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Quinn was already very desperate to see Rachel already and explain everything to her and apologize until Rachel tells her to stop apologizing. But Holly did not let her in and now she's at her apartment wondering what else to do. She thought about studying her lessons, but with everything that has happened today, she doubt if she'll ever remember the words.

It was two hours ago since she texted Rachel but still no response from the teenager. She even thought about ringing Rachel's phone but she figured that she may be sleeping and resting still, and she does not want to disturb her. She owes Rachel that much. And she does not want to cause her any harm, again.

Because she has nothing else to do, she thought about going back to the park just to inhale fresh air. She went to her room and got her camera and to her garage to start her motorbike then she went to the park.

Just by seeing this park makes Quinn feel really peaceful and contented with her life. People don't hang out in this park that much because it was not like the ordinary park. It doesn't have swings in it. It was just grassy, with some trees, and benches. Not many people actually go here especially at night. It was just creepy.

She set her camera on night mode and took few pictures of everything she sees. Trees, benches, more trees, and the neighborhood near the park. When she was browsing the pictures she took, she saw Rachel's pictures also on the same spot that she took just yesterday. It was strange how things happened so quickly in just a span of 24 hours. But only God knows, right?

She zoomed to every part of Rachel's face. Starting from her brown eyes that can take a person's pain all away just by looking at them. Rachel's eyes are so adorable and sweet, unlike Brittany's. She used to love Brittany's eyes back then. She used to melt into those ocean blue eyes. But now she realized that her eyes were so fierce and uninviting and intimidating, clearly the opposite of Rachel's.

Then she scrolled until she reached Rachel's nose. It was cute. It was beautiful. She does not understand why Rachel keeps on saying negative things about her nose. Like it's huge and gross. She told Rachel that time that her nose is just perfect, and she means it. If anybody told her Rachel got the worst nose, she's seriously going to punch them in the face.

Then finally, she scrolled down to Rachel's lips. And what she saw is just.. perfection. She had a very amazing, gorgeous, beautiful, and kissable lips. It was really red. She has already noticed Rachel's lips when they hang out with Holly and played Dance Revolution. Rachel wears a cherry chapstick that time. And it made her lips more noticeable. The chapstick gave emphasis to her lips, and Quinn swears she had been staring at Rachel's lips that time while they were eating Thai food. She just realized it now. She covers her face because of embarrassment even if no one is really around to notice her.

Seriously, Rachel isn't aware of how beautiful she was. Rachel is a very respectable woman. She may be childish at times but if someone gets to know her like she does, they will realize that Rachel is in fact, very intelligent and special. She knows a lot of things even if she had no experience about it at all. Rachel told her she loves researching, she found that adorable.

Suddenly, she accidentally pressed a button on her camera that brought her to the very first picture she had there. And of course, it was Brittany, smiling sweetly to the camera while waiting for subway. It was taken two years ago, when Brittany was a senior in college.

She zoomed Brittany's face. Nothing has changed with the way she appreciates Brittany's face. She still finds her beautiful. But it does not make her excited anymore. It was just a plain beautiful picture, nothing else.

She cannot help the tear that dropped from her eyes when another photo filled the screen. It was another picture of Brittany holding a bouquet of yellow tulips. It was one of Brittany's presents to her during their third year anniversary. Also taken two years ago. She was 21 back then and Brittany was 23 years old. Brittany was older than her but they were batch mates. Brittany stopped school for a year when she was bullied at her own high school. A year later, she transferred to Quinn's school and the rest is history.

History. They are just a history anymore. She thought back of how she and Brittany used to be happy together. She brought herself back to that date where Brittany gave her that Tulips and told her how much she loves her and always will be. She was so happy back then. If she will go back, she would have never thought that things between them will end up this way.

And she's thankful that it didn't hurt the way it's supposed to be. She's thankful for having Rachel around.

Can they survive this journey that they were about to take? This is new. This is also too risky. There are many reasons for them not to be together. But Quinn believes that their strong feelings to each other will help them survive. Besides, they were not doing anything wrong. They can keep it a secret for a while, wait for three more years until Rachel turns 18. Three years is not that long, right? She can wait. She does not want to be like Brittany. She will never lose time for Rachel. And even if she becomes successful, she will make sure that she will still be the same way she was when she met Rachel.

She promised herself to finish her course so she and Rachel can have a good future. So that she can prove Brittany wrong. And so that she will deserve Rachel.

