Chapter 4: Confessions
Disclaimer: I don't own big time rush. All credits should go where their supposed to be.
(A/N: try to listen to some song that's included in the story)
Josh's POV
I can't decide what to wear until I saw the dress that Logan really love. So I decide to wear it for tonight. I took a refreshing hot shower. Put my black slick dress then I finger dry my hair and when I looks wild and untammed I stop "perfect" I murmur to my self. I put on some mascara and a fine line of lip gloss. At 7:30 Logan texted me saying his on the way up. I took a last glance at the mirror and say to my self "you look hot collins!" Just for self motivation. A few minutes Logan is knocking on my door I opened it up he's wearing a black suit but no tie. We stood there for a moment. His mouth fell open while his staring at me
"You look... gordious!" He said
"And you too" that's all I manage to say he looked years younger
"Come on... we don't want to be late for our reservations" he manage to spill out word
"Promise me first that there's no more surprises..." I said
"Promise" he said with his all-american-boy-next-door smile
"Ok!" I said then lock the door. We drove to London West Hollywood in Logan's white fisker karma. The drive was only 5 minutes coz there's no traffic. There we ate and talk about work and about how excited he is about the tour and for the 3rd album. After dinner I asked him to bring me to the old piano studio where I got my proper piano tutorial
"Why are we here?" He asked
"Well I'd like to show you something" I said with a smile
"Well the door is locked" he said you know from his looks that his puzzled
"I got a spare key" I said then open the door. It still haven't change the reception area where my dad wait when I was a little kid and when we entered the grand piano room where I did my first recital
"Are you sure?" Logan asked
I nod while smiling
I drag him to the piano he sat beside me
"Forgive me if I'm a bit rusty" I said shyly. I haven't played for 3 yrs. I don't think I'm still that good. I started to feel the piano keys.
"Baby..." Logan said then hold my hand and kissed it "you don't have to do this if you don't want to"
"I like to do this... I'm just nervous coz I haven't played for a while... do you have any request?" I manage to tell a confident lie
"Just play anything you want... don't be pressured... its just you and me" he said giving me the guts I need. I then start to play one of my favorite composition 'Fur Elise' by Beethoven, my dad used to play it to me when I was a kid. While playing Logan rest his head on my shoulder and I know his smiling even if I can't see his face. The music had come to end.
"You like it? Sorry if I messed up some chords" I said he sat up straight and faced me
"Loved it!" He said with the most amazing smile the smile that will melt your heart "is that your favorite?"
"Yes"
"So Beethoven is your favorite" he said
"Nope... Yiruma is" I said
"The Korean?" He asked he looks confuse
"Yes"
"Then why didn't you played 'River Flow'?" He asked his once again puzzled
"Coz I want to play the first song that I learned" I said the he has an O in his lips
"Ohhh..." that's the only thing I heard from him
"Let me play you my all time favorite" I started playing 'Moonlight' by Yiruma
He just sat with me and don't say anything. The song ended
"That's beautiful" Logan murmur "can you play another one"
I nod "I'm gonna play the last piece that I've played 3 yrs ago"
I started playing 'If I Could See You Again' by Yiruma again the song comes to an end
"You're really great... that's a great piece... but there's sadness somewhere in there... I don't know why you stop 3 yrs ago... but I guess I'll never know"
"Logan..." I said there's silence his waiting for me to say something "when I was a kid my dad used to play the piano with me... he's the reason why I play... playing the piano gave me life its my refuge... when I was still in school... I'm very smart for my age... most of the kids think I'm a freak..." I paused trying to remember the dark age of my life "I got accelerated many times from elementary up to highschool... and with an early age I have decided that I will take up medicine but my dad didn't like that... so he sent me to the Philippines to live with my uncle Felix... there I lived a good life I got into a 7 year med program... at the age of 20 I graduated with flying colors... I was a full time doctor then I went back here..." I sigh "Marry and Ceddrick my BBF, are the only friends I have when I was in elementary and high school... simply because their family and my family are good