Chapter 8

Previously:

We looked into each others eyes. Butterflies were sent through my stomach like a tidal wave. My hormones were running wild. He was so handsome. His straight cheekbone and jawline. His smooth soft hair. His eyes. I could stare at them forever

As I gazed at him, his face just inches from mine, he leaned in just a little closer...

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I was so lost in his gaze. I couldn't think. Time froze.

Memory flash: An image of a younger red-haired girl that kissed a tall handsome boy came into her mind and the hurt and pain that came after that kiss. The boy she thought she had loved, left. He was gone. Her heart was broken. She never wanted to feel that hurt again so she put up walls to everyone around her.

He closed his eyes and leaned in just a little bit closer. For a moment I thought we were going to kiss.

I pulled away at the last second.. I stomped away towards the shore and pulled my dress back on. "What's that matter? Wait! Where are you going?" Merlin asked. He was so confused at my denial. He ran towards me.

"If I offended you, I'm sorry! I never meant to." I didn't answer. He pulled his shirt on as I was walking away. "Aren't you going back to Camelot?" asked Merlin.

"No!" I was angry. He kept following. I stepped the wrong way. I tripped and fell. I tried to get back up but a sharp pain pulsed through my ankle. "Ow. Dang-it." I shouted. He came over and looked at my foot. "I think you've injured your ankle. You need to let Gauis take a look at it." I stood up and limped slowly away from him.

"You need to come back to Camelot." He just kept talking. I wanted to get away.

"I'm not going!" I was a very stubborn person. I kept limping away from him and he kept following.

"If you don't come back, Gauis will be very upset with me." Merlin argued.

"I don't care. I'm not going back!" Why can't he just leave me alone?

"You're coming back to Camelot if I have to force you!" He was aggravated now.

"MAKE ME!"

"Fine I will!" replied Merlin. He came over to me, picked me up and threw me over his back.

"What are you doing? Let GO of me!" I screamed and kicked. "Get off me! You put me down Merlin or I'll"

He cut me off. "Or you'll what? Punch me to death?" He was smirking now. I didn't think he would use his magic on me. Or would he? He tightened his grip around me. As much as I squirmed, I couldn't wiggle free from his grip. "UGH!" I was so mad. I slammed my fists again his back. "MERLIN!"

He carried me back towards the city. I was furious at him. We reached the training grounds where the knights were fighting. He set me down on a large rock.

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After he set her down. A servant was passing by. He walked over to him and asked, "Can you please go and find Gauis. He is needed in the training grounds. Tell him Merlin asks for him. And hurry." The servant ran through the city gates and disappeared.

Merlin glanced back at her. She looked away agitated, glaring the other way. Arthur walked over to Merlin. Angela looked at Arthur. "It's you."

"I know you." She said as she stood up.

"Well, who doesn't know Prince Arthur is what I'd like to know." Gwaine said jokingly.

"As you can tell, I'm Prince Arthur. It's nice to finally meet you face to face." said Arthur.

"Arthur. Of course. I should've guessed." She said. Merlin wondered what she meant by that.

"Merlin, what's going on?" Arthur turned to him and asked.

"She just injured her ankle, that's all." She still wasn't looking at him. "Uhuh. Right." Arthur said. He knew there was more to the story. Arthur pulled Merlin over to the side.

"What happened? And why are you both soaking wet?" Arthur gave him a questioning look. Merlin hoped Arthur wouldn't put two-and-two together. "Nothing happened." He lied again. Hoping Arthur would just let it go.

"What did you do?" He accused him.

"I didn't DO anything." Merlin defended himself. He hated when Arthur accused him like that. "Everything isn't always my fault, you know."

"There's no need to yell. It was just a question." Arthur was confused. Why was Merlin getting so upset?

"Just a question? Ha! You wouldn't know, if it hit you in the face." Merlin said annoyingly. Arthur was getting slightly angered by Merlin's tone of voice. "Now hang on a minute."

"You seem to think you know everything there is to know about everything. But you don't, you just..."

Merlin was about to argue further but he happened to notice Angela was leaning heavily on the weapons wrack. She was clutching her shirt where her pendant was. Was she trying to hide it? Her vision seemed detached. He saw pain in her eyes as well as tears. "NO!" She yelled and fell to her knees.

