A/N#1: I don't own glee if i did Idina would be in every other episode and St. Berry would be cannon ;)
The beat is complete
with the sound of your world
going up in the fire
[Doing the Unstuck, The Cure]
Saturday September 26,2011
The next 2 weeks passed by rather quickly, school was ok (and surprisingly no one had found out yet that I was possibly Will and Shelby's long lost daughter hopefully it'll stay that way too) I had become friends with pretty much everyone in glee club. Well all except Andrea who seemed to hate me from the second we met. What the hell had I done to her? But I ignored her as best I could I mean it's not like everyone you meet is going to like you. As far as my relationship with the Schuster's went it had gotten better. I wasn't calling them mom or dad and I didn't even really think of them as an aunt or uncle. No I guess they became more like family friends to me at least that's the best way to explain it. You know those family friends who you haven't seen since you were like three but they act like they just saw you yesterday. Anyways I was definitely a little more comfortable around them then I was two weeks ago. And as fast as these two weeks went by it made me realize that it has been two weeks since I've heard from dad! This is the longest I've gone without seeing or at the very least hearing from him. The last time I saw him was in the back of a cop car. What happened to him? Why hasn't he called? Why hasn't he come and gotten me by now? Is he in jail? But why would he be he didn't do anything! Arg! I just wish he'd at least call me so he could clear everything up, I tried calling the house phone in California but it just said the number was disconnected and when I tried his cell it went straight to voice mail. If I could just talk to him maybe then I could stop having this argument with myself over whether or not he did kidnap me like the Schuster's and everyone else insinuates he did! And maybe they're right there are those pictures Noah showed me along with the pictures I saw in the tree house when I first arrived. And the fact that I can't deny this connection I feel to some of the people here. No! Rachel I mean Rae-no Jennifer my name is Jennifer Kayleigh Matthews. Remember you are Jennifer Matthews not Rachel Schuester and your father is Peter Matthews!
But I can't think about that now I because have a barbeque to get ready for. Shelby and Will were hosting a barbeque today (it was supposed to be last week but they decided to give me another week to adjust) so I could meet the rest of "my family". Which consisted of Noah and Santana, Blaine's family, and Shelby's parents. Thankfully Quinn (and her family) were coming as well so hopefully I can just hang out with her the whole time instead a bunch of people that think they know me. As I walk towards the stairs I hear Shelby answer the front door greeting who's ever there as they walk in. As I get to the last step I'm hoping I'll be able to sneak by Shelby and her new guest and go to the back yard so I wouldn't have to say hi.
"Oh Rae!" Damn! Does Shelby have eyes on the back of her head or something! I turn around and walk towards her and this older couple they must be her parents making them Noah (and "mines") grandparents. They look good for their age whatever that age may be.
"Rae these are your grandparents Lidia and James Corcoran." Shelby tells me.
"It's very nice to meet you Mr. and Mrs. Corcoran."
"Oh no none of this Mr. and Mrs. Corcoran nonsense. Sweetie it's us you know Nana and Grandpa to you missy." she tells me in a serious yet playful tone. I just look at them trying to come up with a response that was polite enough to let them know I didn't want to call them nana and grandpa when I barely even knew who they were. But thankfully Shelby saved me an explanation.
"Mom, do you not remember what I told you over the phone last week."
"Yes but..."
"But nothing, Rae will call you whatever she feels most comfortable with. Now come on I could use your help setting up the table outside. And I think Will could use some help with the barbeque dad." Shelby says while leading them both to the backyard."
I eventually make my way to the backyard and decided to hang out with Noah and Santana until Quinn or Blaine showed up.
"Hey!" I hear someone shout from behind me.
"Quinn! You're here finally!"
"Jeez are we that boring sis? Come on San, I can see we're too cool for these little babies." Noah says jokingly.
"Hey who are you calling babies old man!" I shout at him as he and Santana go and greet Brittany.
"Come say hi to my mom and dad." Quinn tells me as she pulls me towards her parents who are talking with Will.
"Quinn, Rae there you guys are." Will says as Quinn and I come up to stand beside him.
