Hello Guys! I'm soooo sorry it took so long to update. Please forgive me! Life's just been crazy but I'm back now! Just a little review of what happened last time: Katniss watched the pre-game events and her memories of Peeta came back, but in a horrible way. She thinks he tried to kill her in the Games and now wants to kill him. Review please!
I am running through the arena. Suddenly something grabs onto my ankle. I fall and see that what pulled me was Rue's dead, cold hands. It happens again, and again by every other tribute until I reach Peeta. He's holding his arms out and I run to the, as fast as possible. He hugs me and I hug back as tight as possible. Suddenly, he's squeezing me to the point of pain.
"Peeta, you're hurting me."
"Katniss?"I start struggling. I feel like I'm being smothered but I don't know what from."Katniss, wake up. You're just dreaming.
Wake up, I'm here. You're okay."
I wake up and see the worry in his eyes. "Oh Peeta! I've missed you!" I jump into his arms and hug him as if he will be taken away any moment, which he probably will.
"So you really do remember us?"
"Of course. They showed me the Games"
"Yeah but remember what happened afterwards?"
"Not really. I though I just fell asleep."
"Oh. I missed you Katniss." I kiss his lips so softly I doubt he felt it, but he must've because he kisses me again with more passion than ever. After a few moments of kissing I can't remember anything.
"Peeta! Get off of me!" I push him away. "What the hell! This is just one of your traps to lure me in and kill me! Who let you in? Why were you kissing me?"
"Katniss, you kissed me first. I would never hurt you!"
"Someone help! He's trying to hurt me!" Doctors and security guards rush in. The doctors come over to me while the security guards are dragging Peeta out."No, she needs me! I would never hurt her! I love her!"I hear one of the guards say, "We know' Soldier Mellark, but we need to make her feel safe."
Everyone thinks I'm crazy. Which I am, but I don't appreciate everyone telling me. It's like I'm the only one trying to help me recover from this. Dr. Aurelius comes in, "It's alright Katniss. Why don't you eat your breakfast and I'll come to talk to you in a while."He leaves the room and I dig into my breakfast.
Peeta's POV
The guards let me go the minute the door closes. One of them says to wait for Dr. Aurelius, so I just stand there trying to figure out what I did wrong.
A few minutes later, Dr. Aurelius comes out and gets right to the point. "Peeta, I'm not sure what's wrong with Katniss."
"What do you mean? Isn't there something you can do?
""We thought we could, but she seems to be getting worse."
"I can't live without her. I need her."
"With believe that the Capitol's original intention was for her to react this way. She resisted it in the Capitol so they took a different approach and made her forget you were in the Games with her. Well, now I'm afraid she thinks you're going to hurt her, but it will come in spurts. Sometimes, it may be just like it was before the Quell. Others she might be completely terrified you will hurt her, and try to protect herself by trying to kill you. We believe for her benefit and the rebellion, you should stay completely away from her. We will try our hardest but like we said before, we know very little about hijacking. I'm sorry Peeta."
"There has to be a way."
"We will try. Who's someone who she's always happy with?"
"Her sister, Prim," the selfish part of me wants to stop there but I have to tell them everything if I ever want her back. Even if she doesn't love me, I just want her to be happy and remember the happy moments we had together, "and her best friend, Gale. After her father's death, he was the only person that could really make her happy."
"Yes, but what about someone who won't remind her of you at all. When she thinks of Gale it could lead to her thinking about the two men who love her most, you and Gale. Maybe someone from school?"
"There was a Seam girl who Katniss seemed to think fond of. I'm pretty sure her name was Leevy. I've seem her around 13. She could help."All of a sudden, my communicuff starts beeping and says I'm to report to Command immediately. Probably just another Propo to film."Just do what you have to do to bring her back, Doc."
"I won't stop 'till it's done. You better go, Peeta. Coin doesn't like to be kept waiting."
I head down to Command and see Finnick, Boggs, Gale, and some soldiers I don't know sitting at a table with Coin at the head of it."Take a seat, Soldier Mellark." Her voice is so sharp, it makes you jump when she speaks. I quickly take the seat next to Finnick and listen.
Coin begins to speak, "You have all been called here for you're shooting skills and popularity." I'm pretty sure she had to add the popularity part for me. I'm not the best shot, especially compared to the others.
"You will all be heading to the Capitol tomorrow. You won't be in much action; you'll be more of a star squad. We'll send the cameras and show that even our stars are fighting in battle, even though it won't be any actual danger.
