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I just reread my story. Wow.
Its so sad. Just saying.
This is a prequel to Forgive Me.
If you love Remus and Tonks, this might be a little painful. Just kidding, this will probably hurt a lot. I know my heart just cracked.
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Or else i will write an even sadder story.
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Nymphadora Tonks Lupin slowly rocked her son in her arms, his soft cheek pressed against her purple top. Teddy was asleep, his tiny thumb between his pink lips. Tonks stood up, unable to keep still, struggling to keep calm. She paced, faster and faster on the soft carpet.
Was it possible to be torn in two? Was it fair that two roads lay in front of her, both roads equally as important? Tonks knew that life wasn't fair. But this... this decision was painfully harsh. It wasn't fair. At all.
Tonks knew how to handle her life; she was an Auror. She was easily able to lock up the bad guys in Azkaban, choose the right from wrong. But this had no right or wrong. Both were painfully right, harshly correct. And she knew she couldn't choose both roads. There were painful consequences for each road. Tonks shook, overcome by the panic emerging from her heart. Some tears escaped, splashing down onto her sleeping son. She smiled through her tears.
She didn't think she was able to take responsibility for a life. When she found out that she was pregnant, her first reaction was panic. But as Teddy grew inside her, she felt... a rising joy that their marriage produced something... magical. Teddy was perfect; it was love at first sight. And as Remus hugged them together at the hospital, a small unit of three, Tonks had never been happier. She was still unbelievably happy, even through the sleepless nights, the crying, the mess, with Remus at her side. She loved Teddy so much it was like a wound. She was conscious of her love for him at all times.
But... Remus. Remus John Lupin. She had had a crush on him, kept dropping hints that she was interested, until that idiot had finally kissed her. It had taken forever, but Tonks didn't regret a single moment. The time when Remus had left her because of bloody money and... wolfy conditions had been terrible, a dark, grey world with none of the colors she had had before. But the single moment when he had taken her back and asked for her hand... that had been one of her happiest moments.
Remus was fighting at Hogwarts right now, and Tonks couldn't stand the not- knowing. If she went to Remus, she could... could get killed. She didn't wish that kind of life on her son. But Remus...
Tonks sank down into the carpet. She set Teddy down. She stared at his sleeping form, trying to etch his figure into her memory. She scribbled a note to her mum. Scribbling an 'I love you' and signing her full name at the bottom, she folded the parchment, pressing a kiss onto the paper. She sat down and wrote a long letter to Teddy. The parchment soon became covered in tears. She folded it in half and drew a heart on the front. Sneaking into her mum's room with Teddy, she set him down next to her mum, who was sleeping peacefully. She kissed her cheek and hurried away quickly, afraid that she would change her mind.
Soon after, she arrives at Hogwarts. The sight of the red barrier dissolving barely makes her pause as she runs through the courtyard, searching wildly for her love.
Remus, I'm coming.
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