friends... Ced, as I call him... has a friend named David Louise Lavish... they met each other in the army 4 yrs ago, I met David... I was still studying in the Philippines but it was my last year… that year I got home for the holidays... my parents held a big christmas party at our house in Aspen... you know... the house where they mostly stay when they're here is US... there I met David... Ced brought David with him... that time Ced and Marry started dating so most of the time at the party David and I are together... he's the one who introduce Yiruma to me... to make the long story short we started dating even if he's in the army and I'm still in Philippines... my family likes him... but unfortunately in one of their operations in Iran he got shot protecting Ced, that's why I'm so mad when I heard that Ced is back in Iran" I paused coz tears are starting to come to me again and I don't want cry "in his funeral I playe 'If I Could see you again' by Yiruma... and that's it I have stop playing ever since... coz I think that I have no one to play it for... but then I met you... you gave me another reason to play" I said the smile at him
"Baby... look at me..." he said cupping my face so my eyes will meet his "I'm sure he's a great man... and I would like to thank him for taking care of you while we still haven't met each other... now that I'm here I promise you that I'll only leave when we're old and its our time... that would probobly happen a hundred years from now" he said
"It's getting late... I should probably play another song... and this will be dedicated for you... its called 'Love Me' by Yiruma" I said then start to feel the piano keys
"I love you" Logan murmur when he kissed my temple. I played my last song. After that we went to Kendall's to pick up Jericho.
"Did you guys had a good time?" Kendall asked
"We sure did! Thanks for taking care of Jericho" Logan said
Jericho is still hyper even though its already 11 o'clock. We head back to my condo but while in the car Jericho fall asleep.
"Looks like I'm gonna be needing to carry him again" Logan wispered
"We can wake him... don't strain your self" I said
"No... I don't want to wake him up... he looks so peaceful when he sleeps" he said with his boyish smile. We parked on the basement parking I grab Logan's duffle bag at the car's trunk and we head up to my unit Logan placed Echo in bed. We just changed to sleeping clothes and head to bed
"Baby... we're gonna go somewhere tomorrow" I said while resting on his chest
"Ok... will Jericho come with us? Or should I call Kendall's babysitting service?" He asked making a joke
"Echo can come... he'll like it there" I said
"Where are we gonna go?" Logan asked I glaze up to him he looks confuse
"I'm just gonna show you something about me" I said "now let's go to sleep... coz we got to start early tomorrow" and then we went to sleep
Logan's POV
I woke up thru the sun lights the rush in to the room. But I kept my eyes closed, I slowly opened my eyes and see that Josh is already gone. Last night was unbelivable she told me things I never tought she say. The way she play the piano really is amazing. And for some reasons it turns me on. I jump out of bed and went out of the room. Yum! The smell of Pancakes filled the air. I went straight to the kitchen and I saw Josh cooking breakfast I walk to her and hold her is her hips grabbing her near me
"Good morning! I wisphered in her ears
"Good morning! Hungry?" She asked smiling while filipping a pancake
"Yes"
"Go get Jericho so we can eat together" I do as I'm told and wake up Jericho. While in breakfast
"Where are we going?" I asked
"Near Goodyear Blimp Base Airport" Josh said we ate in silence. after eating Josh's phone rang
"Work?" I asked
"Yeah..." she said still not picking up the phone
"Why don't you pick it up?" She just shake her head. I know its because of me that she's avoiding weekend work. "Thanks!" I murter. I'm thankful that she ignored work for me. After eating our breakfast Jericho and I took a shower (ofcourse we used different bathrooms) while Josh is cleaning up the table and clearing the sink. I'm done showering and Echo is done also we're just waiting for Josh who is getting dressed. We sat on the Living room while waiting
"Jericho, I heard your a good pianist" I asked Jericho
"Uhmm... not as good as aunt Josh... I just started when I was 3"
"your aunt Josh is great" that's all I can say. I smile remembering last night when she played.
"Let's go!" Josh murter I look at her and I'm stund. She looks beautiful. She's wearing a white tank top and black fitted jeans and a white chucks.