"Rae, this is my mom and dad. Mom and dad Rae." Quinn says gesturing to each person as she speaks.
"It's very nice to meet you Mr. and Mrs. Fabray."
"Still polite as ever. But please call me Judy." She says while shaking my hand.
"And you can call me Richard." Quinn's father tells me after a quick handshake.
"Ok we said hi like I promised so now we're going to go hang out in Rae's room." Quinn says pulling me in the direction of the house. "Sorry about pulling you away so quickly but I knew if I gave my parents the chance it would be non stop 20 questions. But come on show me your room." She explains while pushing me up the stairs.
"Ummm there's nothing special about it, I'm still staying in the guest room so nothings changed." I tell her as I open the door to the room.
"Oh, well we need to change that! Are you going to be staying in this room or moving back to your old room?"
"Uh...This room, but it's going to be pointless if we redecorate it."
"What? Why would it be pointless?"
"Well it's not like I'm going to live here for the rest of my life..."
"Yea I know there's college and you're probably going to a school out of state but do you really want to stare at these boring blue walls for the next two years?"
"No, but you misunderstood when I said I'm not going to live here the rest of my life I meant that my dad is going to come and get me and I'm going back to California with him."
"But... but we just...he's not your...It's been two weeks though and has he tried to contact you?" She finally says.
"No, but he's probably busy talking with his lawyer trying to figure out how to get me back or something. He has to be right? He's my dad he wouldn't just leave me here would he?" I asked more to myself. I can see Quinn trying to come up with a response when the door to the room opens and Blaine walks in.
"Hey! There you guys are they told me to come back outside its time to eat."
Quinn and I get up off the floor where we had been sitting and walk out the door with Blaine behind us.
"So when did you get here Blaine?" I ask as we walk outside.
"Just now. My mom and dad are anxious to see you. And umm be warned though I think my mom brought a bunch of baby pictures of us."
Before the three of us made it over to the table we were stopped by Blaine's mother.
"Oh my god, look at you! Will wasn't kidding you are a spitting image of Shelby, but I can still see some of Will in you. Oh James look they look even more like twins now! So…"
"Arianna let the girl sit down you're scaring her and besides I'm sure she's starving. You'll have to excuse your aunt you know how kooky she can get when she's excited."
"I'm not scaring her!" She responds slightly scandalized.
"Whether you're scaring her or not you're keeping all of us from eating so why don't we go sit down and we can all eat and catch up at the same time." Blaine's father tells her pulling her back to the table where everyone else had already started eating.
Quinn, Blaine and I go over to sit down as well, and immediately start eating guess we were all starving. Once everyone had pretty much finished their meal everyone started talking with one another about their week what's happened since the last time they'd seen each other. I decide to just sit back and observe everything. Even though not everyone here is blood related you can see they all think of each other as family. It's weird to think that I may possibly be apart of this family there's so many people so many personalities it's a new concept for me to grasp. Back in California it's just me and dad it gets pretty quiet sometimes in the house. I like all this noise here and something tells me when everyone's together there's never a dull moment and maybe if we were all meeting under different circumstances I wouldn't mind staying here. I'm brought out of my thoughts when I feel Blaine nudge my arm. I look at him and to see he's trying to hand me some pictures.
"Oh sorry spaced out right there. What's going on?"
"Just passing around some pictures my mother brought. Here take a look."
The picture on the top of the small stack showed a little boy and girl probably around the age of five or six dressed up in a princess and pirate costumes and wait a minute is that Blaine?
"Blaine is that you dressed up as a princess?" I asked while trying to hold back a giggle but failing.
"What? Let me…Mom I told you this picture was never to see the light of day!"
"What picture?" I hand her the picture in question "oh but you and Rachel look so cute!" she responds while laughing loudly, thus grabbing the attention of everyone else at the table.
"What are we all laughing about?" Shelby asks us. Arianna hands her the picture and right away Shelby starts to laugh as well. "I remember when this was taken" she says while passing it to Will who then passed it to the next person while Blaine was trying but failing to get it back in his own hands. "although to this day I still don't know how Rachel convinced Blaine to wear the costume."