She's ready to risk for anything. That is, if Rachel is. But she still hasn't heard from the girl until now. She's starting to worry that Rachel might not want to talk to her anymore. That cannot happen. They had to talk.

And if Rachel does not want to anymore, she has one more way to persuade her.

She will court her.

Quinn was surprised to see Brittany comfortably resting on her balcony sipping a wine while waiting for her. She looks so relaxed like nothing happened between them that morning. She still looks sophisticated. She wonders how she managed to last being with the new Brittany, because today, just by seeing her, makes her want to throw up.

She forgot that Brittany has the key to her apartment. She might have to change her door knob tomorrow.

Brittany instantly stood up once she noticed Quinn entering the door. She stood up with so much finesse while Quinn just looked like a normal person with normal clothes on.

Brittany immediately kissed Quinn, passionately this time. Quinn, even though she was shocked, cannot help but close her eyes to feel the sensation.

And she realized one thing, it was not the same anymore. It was not what she was looking for. It was not what she was imagining when she was at the park. Brittany's lips may be soft, but it was not pouty like Rachel's.

She immediately pushed Brittany away and went to the kitchen to drink water. She felt the urge to wipe her lips but she does not want to hurt or offend Brittany. She wants things to end up well between them.

"What are you doing here, Brittany? I thought we were already clear earlier. We're done." She stated with so much coldness in her voice.

Brittany chuckled again. And that chuckle makes her want to cover her ears. "And you think I believed you? Come on, Quinn. I know what I said were mean but you know I love you. And you love me. You can't just throw that away so easily." Brittany said with seriousness on her face. She managed to keep her tone down this time.

"You know what, Britt, sometimes I wonder how you became a Psychologist."

Brittany did not expect Quinn to answer her that way. Did she hear Quinn right? Is Quinn seriously talking to her sarcastically? "Excuse me?"

"How did you even become a Psychologist? Because seriously, you're kind of mean. And after all these months, you did not even bother to deal with my emotions, and also yours. You think highly of yourself. You're so mean to others, except your patients. And even you can't manage your own emotions, Britt. You are so selfish." Quinn said bitterly.

"Quinn.. my patients are different." Brittany stated flatly.

"It doesn't matter. I pity your patients. All they see is a very welcoming, understanding, forgiving, and humble Brittany- the old you. But they don't see
what you have really become. You are a great pretender."

"You have no right to say things like that to me! That's bullshit!" Brittany yelled, feeling so angry right now.

"Oh, of course I have. What, you can say mean things to me, and I can't to you? You know, Brittany, if you just maintained the old you, the one whom your patients see, this might not be happening. It was your fault. You broke me. You broke us."

"Stop making excuses, Quinn. I know you're doing this because of the kid. Stop using my personality and just admit that you don't love me anymore." Brittany looked at her softly but still with authority. Waiting for her to answer.

She laughed softly. She found Brittany's statement really funny. She laughed in a very bitter way.

"Don't make me say the words, Britt. I don't want to be mean for long. Just- just understand that we're done."

Brittany finally broke down. All of her walls stumbled down and she failed to resist it anymore. She looked so defeated.

Quinn immediately went to hug Brittany tight. She has never seen Brittany in this state for a very long time. Even if Brittany's state was pathetic, she was somehow relieved that this side of Brittany breaking down in front of her, is actually one of Brittany's old sides.

She continued to rub on Brittany's back and to kiss her hair until the girl finally manage to breath normally again. But Brittany still did not let go of Quinn. Quinn can't pull back from the hug because Brittany is taller than her and is even taller than her right now because she is wearing heels.

"No, Quinn. Please. Please—I beg you. Don't let us go. Don't give up on us." Brittany said in between sobs. This time she sobbed even harder and Quinn was sure that her shoulder was really wet with tears now.

"I can't, Britt. I already gave up on us months ago. You just made me realize it earlier. You don't deserve me. You're looking for more, Britt. And that's not me anymore.."

"What if I change, Quinn? I'll do it for you. I will quit my job if that means spending more time with you. Please, Quinn, just give me one last chance." Brittany pleads.

"I'm so sorry, Britt. Even if you do that, it still doesn't change the fact that we're far away from each other now."

"No, Quinn. You're lying! Please—just tell me that only the clock positions change, but not your feelings for me."

Quinn just shook her head.

"No, Quinn. Just.. Please tell me- that you're just infatuated with Rachel. It's fine. She's adorable—I can befriend her, too. Just, please." Quinn can't help it anymore. She used all her willpower to pull back from Brittany's hug and went to the other end of the balcony.

