward, who's cheeks were slightly tinged with pink. Deciding not to give him grief I turned back to the triplets. "Jasper but just call me Jazz" I looked at the boy, his curly blond hair fell into his eyes which he clearly didn't like do to his huffing. It was the last one's turn. "Tanya" she stated happily. "But you can call me whatever you want... Except for T-rex" she shot a irritated look to a pleased Jasper. After the meet-and-greet with the, who I later learned, 14 year olds we went up to his room.

Apparently avoiding the rents' who would've "hounded us into hell". Edward's words. I sat on his bed and looked around his room. A large book shelf was on one wall, loaded with CD's and books. There was a wall full of windows that had me awe-struck as I stared out into the forest. His bed was in the middle with black and gold accented sheets, a very expensive sound system was tucked safetly into a corner. Overall, I decided it was very Edward and that I liked it.

I laid on his bed, snuggling into the sheets, breathing in his scent unbashfully. I felt him lay down next to me and looked up at him. He was staring at me and I couldn't help but stare back into those beautiful green orbs. We hadn't realized we were leaning closer and closer to eachother till he was a mere few inchs away. I became aware music was playing in the background and had concluded Edward turned it on while I was sniffing his sheets.

My eyes flickered back and forth between his lips and his eyes and found myself grow slightly aroused when I saw him doing the same. I bit my lip as he licked his. Closer and closer we leaned till only we were only a breath's away. His warm minty breath brushed past my awaiting lips, he swallowed and we both closed our eyes as his lips softly enclosed around mine.

Back and forth, give and take. Softly and slowly we kissed, just enjoying the moment. I felt his tongue slowly peak out and prod my lips, dragging itself against my bottom lip, asking for entrance. I let out a breathy sigh as our tongues met and grazed against eachother. It was no fiery dance. Or a fight for dominence. We had plently of those to come, but for now our tongues slowly tangled as did our limbs.

I heard something in the background but paid no attention to it, pushing it off as the music. Right now I was laying slightly ontop of Edward with one hand on his neck, playing and tangling itself in his hair. And the other gripping his bicep as his hand massages my thigh and gently holds my hip. The sound continues but neither of us bother to pull away from eachother.

I moan as his hand goes farther up. Only did we pull apart when we heard a screech. We quickly pulled apart to find Tanya, who frankly looked a little disgusted. I hoped it was cause she saw her older brother making out, and didn't think of me as a whore. She pulled herself together and pulled at her shirt. "dinner's ready" she turned around but sent a look over her shoulder "and put a red bandana on the door knob if you're gonig to be doing that. Give a little warning sheesh"

We both blushed furiously as we quickly fixed ourselves up.

We walked down the stairs and I found myself growing nervous yet again. I bit on my lip furiously till Edward pulled my poor lip out from my vicious teeth. I sent him a grateful smile, I didn't want him to be kissing chewed up lips. Such a turn on. Not. With his hand on my lower back he led me to the dining room where trips sat eagerly waiting for food. I could hear two voices in the kitchen and knew it was his parents.

I stood, unsure where to sit and surely looked like a bumbling idiot. I felt somebody behind me and turned around to find a dashing man with blond hair and ice blue eyes. He smiled warmly at me and I realized though his eyes looked like ice that held a warmth to them. "and you must be Bella, I'm Edward's dad Carlisle Cullen." I shook the hand that he held out. "it's nice to meet you Mr. Cullen" he shook his head and sent me a playful, disapproving look. "please call me Carlisle." I nodded.

Behind him stood a petite women who obviously gave Edward his looks. Bronze hair curled delicately at the ends and bright green eyes held a motherly light to them. She pulled me into a hug "I'm Mrs. Cullen but don't even bother calling me that old name, it's Esme" she smiled at me and I couldn't help but smile back. She quickly sat me down across from Edward.

Carlisle sat at one end while on the left side I sat farthest from him, Tanya next to me and Rose next to Tanya. Making Rose sitting closest. On the right Esme sat closest to Carlisle, Edward oppisite from me and Jasper in the middle. Spagetti and meatballs with toasted garlic bread was served and I tried my hardest not to look like a pig as I shoved the food into my mouth.