"hahaha oh man dude this is priceless! Aunt Ari you're going to have to give me a copy of this!" Noah laughed as he passed the picture to Santana.
"No! No copies will be made and after today this picture will never see the light of day again." Blaine responds while trying to grab the picture, which everyone was keeping just out of his grasp as they passed it around.
"How did you even convince him to wear the dress Rachel?" Santana asks.
"Blackmail of course. I told him that if he didn't wear the costume then I would tell Aunt Ari that he was the one who broke her favorite vase. And as a thank you I helped him make it seem like Noah was the one who broke it." Whoa where did all that come from? Everyone around me had looks of shock and happiness on their faces as they stared at me, like they were expecting me to do what a magic trick? For a good three minutes everyone was quiet and it was quite unnerving thankfully Noah seem to sense that everyone's staring was starting to freak me out and spoke up.
"See Aunt Arianna I told you I was innocent." This seemed to break the ice and everyone started laughing again. I knew that everyone wanted to know how I remembered and if I remembered anything else but truth was I had no idea how I remembered any of that and it's not like there was a flood of new memories pouring in. But when Santana asked what had led to Blaine be dressed up like a princess an image of that day popped up in my head it played like an old home movie a little grainy but I could still see the picture. I couldn't sit out here anymore I needed some space.
"Umm it was nice to meet you all but if you'll excuse me I'm feeling kind of tired." I told everyone as I got out of my seat and walked back to the house thankful that no one got up to follow me.
I was about to go into the guest room but changed my mind at the last minute and entered the other room. My old room really I guess. They weren't kidding when they said they hadn't changed anything about it. There was toys scattered all about the room, posters of the Spice girls, N*Sync and Britney Spears along with a couple of Broadway posters and playbills of Annie, Les Mis, Phantom of the Opera covered one of the walls, along with some glow in the dark stars scattered all around the room. The room looked nice but being in here felt weird it felt like déjà vu. I make my way over to the twin sized bed and lay down with feet over the edge and just let my mind wander over what I had just remembered, over the fact that I felt even more at home here then I did with Pete-I mean dad in California, over the fact that he hasn't even called, that the evidence just kept piling up proving time and time again that I'm not Jennifer Matthews, there was even those DNA test that said I was in no way related to dad; but I had just tried to convince myself that they were wrong turns out I'm the one who was wrong. So if I am Rachel Schuester than why don't I remember anything? They said I've been missing since I was eight I should remember more what happened to my memories and if I'm Rachel then who's Jennifer? I think to myself before I surrender myself to sleep.
"Someone please open the door! Hello! Help please someone help!" the room felt even smaller now and it was getting harder to breathe.
"Rachel?"
"Quinn? Please I-I- can't b-breathe get me out!"
"Rachel just take some deep breaths for me ok?"
"N-n I-I-Quinn please!"
"Rachel I'm going to go get someone to unlock the door I'll be back ok?"
"No-no d-d-don't leave!" I shout as I hear her footsteps run down the hall, and away from the supply closet I was currently locked in. How did I get in here? Well it all started on Monday….
Monday:
"Rae! Hey Rae wait up!" I hear someone yell to me as I walk down the hall. I turn around to see Jesse running towards me.
"Oh hey Jesse. What's up?"
"Hi umm where are you headed right now?"
"To my locker to grab my lunch."
"Oh I'll walk with you." He tells me as we continue to walk towards my locker. I can tell he wants to ask me something but probably doesn't know what to say.
"What did you want to ask me Jesse?"
"That obvious huh? Well then what are you doing this Saturday?"
"Nothing I think."
"Perfect then you can go out with me, that is if you want to?"
"Wait a minute you're asking me out on a date?"
"Yes, I know we've only known each other for like 2 weeks but I don't know I feel this connection with you. So will you go out with me?"
"No." Yes a thousand times yes, I'd go out with you if my life weren't turning into some kind of soap opera. I had felt that connection he was talking about to not to mention he was definitely swoon worthy. I thought to my self.
"No? huh I'm not used to getting rejected but why not?"
"My life's just too crazy right now and adding a boyfriend let alone dating into the mix I don't think I'd be able to handle it."