"Rachel is not just a friend to me anymore." She stated softly.

"Yes, she is! Jesus, Quinn! Why are you so stupid? Do you know that you could be in jail if you continue to hang out with that stupid kid?!" Brittany is now yelling while crying.

"Don't talk about her like that! She may be young but she understands me better than you do!"

"Oh yeah? How long had you known her, Quinn huh? How long?!"

Quinn's mouth hang open. Surely, it was just half a month ago since she knew Rachel, but she was not lying that Rachel understands her.

"You see? I've known you for five years now, Quinn! Five freaking long years! You can't just throw that away."

"Brittany, please. Just—get out. Leave me alone." She pleads Brittany. Looking directly into her eyes.

"I won't! Not until you look me in the eyes and tell me with all of your emotions that you don't love me anymore. That you are throwing all of our memories away."

Quinn walked to Brittany slowly until she was face to face with her. She held Brittany's right cheek and looked at her directly in the eyes. She can see the hurt in Brittany's blue eyes and her fast heartbeat, but she does not want to live her life unhappily. "Britt, I don't want to throw our memories away. Believe me, I treasure them."

"Then tell me that it's not yet the end." Brittany spoke silently.

Quinn shook her head rapidly, tears now welling up her eyes, then she looked up to Brittany and said her final words. "I don't love you anymore, Britt. I'm sorry."

She slapped Quinn really hard. Then she punch her shoulders. But Quinn felt numb. She can't feel anything. But she knows that it will bruise eventually.

"I promise that you will regret this. I mean it this time." Brittany said with a very angry tone.

With one last slap to Quinn's cheek, Brittany stormed out her apartment.

Too much drama has happened that night to Quinn and she felt really exhausted. She really just wants to go to sleep already because she still has classes for tomorrow, but Rachel hasn't texted her yet. She just came up with the conclusion that Rachel might still be sick so she sent her one last text before going to sleep.

"Goodnight, Rach. You didn't reply to my earlier message. I figured you still need to rest. Well I have to sleep now. Sweetdreams, my lady. Hope to see you soon. I miss you. PS, let me explain everything when you feel better. –Quinn.

Rachel stared at her phone for like a whole five minutes, but she can't still manage to type a reply for Quinn. She wanted to tell her how better she's already feeling and that she wished they could hang out again soon, but she can't.

She might be feeling better physically, but her inside pain is still the same as it was last night. She had enough sleep for today that's why she found it hard to sleep that night. She's afraid that she might get hurt again if she allowed herself to be around Quinn. And she's not yet ready for that. She atleast wants her current pain to vanish completely before entertaining a new one.

Holly was in the bathroom brushing her teeth. She figured it was already time to talk to her Aunt about this. Maybe it would make her feel better. So she waited until Holly finished her night grooming and approached her.

"Aunt Holly, are you already going to sleep?" She asked Holly sweetly, though her voice is still filled with exhaustion.

"I'm about to. Aren't you going to? You still have school for tomorrow." Holly asked confused. She was also worried because it was getting really late and the girl still has school for tomorrow.

"I actually doubt that I'm able to attend school tomorrow. I'm really not feeling completely well." Rachel said weakly.

"Oh, little Rae. Come here." Holly hugged Rachel enough to feel the teenager relaxed. "It's okay, I'll talk to your dad about it."

Rachel nodded then fell silent for a while before speaking. "Aunt Holly, can I talk to you about something?" Rachel asked hesitantly. But when Holly looked her in the eye and nodded, she smiled.

"What is it?"

"About last night."

Holly stopped her motions and stared deeply at Rachel, confirming if the girl was really ready to talk about that night.

"Are you really ready to talk about that? I have an idea, Rae. And I know it might not be easy to talk about it.."

"It's okay Aunt Holly. It's haunting me. I can't keep it inside anymore. I need to talk to someone. And that someone is you." Rachel smiled.

"Okay. Talk to me, Little Girl."

Rachel took a deep breath and closed her eyes before speaking. "I—I think I love someone."

"I know." Holly replied calmly. Of course she knew. She can see it in both girl's eyes.

"You knew?! Did I tell you about it when I was dreaming?" Rachel asked surprised and it made her laugh.

Holly just nodded and continued. "She just went here this afternoon, asking where you were. She said she wanted to explain. But I told her about want happened to you and that you were resting."

"Oh my God! You shouldn't have! Now she feels really guilty! I don't want her to feel that way." Rachel stated worriedly.

