Fly… - Chapter 13 – Finding the truth…

Meanwhile back at Cheer Town…

Savannah was sitting on her bed waiting for Marti to come back to the room. She didn't know what happened after she left the gym and she didn't really care. All Marti had to do was just be quiet. Just be quiet, let Alice run the team and they could go back to working on their relationship.

Marti did the exact opposite and started World War Three right in the middle of the gym. Savannah stared at Marti's side of the bedroom. She didn't understand any of this anymore. She had fallen in love with this amazing girl and now her entire world was upside down. And she was having a very hard time seeing the good side in this situation.

She was actually starting to feel like maybe she would be better off if she just ended things. Savannah flopped back onto her bed and dismissed the thought. Even though to her surprise, she found the idea strangely comforting. She would be free. Free of all of the problems that would come with being in a relationship with a girl. She could get her world back together and everything would be normal. Because normal is exactly what she needed. Since the day Marti came into her life, nothing had been normal. It was almost like she was having a dream that slowly turned into a nightmare.

Was this her punishment for loving a woman; to have her life slowly fall apart and not be able to stop it? Savannah knew that these thoughts that were dancing through her head were just that, thoughts. How was she supposed to keep things together for her and Marti when she felt like she was falling apart? This was so confusing. She wanted to be with Marti and yet it was starting to feel like the only way that either of them could survive any of this…

"We would have to break up…"

Savannah got all the way onto her bed. She didn't know what was right anymore. Could she even do it? They had just gotten back together only 48 hours ago and now ending the relationship seemed like the only option.

"Damn. So you and Savannah?" Lewis asked.

He had just spent the last 45 minutes listening to Marti's story. They had been through a lot considering they had only been together for a month or so. He could hear the love in Marti's voice when she talked about Savannah. He could also hear the doubt in her voice.

"Yep…me and Savannah…I don't even know how it happened but it did." Marti just kept staring at the ground. Talking to Lewis was definitely a welcomed change from her constant inner monologue. At least she was getting it all out.

"That's good thing, right?" Lewis asked.

"Yeah…but I don't know anymore. I mean I love her. I really do love that woman but I can't see how this is going to work. We got back together so quickly and we didn't fix anything. And now…" Marti paused for a second.

"Now, you think you shouldn't have gotten back together with her." Lewis said.

Marti leaned back on the bench. She finally heard the words that had been bouncing around in her head. She thought they would sound scarier but she found in comfort in knowing that someone saw things from her side.

"Pretty much. And I feel guilty because I let my anger get the best of me. Now Savannah gave up the squad and her beliefs just to be with me and I want to break up with her. What kind of bitch does that?" Marti asked.

"You aren't a bitch." Lewis said reassuringly.

"I feel like it." Marti sighed.

"Look, Marti, sometimes, people can't work shit out. Maybe you just need to take a minute. Try and figure out if this is really what you want." Lewis said. He got up from the bench and stood in front the blonde.

"But what if she wants something different?" Marti asked.

"You need to do what is right for you, Marti. That's all there is to it." Lewis answered.

"Thanks, Lewis. I mean it."

"Anytime."

"Can I come in?"

Savannah sat up from her spot on the bed and looked towards the doorway. There she was. Even though she had spent the majority of the afternoon being upset with her, once she saw the beautiful blonde cheerleader standing there, her anger just seemed to fade away. No matter how strained things were between them, it didn't matter at that moment. Savannah couldn't help but stare at the woman who standing in front of her. She had on her trademark leather jacket which always seemed to be with her and her favorite black pair of track pants. Her hair had lost some of its trademark curl but still looked amazing.

"Yeah…" Savannah said with a smile.

Marti came into the room and pushed the door closed behind her. There she was. Marti leaned against the door. She had spent most the day thinking about the consequences of staying with her, worrying about every single choice that she had made and looking for a reason to hold on to this relationship. Then she saw Savannah sitting on her bed, with her hair pulled into a ponytail with a few strands of her brunette hair hanging in her face, wearing a Lancer t-shirt with the neck cut out of it so that it would hang from her shoulder and those boy shorts that made her legs look even longer than they already are.

"God…" Marti whispered.

"What is it?" Savannah asked even though she knew what Marti was going. It was the same thing she was about to say to her.

"You are so beautiful, Savannah." Marti smiled.

"I love it when you say that. You have no idea how I much I love it." Savannah confessed.

"It's true. Every time I see you, I can't believe that you are real." Marti said.

"I am real…you know that…" Savannah said.