"Hmm alright then I'll wait and when you think you're ready for that date let me know. But hey you still want to hangout on Saturday?"
"Jesse…"
"Just as friends, we can even invite some of the kids from glee."
"That sounds cool." I tell him as we walk into the cafeteria.
As I was walking out to the school parking lot at the end of the day someone came up from behind me and purposefully bumped into me, thankfully I was able to catch myself before I fell flat on my face.
"oops my bad." I hear someone say sarcastically, I look up to see it's Andrea from glee club.
"Yea whatever." I mutter not really caring.
"Heard you got a date with Jesse." She continues.
"no he asked me but.."
"You may be new here but let's get one thing straight Jesse is mine."
"Really cause last I checked people aren't just some piece of property. And who are you to tell me what to do!"
"Just stay away from Jesse if you know what's good for you." She tells me before she stomps away. Great more drama as if I didn't have enough to deal with but I wasn't going to listen to Andrea I'll talk and hang out with who ever I want to thank you very much.
On Tuesday right before glee I was greeted with a slushy facial courtesy of one of the meathead jocks. All I could think was one Kurt's right it does feel like you've been bitch slapped by iceberg, two why the hell has the school board done nothing about the slushies'! And damn this really stings as I wipe the slushy out of my eyes I hear Andrea and some of her friends laugh at me from across the hall. I ignore them and make my way to the bathroom to clean myself off.
Wednesday was relatively normal and quiet until once again Andrea pushed me from behind, but this time I was pushed into the lockers. Quinn and Kurt were only a few feet ahead of us so when they saw what happened they came running down the hall to check on me.
"Rae are you ok?" Kurt asks me as Quinn starts to yell at Andrea.
"what the hell was that about Andrea!"
"What are you talking about it was an accident."
"Yea right Kurt and I saw you push Rae into the lockers."
"Whatever I'm out of here." She tells us before walking away.
"Rae are you sure you're ok?" Quinn asks.
"Yea guys I'm fine might have a bruise or two but nothing life threatening."
"Why she'd even do that? It's not like you've done anything to her!" Kurt exclaims.
"She's just mad or I guess jealous would be the better adjective; that she overheard Jesse asking me out…."
"St. James?" Kurt and Quinn both yell at once.
"Is there any other Jesse we know but yes Jesse St. James."
"Wait did you say yes?"
"No I turned him down."
"What! Why? You two are so cute together. A lot cuter then him and Andrea were." Kurt says.
"My life's too crazy right now to add dating into the equation and wait Jesse and Andrea dated?"
"Only for like 3 months last year. Wait a minute yesterday in glee when you said some jock slushied you it was Andrea wasn't it?" Quinn asks.
"I'm sure she's the one who told the jock to do it but whatever it's not big deal."
"Not a big deal? She slushied you and pushed you against the lockers…."
"And for now we are not going to do anything. If it gets worst I'll let you know."
"Fine." They both mutter.
Well today, Thursday it got much worse. I had just finished changing back into my regular clothes after dance class and was headed towards the choir room for glee, when I saw Andrea and two of her friends come out of nowhere each of them holding a big gulp slushie. When they reached me I braced myself for the icy beverage but instead Andrea started talking "So I see you're still hanging with Jesse."
"Yea so what? He's my friend get over it. And you know what I told him I didn't want to date yet but maybe I'll change my mind cause he deserves better than some stupid jealous ex-girlfriend! Now if you'll excuse me we have glee and I for one hate being late." I tell her as I try to move past her and her sidekicks, but they block my way each time.
"Oh I know you didn't just call me stupid! And what you think he really deserves you some fake tan Hollywood princess." That's the last thing I hear her say before the three slushies are dumped on me simultaneously I thought one slushie was bad 3 all at once is a hundred time worse. My eyes are screaming in pain as I try to wipe it off my face and get my bearings, but then I feel myself being dragged and then quickly pushed into somewhere. I'm finally able to open my eyes a little only to see a door being slammed in my face and hear the lock click.
"Told you to stay away from him." I hear Andrea say as her and her friends walk away laughing.