"WOW! Where are we going?" I asked then stand up and walk to her grab her by the waist flirted with her for a moment the kissed her lips but she pulled her face away but not leaving my arms
"Hey... there's a kid on the couch" she murmur
"Oh... sorry" I say then pulled away completely "where are we going?"
"You'll know soon" she said the wink at me "but I'm gonna be needing to drive"
"Why? I can drive just tell me where" I say
"No... its a secret... don't worry I won't get your car crash or something" she said smiling her all glorious smile
I hand her my keys and raise my hand as a sign of defeat. We drove near the sea side going down to the Goodyear Blimp Base Airport. Near there she drove into this not so big and not so small warehouse looking establishment.
"What's in here" I asked
"A part of me... some people will think this is weird but ever since high school aside from playing the piano me and Cedrick used to do this things" she pulled over the front of the small entrance. She turn the engine off.
"We're here!" She said the jump out of the car. She opened the lock door it was pitch black but she knows her way thru. She opened the lights and boom it revealed three old school cars.
"Why do you have this cars?" I asked confused of why she has a car collection
"Well, cars are my first love before motor bike"
"What's the history behind this" I scratch my head
"My brother once took me in a car show... and I just fell inlove with it" she said
"Ok..." that's all I can say
"Jeremy, Ced, David and I used to own the place... until I bought it for myself"
"This is so HOT!" I process the data she feed me and I realize that it turns me on. I like the way that she know cars coz I myself love cars
"Really? I thought your gonna think I'm weird" she said then she wrapped her arms around me
"At first... to be honest with you I really think your weird..." then I pause she looks worried "but then I realize that I have an amazing Fiancée. She's a doctor, plays the piano and know cars very well... I don't need an auto mechanic anymore" I said then laugh she also laugh Jericho is playing with one of the cars
"Come on I'm gonna show them to you" we first head to the car where Jericho is playing at
"Jericho be careful we don't want to break this" the tap the hood of the car "So this is my first car to restore... I've got helped by my big brother, this is a 1977 Ashton Martin V8 Vantage! With the help of my brother it only tooked us a month to restore this baby" happiness is visible in her voice
"Does it still work?" I asked raising my eyebrows
"Hell yeah! Every car in here works perfectly" she said bragging we move on to the next car Echo followed us "this is a 1976 Chevrolet Camaro Type LT... I got Ced and David's help with this baby" she said with half smile "it took us about 3 months to finish this... its hard to find the parts coz this car cas a total wreck... but thank God we pulled it" she said we move on to the next car it look like a toy "this is 1965 Shelby Cobra 427... yes I know that it looks like a toy but its not a toy" when said it I chuckeled "ok... so I restored this one all by my self" and she's bragging again "remeber the time when we had our fight and I've gone missing for a week?" She asked
"Yeah... why?" I asked the frown why would she bring up that fight
~~flashback~~
Kendall, James, Carlos, Dustin and I went clubing it was our friend's club grand opening so we went there. Josh was on graveyard shift so she can't come. I had drink too much alcohol and I'm very drunk. I don't remember anything that happened that night. Next morningi woke up late I tried calling Josh but she wasn't picking up. So I guess she's still asleep. So I turned on the TV to hear some news. And F**k I'm on the news bumping grinning and locking lips with some chick that's not Josh.. I didn't bother to change I grab my keys and drove to Josh's condo. I went there bang her door many times but no answer... I tried calling here but she woudnt pick up. I went straight to Kendall's
"Bro! Have you heard from Josh?" I say. I'm mad. Mad at me mad at Josh mad at everyone
"What the F**k Logan! Is she gone?" Kendall shouted
"I went to her condo but she's not there... can you tell me anything about last night?" I said sounded worried
"It was late, but your still wild. Its like you forgot that you have a girlfriend... we tried stopping you but your drunk as hell! You even punch Carlos coz he pulled you off someone that your making out with" Kendall shake his head I know his annoyed
"Sorry... but will you please call me when you hear from Josh"
"Yeah sure! Your one hell of a fuck up Logan!" He said he runs his hand on his hair
"Yeah I know" I said then run into my car. I've tried calling our other friends and also Josh's older brother but they don't know where she is either. I stayed home for a week waiting for news about her. But no one wants to tell me where she is. I've died a thousand death since the morning she left me. I went to the hospital but she's not there they told me she's in a sick leave. That got me more worried. After a week I guess she couldn't miss her work anymore. I spot her on one of her shif.