This seems to rub Gale the wrong way. "Why won't we be in any battle? We're the best shooters you got!"
"Not all of you, and that's beside the point. We have some very recognizable faces and we can't afford to lose them."
"No, you just know that Peeta couldn't hit a target that was five feet in front of him! How about you send the rest of us into real battle and leave him here to mope over Katniss trying to kill him!"
"That's enough Soldier Hawthorne. If you don't like it, you can stay here all together. You're choice. We need Peeta there. He's the symbol of our rebellion."
"Only because Katniss was tortured in the Capitol! Everyone knows she's the real symbol. So what if Mellark can speak in front of a camera, anyone can do that!"
Boggs speaks up. "Hawthorne, you don't get it do you? Without Peeta, we might still be trying to get half of the Districts on our side. His speaking skills are a gift. You may be able to shoot the dust off of someone's head from a mile away, but his words are a greater weapon than an arrow will ever be." I'm surprised by Boggs. I think he feels bad for me. In his eyes, I'm just some 17 year old boy who's constantly in and out of a hospital and is known for being mentally disoriented. I just barely passed training and the love of my life hates me. Maybe I should just stay here, I'm just endangering them.
"Thanks Boggs, but maybe Gale is right. I've been in out of the hospital since the Quell, and I'm not sure I can handle everything-"
This time it's Finnick who steps in. "Peeta, we need you. You can handle it. You've survived two arenas. We're Victors, we're meant to beat the odds. You'll beat the odds out in the field while Katniss is beating them here and getting better." For some reason, this really gets to me."Alright, I'll go, but I warn you, I have an extremely loud walk."
Katniss POV
I'm dreaming about my father's death. I'm screaming at him not to go down there but nothing comes out of my mouth, only silence. He completely ignores me and gets blown to bits. I run to the carnage of what's left and see Peeta there. I feel something different. Unlike today, I'm glad to see him. I run to him, but there seems to be a wall between us, like in the Quarter Quell. I'm trying to talk to him but he can't hear me, nor can I hear him. Eventually, we give up. He puts his hands up to the glass and I put mine to his. We lean our heads against the wall as if they're leaning against each other. I'm crying uncontrollably when I hear him. I look up only to see him gone. I can still hear him talking.
"Katniss, I know you can't hear me because you're asleep, and I know I'm not supposed to be near you until you're better but I had to. They're sending me to the Capitol tomorrow. There's no real danger, it's mostly for show, but what isn't any more. Our entire lives since the Games have been a show. I wish I could just talk to the real you. I wish I could know if we were real. I really think we were, but I don't know if they can bring you back to me. I'm going to go the Capitol and win this thing, for us. We're going to get Snow and watch him die. I'm sure you want to do the honor of killing him, but I would rather just watch. If we kill him, we're no better than he was. God Katniss, I just want to hold you again, rather than just your hand while you're asleep. I've always liked the way you looked asleep-"
Suddenly, I realize this isn't a dream and Peeta is in my room talking to me. I dart up and startle him. "Peeta?"
"Oh God, sorry Katniss, I wasn't trying to hurt you."
"I know, Peeta."
"Really? This must be one of those spurts they were talking about."
"What spurts?"
"Katniss, the tracker jacket venom in the Capitol didn't affect you all the way so sometimes you will be completely normal one second, and trying to kill me the next."
"How long do we have until I, you know."
"I'm not sure. Let's just enjoy what time we do have together."
I lean in and kiss him passionately. He kisses back with even more passion, knowing any second could be our last before I want to kill him. Who knows if he will even make it out of the war. I just decide to cherish every second. Before I know it he's in my bed with me and we're just kissing. Nothing more, he doesn't want to push it and that's a good thing. Too much could set me off. After a few minutes, I know we need to talk.
"Peeta, before I change, I need you to know that I miss you. And in the Capitol, I though about you all the time. And most of all, I'm so sorry for all I'm putting you through. You don't deserve it-"
He stops me with a kiss, "Katniss, I love you. I don't think of it as just going through it if it's going to bring us back together. But just know, if you want to be with Gale, I understand. I just want you to get better, and to be happy. You deserve it."
"Maybe I do, but I don't deserve you."We kiss one more time before I drift to sleep in his arms.
Did you guys like it? Again I'm soooo sorry this took so long! I'm not sure when my next update will be because the Cardinals are super close to the World Series, so my evening usually consist of watching them. Review! Love you all!