The room I was in was small and dark so I quickly feel around for a light switch, I find one and flip it on only for the light to flicker for a few seconds before going out. Great, all right don't panic let's try the door maybe she didn't really lock it. I try turning the handle pushing against the door only just to further confirm my suspicion that she did indeed lock the door. I thought about calling Quinn or someone with my phone but quickly realized that I forgot my phone at home today so I decide to start yelling.
"Hello! Anyone out there? Help! Please I'm locked in! Hello!" I yell only to remember that everyone's probably gone home by now except for maybe glee club but they're on the other side of the school. I try and feel around for another exit but who am I kidding I'm in a supply closet there's only door and it's locked. I take a seat on the floor and try to control my breathing and imagine my self anywhere but in this small dark space. But it's not working I can feel myself getting worked up. Please let someone come soon.
Quinn's POV:
I was sitting here in glee talking to Mercedes while waiting for Rachel to walk in. She should've been here by now, maybe she got lost, naw the schools not that big and she's been here weeks now so she knows her way around. As I continue to talk to Mercedes I see Andrea walk in looking pretty smug as she goes and takes a seat next to Jesse; who turns away from her and starts to talk to Sam.
"Alright everyone let's get started on song selections for sectionals." Mr. Schue says drawing everyone's attention to the front of the class.
"Wait a minute where's Rae?" I say before he can continue. I see a brief flash of panic cross his eyes before he can say anything Andrea speaks up.
"Maybe the little midget got slushied again."
"What did you do?" I ask her as I turn to glare at her.
"That's rather rude of you Quinn and why would I do anything to Rae she's done nothing to me."
"I know you did something. Mr. Schue do you want me to go look for Rae?"
"Yes would you please Quinn." He answers me a little bit of relief crossing his features at my offer.
As I walk out of the choir room I decide to try the bathroom right by the choir room incase she was actually slushied by Andrea (I know she has something to do with this.) and needs help cleaning up. But the bathroom is empty, so is start walking to her locker while trying to call her phone which only goes to voice mail. She's not at her locker either, her last class was dance maybe she's still in the studio! I quickly start to make my way over to that side of the school.
As I'm walking down the hall to the studio I notice a small red puddle in front of a supply closet.
"Someone please open the door! Hello! Help please someone help!" I hear Rachel's voice yell from behind the door.
"Rachel?" I yell as I run to the door.
Rachel's POV:
And now here we are back where we started.
"Quinn? Please get me out of here! The doors locked a-and."
"Rach are you claustrophobic?"
"Y-yes" I stutter out.
"Ok I Rachel I need you to relax and take a deep breath."
"I try to do as she says but my lungs don't seem to be cooperating and I can barley get any air in them.
"N-n I-I-Quinn please g-get me out!"
"Rachel I'm going to go get someone to unlock the door I'll be back ok?"
"No-no w-wait d-d-don't leave!" I shout as I hear her footsteps run down the hall.
As her footsteps fade away I start to panic even more than before. I start to rock myself back and forth a little as it feels like the walls are closing in on me and the air seems to be leaving the room.
"She's coming back she said she would." I think to myself as I continue to anxiously wait.
Shelby's POV:
I had just walked out of my office when I see Quinn sprinting down the hallway looking slightly panicked
"Whoa Quinn where's the fire?" I ask her as she runs up to me.
"Shelby! Rachel she's locked in a supply closet and she's claustrophobic and I think she's having a panic attack!"
"What! Lead the way let's go." I tell her as we start to make our way back the way she came. Whoever was responsible for doing this to my baby is going to pay.
"Rachel, I'm back and Shelby's here." Quinn says as we come up to the supply closet.
"S-Shel-Shelby?"
"Yes sunshine it's me, I'm going to get you out right now don't worry. I tell her as I try and find the right key to unlock the door.
"Mama p-pl-please! I'll be good I promise." I hear her faintly say and if this had been any other situation I would've been leaping for joy over the fact that this was the first time she had called me mama since her disappearance. But the fear in her voice has me worried and scared as well. Finally I get the right key in lock and open the door. Rachel launches herself at me hugging me as tight as she can. I can feel her shaking and her breaths are shallow and uneven so I pull her close to my chest so she I can try and get her to mimic my breathing.