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I saw Merlin walk over a servant passing by. He asked him to go get Gauis. The servant ran off into the city. Merlin looked back at me. I avoided his glance on purpose. A man walked over to where Merlin was standing. I looked at the man. "It's you." It was him. The man in my dreams. The man standing next to Merlin. But he looked younger that the figure I dreamt of.

"I know you." I said as I stood up.

"Well, who doesn't know Prince Arthur? That's what I'd like to know." Gwaine said jokingly.

"As you can tell, I'm Prince Arthur. It's nice to finally meet you face to face." The blonde haired guy said.

"Arthur. Of course. I should've guessed." I should've known too. Of course it was him. I just met the future king of Camelot. Cool!

"Merlin, what's going on?" Arthur asked his manservant.

"She just injured her ankle that's all." Merlin left out the main details.

I still wasn't looking at Merlin. "Uhuh. Right." Arthur said. He knew there was more to the story. He pulled Merlin over to the side.

"What happened? And why are you both soaking wet?" Arthur questioned. I closed my eyes to try and tune out their voices. I placed my hand on rack of weapons to take the weight off my ankle.

I started to think about what happened at the lake. I knew exactly why I pulled away and why I got upset at Merlin.

I had walls around my heart. I never let anyone close. But the reason I pulled away was because I knew nothing could ever happen between us. I couldn't allow myself to feel for him. I knew if I did, I wouldn't be able to stop myself. I knew I couldn't start something that would never become anything. I was from the future, he was from the past and He had a destiny that was greater than me. I couldn't let my heart feel anything for someone who was never mine. It broke my heart making that decision. It was the hardest thing I had ever done in my life but I knew it was the right thing to do. That's why I became angry and upset. Anger was the only thing that could mask the hurt I was feeling.

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Arthur and Merlin were arguing about something.

I started to feel something, a tingling coming from my necklace. I looked down and I could see it glowing underneath my shirt. I clutched it hoping no one would see it glow. My head started to hurt. "No, not again. Now now." I said in a low whisper to myself. I knew what was going to happen. I leaned forward as the pain started to climb. My eyes burned as the a vision took hold of my sight.

I saw the face-less man holding the gun. A shot went off. I heard someone yell. "No! Father!" Blood...My pocket watch... "Get a doctor!" A women yelled "It's too late..." another man said. Shimmering light surrounded me. Something new happened. I was in a forest, only I wasn't really there. Swords clanging together, and people yelling. I heard the awful sound of a sword piercing someone's skin. I looked around and I saw Merlin with a large dagger sticking out of his chest. Then all I could see was his face. I saw him fading. His eyes closed. He was gone. I heard my voice scream. "NO!"

My vision returned. I was still holding onto the weapons rack. My heart couldn't take it. I dropped to my knees, tears streaming down my face. I couldn't get the vision out of my mind. My mind wasn't focusing on things going on around me. Someone helped me up. I was in shock. My heart broke more and more as I thought about what I had seen. It was barely holding on.

Somehow Gauis appeared out of no where and led me back to his chambers, Merlin walking somewhere behind us.

I was sat down. He looked at my ankle. I heard something like "just a pinched nerve" I wasn't paying attention to what they were doing, I felt detached from my body. My eyes were red from the brink of tears hiding behind them. I glanced briefly at Merlin but I couldn't look at him. A couple tears got loose, fresh pain mixed with them. After Gauis was done, he led me up to Merlin's room and then left. I think he said something but I didn't care.

All I could see was Merlin dying. Dead. He died. It was so real. I couldn't help the tears that came out. I hugged my knees into my chest to try and contain the sobs. I just let my mind go. I wanted to go deep into my mind where I didn't have any pain, or hurt, but it wouldn't let me. Like a hammer to a board, the vision kept flashing into my thoughts. It hurt every single time. I was there for a long time. A day passed... then two. I didn't leave that room once. I just couldn't. I couldn't bare to look at him. I coudn't look at Merlin and not see him dying. My heart would not, could not sustain itself.