"It's okay, Rae. She understood. But wants to talk to you so bad. She's really sorry for whatever has happened last night." Holly explained to her.

"I- I just don't want to get hurt again, Aunt." Rachel can feel that she was already in the verge of crying. "But I love her. I'm happy when I'm with her. I just want to be with her all the time. She makes me laugh, she makes me feel special. That's what love is, right?"

"It's not going to be easy, Little Rae. You do know how complicated it is, right?"

"I know. She might be in jail. And she's a girl! But how could I stop what I'm feeling?" Rachel asked, she's now crying. Holly hugged her immediately.

"You can never stop it, Rae. But you have to fight for it."

"I can't do it alone. She doesn't love me. She loves Brittany. And Brittany is really beautiful and- and she's not a kid like me and she's just really gorgeous.."

"You're beautiful. You're the most beautiful girl in this world, Rae. Believe me, I know." Holly told her with pure seriousness in her eyes.

"What if I have to do this alone?" She asked worriedly.

"I'll be by your side. Don't worry Little Rae. But I suggest you give each other time to explore your feelings. It was just so sudden, you know? You're both still young." Holly wipes away the tears that were streaming down her cheeks and combed her hair.

They stayed silent for a while, both waiting for her to stop sobbing. And when she does, she instantly felt her eyes getting heavy. So Holly settled her to her side of the bed, then she lay beside her.

Just before going to sleep, Rachel managed to ask Holly "You're not going to tell Mom and Dad about this, right?"

Holly smiled and nodded. She knows she doesn't need to say anything anymore because Rachel has already fallen asleep. She kissed the girl's forehead and drifted to sleep as well.

Quinn woke up really early that Monday morning, and the first thing she checked is her phone hoping for a single message from Rachel. But she failed to receive one. But even though she was feeling sad, she still sent Rachel a message.

Good Morning, Rach. Please talk to me already.. -Quinn

It was 12:30 in the afternoon when Quinn had her lunch break. She was sitting with her friends at the university's cafeteria when her mind suddenly wandered about Rachel. She still hasn't replied to any of her messages. Has she really done that worse to her for her not to respond? It was killing her. She just really needs to explain everything.

She pulled out her phone from her pocket and shot another text to Rachel.

I hope you're having a good day. Talk to me soon, I really miss hanging out with you. –Quinn

She smiled to her friends pretending to be listening to what were they saying when her mind suddenly came up with a plan.

She figured that maybe it's time to start courting Rachel and get her to talk to her.

During her after lunch classes, she busied herself writing an outline of what to do first. She hasn't absorbed anything from the class but she did not skip it. Professors still give incentives if a student has perfect attendance, right?

She decided to go to the mall that day after class trying to find some touching gifts to give to Rachel that she will find adorable.

The first shop that came to her mind is the tech shop. She didn't know why. She doesn't have to buy Rachel another gadget because she's certain that Rachel have them all. But still. She has this feeling that she may find something different there.

She saw nothing different inside the shop. She was defeated. But when she was about to exit the shop, she noticed a stuffed toy that will definitely make Rachel heart soften.

It was a stuffed toy of Super Mario with her princess. Rachel ones mentioned about being obsessed with Super Mario games. Rachel is the only person she knows who appreciates the complexity of every game.

Why does Rachel love Super Mario? It's because "I just love how Mario takes every risks just to save her princess, even if it means risking his own life." That was what Rachel exactly said. And that's where she figured out that Rachel is not a kid, at all.

She immediately bought the stuffed toy, ignoring the looks the cashier was giving her, and then she stormed out of the shop. She also bought some cards and wrote a message on it. Then she sent it to Rachel's address.

"Rae! Someone sent you a present!" Holly exclaimed excitedly upon receiving the package that were addressed to Rachel. Rachel's parents were out for work every weekdays and sometimes during Saturdays, so basically, it's just Rachel and her that are left in the house. Rachel did not attend school that day.

"Who was it from?" Rachel called from the kitchen. She was eating a snack that time. She was bored but Holly did not agree to take her out until she was feeling completely well. So, here they were, stuck in their very boring house.

"I don't know. It was not signed by anyone. Maybe it's from one of your friends. Come check it out! I'll have to take a shower!" Rachel immediately went to the living room and noticed that Holly was holding the box with a note attached on it.

"It has a note attached on it. Of course I did not open it. Go on, open it. I'll just be upstairs." Holly handed her the box and she went upstairs.

When Holly was already out of sight, she detached the note from the box and reads the message.

"I'm more than willing to risk everything for my princess."

