AN. Okay, back to Hazy Dazy. I'm actually proud of myself for the last chapter, I thought it was pretty good, what do you think? But this is my best chapter yet I'm pretty sure :3

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Hazel POV

When I was little, maybe four or three, Sammy and I used to play a game where I would a Princess and Sammy would be a Prince. I would be locked away in a tower and Sammy would come to the recue. One day, I got sick of it and said that I was going to save him. Sammy just sounded appalled and asked why, and I told him that I don't want to be a damsel in distress anymore, I want to be the hero, and I want to be able to save him too. After that our games were a lot different, sometimes he would save me from a tower, but sometimes I would save him. I think that that's how life works, and Leo needs to accept that.

He thinks that he can never cry around me because it hurts me, but it doesn't, it helps me really. When I get to take care of him I know that there is still something I can do to help.

It soothes me a lot when Leo plays with my hair, so I play with his. It's funny how people comfort others in the way that they would like to be comforted – I've noticed that over my two (well, sort of two) times I've been alive. It's always very clean, which is funny since he is always off with his machines.

He thinks that he'd hurt me by being depressed, but it doesn't hurt me. It hurts me to think that he tries to hide it from me. I love him so much, and he thinks that he isn't enough for me. Yeah, I'm depressed, but I'm a lot better off than I was a few weeks ago. I can actually talk and I don't have as many panic attacks as I did before, and that's all because of Leo, but now he isn't letting me help him.

"Hazel?" Leo weeps.

"Yeah?" I ask.

"I'm sorry" he says.

"Please don't be, this is helping me, Leo" I say. Leo cries even harder.

"Shhh, everything's okay, I'm still here" I say.

"You don't need to help me, I need to help you" Leo says.

"No you don't, I need to help you, I want to help you - you have done so much for me" I say.

"I don't want to hurt you" Leo bawls.

"You aren't hurting me, you're helping me by letting me help you" I say, in a calm and soothing voice.

Leo cries himself to sleep. I play with his hair. I love him so much! I just wish he'd realize that helping him is helping me!

I kiss his forehead.

I take this moment to let myself softly cry, I don't want to worry Leo. I want him to think that I'm getting better so I can help him.

I can't believe he loves me so much. No one has loved me this much before, not Sammy, definitely not my mother, and Frank didn't even come close!

I hug his head and plant a kiss on his cheek. He is just so sweet, and if he can't accept help it will hurt me more. As much as he doesn't want to admit it, he needs help too. We both need it, and we are the only ones who can provide it for each other.

After all this I know that he is definitely not Sammy - he is Leo, but I love him even more than I ever loved Sammy. I would give up Elysium for him; I would go to the fields of punishment for him. He is just so...Leo. He is so special. I never could have dreamt up a better guy. I can't believe that the Fates let me find him. I am so thankful to them. I am so thankful that I died. I am so thankful to Nico. I am so thankful to Leo. I just can't even begin to process everything. I have only known him for a few months, but it seems like a lifetime. And I'd spend a lifetime with Leo, I love him that much, and I know he loves me that much too. I would never hurt him, and I would never look at anyone else, I would be so happy if we were both happy. The only things left that are happy in our lives are each other - seeing each other, loving each other. He is everything I could have asked for and more. He is so gentle. He is so goofy, so spastic, so hyper, and so lovable! That's Leo, and that's what I hope we are together. A spastic energetic pair who really love each other. I know I love him and I know he loves me, so why can't we be that pair? Why can't we be happy? Well, we can, and we will, if Leo would just let me help him!

Leo stirs in his sleep. I start to rock him. He rolls over a bit and hugs me like I'm a teddy bear. I hum a lullaby my mom used to sing to me before she was possessed. Leo smiles softly. Gods, I love him. I rub his back; I hope that it is comforting. Leo hugs me tighter. I hug him back. I cry a little more, even in his sleep I can see how depressed he is. We both lost so many people we loved, but he is still holding on. He is the strongest person I know.

On the ship, everyone thought it might be Piper or Jason who kept us together, but really it was Leo. He not only steered the ship, but steered us to be the best we could be, and kept us from giving up. He carried everything on his shoulders, holding everything inside him. I wish that I hadn't been too caught up with my relationship with Frank at the time to see that, otherwise I could have helped him earlier. This must be so hard for him, keeping everyone together for so long then to have them all...die. I hug Leo tight, holding him close.

"I'm here for you know, and I'm never leaving" I whisper. "I love you, Leo."

With that, my tears stop. I am still sad, but I am hardly as depressed. I actually feel great. I feel like I could run around the world, and I have Leo to thank for it.

I laugh and tears of happiness fall from my face. I feel free. I will always miss everyone, I still love them, but I finally feel happy again. Three days ago, when I was able to go outside, I was so depressed. I was more depressed than I ever thought, but I feel free from that.

I let Leo sleep. I don't want to wake him. After these few weeks I've realized that sleep really helps when you're depressed. I start playing with his hair again. It's strange to think of how much a person can help when they are asleep. He is helping me, and he doesn't even know it. I laugh again. It feels good to laugh, to finally get it out after trying and trying. This time my laugh isn't forced, all the times I laughed this week I had to try really hard for them, but now it's completely natural. I don't dare move; I don't want to wake Leo up. He is so cute when he's asleep; he looks like a little angel! I kiss his head softly, and close my eyes.

I don't remember falling to sleep, but when I wake up, my head is on Leo's lap and he is looking at the water.

"Hey" I say.

"Hey" Leo says, looking down at me with a small smile.

"Did you have a good sleep?" I ask.

"Yeah, I actually did" Leo says. "How about you?"

"Yeah, I had a really good sleep" I say, nodding and smiling.

"Oh, that's good to hear" Leo says. "How are you feeling?"

"Oh Leo" I say. "I'm happy again. I'm really, really happy."

He blinks at me, then he smiles and tears fall down his face.

"Don't cry, this is a good thing" I say.

"I'm just...happy too" Leo says.

I sit up next to him and kiss him. I put my hand on his cheek and he puts his hand on mine.

When we pull away Leo says, "Oh Hazel, I love you."

"I love you too" I say.

I hug him.

"Do you think that I'll be less depressed in the future?" Leo asks.

"I believe it with all my heart, and I will help you through it all. Leo, you can cry around me anytime – I want to help – helping you helps me" I say.

Leo smiles at me and slowly tears start to sprout from his eyes.

That is a very big leap for him on his road to being happy again.

"Thank you, Hazel. You have helped me so much" Leo says.

"I just want one more thing from you" I say.

"Anything" Leo says.

"I want you to take my help without second thought. I want to be able to help you without worrying about me, that would help us both so much" I say.

It takes Leo a minute, but after a few seconds, he nods. He starts to cry harder.

"Thank you" I say.

"No, thank you" Leo says.

I smile. "You're welcome."

I hug him, and we stay there for almost an hour, in each others arms. We are the only help for each other, the only people who love each other as much as we do, and I'm happy. I can help the person I love, who has already done so much for me. The love between us is not delicate, it's unbreakable. It's in your face strong. It's stronger than Gaea and bigger, she can never hurt us.

The war is over, but Leo and I are not. My depression is over. Love is not over. Gaea can deal with it, because she is over.

"I know that I've said this so many times before, but I love you, Hazel" Leo says.

"I love you too" and that is something that can never change.

AN. Okay, this is still not over, I will write an epilogue! YAY! I like this story, what do you think? I will keep asking you that until you answer! So answer! Hee-hee,

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