A/N: Hey guys! Remember me? I'm so sorry it took this long to update but the olympics were on and then I started high school. Also I had been having a ton of writer's block. But I'm back. I'm going to try to update at least once a week, most likely on Saturdays. I really miss you guys, so make sure to review! Love you! Also follow my Hunger Games instagram account, all pictures of Hunger Games and the cast: peeta_withdrawls it'll mean a lot!Disclaimer: I do not own the hunger games.

I don't talk for days. I just sit in my hospital room, staring at a wall. Everyone I know comes in at some point, my mother, Prim, Haymitch, Beetee, Johanna, Finnick, Annie, and many people from 12 but I never talk not even when Gale visits, which is everyday. Peeta came in once but it set me off and Dr. Aurelius won't let him come back. I just can't stop wondering about Aaron and if he wasn't my district partner, who was? Although Peeta isn't allowed to come in, he sits in the chair outside my room, all day and even falls asleep there most of the time. The only time he leaves is when he has to do a propo for the Rebellion. I miss him. Even though I turn mutt every time I see him, the old me wants him to hold me and tell me everything's okay, just like Aaron used to. Well, who ever I thought was Aaron. For all I know I made all that up in my head, but I know I didn't. Maybe Peeta as right, it was him. I shake my head. Of course it's not him, I think after all that's gone down between us in 13, I would've remembered that by now.

I finally return to the real world when I hear the happiest news anyone's heard since the Quell, Finnick and Annie are getting married. The wedding's scheduled for next. Saturday, only a week from today. They asked if Annie could borrow one of my dresses, so I of course said yes. The wedding will be televised to show that a war can't stop something happy from happening. This really seems to lift people's spirits, even mine. People are signing up to help, but of course they won't let me.

Dr. Aurelius lets me take a break from therapy until after the wedding. In my free time, I stare at walls and hang out with Johanna. It's weird how being in such a horrible place with someone will make you so close. I feel like I can read her thoughts. I never thought that in a million years I would say Johanna Mason is my friend. My favorite part of the day is hunting with Gale, although I haven't spoken to him since our little, actually huge, fight two days ago. We had already finished cleaning our game and he brought me into a hug and kissed me. "Gale don't.""Don't what?""I can't handle a relationship now, I don't know how i feel about you or Aaron.""I thought you watched the Games.""I did.""Well then you should know that you don't love Aaron.""My memories may not be with Aaron but they're real. Whoever it is, I don't know how I feel about him."He steps away from me."Katniss I'm done with this.""Gale no, I need you."

"Katniss you don't need anyone. Besides I'm tired of you saying that you need me and then making out with Mellark. If you really need me, then why do you keep going back to him. It hurts, you know. I have feelings too so, if you care for me at all, you'll let me go so I don't get hurt any more."

"Gale no. Please you're my best friend."

"And you're mine, but I think we need to just take a break from each other. At least until after the war."

"That could be years."

"Not with you on our side, Catnip. I give it a month or so."

"Gale, stop."

"Katniss, I said no," he says with more anger than usual, so I let him. He walked away and I haven't spoken to him since.

Eventually, the big day comes around and everyone is excited. Most of the citizens are just happy for a reason to celebrate since they don't celebrate anything in 13. And I mean nothing, no birthdays, holidays, anniversaries, nothing. For me, it's different. I'm excited for this day because I have never been happier for someone in my entire life. No one could hide their love, not even Snow.

The wedding festivities all start out with my prep team making Annie look beautiful while me and Johanna entertain her. Then we help her get into her dress and help her get over nerves. Then , Johanna and I get remade my the prep team, since we're bridesmaids. Finally, we're lined up to walk down the aisle and down we go. I'm Annie's maid of honor, so I walk down with the best man, who happens to be Peeta, but instead of being mad or nervous about it, I'm glad. I actually kind if miss him. He always makes me less nervous with his steadiness, just like Aaron, and I need all the steadiness I can get on these heels.

The wedding ends and we go to take pictures. After the pictures are done, we go to the cafeteria for the reception. Everything looks beautiful with a District 4 theme, but the most beautiful thing there, besides Annie, was the cake. It had a gorgeous ocean theme and looked similar to those that were displayed at the bakery. There is no doubt in my mind that the cake was made by Peeta. Only his hands could create something so beautiful.

My favorite part of the wedding is the dancing. Us District 12 folk really know how to dance. Prim and I make excellent dance partners and the night is just a blast. I haven't had this much fun since before the Games.
Before we know it, it's time for the last dance. The person in charge of music says every girl find a partner to dance with. Everyone is finding someone. I can't go to Gale, we're supposed to be "taking a break". I'm not sure who to pick, so I go to the only person I know will say yes, Peeta.

"Wanna dance?"He looks surprised, "Of course I would Katniss.

"The song is pretty slow, so I put one hand on his shoulder and the other in his hand.

"I didn't think you'd ask me. I though you would've asked Gale or something."

"Gale and I aren't speaking right now." He can tell I don't want to talk about it, so he doesn't ask."Well I'm really glad you asked. I missed you."

He pulls me in close and I put my arms around his neck and whisper, "I'm glad I did too.

"We don't really talk, we just try to be as close to one another as possible And before I know it, we lean in at the same time and kiss. The moment is just so magical, I never want it to stop, so we kiss again, and again. We're pretty much making out by the time the reception's over and then we break away.

"Wow," is all I can say.

"Yeah, wow is right."

"That was...""Wow. I missed you Katniss."

"I don't wanna leave you. Let's go back to your place and just talk."

"That would be great."

We walk to his compartment in silence. When we get there he opens the door and invites me in. I take a seat on one of the chairs and he gets me something to drink. He breaks the silence, "So, how have you been?"

"I've been better, but I've been a lot worse. What about you?"

"Same. I think about you a lot."

"Look Peeta, I'm still not sure what has happened between us. I've been taking a break from all that. I'll probably start again next week, whatever Dr. Aurelius wants. Just know that I don't hate you, or love you."

He kisses me before I have time to think so I just kiss him back. Before I know it, we're lying down on the bed and his shirt is off. He starts to ale my dress of and everything just seems so right. I think I was wrong before, I think I do love him.

"Katniss we need to stop. I don't want to do anything you and I will regret."

"No don't stop, I want you."

"You have no idea how much I want you too, but we can't. Not until you're fully back and your flashbacks stop."

"I haven't had a flashback in weeks."

"We haven't talked in weeks. You'll come back to me, then we can think about this."

"Do I have to leave. Let's just sleep. You make me feel safe."

"Of course. Come on, let's sleep."He gives me one of his tshirts and lie down on the bed. He pulls me into him and I feel so comfortable and familiar.

"We've slept like this before. Real or not real?"He answers what I expected, "Real."
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