"I know…"

There was still strange feeling hanging in the air as Marti looked into her girlfriend's eyes. all day she had been thinking about things would be easier for the both of them if they broke up. That if she walked away from Savannah, everything would go back to normal for the brunette. She could get the team back from Alice, she wouldn't have to tell her super Christian parents about her being in relationship with a woman and she would have to sacrifice anything else to be with her. But as she leaned against the door in the place that they called their Sanctuary, Marti Perkins realized something. The answer to the question that Lewis had asked her while they sat on the bench.

Savannah didn't break her eye contact with Marti. Since that day in the car, she had been asking herself about how being in love with a woman would affect her world. How it went against everything she was brought up to believe in and how much it scared her. She was willing to give up everything just to be with Marti and nothing else in her life had ever made her feel that way. And that scared the hell out of her. Maybe her life would be easier without Marti. She wouldn't have anything to worry about. She could go back to way her life used to be. Her world wouldn't be upside down anymore.

"How did we get here, Savannah?" Marti asked.

"I don't know…" Savannah paused for a moment and leaned against the headboard.

"Ever since that day in the car, I have been scared of you." Savannah said.

"Like how?" Marti asked.

"I have been scared of how much I love you. I have never met anyone that has made me feel like this. I would do anything for you." Savannah looked down at her fingers and started playing with them.

"And that scares me. That you would give up the team and your family just to be with me. You shouldn't have to do that. I didn't want you to do that." Marti said.

"It was my choice. Mine. Being with you is the only thing that matters to me. And the only reason I gave up the team was we could come out on our own time. Not because some jerk came barging into our room. That is for you and me to decide when that happens. I just wanted to protect you…" Savannah just kept looking down at her hands.

"And I just wanted you. I am not scared to come out and I am not scared of Alice. I just didn't understand why you did it…I just didn't want to have you resent me. What if you end up hating me? What if you gave up the team for someone who doesn't deserve you?" Marti could feel a tear rolling down her cheek. She quickly wiped it away and tried to calm herself down.

"Marti…" Savannah looked up at her girlfriend.

"I told you…I feel like I don't deserve you. Even after you told me, even after you told that I was special and that you loved me, I still felt like I didn't belong with you…But then you said you would never leave me…" Marti took a second to gather her thoughts. She was trying to keep herself from crying but she could feel the tears building up. The blonde took another slow calming breath.

"And when I needed you, you bailed. You left me to fight Alice. I was fighting for us and you didn't even stay…"

"You were fighting for you. I had made a deal with her and it was over but you couldn't just leave it alone. You think that standing up to Alice is the reason I left…" Savannah started to say but then something changed. She looked at Marti and knew that they would get anywhere this way. Marti was doing what she always did, fighting for what she believed in. She couldn't hold on to the anger anymore. Savannah took a deep breath and spoke

"Thank you for doing that. And I'm sorry I didn't have your back. I was angry and I should've stayed with you. Because that is what girlfriends are supposed to do."

"Really?" Marti asked.

"Yeah. I didn't mean to let you down…" Savannah answered.

"Well I'm sorry I tried to kill Alice…" Marti said with a laugh.

"Did you win at least?" Savannah asked.

"The team broke it up pretty quickly. Alice did get a shot in. She's stronger than she looks." Marti laughed and so did Savannah. The girls made eye contact once more. At least they could still talk to each other. The tension that had looming between them had finally faded away.

"So where does that leave us?" Savannah asked. She watched Marti turn the lock on the door, take her coat off, and sit down on the bed in front of her.

"I have spent all day being mad and trying to figure that out...part of me wanted to end this. Just walk away from all of this. That way you would have to give up the team" Marti said.

"Me too…" Savannah admitted.

"Earlier Lewis asked me a question. He asked me if this was worth it."

"And what do you think?" Savannah asked.

"I think…no. I know. I know I want to be with you." Marti took a deep breath and held her hand out for the brunette sitting in front of her.

Savannah looked at Marti's hand and then back into the blonde's eyes. This had gone on long enough. She loved Marti. She loved every single stubborn inch of the woman sitting on her bed. And there was only one thing that Savannah wanted to do.

Marti watched as Savannah moved in closer to her. Her heart was pounding away in her ears, her senses felt completely overwhelmed in this moment. She took a deep breath again, trying to calm herself down. Then she felt Savannah's hand on the back of her neck.

"What are you doing?" Marti asked.

"Flying…" Savannah whispered.

And then she kissed her.

To be continued…