"In…out…in…out" I whisper into her ear until eventually her breathing has returned to normal but she's still shivering a little. She pulls back from me and it's now that I realize why she's still shivering; she's covered in slushie from head to toe. I've told Figgins numerous time to get rid of those damn machines! Looks like I'll have to do it myself. But I'll worry about that later for now all I care about is getting my daughter taken care of.
"Thank you." She tells me exhaustion taking over her features.
"Quinn can you tell Will that I'm going to take Rach home." Quinn nods before running off to tell Will. I walk Rachel and I to the car and see Will walking over to us as well. He looks at me for an explanation as to what happened to our daughter I let him know we'll talk about it once we get home.
Rachel's POV:
When we get home Shelby tells me to take a shower and just try and relax for the rest of the day. I thank her one more time for getting me out; which she just replies with a no thanks is necessary and you're my daughter I'd do everything in my power to make sure you were safe. As I'm changing into some more comfortable clothes after my shower I think back to the fact that I called Shelby mama, I don't know why I did it just felt right (and if I'm being honest it felt nice to finally be able to call someone my mom.) And then when she hugged me after I got out I didn't want to let go; I felt safe like nothing could hurt me as long as I was in her arms.
"Rachel! Rachel where are you?" I hear my mom's voice call out for me.
I look around but I don't see her anywhere all I can see is trees and bushes where is she?
"Mommy? I where are you mommy? I can't see you!" I call out to her waiting for an answer.
"Rachel! My little sunshine please come out so mommy can find you."
"Mommy! here I am! I'm coming mommy, wait for me I'm coming!" I start running to where I think she's calling from going as fast as my little eight-year old legs can take me. Suddenly the trees and bushes are gone and I'm inside a small dark closet. I see the door is just about to close so I run towards it but its too late I'm locked in. I start to pound on the door.
"Rachel, sunshine where are you?" I can hear that my mom is just outside the door so I start to knock on the door harder and scream as loud as I can for her.
"mommy! In here I'm in here! Mommy! Mommy open the door I'm in here!"
Finally the door is opened and I jump into my moms open arms hugging her as tight as I can; as she starts to rock me back and forth while humming a lullaby.
"Mama, you saved me."
"I'll always be here to save you Rachel." As she says that I feel the atmosphere in the room change, it feels darker, colder, threatening.
"Mama I'm scared." I tell Shelby as I try to hide myself further in her embrace, but something's different about her. Why did she stop humming? Why isn't she rocking and comforting me?
"Mama?" I ask as I pull back a little to look up at her. But my mother is no longer holding me. It's a man but he looks more like a monster with that evil grin on his face. He looks familiar but I'm too freaked out to try and figure out who he is.
"Let me go! You're not my mama! Let me go!" I yell as try to wiggle my way out of this monster's arms.
"Jennifer what have I told you before! You're my mine and no one else's! You don't have a mother she doesn't care about you. But I do."
"No you're lying! My mommy will always save me she will! Mommy! Mama save me! Mama!" I scream out I wait a couple seconds for a response but it doesn't come.
"I told you, you're mother doesn't care and she never will! You're mine and you'll never escape me I'll always find you."
"No! Mommy! Mommy!"
I'm jolted out of my dream quickly turned nightmare by the ringing of my cell phone. I take a few seconds to calm myself before I answer it.
"H-Hello?" I say my voice still a bit shaky.
"Hey there Pumpkin." That voice, I know that voice it was the one from my nightmare the voice of the monster I had just escaped I take a deep breath before responding.
"Dad?"
A/N#2: Hey long time no see anyways sorry for the majorly long wait! i hope i didn't lose any readers for making you wait so long :( oh and hello to all my new readers thank you to all everyone for reviewing(i was so happy when you guys got me past 50 reviews! that was a major milestone for me!) favoriting and alerting! this chapter changed quite a bit on me! Anyways what did you think? Any questions? comments? are you confused? please let me know by reviewing!
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