Disclaimer: Ouran doesn't belong to me. Bisco Hatori who is the genius who came up with the Host Club. I'm only fanfiction writer.
Warning: Implied feelings, OOCness, and some spoilers (references) to the anime.
I'm very irritated now. Why? I've been playing my part as a host while Kaoru leaves me to go off into his own little world. At least he's not staring at Haruhi and Tamaki. I'm probably just being overprotective and don't want to see him hurt. But, I can't stop the loud squeals of Milord's fans and Haurhi's whenever they do something even remotely intimate.
Soon our own guests get tired of Kaoru's supposed 'hard to get' attitude and wander off to help convince Haruhi to wear a dress-suggested by Tamaki of course.
I sigh and turn to face Kaoru. There he goes. Faraway look? Check. Bored expression? Check. Soft lips? Uncomfirmed.
"Having fun boys?" I groan and look up to see the Shadow King with his clipboard standing over us.
"Let us guess, we're not bringing in any profits and you want us to do something about it." I say at the exact time Kaoru does.
"Correct. You two will stay after Club hours and clean the entire room." He smiled and looked up from writing on his clipboard. "I trust there won't be any objections?"
"How can we refuse when you'll give us something worse if we do?" This time we both sit up straight and shrug like usual. Kyouya only smirks and begins walking away. He stops a few feet away and says in a voice loud enough for only our ears.
"By the way you should work on your act. Wouldn't want Haruhi or Tamaki to become worried, now would we?" The both of us stiffened and hearing the amusement in Kyouya's voice made me want to smack him. Apparently Kaoru must've gotten read my mind when he put a hand on my shoulder. Somehow that hand made me instantly calm.
"Don't worry. Kyouya-senpai did that because he really does care." I turned to him, hurt he took Kyouya's side over well ours.
"How can you say that? And how long has he known anyway?" He looked a bit startled by my sudden hostile attitude before frowning and at me and crossing his arms.
"He just figured it out on his own and I wouldn't have told him. Besides, despite that cold shell he has, he can actually be more considerate then some people, Hikaru." Kaoru left and to spite me, he went over to Kyouya's table.
A sick feeling ran through me. Like I wanted to punch something, preferably Kyouya. Or yell at him for being so friendly towards Kaoru. It was just like in Karuizawa when Haruhi's old friend Arai was at the pension. It made me feel so mad for no reason. Seeing him there with all of the Hosts like he thought he was one of them! Well, he wasn't!
Just what did Kaoru call this feeling?
Wasn't it, I don't know, jealousy?
...
Wait, I'm not jealous. It's more like I'm pissed off at something or someone. First Kaoru but that's more like I'm annoyed at his behavior. Second there's Haruhi and the boss but only since Kaoru likes Haruhi. And I don't like that he likes Haruhi. Just like I don't like how Kyouya knew about it before I did and did come over to warn us. But right now I don't like them acting so close. I just don't.
"Hika-chan!" Suddenly something blonde and surrounded by flowers comes flying at me. Oh dear lord it's-
"Mitskuni. Be careful."-Honey-senpai and Mori-senpai. Just my luck. They almost always know what's up. Have I been that dense that the seniors noticed what was wrong before I did? This isn't good at all.
"Hey Honey-senpai, Mori-senpai. What brings you guys here?" I say forcing a smile which is making my face twitch. Honey's wide happy eyes turn serious and I gulp.
"Hika-chan...You and Kao-chan aren't fighting are you?" I stared down at him for a minute before scrambling to find an answer. He looked like he was going to cry and Mori-senpai wouldn't have been too happy with me.
"What! No that not it! Heh heh heh." I wave my hands in denial while two pairs of eyes probe my words and face. Shoot they're not buying it. If only Kaoru was here then maybe it wouldn't be so tense and we could weasel our way out of it together.
"Ok." I froze and looked down at Honey-senpai as he smiled and clutched his Usa-chan tighter. "It's just that you and Kao-chan are so close that it'd be very hard to not be together." He turned his gaze and I followed him to where Kaoru sat with his eyes downcast while Kyouya talked. "When someone is very close and dear to you it makes sense to always want them to happy. And to not give them up without a fight." He turned back to me and smiled sweetly.