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Gauis looked over her ankle after bringing her back from he training grounds. Merlin wanted so bad to talk to her, to ask her what she had seen but when he looked at her, he could see deep rooted pain and tears she was trying to hold back. He desperately wanted to comfort her but when their eyes met just for a second, he saw a fresh wave of pain wash over her. A few tears slipping from her eyes. He caused her pain? Why? He couldn't bare seeing her in so much pain. Maybe he should stay away from her.

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It had been five days since my vision. Gauis came up to bring me food and water. He might have attempted to talk to me once or twice. Gwen even came to visit me too but I couldn't concentrate on her or any of it.

Watching the death of someone you care about it is unlike any pain I've ever experienced, even if it is just a dream. It is something that no should ever experience.

On the fifth day, the pain was gone and all that was left was a numbness. I think I was finally coming back. I had gotten over the shock of the trauma. I looked around the four walls that I had stared at the past week. I got out of bed and slipped on my blue dress.

I needed to talk to Merlin. I just needed be with him. I couldn't deny the feeling I felt for him any longer.

I went downstairs and looked around. Just then Gauis walked in the front door. "Oh thank the Heavens you're alright!" He came and hugged me. I hugged back. "Of course I'm alright."

He let go. "I just needed some time." I almost shed tears from the emotion I felt.

"Come. Sit down. I'll prepare you some breakfast. And you 'will' eat!" He said firmly. He smiled. I ate all of the food on my plate that Gauis gave me. I was pretty hungry. "Gauis, where's Merlin? I need to see him." I tried to not to sound desperate.

"He's not here. I'm sure he'll be back later today." What I didn't know was that Gauis knew where Merlin really was.

He sent me out to the market to pick up some things. He also needed me to ask Gwen to mend some shirts for Arthur since Merlin wasn't home. I didn't mind. I needed something to do anyways. I picked up everything Gauis had on the list he gave me. I had no idea where Gwen's house was though. I asked a women if she knew and she pointed me in the right direction. I knocked on the door of a small hut. When Gwen opened the door, she gasped. "You're alright!" I was crushed in a tight hug. I smiled at her. "Gauis needs these shirts mended. They're for Arthur." I saw a spark of emotion in her eyes as I said his name. I handed her the money for the work.

I was about to leave when she said, "Oh please come in and stay for a while." I agreed. And to be honest I was glad for the company.

I sat down and we talked about various things. I asked her what it was like working in Camelot. I asked about Arthur. She told me about how brave and courageous he was. She even admitted to me that she did fancy him a little and that he secretly liked her too. She told about how she and Morgana used to be close friends but recently she been acting strange. "You don't think Morgana holds your best interest anymore?" I asked her. She shook her head. I could tell this pained her to admit.

Then we talked about Merlin. Gwen talked about all the things he did. He came with Arthur to rescue her from slave traders. He went with Arthur to fight the Great Dragon. She said how she couldn't believe how brave and loyal he was when he saved Arthur's life by jumping in the way of the Dorocca. She told me how they had first met and how honest he was. He was always energetic. She explained how him and Arthur have become friends over the past few years rather than just master and servant. "Merlin has always been by Arthur's side. No matter what the circumstances."

"And just yesterday Merlin went right along with Arthur and his knights to fight off bandits who attacked a local village." Gwen said.

"What?" I couldn't believe what she just say. Merlin was fighting? 'This can't be happening.' My vision came into my mind. Panic gripped me like a vice. I stood up from the table. "I have to go."

"Is everything alright?" Gwen said I rushed out. I didn't answer. I ran back to Gauis'.

"Gauis, Gwen said Arthur and Merlin and the knights are gone to fight off village attackers. Is this true?"

"Yes, I'm afraid so." Gauis said slowly. "Reports have just come in that they returned but..." No not a but. "..there were casualties." Horror filled inside me.

"Where are they? Tell me now!"

"In the Citadel."

I bolted out the door. I ran as fast I could. I reached it just as two knights were carrying in a body wrapped in white garments in the room. I hid behind a pillar and watched them lay the body on a table. I waited until they left the room. My heart broke into a thousand pieces. I slowly approached the table. Tears were pouring out of my eyes like waterfalls for I knew the identity of the lifeless body.

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And In that moment I knew... I had lost Merlin forever.

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Don't you just love cliff hangers? HEHE *evil laugh ...

CAN ANYONE GUESS WHAT WILL HAPPEN NEXT?