"Hey! We need to talk" I say
"There's nothing left to talk about... you've made your choice already" she said while looking on one of her patients charts by with her tone I know she's very mad at me right now
"Baby... I'm sorry.. I didn't me…"
"No! Please don't start... I've got work to do" she said cutting me off
"I'm gonna wait here until you talk to me... even if it takes me the whole night" I say then she walk away from me and into one of the patients room. She really doent want to talk to me. But I did wait there for the whole night.I think I fell asleep coz I woke up in the waiting room its already morning. But its one of the happiest morning coz Josh was sitting infront of me
"Morning baby!" I say with a smile
"You should head home! There's no room for you in this hospital" she said then walk out leaving me. I grab my coat and followed her. Its the end of her shift so she went home. I knocked on her door and thank God she opened it
"Josh... all I'm asking is to let me explain my self"
"You've got a minute"
I explained my self but she didn't let me off the hook for another week. But I guess she still love me and forgave me
~~end of flashback~~
"Why are you smiling?" She asked snapping me out of my thinking
"Nothing I just remembered that fight" I said then smile "thank God you're still with me" I said then kissed her cheecks
"Ok.. so you remember... this is where I stayed for a week and I'm fixing this car" she said tapping the door of the convertible car
"You really love this place don't you" I say then she nods
"Come on I'm gonna show you something" she then grab my hand then pulled me into the right most room Jericho is still following us she opened it and we went inside she turned the light on and there I saw a car but its in pieces "right now I'm currently working on a 1987 RUF CTR... I was planning on giving this to you when you get back from the tour... this car looks like a toy its like a small porche...I know you'll loved it"
"I already love it even if its in pieces" I said teasing her
"I'm telling you if I complete this car you'll love it so much that you won't even use your fisker karmas" she said smirking
"Yeah baby I belive you..." and I mean what I told her. She showed me the rest of the warehouse. She showed me the paint room and the room where she keep the accesories for the cars. And I also learned that she already selled 10 restored cars and she used the money to keep the place. After that we went to the mall near Josh place we grab our dinner there then played some arcade then we went back to Josh place. About 10 o'clock Jeremy came to pick up Jericho. We sent them down to the basement parking
"Hey! Thanks for taking care of my son! Truly appriciated!" Jeremy said putting out his hand. I took and shook it
"Hey! That ain't a problem... its truly a pleasure... I really had a great time with him" I say to him
"Hey... Josh I got you something while I was in Europe..." he said
"What is it?" Josh said she's excited like a child
"It will come next week... I sent it directly to your play house!" He said. They said goodbye with each other then Jeremy drove off. We got into the elevator and went up to her unit
"Play house?" I asked confused
"The pocket garage..."
"Ohh... why does your brother call it play house?" I asked just to fill in the missing gap of information
"I told you he used to be a part owner of the garage... but he thinks that it wasn't worthy of his time... he thinks that everytime I'm in there I'm only playing"
"Ohh... well his wrong about that... its one of the thing you love"
"Yes that's true but he'll never understand that... so let's just keep it that way" she said then smile
"I'm so glad that I have you all for my self now!" I said then pulled her into a hug then kissed her not letting go I carry her towards the bedroom and started to unbotton her pants and with one swift move I took it off her I took her shirt off carefully now she's just on her underwear. I took my clothers but leave my boxer breif on. I kissed her lips the she slightly open her mouth giving me permission to invade her mouth with my tounge. "Tonight I'm gonna take controll" she said. And wow this night is gonna be LEGENDARY! (a/n: i'm watching how i met your mother when i wrote the last part)
(A/N: im already starting on the next chapter... pls write a review)