"Thanks Honey-senpai...I guess I should go get Kaoru then?" Honey turned to me with a surprised expression while Mori stood as stoic as ever.
"You hear that Takashi! It is about Kao-chan! I was just thinking about Usa-chan and cake and-" He waved his arms until Mori-senpai picked him up.
"Mitskuni, you're not helping." True enough. Tamaki's corner of woe was occupied, by myself of course.
"Sorry Hika-chan." I lifted my head from on top of my knees and mumbled.
"It's alright."
"Yeah but seriously you should talk to Kao-chan about what's bothering you or else your feelings won't be known." Honey flashed me one more smile before swinging on top of Mori-senpai's shoulders to raid the Club's storage for cake. I sighed and started thinking hard.
What would I say to him? Sorry the girl you love is already going out with our lord but I'm here for you? That sounds like the script for a cheesy movie. Starting over. Let's see how about...A mental image of us performing another Forbidden Brotherly Love Act springs to mind and I bury my head into my knees. No definitely not that.
A hand taps my shoulder and I spring up.
"Kaoru!" But the figure backs away and I'm filled with so much depressing disappointment.
"No, Haruhi. Kaoru's in the restroom." I let out a "hmmp!" before leaning against the wall and crossing my arms.
"What do you want?" Haruhi just remains calm and for some reason a desire to yell at her for hurting Kaoru springs to mind. But that would mean she'd learn Kaoru's crush on her and I can't have that. "Well?"
"I was just wondering why you and Kaoru both look so miserable."
"No there's nothing! At all! Right Honey-senpai?" Honey looks up from the massive amount of cake he's eating before looking over at Mori-senpai, then back at me and nods his head. "There. There's nothing to see here so off you go!" I laugh nervously and try pushing Haruhi back at her table. She frowns and turns to face me.
"If there really is nothing wrong than why was Kaoru crying earlier?" Dang it.
"Oh um you see..." I twiddle my thumbs and pray for someone to help me.
"And why are you so intent on hiding whatever's going on? Kaoru's my friend too and friends help each other. Have you even thought about asking for help? Don't think you can just solve his problems by yourself Hikaru. Kaoru needs everyone, not just you." That awful feeling was twisting itself in my stomach a her words. I could already feel my anger rising. What right did she have, this girl who just waltzes in here and thinks she can solve issues that don't even concern her.
"Kaoru's my twin. What do you know about him that I don't?" Haruhi looked surprised while I glared at her. She-she doesn't even deserve to know what's wrong. She should just go go running back to Milord and stay away from us.
"Hikaru-"
"Shut up! Why don't you just run back to your hovel? Oh wait my bad, all you have is a tranny father and a dead mother!"
SLAP!
A sharp pain exploded on my left cheek and the room became dead silent.
"Don't you dare make fun of my parents Hikaru." I faced away from Haruhi while the clients whispered amongst themselves. Second time she's hit me. Second time I've been humiliated. Second because of my jealousy. First time for not caring. "Kaoru's your twin but he's always done what's best for you. What have you done for him?"
I looked back at Haruhi and found her expression wasn't angry anymore but pleading.
"Why can't you realize we all care about Kaoru? What makes you think Kaoru will always depend on you?" I didn't know how to answer her and instead looked down at my feet. I blinked hard. I'm getting all angered and frustrated because of Haruhi. She hurt my twin, unintentionally but still. She hurt my Kaoru.
Huh? That thought wasn't right. Kaoru's not mine. But he can't be anyone else's either. Especially not Haruhi's. No one deserves him.
Footsteps approached us and I saw Tamaki raise his eyebrow at me as he took Haruhi by the shoulders. Honey-senpai gestured over at the doorway and Tamaki nodded.
"C'mon Haruhi! Let daddy take care of you since your brother was being so mean!" Haruhi sighed and let herself be dragged back. I stood there until a familiar voice made my heart leap.