The note was not signed by anyone. But of course she knew who was it from. Fortunately, her parents was not around so she doesn't have to worry about them freaking out thinking that she already have suitors from school.

She immediately wondered what was inside the box that was related to Quinn's note. So she opened the package slowly and she squealed happily upon seeing what's inside.

It was a Super Mario stuffed toy with her princess! This was really the most adorable stuffed toy she had ever seen. She hugged the stuffed toy tightly as if it was Quinn, and she cried a tear of joy. Quinn is making it really hard for her to give themselves more time. Because she doesn't really need time anymore! She loves Quinn! And she can feel that Quinn cares about her. But she needed to stick to what she promised herself, so she got her phone and typed a message for Quinn.

You have no idea how much I loved it. Thank you so much. It means a lot. Give me 4 more days. –Rach

Quinn was on the balcony that night studying for her Taxonomy quiz tomorrow but she can't really concentrate with what she is reading. She kept on glancing at her phone every now and then waiting for Rachel's response. When an hour passed by and there is still no response from Rachel, she got worried that maybe her package never arrived.

Just when she was about to contact the package deliverer, her phone finally buzzed. And it was from Rachel.

She felt like a high school teenager feeling so nervous about a girl's response when she ask her out on a date. She counted to her mind from 1 to 10 before she slowly opened Rachel's text.

She has two initial reactions upon reading Rachel's message: It was relief and excitement. Surely, Rachel did not make it clear that everything will be okay between them, but Rachel said something about waiting. 4 more days. 4 more days and its now or never.

And that means, four more presents to come to the Berry household.

On Tuesday, Quinn sent Rachel a text again upon waking up. It was just a simple 'Good morning' greeting. She just wants Rachel to realize that Rachel is the first thing she thinks about upon waking up.

The Tuesday present was a bouquet of yellow tulips. She sent it with a note saying "This is my favorite flower. Aren't they lovely? I just want you to know that I'm letting you in. Please allow me to do the same."

Wednesday came and Quinn was really exhausted. They had a surprise quiz earlier and she failed. She knows she was becoming better, but she was also aware that there is less than half percent possibility of passing a surprise quiz. And besides, more than half of the class failed as well. So it's better.

Wednesday present is a personalized white shirt where "Diner Dash" is painted. It was delivered to Rachel with a note saying:

"I swear I'll serve you better than Flo." Rachel laughed so hard at that and she wore the shirt to sleep.

Thursday went by pretty smoothly for Quinn. She only had three classes for that day which means she still has half of the day to look for the Thursday present for Rachel.

As she was walking around town, she passed by a newly- opened bakery and saw one of its specialties. And there she saw her winner for Thursday present.

Rachel got home that Thursday afternoon with a package already waiting over her bed and Holly smirking at her gesturing for her to open the box which is obviously a cake. She looked at Holly implying her to get out of the room for a while, Holly playfully rolled her eyes before exiting her room.

She opened the box and was surprised to see a cake that was designed Bugatti Veyron Super Sport: It was one of the cars she always use when playing in her PSP. A car that makes her top the game all the time. She was really happy and excited to just eat it already. Then she read the note out loud.

"My heart beats faster than this car when I'm thinking about you."

It was Friday. Which means this would be the last day of Rachel ignoring Quinn. So Quinn made sure to think about the best present to give her. But she promised that this will not be the last time that she'll be sending a gift to Rachel.

She brought herself back to the conversations she and Rachel had so she can get the idea of what to give her next. After digging really deep in her brain, she finally discovered what will definitely make Rachel fall in love with her.

Rachel sat on her living room, waiting for the doorbell to ring because she's excited about the final present of Quinn. But she's also nervous about it. What could be the next present and message from Quinn? Maybe she was already giving up. No, no. She has to think positively. She can do it. Tomorrow she will talk to Quinn. She has to compose herself. She was hungry but she doesn't want to go eat yet. She has to wait.

She jumped immediately to the door when she heard the doorbell rang.

Rachel once again had tears of joy because of her final present. This time, the tears are even worse. But they were still tears of joy. So it doesn't matter.

Her final present was a superfamily box of Pizza Hut's Hawaiian style pizza that she never got to get a taste that time when she and Quinn first met. They gave the that pizza as the tip to the waiter that night because it was impossible to carry it home since Quinn was driving a motor bike that time.

But this time, she has it all to herself. She can eat it until she can't take it anymore. Now she have something for dinner. But before tasting the heavenly pizza, she took the note and read.

"I'll always make sure you had it all."