I know that there is a Pezberry pairing written in my summary but I may have to remind you all that Santana will begin to appear on the 6th or 7th chapter. Anyway, have a nice morning/evening. Please review.
"Little Rae, will you please talk to me?" Holly begged Rachel again for the nth time during their ride home but Rachel, being the stubborn kid as always, refuses to talk to her.
But Rachel has every right to be mad, right? What Holly did to her was disappointing. Considering it was the first time they saw each other after two months. Four hours ago, she thought that she will be home with a wide grin on her face while telling her parents that she won their game of Dance Revolution, that Holly never learned its techniques. But no. What happened was a total opposite of what she was expecting.
True, Quinn had made her feel good tonight. But Holly was supposed to do that. Holly owes her too much, right? Holly should have acted really responsible because of the fact that she freaking agreed to her plan in the first place. Holly should have at least stayed by her side, right? But she didn't. She didn't make an effort to look for Rachel once she realized she was not with her anymore. "What a stupid aunt." Rachel thought.
But on second thought, Rachel should have at least gripped Holly's arms when they came in, right? But she didn't, because she was busy absorbing the sight she was seeing. It was also her fault, after all. Besides, If not for Holly ditching her, she wouldn't have met Quinn.
Quinn.
There's just something about Quinn that she can't quite figure out. This something is more than just her soft blonde hair and her mesmerizing hazel eyes and the perfect lips. She may be young, but she can say that she can see right through Quinn. It's like their feelings are connected, except their feelings have different concepts.
Quinn is sad. She can feel it. And she confirmed it to herself when Quinn told her that her girlfriend Brittany had ditched her. If she was Brittany, she would never do that. She would never choose to hang out with her peers over Quinn. Quinn is an amazing person to hang out with. She doesn't run out of words, words that may seem funny but make sense. She wonders what it would be like if she had all of Quinn's attentions. It might probably seem like heaven.
But Quinn is obviously in love with her girlfriend, and is hurting at the same time. How can Brittany do that to her? Quinn is like the most awesome person she had ever met. Everything about her screams angel. That's why she never even doubt Quinn when the girl approached her. She might have pushed her away a little but it is not because she did not trust Quinn, it's because of her fear of her father.
At the end of the night, Rachel realized that she is in fact feeling something for someone. This feeling she had never felt before towards anyone. At first she thought she was just being friendly. But when she recalled all of her interactions with her friends, male or female, she learned that she had never in fact felt that way over them the way she feels for Quinn. Even when she's talking to Tina, she does not feel her face flush or her stomach twist. Only Quinn had that effect on her.
And now she's terrified on the idea that she might be a lesbian. Her parents raised her making her aware of the different types of sin, and being a member of third sex is included to her parent's sins list. But of course, she had never believed that concept.
If her family does not give a second chance, why won't she? A real Catholic gives every people a chance to explain themselves, right? If she does not give a chance, she is a selfish bitch, and that will make her a sinner. Which is why she had always been open- minded.
While it is true that the thought of liking Quinn makes her scared, she figured that she has to give herself a chance to explore her feelings. She must not label herself for now because she just met Quinn. Maybe that's just how it feels like when a teenager is engaged with an actual but not so serious conversation with an adult. If she likes Quinn, maybe it is just because she appreciates everything that Quinn has, but that doesn't mean that she likes, likes her, right? But either way, she has to give herself a chance.
Oh! Speaking of chances, there is one more person that she has to give a chance.
"What were you saying?" she asked Holly trying to sound sorry instead of sarcastic. She is still pissed about her but she knows that she can't last long being mad at her.
"I said I'm sorry I did not even look for you." Holly said. She really is sorry. It is evident in her voice and her face looks defeated and she noticed that her eyes were red. It looks like she had been crying even before she saw her with Quinn, but she kept that thought for now, she has to focus on their real argument.
"No, you actually looked for me. Except that you look for me when it's time to go home already. But you were not there the whole time. Can you even imagine what could happen to me if Quinn weren't there?" she said trying so hard not to sound so soft even though she noticed that Holly's face fell even more.
"I'm so sorry, Rae. I really am. I have to confess something.. I- I did flake on you on purpose. I know this will make it a lot worse but I—"
"What the hell, Aunt Holly?! How could you—how could you.. do you not care about me anymore? You have changed! I thought you were the same. I thought we were the same! You don't even care about me anymore!" she said acting so childish. When she can't control her emotions anymore, she cried. She cried like a baby.