Questions were kept casual for which I was grateful. When dinner was finished I offered to help Esme with the dishes, though she refused I ultimately won. She washed and I dried. She asked me carefully of my intentions with Edward and I choked up a little at the fact Charlie would never say those words to Edward. Once I was ready I responded "to be what he needs" I eventually said, whispering "everything he needs" under my breath.

We finished quickly and I was left to my own devices that thorougly included Edward. We found ourselves in Edward's room and in a comprimising situation. I was settled on his lap, hands tangled in his hair, furiously making out with him. One of his hands massaged my breast while the other gripped my hip and moved me slightly, causing me to grind against him. We both moaned as we were hit in the right spot.

He flipped us over so I laid on the bed with him hovering above me. He pulled away for a second as our hands slipped into eachothers pants, ready to take control of eachothers arousal. I nodded and we both dove in. I gasped as his cool hands hit my hot, dripping pussy. I slowly gripped his cock in my hand and rubbed slowly up and down, applying different amounts of pressure in just the right spots.

I moaned as he thrusted a finger into me, pumping in and out while playing with my clit. All this with the fact our mouthes were still firmly attached we both came quickly. We cleaned ourselves up and cuddled on the bed together, passing a flask back and forth eachother. Talking about anything, everything and nothing. "I want to move away from Washington" I sighed, after taking a large gulp from the flask. I had long since felt the burn.

"to where" he muttered around the nozzle. "I want to see..." I pondered this for awhile. What did I want to see? "..everything" I settled for. He chuckled at my meek response but didn't commented. This continued until we fell asleep in eachother's arms, the flask empty and long forgotten.

We woke up that morning in the same position as we fell asleep last night, indicating a restful and peaceful sleep. I was suprised his parents hadn't come in demanding that I left but I decided not to push my luck. I quietly waited for Edward to awaken and bided my time by tracing his features and contours. His eyelids fluttered open about 20 minutes later.

We cuddled for a little before our stomachs decided to come alive and demand that they be fed. We both chuckled to ourselves as we lead ourselves downstairs. I wasn't sure what day it was but if we had school today I had a feeling we wouldn't be going. Nobody was home and we helped ourselves to a bowl of cheerios and some toast. I sipped at my skim milk while Edward gulped down his Apple juice. I giggled as he choked a little for drinking to fast. He sent me a smile.

We finished eating and cleaned up, deciding to lounge around for a little. We watched tv for a little, Edward laying on the couch with me aligned ontop of him. He softly played with my hair. "I think we should report your dad's death today.. and get your stuff to Jacob's" he suggested carefully. I nodded, knowing it needed to be done at some point. We laid there for a little longer and soon I found a phone in my hand. I was nervous, they would be able to tell he had been rotting away for a few days and would question why I hand't reported it immideatly. Edward coaxed me to dial the number though.

"this is Forks police station. Please state your emergency" A females voice stated, I gulped. "death" I whispered. The women hummed sympathetically "cause of death?" I licked my lips. "suicide" a gasp "and who may I ask is calling?" pause.. "Isabella Swan" another pause "the police will be at your house as soon as possible" she just attomatically knew and I didn't question it. I turned to Edward and buried my head into his chest. He kissed my hair.

"let's go to your house for the police" I nodded. We somehow ended up at my house before the police got there. The police arrived, I answered their questions and they took out the body. They told me how sorry they were and I even answered the dreaded question of why did you wait. The police were now gone, the crowd had dispersed and I was packing. Edward sat on my bed next to my bags, not wanting to get in my way. The letters were clutched in his hands and I kept sending nervous glances to them.

Once packed we shoved everything into our cars and drove to the Rez. I stood outside Jacob's red door and raised my hand to knock. A swift knock got their attention to the door and it was opened to reveal the slowly aging Jacob. "Hey Bella! What brings you on this side?" I sent a empty smile and gave him the letters. Edward grabbed my hand as we were let in. Jacob sat on the couch in the smallish living room. Thankfully there was no Seth to disrupt. I didn't bother asking where he was.

Jacob read the letters quickly several times. He wiped at his eyes every now and then. He looked up at me, red surronding his brown irises. "I'm so sorry Bella, you're welcome to stay here as long as needed" This smile was a grateful smile. Edward squeezed my hand and I smiled up at him.

So I did update! This one is a bit longer by several hundred words, it's quite packed don't you think? Also I don't think I mentioned Edward's last name was Cullen but if I did say Masen somewhere could you tell me?