"Hikaru! What happened to your cheek!" Kaoru grabbed my face and I found our noses almost touching as he inspected the handprint marring my cheek. He tsched and put his hands on his hips. "Jeez Hikaru. I'm gone for a few minutes and you already got into a mess."
"Sorry for just being myself. I'm not perfect you know." I say in a loud obnoxious voice. Kaoru looks back at me with his piercing golden eyes and breaks into a smile.
"Sorry." He wraps his arms around my neck and automatically my hands round around his waist. "But you're perfect to me, Hikaru." He says blushing and performing like the perfect catcher. The girls start squealing everyhwere, having completely forgotten my outburst.
"We've enjoyed your company but we must sadly say goodbye to all you lovely ladies. Please come again." I pull away from Kaoru once Tamaki's done with his announcement. All the ladies are disappointed but leave after saying goodbye to thier favorite hosts. Some girls had been hesitant to approach me until Kaoru started clinging onto me with smiles.
"I trust that this room will be spotless or we might have problems." We both looked over as Kyouya shut the doors and the last thing we saw was his smirk. Bastard.
Hours later after breaking our backs cleaning the gigantic music room Kaoru and I were in our room.
"Man! How do commoners do this everyday!" I exclaimed once I was on my bed. Kaoru came in and rubbed his back before sitting on the edge of the bed.
"I don't know but maybe because they're trained or something." Kaoru flopped back as well so we were both on our backs. A silence filled the room and I was about to fall asleep when Kaoru broke the silence.
"Hey...Hikaru um, what happened between you and Haruhi?" Kaoru sat up and looked down at me. I wanted to ignore him but I didn't want him to worry.
"Well she was getting up in our business so I made fun of her parents." I mumbled the last aprt but Kaoru still heard me.
"What! I can't believe you did that! You know how much Haruhi loves her parents." He said with big eyes. "You should go and apologize to her tomorrow or else she won't talk to either of us."
"No."
"Why-why not? She's our friend Hikaru and I don't want to lose that."
"What's so special about that commoner?" I sat up fast and was face to face with Kaoru. That ugly feeling was brewing just by him saying Haruhi's name. Why can't he just stop talking about her when she's hurting him! " I'm your twin and yet you won't even talk to me about it. Just what is it that makes her so special?" I held back my jea-anger while Kaoru looked down. I felt his hand on mine and heard his voice.
"She's just different. I mean..." His pink lips formed a gentle yet sad smile that made my heart stop by looking at it."...Haruhi's the first person to be able to tell us apart. The first to make her way into our world. Do you see what I'm saying? Hikaru?" He looked into my eyes with such a happy and innocent face. He took both of my hands in his own and held them to his heart. "Haruhi's special because she cares for people, she's selfless, but she's so dense!" He closed his eyes and laughed while I still looked at him.
"...I can't blame Milord for falling for her and I want them to be happy. Even if it means I'm not..."
"Don't think like that! Your happiness counts just as theirs do!" I grabbed his shoulders out of fear while he looked confused.
"But Haruhi loves Milord and they're so happy together. I just can't ruin that by telling Haruhi my feelings." I want Kaoru to be happy but that means he'd be with Haruhi and Milord wouldn't like that and neither would I. In fact, I hate the thought of Haruhi being with Kaoru when she hasn't even realized he lo-likes her.
"Then it's obvious that you shouldn't tell her." And I don't want him to. "How long have you even liked her?" I swallow hard while I look for the answer in the kind eyes of my twin.
"I don't remember when I did. I didn't realize it until Milord started acting like he liked her too. For some reason I felt really sick and thought I was being overprotective. Yy heart felt weird, I was thinking about her alot, and I kept on looking at her too. And than I realized I liked Haruhi as a girl." I looked hard at Kaoru and saw that just talking about Haruhi made him happy.
"But by the time I realized I liked her, I already lost to Milord." He let go of my hands and laid back down on the bed. "It's funny though." He closed his eyes. "Maybe if I had realized my feelings sooner then I wouldn't be so heartbroken."