"I care about you, Rae. It's just that—"
"No, you don't! All you care about now is yourself and your fucking boyfriend! You are the worst aunt in the whole world! You are not responsible! You are—"
"We broke up!" Holly screamed at her. She was startled. Her mouth hang open after hearing what Holly had said to her. She was shocked and sorry at the same time. Holly gripped the steering wheel tighter. She stops the car for a while in the corner of the street and cried. Holly had never screamed at her ever in her entire life. Rachel felt sympathy ran all over her being. She instantly got Holly's hands and then she hugged her. Holly cried even harder on her shoulders.
"I am so sorry, Aunt Holly. I should have never said that. I should have let you explain first." Rachel said in a very, very low voice.
"We- we broke up, Lit- Little Rae. He's gone.. Your aunt's really- really broken right.. now.." Holly states between sobs.
"What happened, aunt? Why is it so sudden? When we got there you were really excited." Rachel kissed her aunt's forehead and helped her wipe the tears off her face. She waited patiently for Holly to explain until she relaxed. And when she did, she braced herself.
"I was. I thought it's gonna be our second chance, you know? After everything that we've been through, I thought we're gonna be fine finally.." Holly explained, trying so hard to resist herself from crying and breaking in front of her niece.
Rachel never said anything. She just waited for Holly to collect herself. But she was so close to hugging Holly again.
"But he got mad when we were taking so long, so I rushed to where he was. When I saw him, I knew something was up but he did not bring that up immediately. We had some small talks and he made me laugh, then I got your message. But he stopped me from looking for you because he said he has to say something important." Holly looked at her expectantly, as if trying to imply her reasons of ditching Rachel.
Rachel just nodded in understanding. "Yes. I understand.."
"So I said what's up. And then it happened. He broke up with me. He said that he can't do 'this' anymore. He said- he said he's tired of being away from me and fighting for nothing." Rachel couldn't take it anymore. She enveloped Holly again in a very tight embrace for few minutes before pulling back, because she felt that Holly still has something to say.
Holly cried again this time when the events from earlier hit her again. "I- I never got a chance to say something because he already turned around. I couldn't move. I couldn't even talk. Then- then he went back to me and hugged me one last time. He said goodbye and told me he- he was leaving.. he was going to Spain and may not be coming back. Then he left me.. all alone." As Holly finished talking, she also wiped away her tears and hugged Rachel and whispered "Thank you."
"Well- Well, that explains it all.." Rachel stopped when she realized what she was saying. Seriously? That's what she's going to say after Holly opened her heart to her? "I- I mean, I'm sorry about that. I.. really don't know what to say." She said out of embarrassment.
"It's okay, Little Rae. I felt relieved actually when I saw you. You're my favorite person, you know that right?" she nodded. Holly pinched her cheek, now smiling. "Someday, you will understand the complexity of love. I just hope that you get the good side."
She nodded in response, returning a genuine smile to Holly. "It's okay, aunt Holly. He does not deserve you. He's an idiot for letting you go. He's a coward. And a woman should not be with a coward."
"I know, Little Rae, I know. Thank you." Holly told her.
"If he's strong like Quinn, he deserves you, but he's not." She stated. Completely oblivious of what she was saying.
Holly just smiled. Realizing that her niece had developed an attraction. Her other goal for tonight- which is to introduce Rachel to the trends- has gone successful. But of course, she kept her mouth shut for now. She does not want to freak Rachel out. But she will observe. Quinn is not bad at all. But being with a young girl like Rachel is probably not the best idea, for now.
"Let's go home now, shall we? We still have 20 minutes before our curfew. Otherwise, your dad will kill us." Holly said playfully. Releasing the sad atmosphere.
"Oh, please. He will never kill his favorite girls." Rachel grinned widely.
Holly shook her head while chuckling until they reached their home at 10:58.
Rachel woke up that Saturday feeling a little bit worn out. Too much had happened yesterday. And the thought of writing all of it in her diary makes her feel not to write it at all. But of course, she will. Maybe she'll just have to summarize it.
She went downstairs spotting Holly cooking breakfast, but her parents were gone to work already.
"Good morning, sweet girl. Are you hungry?" Holly greeted her sweetly without a slight evidence of sadness. It's like nothing had happened last night.
"Yes! But I am feeling so tired, I don't know why." She hopped excitedly to the dining table when she saw her favorite chocolate chip pancakes and a hot Milo waiting for her in the dining table.
"Well, what do you think about having a massage today then play Dance Revo afterwards?" Holly asked her as if playing Dance Revo is not really a big deal for her.
She almost choked when she heard what Holly said. Because of her excitement to respond, she swallowed her pancake immediately then screamed. "Yes! Get your ass ready to get beaten! And you will have to treat me lunch if you lose!"
"But what if I win?"
"I know you'll still treat me because you will feel guilty." Rachel did not even wait for Holly to answer because she immediately ran upstairs to her room to get ready for some fun adventures today. Homework can wait.
Holly just shook her head.
She stopped drying her hair for a while when she hears her phone ringing. She went to her bed and answered her phone without looking at the caller ID.
"Hi! This is Rachel Berry. How was your day so far?"
"You're enthusiastic even on phone." The voice answered from the other line. Even if she can't see the voice's owner, she can picture that the owner was smiling. And she can't forget that the owner is Quinn.
"Oh, hello, Quinn. How are you today?" She forgot to save the girl's number last night because when they got home she headed straight to her room and slept.
"I'm feeling good, Rach. How about you?" she felt butterflies on her stomach when she heard Quinn's signature nickname of hers.
"The same."
"Well, I was wondering if I could, maybe, get your address?" Quinn asked confidently. Is that the good thing about adults? They can always manage to be confident? Because if she was Quinn, she might stutter asking for the girl's address.
"Y- yeah! Sure! I'll text it to you. But.. why?"
"I just want to hang out. Don't you miss me?" Quinn asked her playfully.
"Well.. actually—actually, uhm." She can't even form a sentence right now. Why was she acting this way again?
Quinn laughed at her on the other line. "You're so funny, Rach. Well, I have to go now. Text me your address, okay? I miss you! Bye!" Before she can even answer, Quinn already hang up. When Quinn was not on the other line anymore, she immediately typed her address and sent it to Quinn. And of course, she saved her number.
About an hour later, she went downstairs noticing that Holly was ready to go already and was just waiting for her. When she was about to approach Holly, the doorbell rang. Holly stood up and open the door while she went to the kitchen to drink some water.
"Oh, hello, Quinn! I actually don't expect you here! No offense." She heard Holly say from the living room.
Uhm. Okay, what? She almost dropped her glass when she realized who the visitor was. She immediately went back to the living room and was extremely shocked when she saw Quinn talking to Holly as if they were friends for too long.
"Little Rae, you have a visitor right here." Holly said while she guides Quinn to the couch. She also noticed how Quinn chuckled slightly when she heard Holly's nickname for Rachel. "Want something to drink, Quinn?" Quinn just shook her head.
"OMG, what are you doing here?" Rachel finally recovered from her shock a while ago.
"Visiting you. I actually want to hang out with you today but I can see that you two have other plans so.." Quinn also shot a look to Holly while she left her sentence hanging.
Holly immediately got what she was trying to say. "Oh! Oh no!No, no. You may join us if you want to. It's not like today is limited for us, right Rae?" Holly turned to face Rachel.
Rachel immediately removed her stare from Quinn and faced Holly too. "Y- yeah!". When she realized that her response came out wrong, she pulled a much more confident sentence. "Yes! Aunt and I are gonna have a massage then we'll play Dance Revo afterwards."
Quinn laughed in surprise. "Dance Revo? The one in Timezone?"
"Yes. Rae and I love having a battle. But she wins all the time. Maybe you could try that too." Holly said.
"Oh, no, I think I'll just watch you two. I will just embarrass myself in front of many teenagers if I play."
"Rae is a good teacher! She can teach you! You look like a fast- learner after all." Holly answered. Rachel nodded along.
"Well, okay. Yes, sure. Why not?" Quinn answered excitedly.
"Okay! Let's go! Quinn, do you wanna ride with us or you're gonna use your car?" Holly asked.
"Oh, can I just park my car here?"
"No problem. You guys can wait for me outside. I'll just get the key upstairs."
Once Holly was out of sight, Quinn approached a suddenly quiet Rachel. "Rach, is something wrong?" she asked worriedly.
Rachel seemed startled by this. "No! Nothing's wrong, Quinn. I was just surprised is all."
"Well, you love surprises, don't you?" Quinn offered her hand for Rachel to take- which she gladly took- then led her outside to wait for Holly.
Quinn can swear to every God of Romans that she will never, ever play Dance Revo again, at least, with Rachel or Holly. These two are the goddesses of the game. How can they even manage to follow the direction's arrow shown on the monitor, just by using their feet? In addition, they don't even look at their feet, they stare straight in the monitor memorizing the arrows, yet they don't stumble.
When Quinn started to play, her monitor kept on screaming "Error" or "Wrong Move" so she passed her game to Holly who played well but was eventually lost by Rachel.
They spent 2 hours in Dance Revo, though she only got to play twice because she doesn't want to embarrass herself further. But she actually enjoyed watching the two argue about the bet they made. Obviously, Rachel won the game. Rachel has luck when it comes to bets. She instantly laughed when she saw both girl's appearance once they finished playing. Messy hair, sweats all over their bodies- which is hot by the way- and a very flushed body. The two excused themselves for bathroom to change their sweaty clothes then came back to her and the decided to eat Thai foods for lunch.
Brittany did not even call her that day, but it's okay.
On Sunday, Quinn went with Rachel to the church. Rachel's excuse to her parents is that she was going to church with a friend, which is not exactly a lie because Quinn is a friend, right?
Her parents agreed. It was strange. But she figured that her parents attended the Saturday mass while they were out. It's okay. At least she will never cross paths with them in the church.
Nothing interesting happened that day. She and Quinn stayed silent throughout the mass, but it was a comfortable silence.
A whole week passed by and Tina noticed her sudden change in attitude. She never went to school scowling again, instead, it was substituted by a smile. Tina asked her about it and she answered with "It was just really nice having Aunt Holly back." Tina didn't ask further.
She and Quinn continued texting whenever they're free. They were actually enjoying each other's presence. And she was sure that she's having a new best friend. No, scratch that. Tina is her best friend, but Quinn is special.
When Saturday rolled by, Quinn called her and told her that she will pick Rachel up so they can hang out in the park. Unfortunately, Holly can't join them because she has to go to university to fix some papers, whatever. She asked her parent's permission before agreeing to Quinn and she was glad that they allow her. "Maybe Holly talked to them." Her parents are being impossibly better. But she was not complaining at all.
After texting Quinn to assure her, she heard the doorbell rang and she immediately kissed her parents before going out of the house.
"Wow, you look good today." Quinn greeted her with a smile and guide her to her bicycle.
"Just today?" she asked playfully.
"Sorry, my bad. What I mean is, you look good as always."
She blushed at that, then she finally took notice of the bicycle that Quinn brought.
"You rode a bicycle all the way here?" She asked amused.
"Well yeah. I forgot to tell you that we're just a subdivision away from each other." Quinn chuckled.
"Oh. I'm guessing I'll walk us to the park?" she said realizing that there's only one bicycle available, and she doesn't even own one because she don't know how to drive it.
"Are you kidding me? Of course not! You'll ride with me." Quinn settled herself on the bicycle then she pats the spot in front of her. "You sit here, Rach. Then I'll drive us to the park."
"Are you serious?"
"Why wouldn't I be? Now come on, I'll show you to my favorite tree. And then I'll teach you to ride this thing when we got there, okay?" Quinn pats the area again gesturing Rachel to sit and Rachel obliged this time.
It felt so different and intimate in her position. Imagine Quinn's legs rubbing between her waist while Quinn tramps the bicycle. No, she has to stop what she was thinking. That was really inappropriate. Quinn might not feel something about her, though. Except as a little sister.
When they got there, Quinn taught her how to ride a bicycle, as promised. But she was a slow learner when it comes to that. She keeps on losing her track. Luckily, Quinn was always there to guide her and catch her when she was about to fall.
When she said that she gives up, Quinn just told her "Don't worry, Rach. Those are the baby steps."
She was amused by the favorite mango tree of Quinn. It has many ripe mangoes already. She asked Quinn if she can climb up a tree, and Quinn said yes.
"Seriously? But you look so feminine." Rachel was shocked, as always.
"What? So a feminine can't climb a tree?"
"Now I know that some can." Rachel winked at Quinn. Then Quinn climbed the tree and picked some ripe mangoes. She tossed every ripe fruit she gets down to Rachel who's willing to catch the fruit anytime.
Quinn went down the tree when she has already picked seven. That would be enough for them.
"This is one of the reasons why I love this tree." Quinn said while taking a bite from the mango.
"I'll agree you with that. I love the contrast of sweet and sour of the fruit." Rachel swears she could hang out here all the time.
They fell in a comfortable silence just sitting under the carpet they brought and lying their back on the tree and just watching the birds fly and hear them chirp. It was a very good view. So peaceful. Especially with Quinn. She can't help herself but stare at the blonde beauty beside her, who is now taking pictures of the birds.
"You're so beautiful, I could look at you forever." She blushed immediately when she realized what she had just said.
Quinn stopped taking pictures then turns her attention to Rachel. She held Rachel's chin and brought the brunette's eyes to hers, then she steadied the angle of Rachel's face.
"What are you doing?" Rachel asked.
"Taking a picture of you. Don't move. Smile." She smiled shyly at the camera.
Quinn took a moment to look at Rachel's shot.
"You're beautiful, too, Rach, I'm lucky that I have given the opportunity to just look at you." Quinn said sincerely.
Her mouth hang open. Wow. That seems different. But no. She must not put meaning to that. Just.. impossible. Quinn is just hurting, but Brittany's still with her, no matter what.
The loud thunder stopped her train of thoughts. She was startled at first but then Quinn got up and helped her get up, too.
"You may stay at my place for a while until the rain fades. What do you think?" Quinn smiled genuinely.
She nodded. "That was a great idea. But I just think that you need to drive really fast, though."
Quinn just chuckled in response. "Trust me."
Once they got inside Quinn's house, she immediately sat on her couch. It was tempting. It was really soft, she just wants to lay her back there forever.
She and Quinn talked until the rain fades. They played Scrabble for a while but there was a loud knock on the door that startled them both. Quinn stood up to answer the door and she heard the girl gasp in surprise.
"Babe! I wasn't expecting you here." She instantly looked up to see the girl. And all she can say is wow.
That girl who is now walking with Quinn to the living room is the second most gorgeous girl she had ever seen. Quinn is the first of course. She must be Brittany, because of Quinn's term of endearment. Brittany is a tall, blonde, and a really sexy woman. She looks very intimidating and professional.
"I know. And I'm sorry. But I really missed you, babe. I didn't even care about the weather." Brittany kissed Quinn, not noticing Rachel obviously. Rachel looked away immediately.
"I really miss you too. I'm so glad you're here." Quinn is smiling really wide and really lovingly. Wow. She must be so inlove with Brittany. But who wouldn't?
"I am, too." She looked at Quinn lovingly then kissed her again. Then she noticed Rachel. "Oh, who's this little girl right here? Is she your younger cousin? She looks so cute." Brittany pinched Rachel's cheek adorably, completely unaware of the relationship of the two.
"Oh, she's my friend. I met her at the.. at the , at the park." Quinn replied nervously.
"Oh, is that right? Well, uhm, little girl, do you mind going home now? Your parents must be looking for you. I'd like to have my girl alone for tonight. You see, we haven't seen each other for weeks—"
"No! It's okay! It's really fine. It's getting really late anyways. I'll go home now. Bye Quinn!" She immediately got up from the couch and sped up to the door. She swears she just want the ground to swallow her whole. When she was already outside, she felt that Quinn was running after her. Quinn stopped her by the wrist.
"What?!" she asked unable to hide the annoyance and jealousy in her voice.
"I'm so sorry."
"She's kind of mean."
"I'm sorry. But don't say things like that about her. You don't know her."
"I did. Because you told me. And judging from the things you told me, she's not good enough for you."
"Stop!" Quinn shouted. It's like the heaven heard her because the rain started pouring again.
"No! She hurt you, Quinn. She's not really happy being here.
"I said, stop!"
"I'm sorry. It's just that she's really—"
"You have no right to say those things. It's not like you're my new girlfriend!"
She was taken aback with that. With Quinn's look that moment, with the emphasis in her words, with anger all over her. No, she's had enough for tonight.
"Yeah, you're right. I- I never even thought about that. Why did you even think that?" she said, thankful that it was raining because it washes away her tears.
With that, she walked away letting the rain swallow her and her emotions.
